There is a calendar hanging on the refrigerator in our kitchen that you would love. Each month has an image of a different Maltese puppy. The pictures are so cute and funny, they often make me giggle. But, I have no idea what the puppy for the month of April looks like. The calendar still hangs on March. I felt like somehow, if I didn’t turn the page, April wouldn’t arrive, and it wouldn’t have been a year since the last time I kissed you. Unfortunately, that is not the case.
A year ago we were snuggled together in your hospital bed. It wasn’t ideal, but we were together and that’s all that I cared about. I demanded the nurses bring a bed big enough for me to get into with you, so that I could comfort you. But really, it was so you could comfort me. You always calmed me down when I was worried or scared. I only had to look into your big eyes and see your innocence and the way you trusted me, and I would feel centered.
Your little sister Annabel is here now. I think that you’d adore her, and that I’d constantly be watching to make sure you didn’t drag her away to play with you. She is a sweet and easy baby, just like you were. She looks so much like you, too. I am so sad that the two of you won’t ever meet, or have that special sister relationship. I always wanted you to have a sister.
Rigby is still the same crazy dog. She still loves to crawl under your bed and curl up with your toys. She’s had some crazy adventures lately. Sometimes when we are all sitting quietly in the living room, she gets up and starts sniffing around, as if she is looking for something. She always comes back looking dejected. I give her extra kisses and cuddles for you.
You have thousands and thousands…maybe even millions…of friends all over the world. People who think about you often, who are affected by your smile and your laugh. Who have told their families and friends and children about you. You have made other mommies and daddies hug their kids more often, play with them longer, and snuggle them with relish. It’s pretty neat.
I hope you didn’t feel any pain. I hope you weren’t scared. I hope you know that I was there, that daddy and gramma and bampa were there with you, too. That we were wishing and hoping that your scary moment in the hospital would be something we gave you a hard time about when you were grown up, and that we desperately, DESPERATELY miss you. That we would still do anything to have you back here with us.
I never wanted to be anything more than I wanted to be your mom, the best mom. And I am always going to be your mommy, just like you will always be my daughter, my oldest, my first, my special girl. No matter how many more April sevenths I must endure, I will continue to love you and work hard to be the best mom, the mom that you deserve.
I love you forever,
Mommy
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And we love you both forever, too. Love, Kristen, Chris, Miles & Bella
Maddy has touched my life more than you will ever know.
my thoughts have been with you all day. there are no words to express how Maddie’s life has molded the mommy i am today. my 4 little one are lucky because of her. hugs…
Just love. No words can come close.
I couldn’t agree more! I wish more then anything that your sweet angel never had to leave such an amazing family! Sending all my love from AZ, Patty
.-= Patty´s last blog ..The Girl =-.
I think Maddie did a wonderful job of picking out such a wonderful mommy and daddy like you and Mike. And she helped Annie pick you out too, knowing you were the best. She wanted her sister to have the upper hand in life. Lucky, lucky girls.
Lucky you, to have them both bless your life.
Lucky us, to have you share them.
You’re loved. All of you. The world over.
.-= Miss´s last blog ..The One Where I Admit I’m Still Learning =-.
Such a wonderful comment by Miss, and I have to take the unoriginal, though completely sincere “YES, YES>>. 100% what she said” stance. Thank you for sharing your Madeline, and yourselves throughout this year especially. We are all proud of you, but Madeline is the most proud of you, and how you have mothered her. There is no doubt in our minds of your commitment to that lifelong role.
.-= Janeen´s last blog ..Snowmageddon, Snownami, Snowcopalypse =-.
+1
Not much else to say… Every bit as heartbroken for you today as I was a year ago. I wish with every ounce of my being that I could bring her back to you.
Love and hugs
.-= kelly´s last blog ..Little drummer girl =-.
I think this is so right! Of course, Maddie knew you would be prefect parents for Annie!! She helped Annie pick YOU out! She already knows and loves her baby sister!
My heart hurts for you. Much love and hugs.
Add me to the list! Miss, I’m glad you were able to come up with the words, because I just can’t. I’m sitting here with a lump in my throat and tears streaming down…
Yes! Lucky us, all of us, to share in you, all of you! Wishing you happy dream visits from your little girl tonight, while you sleep snuggled tight to your baby girl.
Sharing in your pain today, missing Maddie with you.
Sending so much LOVE!
.-= Jenny´s last blog ..April 7th – Remembering Maddie. And Waiting on Baby S… =-.
What a perfect comment. I couldn’t have said it better. We are all lucky to share.
Sending you all love. Just lots and lots of love.
you’re right.. so touching to think Maddie helped Annie pick you for her Mommy.
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..For Maddie =-.
Ditto for me. Thinking of you all so much today. Thank you for sharing your family with all of us. Much love to all of you.
She is lucky to have such a great mommy. I’m sure she would be head over heels for Annie. I’m sorry for your loss, I know it has not been easy, and today even worse. You are in my thoughts and prayers always.
.-= Mary Jo´s last blog ..Health… {Part 4} =-.
oh my heart!
hugs Heather! thinking of you, crying for you, praying for you.
.-= laura´s last blog ..Heather Armstrong isn’t the only one =-.
She has and will continue to inspire. I’ve been in awe of you and Mike this past year. Your strength and grace have been amazing. Thank you both for continuing to share your lives with us. Know that we’re all here for you. Much love, today and always.
.-= Melanie @ Mel, A Dramatic Mommy´s last blog ..Three Years in the Making =-.
Sweet angel. My heart is breaking for you right now. I am so sorry . We are all here for you and your family today and always. My husband read your post also and is sitting next to me. Take care and big hugs as always.
I can’t believe it’s been a year since Matt L linked to your site….I’m so sad that he had to for this reason. But glad I got to know your story and your little Maddie. It is truly amazing all that she has inspired in people. Thinking of you and your family today.
I have no words, only tears and many hugs to you and everyone who love Maddie.
Ditto. Love to you all.
I’m crying. Thank you for sharing Maddie with us. I bought purple flowers today for her. Tulips. Tonight, I’ll light purple candles for her. And, I think it’s definitely in the millions that have been affected by Maddie’s beautiful, amazing grin, and her mother’s gentle, caring kind spirit. Thinking of you all day today.
.-= Kristine´s last blog ..Look! Cute puppy pictures. =-.
Beautiful post, Heather. It breaks my heart. You, Mike, and Maddie are in my thoughts and prayers. I’m proudly one of the millions of people who are better parents because of Maddie.
.-= Dan´s last blog ..A Tour of Some iPad Screenshots =-.
I am one of the millions as well. Prayers, and love to you all. Perfectly said, Dan.
thank you dan. that’s it. heather – i hope you feel immense love from around the world today. i am sending it your way, releasing balloons for madeline, and going to love on my son more than ever. you’re in my prayers, especially today.
Same here. Perfectly said. Thinking of you, your husband, and your sweet girls. While many might not know you’re exact pain, I’m crying and hurting for you.
Will give my children an extra hug and kiss today, especially for Maddie.
.-= Kristin´s last blog ..Flaunt the Dress [OKC photographer] =-.
I just cannot express my heartbreak to you. I’m working the night shift tonight and it’s slow and I’ve been thinking about this precious baby all day. I got up this morning to pour milk for cereal and the expiration date was April 7th. I immediately thought of Maddie. I am working a fundraiser for March of Dimes tonight. I will be wearing my purple shirt with pink butterflies on it. It’s amazing how one tiny little life can touch the world.
