I Wonder

I spend a lot of time (probably too much time) wondering about things. I wonder why I still get car sick at 38 years old. I wonder why the grocery store isn’t arranged in alphabetical order. I wonder if Lee Corso will ever acknowledge me. But mostly, I wonder about Jackie and Maddie. Last week…

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March And Roll

The full-body “unclenching” I experience after every March for Babies is in full effect. As I mentioned on Sunday, my body reacts to stress with illness, and I’m currently on a nice cocktail of drugs to help heal the infections in my lungs and sinuses. The emotional impact of this being the tenth year we’ve…

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Our Journey

Every year I share a video of the speech I gave at the March for Babies in 2009, which I gave just a few weeks after Maddie died. I never rewatch it because it’s way too emotional, and I just can’t let myself go back into that headspace, even for a second. Last year as…

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As you all know by now, April is a crappy month. We have the anniversary of Madeline’s death at the beginning, and the March of Dimes’ March for Babies at the end. And while the March for Babies is a beautiful thing, it’s also emotionally debilitating. I hate asking people to join my team, and…

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Eight Years Gone

On Tuesday I was instant messaging with a friend when I mentioned that I felt really anxious, as if an anxiety attack were imminent. I told her how I hated feeling like that, especially since I couldn’t identify the stressor that was causing the anxiety. All my articles were in, my taxes were done, and…

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