Tears again, sitting here at my desk, as there were a year ago. Lots of love and hugs to you all.
.-= Kate @ UpsideBackwards´s last blog ..Egg hunting =-.
Not only have I told my husband & son about Maddie, she is the reason I now donate to March of Dimes. I ordered our FoM shirts yesterday, & am looking forward to being able to tell more people about this beautiful girl that has changed and touched so many lives. Thank you for letting us into your lives, and letting us love Maddie.
I’ve been thinking and praying for you guys so much this week. Thank you for sharing Maddie with us. I still have my purple shirt, my purple ribbon, and share her story all the time. And you are right–we hug our loved ones a little tighter because of Maddie.
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..Every Moment =-.
“It is not growing like a tree
In bulk, doth make man better be,
Or standing long an oak, three hundred year,
To fall a log at last, dry, bald and sere:
A lily of a day,
Is fairer far in May,
Although it fall and die that night;
It was the plant and flower of light.
In small proportions we just beauties see,
And in short measures, life may perfect be.”
.-= CarrieB´s last blog ..Full circle =-.
I was trying to pick out a new shade of nail polish at the store tonight, and then I finally went with bright purple. For Maddie. My heart goes out to you and your family on this especially hard day.
Her life has touched so many. She will always be remembered by me and millions. I hope everyone’s love will help you get through today. xx
I can’t believe it has been a whole year. It’s a terrible anniversary and I am crying because I wish you didn’t have it in your lives. I am crying because I wish Maddie was with you right now reflecting on her hospital stay back then. I am crying because I wish Annabel had her older sister to play with and learn from and adore. I am crying because there are so many things I wish for you guys and I can’t make any of these things come true. And frankly, it kind of pisses me off. I’m pissed and I’m sad and I’m mad at the unfairness of life. And all I can do is send a hug through this computer to you. Because there really are no words for any of this.
xo alicia
.-= alicia´s last blog ..If You Don’t Think a Baby in Sunglasses is Cute… =-.
Thank you for sharing your heart with us. Maddie was beautiful… the world lost an angel a year ago, and although much good has come since then, I wish that the lessons learned from her loss could have been taught to us all in a different way. You are in my thoughts and prayers as you go through what will be a hard day for you and your family. I hope that you know that you do not mourn alone.
I have never commented but I always read. My heart is broken for you and your husband.
Your Maddie was so special. She brightened my life through your blog. She was a ray of sunshine. Just as your Annabel is.
I am so sorry. I cannot imagine how hard this day must be for you but thoughts and prayers are sent your way today. And everyday.
She is a lucky little girl to have you as her mommy and we are all lucky to have her as part of our hearts.
Love you all.
Such beautiful words for your precious precious Maddie. I hope today you are held tightly and wrapped in the support and love that is coming to you from hearts all over the world.
I’ve been thinking of you, Mike and Annabel all night. I think of Madeline constantly. God bless her beautiful little soul.
She will never, ever be forgotten. All my love goes out to you and yours today.
It was almost a year ago that I started reading this blog. Alexa (at Flotsam) shared the news of Maddies passing and I have checked in on you every single day since.
I am in Sydney, Australia. It is almost dinner time. I am about to embark on the hardest part of my day with my two little boys (dinner, bath, bed). Many times I have done this with tears in my eyes after reading your blog. Today will be no different. My boys always get extra hugs and kisses on these days.. Maddies legacy reaches out across oceans!
I just wanted you to know that x
Oh, my heart is breaking. Love to you all. Just… love.
Know that Maddie is loved and remembered, even on the other side of the world.
Oceans of love and prayers. xx
Tears…
I wish I could find a way to express what I feel — what your Maddie means to me. But this:
“You have made other mommies and daddies hug their kids more often, play with them longer, and snuggle them with relish”
this is so true… especially as my daughter approaches Maddie’s age.
Thank you — you and Mike and Maddie — for helping make my days special..
As I was reading this very same sentence in your post, my son was wanting my help with something. Your words are so true – because of Maddie, I consciously choose to appreciate and cherish these opportunities to play with him. So, I stopped reading, helped him, and now came back to your blog to post this “Thank you” for this wake up call in my parenting life.
This is soo true. In the past, I wouldn’t have stopped cleaning something to read a book. I would have cursed them at my feet while trying to fold the laundry.
NOT ANYMORE!! I NEVER take those moments for granted anymore. Your family taught me not to.
.-= Jenn´s last blog ..Great Expectations for Jake =-.
“You have made other mommies and daddies hug their kids more often, play with them longer, and snuggle them with relish. It’s pretty neat.”
She has, she does.
.-= MrsW´s last blog ..iHeartFaces – Rum and Coke Trifle =-.
I too am one of those moms who gives extra hugs and kisses to my girls because of your Madeline. Praying for you today.
It’s been a year since I learned who Maddie was through a fellow blogger. My heart broke for you then and it still breaks for you today. I have followed your blog this whole year and think of your Maddie often. She was such a beautiful girl, in so many ways. You and Mike are incredible parents to her and Annie. I can’t even imagine going through the pain and loss that your family has. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss and you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Like Suzy, It was a year ago I started reading your blog and since then have checked in on you every single day.
Thank you for sharing your sorrows, your joys, your memories, for keeping it and us feeling real on this path called life.
Purple flowers on my tabletop for Madeline!
heather-
i’ve been reading your blog for 9mths now and I’ve never commented before and i’m not quite sure what to say. just know that i think a lot about your maddie and your annie. that today i’ll wear purple for your beautiful girl. that as long as i live, i’ll never forget about this little girl i never met but has changed the way i see and appreciate life.
Over the past year after reading your blogs and reading about Maddie, I’ve really seen how precious every minute with my son I have. It will be our pleasure Walking for Maddie here in Austin, just like last year.
Stay Strong.
Anna
Sending love your way. And remembering Maddie with love. Always.
My heart is shattered for you today. I’m sobbing as I type this and know that tears are shed all over the world for your beautiful girl. No parent should ever have to experience such loss. {{ hugs }}
I have been thinking about you and Mike all week, leading up to this anniversary. Every single time I say a prayer for you both to survive the day/week/minute. I weep for your loss and I wish I could bring Maddie back to you. Please know that she lives within my family’s heart and has touched us all so deeply. I am so thankful that you shared Maddie with us all and know that today I will be contributing once again to Friends of Maddie in her honor. Blessings, grace, and hugs to you and your family today and everyday.
**Tears** Thinking of you today.
I wish with all my heart that you two did not have to go through this anniversary.
Today I have few words and many tears and love for your sweet, beautiful Maddie. In the year that I have been reading this blog, I have fallen in love with all of you.
In some small way I hope today, you are comforted by a little girl (Maddie) who you cannot see, but who is there for you in her spirit.
Love to all of you, from Michigan.
My thoughts and love are with you and your family today and every day. Maddie will always be remembered with love and laughter. I still wear the purple ribbon from her memorial service on my badge at work, as a reminder of a very special little girl who was so very loved. Take care of each other, and kiss that baby for me!
Oh Heather.
I am just, so sorry you have to experience this. Fly high little sweetie x
.-= Tam´s last blog ..Love me, or hate me, =-.
Dear Heather,
I know I may never meet you but your story is dear to my heart. I started coming to your site from Matt Logelin’s way before Maddy traveled north. Your site brings every emotion possible that I know and I’m sure you experience even more. In every picture I see, whether with either of your daughters I see pictures full of love. I don’t see that often and I am forever grateful you share that with not only me, but with the world. I want you to know that even if we never meet, you will always have an online friend.
I’m reading this on my phone at the bus stop, tears are streaming down my cheeks and people are staring at me…I couldn’t care less. Millions of hearts around the world are with your family today. I had my room full of kindergartners paint with purple paint today and adorn their paintings with tiny purple butterflies…and I told them all about and angel called Madeline. Xxx
One year is so hard. You made it though, and you probably never thought you would.
Thinking of your sweet, beautiful firstborn baby girl today and wishing everything was so very different.
All my love to all four of you.
xo
.-= Sally´s last blog ..Baby boys rock! =-.
Thinking of your family.
Cindy in Canada
Somehow I felt a bit afraid to come in and read today… Afraid of the hurt I was sure to feel. It does hurt to feel your hurting, and know that there is nothing we really can do, even if we wanted to.
Anyway, the first year is definitely the worst, so I do hope that the coming year will be a smidge easier. Not much, but jut a smidge would be great already…
Thinking about the Sphors today… as every day in the last year!
.-= Catherine Lucas´s last blog ..Bad mouth ewes in meadow nr six… =-.
bugger, Spohrs… Spohrs! Madeline Spohr!!!!!! For god sakes…
.-= Catherine Lucas´s last blog ..Bad mouth ewes in meadow nr six… =-.
A beautiful letter to your daughter. Thinking of all of you today.
I, too, am one of those parents that relishes every moment with my son more because of Madeline. He’ll be walking with me on April 24 on our local March for Maddie team.
What a speical girl, special life. We’ll never know why she only got 17 months, but as the amazing mom that you are you made those months full of love and happiness. In the 12 months since you have given her life so much meaning.
Love and peace to you and yours today and everyday.
Thinking of you all today and every day. Hugs.
This just broke my heart yet again.
.-= Childwoman´s last blog ..Next Post =-.
Nothing but love for ya. She is missed all over the world, today & every day. God bless the Spohrs and grant you what you need today. So many ((HUGS)), xoxo, SJ
We love Maddie. We are thinking of you all today and every day.
I have made a donation for your March of Dimes walk in memory of Madeline. It’s not much but it’s all I can afford. Know that we are all thinking of you.
“You have made other mommies and daddies hug their kids more often, play with them longer, and snuggle them with relish. It’s pretty neat.”
This is absolutely true. Really. I’m not even just saying that to be nice. Beyond that, I don’t know what more to say because words are failing me.
.-= stephanie´s last blog ..Won’t you join us on a picmic some time? =-.
I love that picture. Beautiful letter – and I know our angel Maddie heard every word. It is amazing how a little girl, who most of us never got to meet, has created and will continue to create so much good in the world. Love to you guys on this incredibly hard day.
xo from CT,
Amanda
.-= amanda´s last blog ..thank you Easter Bunny, bawk bawk! =-.
Typing through tears here, beautiful beautiful post, anniversaries are so rough, we’ve got one coming up in a few days. Maddie was SO lucky to have you as her mommy, thinking and praying for you, Mike, Annie, Rigby and of course wearing purple for Maddie today. Lots nad lots of love today.
Prayers, lots and lots of prayers going up on your behalf today. I’m so sorry.
Thank you so much for sharing Maddie with us through your beautiful posts. I know she has made a huge impact in my life and made me a better person. Thinking of you and hoping you are able to find some peace and contentment through all this insanity. xoxo
My heart is broken and though we never met I miss Maddie too! Today I will wear purple, tell people about Maddie and love on my family.
Support and love from Canada,
E.
Sending you love across the miles.
.-= Teej´s last blog ..Ours =-.
We will always remember your sweet girl. I’m
so sorry you have to go through this pain. Thank you, again, for sharing her with all of us.
.-= Pgoodness´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday =-.
Tears are running down my face . . . I think of your daughter often, which seems crazy because I’ve never met you and I hardly ever comment so you don’t “know” me either. But every time I hear that silly “ring on it” song (and I seem to hear it a LOT) I think of Maddie . . . also the first word my son mastered and now says all the time is WOW and I’m pretty sure a video of Maddie encouraged me to start working on that word early . . . the color purple sends a thought your/her way too . . . I think of you and I think of Maddie and I don’t think I will ever stop. Your family is so loved, I hope that helps (even just a little) to put your heart back together. Wishing you never had to feel this pain! xoxo Nicole
Love, love, love to all of you.
Hearts all over the world break with yours.
Wearing purple today.
Never before has a person so tiny, a person I never had the privlidge of meeting affected and touched me so deeply. Maddie is beyond special. I thank you for allowing me to know your amazing daughter. Wishing you, Mike and your family love and peace, as always. xo
HI Heather and Mike and family,
I’ve been thinking of you all so much leading up to today. I’m so very sorry! I takes my breath away to imagine for a second what you must feel. But know that there’s a piece of Maddie in all of us. Maddie has changed all of us, and we are forever grateful that you’ve shared your special girl with us. We’ll never forget.
Many hugs and good thoughts to you all today. Peace. xoxo
to maddie..
we miss you.
love from maine.
.-= Momma Uncensored´s last blog ..sunshine day =-.
Heather, you have made me be a better mother. Your photos, the love you share, the joy in your life for your family. Thank you, beautiful lady.
I hope you feel close to her. My goodness I never tire at looking at her photo.
XOXOX
.-= edenland´s last blog ..Madeline =-.
I’m so sorry you have to endure this horrible pain. You and your family are in my thoughts today and always. Big hugs to all of you.
today and everyday, sweet maddie alice.
I will hug my boys a little closer today, and I pray that I am the mommy and the strength that you are and have for your beautiful girls.
Purple kisses and hugs,
Denise
Beautiful little Maddie,,,a world full of people will always miss you, and you are loved so very, very, much by millions who never, ever, even got to meet you. You have the best Mommy & Daddy that anyone could ever wish for, and they in turn, were blessed with the best little girl that anyone could ever wish for.The world loves you sweet, baby girl………………..
Love & hugs to all of you…………………….
Like so many others – I will be thinking about you all today while trying to wrap you up in internet love. *hugs*
Tears for you all. Madeline, you are so very missed and loved.
.-= Fairly Odd Mother´s last blog ..The scream =-.
This so hard. Just woke up and immediately thought of you. Being a mom to a 26 weeker preemie who survived maddie’s story makes me savor every second with Emily even more so. It hurts reading your blog – how much must it hurt you not having maddie in your arms… So hard. Tears are streaming down my face – tears for you, Annie and mike, your families – tears for all moms who have to go through something like this. There are purple tulips in our living room – I will cry more tears looking at those today – tears for beautiful Madeline.
Beautiful, just beautiful. (((hugs))) to you, Heather, and Mike and Maddie and Annabel today and ALWAYS!!! XOXO
.-= AmazingGreis´s last blog ..Remembering Maddie… =-.
Heartbreaking.
Thank you for sharing Maddie with us, a truly beautiful girl.
I was so worried for this day to come. I was hoping that maybe it would just skip past without even really happening. Oh Heather we think and pray for you and your family every day in our home. Today we send every ounce of love we have to your family.
.-= charlane´s last blog ..Caketastrophy =-.
That Maddie can touch me so much, someone who lives thousands of miles away, someone who never met her, someone who sadly didn’t find out about her until 9 months ago, shows what a unique, wonderful, special girl she is, and what a unique, wonderful, special mum you are. Thinking of you all today.
A xxx
With you today.
And this is so beautiful.
.-= Maggie, dammit´s last blog ..Who do I think I am? =-.
That was a beautiful letter to Maddie.
I wish I had words for you that expressed how you make me (and others I’m sure) feel.
.-= Jill´s last blog ..Focus on what you have 4/3/10 =-.
Sweet Maddie, you are so loved and missed.
Heather, thank you so much for sharing this.
I am taking the words from another comment above. Just love there are no words that can come close! You are going to be in my thoughts all day! I hope that every day from today on brings you nothing but happiness and joy as you watch your annabel grow!
I’ve been thinking about all of you. I just donated to March of Dimes last weekend at Kmart & told my 9 yr old about Maddie. Prayers and love to all of you.
Tiny Angel rest your wings,
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand
and see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear….
That I will forget your precious face is my
biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
why you have gone away?
You weren’t here very long….
why is it, you couldn’t stay?
Tiny Angel shock her head,
“These things I do not know…
But I do know that you love me, and that I love you so.”
Lots of hugs with love to you all!
Reading this post filled me with such an incredible sadness…and yet I know that that doesn’t come close, that I can’t even imagine, the huge burden of sadness that you must feel.
Still, I feel glad and fortune too.
That you share your story with us.
That you shared Madeline and all of her joy with us.
And since I know that I feel this joy of having known (about) Maddie, I can only hope that you feel many many times that joy in knowing her.
and I just want to reiterate how very very very true this is: “You have thousands and thousands…maybe even millions…of friends all over the world. People who think about you often, who are affected by your smile and your laugh. Who have told their families and friends and children about you. You have made other mommies and daddies hug their kids more often, play with them longer, and snuggle them with relish. It’s pretty neat.”
I think about you and Maddie often, and I have shared her story with nearly everyone that I know. She has truly (and still does!) touch and affect so many people.
My mother passed away suddenly and at a fairly young age recently…and I like to think that somehow she and your Madeline have met each other in the after; I think they’d be fast friends.
All my best wishes to you, Mike, and family!
You are an amazing mom. What a special, special, special little girl. Thinking of you today and always.
Thinking of you and all the family today and remembering precious Madeline.
We have released some purple balloons into the sky for Maddie to play with today, I hope she enjoys them and continues to look down and protect you, Mike & Annie.
About to go put on the brightest purple shirt in my closet and sure to think of your family all day (even more so than usual).
I wish the calendar trick worked. I wish “April 7th” (last year’s, of course, and all the future ones) was never a reality in your life. I wish that I had come to this site under completely different circumstances a year ago.
I’m also amazed, though. I’m amazed by your family, the courage required to give Annie the health and happiness she is enjoying. Amazed by the impact your 17-month-old had on people ALL over the world. Amazed at how you and Mike campaign for healthy babies. Amazed.
So much love being sent to you, today and always, from someone you’ve never met.
This was a beautiful tribute to your exquisite oldest girl.
much love to all of you who will forever miss your Madeline…..i am so sorry.
Thinking of you. xo
.-= Heather B.´s last blog ..Just a thought =-.
So many tears have been shed for Maddie, but so many smiles are sparked by her beautiful smile and those amazing, fabulous eyes. Hugs to you, Mike, Annie and Rigby.
Much love to you today, and every day.
“You have thousands and thousands…maybe even millions…of friends all over the world. People who think about you often, who are affected by your smile and your laugh. Who have told their families and friends and children about you. You have made other mommies and daddies hug their kids more often, play with them longer, and snuggle them with relish. It’s pretty neat.” – How very true. I am heading back upstairs to bed to cuddle with our Maddie. It’s so interesting about blogs – I don’t know you at all, but my heart is breaking for the pain you are going through today.
Hi again from Canada.
I was wearing my Maddie shirt the other day at the store and the clerk asked me if that was my little girl. Holding back a tear, all I could say was, “I wish”.
My heart is with you today, and I will hug my little boy a bit tighter.
xo
You are in my thoughts and prayers today. No words, just lots of love.
I woke up this morning and my first thought was Maddie and your family. Love and hugs to all of you today.
.-= angi´s last blog ..Easter Veggies =-.
Thinking of you today.
.-= Melisa with one S´s last blog ..Not A Fan. =-.
Love to the four of you today.
.-= Laurie´s last blog ..Easter 2010 =-.
Every day is tough and today is no exception. Thinking of you all.
.-= Liz´s last blog ..And the Heartbreak Continues =-.
April 7th, a bittersweet day, My best friend in the whole wide worlds Birthday, the day Maddie left us, and today I bury my beloved Grandmother. As I go through the funeral process today, and as I did yesterday, my thoughts will continue to wander to Maddie, and I know in my heart my Grandma is up there loving Maddie as she loved all her Grandchildren. (((((HUGS)))))
My baby sister Caroline died 19 years ago on April 13th. I gave her extra special instructions to give Maddie extra adoration today. These girls will always be missed, remembered, loved.
Thinking of you today, and hoping that though your loss never lessens that your pain someday does.
xoxo
I have been anticipating and dreading this post for several weeks now. My anticipation and dread pales in comparison to yours. Heather, there are buckets of truth in your post today, but the one statement I’m glad you made was this one:
“You have made other mommies and daddies hug their kids more often, play with them longer, and snuggle them with relish.”
You have made so many parents so thankful for our healthy kids. Your story, and pain, and sharing thereof have been the source of innumerable hugs and kisses. And while all those hugs and kisses can never be worth more than Maddie herself, they are worth a lot.
I wish the very best for you this and every day. I hope that your grief is endurable. I hope that there are bright spots. I hope that all of our love here can provide even a little comfort on this miserable day. We all love you and your family very much.
.-= Gale´s last blog ..The Face of Flattery =-.
Love and hugs for you, Mike, your two beautiful daughters, and of course Rigby
Maddie is surely the brightest star in the sky and the warmth of the sun on your skin. Thinking of your family today and always. xoxo
Love and Hugs from NY to CA with special thoughts and prayers on such a heavy day.
I didn’t even know it was possible to miss someone you’ve never met. Oh Maddie, you are so missed.
And Heather, Mike, Rigby, and Annabel, you guys are so loved. Thinking of you always, but especially now.
.-= Christine´s last blog ..Privileged =-.
You all are in my heart today. Missing Maddie for you.
.-= Lisa @ lists in my pocket´s last blog ..Grown-Up Easter Basket =-.
I woke up extra early today thinking about Maddie..She is so missed and you are right….millions of people think about her often and who have changed for the better because of her! You are the best mom and Mike is the best dad and Maddie will always be the best big sister…
XO XO
Thinking about all of you today!
I have been thinking about you and your precious family all day. After learning about Maddie here, I have spent life in a different shade…a different light. I feel blessed to have found you and your family and especially Maddie. many hugs and thoughts are with you today, and always xox
I love u maddie moo. Always will.you are forever a part of our family. Please keep your mommy and daddy strong and watch over your lil sister. Love, auntie maya
.-= Geminigirl´s last blog ..Do they make Kosher for Passover Deep- Fried Oreos? =-.
Beautiful Maddie.
Gone but never ever forgotten.
All my love.
.-= Toni Brockliss´s last blog ..5 faves =-.
Thinking of you and your family today. My heart is with you.
Love to all of you
Love, love, and more love to all of you. Wishing you peace on this difficult day.
.-= Jenny´s last blog ..Use your words … =-.
I thought about you all as soon as I woke up this morning, and I will continue to send love and peace your guys way today. Hold Annabel tight in your arms, and Maddie tight in your hearts. *huge huge huge hug*
There isn’t much more to say that hasn’t already been said. All I can do is send hugs and love in your family’s direction. I came across this poem this weekend and it seems appropriate to share with you here.
When tomorrow starts without me,
and I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise,
and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,
the way you did today.
While thinking of the many things,
we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too.
~ Author Unknown
.-= Amanda´s last blog ..The Ducks Are Back =-.
Just wanted to say my heart is aching for you today… I am one of the mommy’s that holds my kiddies that much more closely because of Maddie. She was an amazing little girl that filled everyones world with a lifetime of smiles and laughter. Our thoughts are with you today and always…
A hundred thousand people (or more) shed tears today for your loss, for your pain, for your strength and for your beautiful daughter today. Much love to you, Mike, Maddie and Annabel.
I love you, Coco.
.-= sam {temptingmama}´s last blog ..Always. =-.
Lots of hugs from Ohio. Always in our thoughts.
.-= Ohmommy´s last blog ..Making sure we get into the poshest of old-folks homes =-.
I can’t believe it’s been a year already. Thinking of you all today xoxo
My thoughts and prayers are with you today. I plan on doing a blog post about Maddie today so even more people will come to know her. What a lovely post, full of love, and not sadness. Maddie is lucky to have you, Mike and Annie.
.-= Anjie´s last blog ..Maverick Monday =-.
Am crying now, for you and your wonderful family. Maddie definitely touched our lives, and we think about her often. Matt – who doesn’t do this whole “blogging/twitter scene” will read posts you wrote & smile about how you remember Maddie, how adorable she was and the stories you share. We are better people knowing you and your family and your story.
Purple will, most definitely, be worn today by us all (after breakfast, so we don’t get it messy hehe). Even my step-mother in law is wearing people for Maddie & she just heard the story!
Love & strength to you all on this day. Xoxo
Thinking of you.
.-= Annie Y´s last blog ..Life =-.
What a beautiful letter. Thinking of you today.
Thinking of you guys today. My girl is wearing purple for Maddie today.
.-= Kelly´s last blog ..Easter Eggs =-.
I am thinking of Maddie especially today and my 5 year old daughter and I will be wearing purple in her honor. My prayers are with you and your family. God Bless.
Thinking of your whole family this morning as I sat on the patio, watching the birds and the sun.
Angie
My heart aches, my tears roll down my cheeks for you, Mike, Maddie and Annie today. Your strength to endure this tradgedy continues to amaze me. You have continued to live when many of us would have just curled up and withered away.
My heart and soul are with you all today. sending boatloads of hugs and shedding oceans of tears for you on this day. Hug Annie that much tighter. sending love and hugs from NJ.
You, and Maddie forever changed how I look at the time we have together, and the love that can not go unloved, or unspoken. Every moment is a gift. This is a breath-taking, beautiful letter to Madeline. I imagine she’s written you one today, too – I hope you feel her extra close.
Love always,
Steph
.-= Adventures In Babywearing´s last blog ..It sticks. =-.
We are thinking of you guys today and sending huge prayers and hugs. My sons and I lit a candle for Maddie today; AJ (my oldest) thought she would really like it.
.-= Miche´s last blog ..Just Breathe =-.
Thank you for sharing your story with us Heather. I am thinking of you today and will make a donation to FOM in her honor.
We miss you, Maddie. Always.
.-= Aunt Becky´s last blog ..The Rise of the Phoenix =-.
love love love love love and more love a million times over.
“to love and be loved is the greatest gift we’ll ever know.” you and maddie and mike and rigby and annie share this gift better than anyone i know.
hugs from connecticut today and always,
kristen
xo
Your comment about snuggling with Maddie so that you could comfort her but actually she did the comforting? It’s so true. When my mother was ill with ALS during in her last week of life, I remember crying and talking to someone at her bedside about how it was so hard to sit there to comfort my mother. And this caregiver said something that will always be with me: her experience is those who are about to leave us and love us so much will comfort us much more than we comfort them.
We love you too.
Jess, Chancey & Max.
Heather & Mike,
You have been on my mind all week, knowing that this day was coming. Thank you for sharing your stroy and bringing us along on your journey. I think of your family often. Your girls are lucky to have parents like you!
Lots of Love!
Thank you for sharing your Maddie with us all. You are amazing and I hope you feel the love being sent your way today and always.
Hugs & love…xoxo
.-= Nina´s last blog ..You Capture: Kisses =-.
Heather & Mike:
Our thoughts and prayers are with you on this very sad day. Through your words I have gotten to know Maddie, and I am forever changed by that. Through your blog thousands of people have gotten to know Maddie and have received the priviledge to share a little bit of her. What a way to honor your child.
You have touched me so deeply with your honest thoughts and how you put it all out there. May God comfort you today.
Much love to you all the way from Australia.
There are no words to comfort you, no words to bring Maddie back, no words to make this easier on you. Just like you, I wish I could turn back time and make it all good again. Your Maddie definately made a difference in my life, in the way I handle my mommy role. I am thinking about you lots and lots, today and every day.
All my love.
Oceans of love to the Spohrs today.
I swear I noticed more people wearing purple today, all the way over here in Australia. Whether I imagined it or not, that I even thought of it is a sure sign that your amazing daughter is reaching more people than you could imagine. And I’m sure all of them are aching with you today.
xox
My thoughts are with you today.
.-= red pen mama´s last blog ..The Great Twitter Experiment of 2010 =-.
You were the first thing on my mind when I woke up this morning. Sending you all so much love today…. thinking of you all everyday. I will think sweet thoughts when I walk by the purple crocuses is my back yard today…
xoxo from Massachusetts
Love to you. Maddie is still in my heart too.
In tears, as I have been all these past mornings when I check your blog, I send you and your family all the love in the world. All my love.
I, too, will miss Maddie forever. My girl, who is just a month younger than her, blows Maddie a kiss on the computer screen nearly every day.
Your strenghth is one of the most powerful things I’ve ever witnessed, Heather. I know all too well that this means nothing when we’re burning with pain, but I wanted to let you know. This makes you an AMAZING mother, for both your babies.
Love, always.
Thank you for sharing Maddie with us. Thinking of you today…
.-= Lynn from For Love or Funny´s last blog ..Why dogs dress up =-.
Beautiful. I know she is listening and smiling. Lots of hugs and good energy your way on this very difficult day.
Thinking of you and Maddie today. Virtual hugs from Ohio.
Hello,
Thank you for sharing your Madeline with all of us. I have fallen in love with her through the stories and pictures that you have shared.
I hope you can endure today with the strength, hope and love that we are sending to you, along with your wonderful husband and beautiful little baby.
Beautiful. Maddie has a million friends I have no doubt.
Hugs,
Rikki
.-= rikki´s last blog ..Easter 2010 =-.
sending you much love today
What a beautiful letter to your daughter. She does have millions of friends all over the world. I have become one of them. Your openness and hearfelt words stay with me for days after I read your posts. Maddie is at peace. She didn’t feel pain. You sound great. My thoughts are with you all today. Thank you for letting us all get to know her and be inspired by your strength.
Thank you Maddie, Mike, and Heather for sharing your story with us all…I know I have been touched by Madeline, and I know I am far from the only one.
Thinking of you all today.
.-= Jen @ lifelove’n'wine´s last blog ..Bliss =-.
Hi Heather,
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful post that must have been so hard to write. I wish things were different. I wish you didn’t have to live with such sadness in your heart. I know the world will be looking a lot more purple today! The sun is shining down here in NJ. I’m thinking Maddie has a part in it, sending happiness on a sad day.
Last night I watched your video of Maddie in your My Little Maddie Moo post last April. I have downloaded “Daughter” and I listen to it everyday in my car and think of Maddie. I love looking at her pictures because her smile is so amazing. She was such a happy baby! It’s amazing how so many of the pictures you both have the same expression, like the picture you posted today.
May happy memories heal your heart today and everyday.
Hugs to you, Annie, Mike and all of your family missing Maddie.
Kristen
Purple butterfly hugs fluttering your way. I hope you, Mike, Annabel, & Rigby are carried through today on all the love you all have for Maddie.
.-= Ginnny´s last blog ..Yesterday =-.
I’ve never commented before, but I felt compelled to today.
We’re a long way from having our own children, but there is a small family in a small part of Australia (with a dog who looks a lot like Rigby) who read here often and think of Maddie even more than that.
I’d like to add to the list of wonderful things that your family has done for your readers, thanks to your blog we’ve been much better able to be there for friends of ours whose situation is somewhat similar. Like a lot of people, I didn’t know what to say, so I said nothing. Thanks to Maddie, and you and Mike and Annie we realised how important it is to remember and talk and share happy memories. Thank you.
Such a beautiful beautiful letter, brought tears to my eyes as it no doubt did to countless other people.
.-= Ari´s last blog ..This time of year… =-.
Sending as many thoughts, love, prayers, and wishes for peace that I possibly can to you and your family today. I am so grateful that you have shared your daughter(s) and your journey with us.
Love you.
(((hugs)))
.-= Deborah´s last blog ..Bleeding Heart =-.
What a beautiful letter to your beautiful daughter. Thanks for sharing it with us. You are in my thoughts today.
Thinking of all of you today. And sending huge hugs and kisses.
.-= Mary @ Holy Mackerel´s last blog ..WTF me? =-.
we released a purple balloon for Maddie today, along with Will’s and one for Cora too.
http://twitpic.com/1dsqsj
Thinking of you and sweet Maddie today.
.-= tiff´s last blog ..When… =-.
so much love, light and strength coming from across the miles.
.-= fidget´s last blog ..walking memories =-.
Missing you, Maddie.
as one of the mommys who learned to cherish and savor my babies more because you had the strength and willingness to share sweet maddie’s story- i want to say thank you!
i continue to pray that God gives you the measure of strength you need to get through each day, especially today!
With hugs and love today….
from one of those stranger friends that thinks of her daily. Your beautiful Maddie has touched the hearts of all of us.
LOVE AND HUGS!!!!
Thinking about you today, as always.
Remembering Maddie today, and always.
.-= Mishi´s last blog ..On a 757 =-.
There are so many people crying for your girl today. It is so, so hard to taste the pain of your loss by reading your heartbreaking words, but it has made me a better person. That is Maddie’s — and your — gift to your readers. Thank you for this generosity of spirit. I hope that you can feel our love, and that it helps you through this anniversary, and all the days that follow.
Thinking of your whole family today Heather especially your sweet little Maddy
Love, hugs and lots of kisses
I think of Maddie. I don’t know you personally, I never had the pleasure of meeting Madeline in person but every day I read your blog and every day I hug my daughter after I click away. I think of Maddie when I see the March of Dimes symbol. I tell my daughter about her when she asks who the little girl is on my computer screen. You’ve shared Maddie with us and we’ll be forever grateful.
What a beautiful letter. I know that she is watching, listening, and enjoying Annabel from above. Prayers for courage for you and your family. You are a wonderful spirit.
So much love and so many hugs, Heather. We are all here loving and supporting you, to help you make it through. Maddie is one super special girl who has touched a lot of hearts and lives. She will never be forgotten.
Love and hugs sweet friend.
.-= Lisa´s last blog ..Never Forgotten =-.
No words can help but my heart hurts for you. I don’t know you or Maddie either but I have told many friends and family about her. You’re in my thoughts today
I’m not much of a praying person, but last night upon crawling into bed I prayed hard. That Madeline would visit you in your dreams and maybe lessen the pain of today’s date for you just a bit. A tiny bit.
The first thing I thought of this morning was you, and Madeline and Mike and Annabel. And the pain that I felt for you was so raw and real that it truly blow my mind that I don’t I personally know you.
Your daughter- you and your whole family- have touched me and inspired me. I can’t thank you enough for sharing your experience… and yet, I wish you hadn’t had to.
So many are thinking of you today- holding you all so close to their hearts. I wish you some bit of peace today. That a tiny pinprick of light can start widening each day. I know that light is Madeline.
Love you. Love ALL of you.
Wearing purple today, too.
Thinking about you all day today. We miss you Maddie Moo.
.-= Becky @TheRealBecks´s last blog ..How I spent my Easter =-.
We miss you Maddie… I think about you every day and hug my Chickens just a little harder because of you sweet girl… big hugs xoxoxoxo
.-= Jodee´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday =-.
I never met Maddie, but I think about her every single day. She has touched my heart in ways I cannot even explain! Sending my love to you all today…
Love to you all – my stranger/friends. It breaks my heart that today is also the one year anniversary of when I “met” your family.
Sending lots of virutal hugs and prayers to you all today. I truly believe Maddie can feel your love today just as she has the last 12 months.
I wish she were here with you…..with all of us.
xoxo,
Jocelyn
I knew I would come to this blog and cry today as I have for the previous few days. But I came here for you and Mike and Maddie prepared for the tears because I feel like if enough people read your words and feel your pain, it might help to spread it out a little. I know that’s not the case and that your pain is not lessened because so many share it. But if there’s a chance it could be, if it there’s any way it could work that way, then I wish that for you so much. Because we do share your pain because you’ve allowed us all into your life. I love you all and wish you peace today and always.
.-= Amy´s last blog ..Stitch Therapy =-.
Thinking of you today…. and getting out my purple shirt. Much love,
Thinking about your beautiful Madeline today and sending love to all of you.
Thinking of you guys, especially today.
.-= Kt´s last blog ..25 Weeks =-.
Lots of tears, hugs and love.
I have never met Maddie, but I know I will never be able to forget her. Thank you Heather for sharing her with us. My heart is purple today.
I’m one of the moms hugging my kids extra tight today. What a beautifully written post, Heather. Thinking of you and your family today and remembering your precious little girl.
My daughter will be getting a Maddie Monster for her birthday this month. I plan on telling her all about your special little girl.
Thinking of you and your family.
.-= Delenn´s last blog ..Frilly Silly Willow =-.
What a beautiful picture. I’m wearing purple today, and thinking of you and your family all day and sending as much love your way as my heart can hold.
Thinking of you all today!!! Maddie has inspired so many people! I am a better person and mom because of her!!
Hugs and love sent your way!!
No words today. Holding you and Mike so close to my heart, Heather. And wearing purple for your precious, sweet Madeline.
Thinking of all of you, today and always.
Shedding tears at my desk for you. I think about you and Maddie (and Mike and Annabel) all the time.
.-= robyn´s last blog ..Last Banana =-.
Thinking of Maddie today, just like always
Wearing purple today for Miss Madeline…Thinking about you and praying you can make it through the day. I am so sorry. Sending you hugs and lots of love from Kentucky…Madeline is loved by millions of us stretching all around the world. We have all been blessed and are better by knowing her through you. She is missed everyday even by complete strangers. I look forward to the day that I’ll have the pleasure of meeting her. (((HUGS)))
Remembering Maddie today…and always. Holding you and Mike close in thought today.
“Hope is what happens as long as we breathe.” Just keep breathing…
Love to all of you – remembering Maddie today (and every day)
I’m wearing purple today for Maddie. Thinking of all of you and wishing you strength and peace.
Thinking of you and Mike and Maddie today. Praying for all of you.
.-= Kristin´s last blog ..Go Duke! =-.
I have read every post for the past 365. I don’t always get to comment but I am reading. I cannot believe it is already a year. You, Mike and Annie are in my thoughts and prayers today just like every other day. She is missed.
Sending love & prayers your way today. Gone too soon…
hard to believe it’s been a year…. there are so many here who think about your beautiful girl daily…. she is missed.
Beautiful letter for a beautiful little girl who loves her beautiful mommy, daddy and sister.
Thinking of you and your family today….
I can only imagine how hard it must be and your words just break my heart! I’d like to think that our time on earth is so very short compared to how long an enternity in heaven will be…you’ll be with her one day and then the pain will go away…
You are so unerringly eloquent, Heather, even in your grief. I have been thinking of Maddie all day, and my daughter and I are both wearing purple for her today. The world misses her smile.
Sending love and hugs to you all.
.-= bessie.viola´s last blog ..& I’m always gonna wanna blow your mind =-.
I wish there was no reason to dread April 7th. I didn’t know about you or the amazing Maddie until a year ago, but since then I have thought of her, you and Mike everyday. You and Maddie have brought so much inspiration to many. Your strength and perseverance is awe-inspiring. I hope you and Mike are able to find peace. Thinking of you today and everyday.
Sending many prayers and lots of love your way today. Wearing purple for your girl.
People you don’t even know, complete strangers, woke up thinking about Maddie, about your family, today. I was one of them. May you get through today with love and support.
Thinking of you today
I tried to prepare myself for your post this morning, and for the tears that I knew would without a doubt come. But I’ll never have enough tears to shed or enough words to tell you just how much Madeline is missed and what a phenomenal mom you are.
I have thought about you, Mike, Maddie, and Rigby (and now little Annie) every day for the past year. You’ve become a part of my life, and Maddie has brightened my world. Please remember that today and know that there truly are millions around the world thinking of you and sending you love every minute of every day, especially today. We’re all hurting for you and celebrating Maddie’s life in our own unique ways.
And some of us will be there with you in LA to do the same at the March for Babies walk on 4/24. My husband and I live in RI. He will be traveling to CA soon for work and I’ll be joining him for vacation on the southern CA leg of the trip. Out of the countless cities and towns we’ll be traveling to, we just so happen to be scheduled to be in LA on 4/24. It’s just too ironic and unexpected to be anything but meant to be. We’ll both be walking with you to honor your Maddie Moo and we cannot wait to meet you. Stay strong and we’ll see you in 17 days.
“No matter how many more April sevenths I must endure…” heartbreaking.
Thinking of you…praying that you will soon find peace where there is great pain.
Much love.
Rest in Peace Dear Sweet Madeline. We will never forget you, you will live on in our hearts forever.
:*(
No words can express how much your beautiful daughter and family have affected my life. You are the most amazing Mom and Maddie was such a gift from God…
Annie and Maddie are the most blessed little girls to have parents like you & Mike…
Take care on this day… Maddie is watching and loving you guys and Annie will know her sister and feel a bond w/her b/c of you guys.
Thinking of you always… Loving your family from Michigan…
Brooke
.-= Brooke´s last blog ..Feeling Compelled =-.
Much love to you and MIke today. My heart is broken like so many readers, family, friends. Much love and peace to you both,
Jen in Illinois
We have never met, and we probably never will, but please know that you and your sweet daughter have touched my life in a way that is hard to express. Thinking of you and your whole family today.
What a perfect, beautiful letter.
I wish you peace. You deserve it.
Dear Madeline,
I’m one of the millions whose life you have touched. I’ve checked in on your mommy and daddy and little sister every day for the past year, and I’ve spent countless hours reading about you, looking at your pictures, smiling at your videos.
You are a beautiful little girl with an amazing spirit and gorgeous eyes and smile. Your spirit radiates – in pictures, in video, and in words captured by your parents. I don’t have any children yet, but I can’t help but to wish that they are like you. I know I’ll be a better mom because of you.
I lost my grandmother not quite 6 weeks ago. I know she would think that you hang the moon. Maybe you two have already met. I call her Choo, so look out for her. I’ve already asked her to look out for you.
Madeline, you have amazing parents and a fabulous little sister. You’ve touched millions of people around the world, and your story has been shared countless times. You’ve embedded yourself in the hearts of many and touched more people in your 17 months than most people do in a lifetime. You’re one of my heroes, as are your mommy and daddy and little sister Annie.
Today, for you, I’m using my purple pens and folders at work. When I get off, I’ll buy some beautiful purple flowers to put in my living room. Tonight I’ll say another prayer for you and your family. Most importantly, I’ll keep you and your family in my heart – but that won’t be just for today.
Thanks for touching my life, Maddie.
XOXO from Georgia,
Nikki
You’re so right, Heather. Knowing about Maddie and reading every day about your love for her has made me snuggle Nate just a little bit closer today. I’m honoured to know you and my thoughts are with you all today.
.-= Assertagirl Amy´s last blog ..In honour of my lovely friend. =-.
Hi Heather,
I wore purple today to honor your sweet angel Madeline. Sending hugs and strength to your wonderful family from St.Louis, MO. You are a wonderful mother, never doubt that. Thank you for sharing your world with us.
Heather and Mike, I am thinking of you guys on this horrible day. Maddie will always be remembered. I’m so sorry that you have to go through this.
Love to Madeline and her family. A long time reader, I’ve been so touched by her story.
“I held her close for only a short time, but after she was gone, I’d see her smile on the face of a perfect stranger & I knew she would be there with me all the rest of my days.” -Brian Andreas (storypeople.com)
I’ve never posted a comment before on any of your posts but I’ve been reading for over a year now. I just wanted to say that was an absolutely beautiful post, and that I think of Madeline and the rest of your family often. I’m another person that Madeline has deeply touched.
Beautiful beautiful post. I read your blog everyday. May strength and peace be yours on the especially difficult day.
Beautiful, Heather. Sending hugs today and always.
.-= Angella´s last blog ..Lance and Natalie, Sitting In A Tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G =-.
I woke up thinking of you and yours today. It’s not much or, really, even anything but I’ll be wearing purple today.
My heart is heavy and the tears are flowing and I am sending you and your beautiful family all of my love and thoughts today… {{{HUGS}}}
.-= Michelle Pixie´s last blog ..Randomness =-.
Heather, I think of you and your beautiful family daily. You ARE a reminder to hold my girl closer, tighter. To enjoy every smile. To relish every moment. You and Maddie have made me a far better parent than I otherwise may have been. You have made me appreciate her so much more than I think I would have otherwise. For this, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I wouldn’t give up Alyssa for the world, but I’d give just about anything else to bring your Maddie back to you. I can’t believe that it has been a year since you last got to hold her. I can hardly breathe just thinking about it. Nobody can bring me to tears the way that you can. In the same respect, the highs and joy from knowing what you have with your Annabel have also been incredible. The way that you go on, the way that you use your pain to help others, your loss for their gain – you’re amazing. An inspiration. I just wish that you didn’t have to be…
I know that I lack your dignity and eloquence in expressing my feelings… I just want you to know that you are loved. All of your family is.
Sending you so much love and strength and anything else you need to get you through today. And lots of snuggles for Rigby – she deserves them as much as anybody!
.-= kelly´s last blog ..Little drummer girl =-.
I am relatively new to this blogging thing. I must admit I didn’t know Madeline’s story. I do now. Thanks for the tender, loving post, and for reminding me what matters, something that I lose sight of too frequently. Thinking of you.
.-= Ironic Mom´s last blog ..Cleaning Tips I’ve Googled Since Having Twins =-.
April 7th can suck it. Now and forever.
Love to you, Mike, Annie, and always Maddie. XOXO
.-= cindy w´s last blog ..her favorite aunt =-.
Hugs to you and family on such a difficult day.
Thinking of all of you today, Heather. Much love to you.
xxx
I’m just so very sorry today. All my love and thoughts are with you today. I don’t know why this happened to you and why you have to suffer through this terrible loss. It isn’t right. I think of you constantly and am trying to carry you just a little today. Take care today and every day.
I’ve never written to you but I have been reading since before that fateful day a year ago. April 7th has taken on new significance for me as well and I woke up this morning thinking of you, your family and of course Maddie. I think of her often and am always impressed, anguished, heartbroken and delighted by your insight and honesty. My thoughts and love on this day and always.
Maddie was not only a gift to you, but to all of your readers as well. Maddie will always be remembered and loved. Please know that you and Mike and Annabel are loved by each of us as well.
.-= C´s last blog ..Warning: I Am Stabby Today =-.
I found your site from following Matt Logelins blog and have been reading ever since. I can’t even begin to imagine what you have been through. I read your post every day, and I go home and hug and kiss my kids a few extra times. I sit in a purple office and think of Maddie often. No words can express how sorry I am for your loss, just know that many millions of people, a lot you will never meet think of your little Maddie every day.
Thinking of you today and sending love and prayers.
My thoughts are with you today.
*hugs*
Heather there are no words just cyber hugs. Maddie has reached more people in her short but amazing life then most people ever will. She really is the famous Madeline and we all love her and you guys so much. Hang in there.
Thinking about you, Mike, and Rigby today. Remember to lean on each other.
Thinking of you and your family. Maddie will live in the hearts of everyone forever.
Thinking about you and your family today.
Thinking of you, Mike, Maddie, Annie, and Rigby today, and everyday. Thank you for sharing your life with us. I am one of those moms that hugged my daughter extra tight today.
Sending you love, and remembering Maddie today as I look at my amethyst ring <3
I read daily, but don’t comment often. I just wanted to add one more sentiment, and say that I am thinking of you, of Mike, of Madeline today more then ever and wishing you love, strength & hugs.
K
Sending all my love to your whole family Heather. Madeleine is remembered, and we love her.
.-= Miss Grace´s last blog ..A List of Temporary Things, A Prayer for Maddie =-.
Sending love and peaceful wishes to your whole family. What a gift Maddie was, and will continue to be, to so many. -Christine
.-= Boston Mamas´s last blog ..Roasted Beet and Lentil Salad =-.
Heather – I think you, Mike, Maddie and Annie have touched more people than you will ever know. My heart breaks for you today as it did a year ago and every day since. Thank you for sharing and continuing to share your beautiful little girl with us.
-Alethea
I thought about your family so much last night. My husband and I both cried for Maddie, knowing that today would one of your most difficult. What you said about people knowing her–parents hugging their kids longer, playing more, just appreciating their children more than normal–that is all true. I know you’d trade all that in for even one more second with her, but I’m glad you know that she did leave an impact on the world. More than most people ever do in their whole entire lives.
Sending you all the love, hugs, and support in the world today and always.
.-= Lessons in Life and Light´s last blog ..Maddie =-.
Love and prayers from St. Louis. (My five year old just came up behind me as I was reading this and said, “That’s a beautiful baby.” So true.)
.-= Angela´s last blog ..Young and loved and feel it in our bones… =-.
I’ve never posted a comment before. I started reading you blog exactly one year ago. I check for a new post every morning before I even get out of bedand I think of Maddie, even on the days you don’t post specifically about her, because I know you are. My heart breaks for you every day. I so admire your strength and there is no doubt in my mind that Maddie is so very proud of you and her Daddy.
My husband and I don’t have children yet. I hope we are blessed with them oneday and I pray that I am half as good a mother as you are to your girls. I will likely think of Maddie almost everyday for the rest of my life, and when I do I will be even more thankful for the time I have with those I love. That little girl has had more of an impact on this world than most people that live a “full” life. She won’t be forgotten – and that is thanks to you, her mommy.
What a wonderful tribute. I’d like to believe Maddie somehow is looking down on all of you and can still feel the love you have for her.
.-= Lisa_in_WI´s last blog ..My Hometown’s Contribution to March Madness =-.
You are in my thoughts today (and every day for that matter).
My prayers go out to you and your family today,,Sweet Maddy is loved by many,Thank you for sharing her with us
Heather and Mike,
Prayers to you both on this day!
I’ve been thinking about you and your family often over the past week or so. After reading your beautiful letter to Madeline it is so obvious what a lucky little girl she was to have such amazing wonderful loving parents during her short time here. I hope you find comfort and I’m sending oodles of prayers to you guys today.
Heather and Mike,
Thank you for sharing your loss and stories with us, and yes I do hug my boys a little longer, give more kisses and hugs and never take anything for granted.
Thank you for that reminder, may you see your beautiful Maddie again one day in heaven.
Tears with, prayers for, and love to the Spohr family today.
.-= Mary P (Barnmaven)´s last blog ..Random Crap Tuesday V. 4.6 =-.
I am one of the many people all over the world who was touched by Madeline’s short life. Thank you, Heather, for sharing her with us. She is a precious soul, and even now she’s making a difference for mommies and daddies and babies everywhere.
I am so sorry for your loss.
I wish mere words from the countless people who adored Maddie and care for you and Mike could take away your hurt.
I think of you often. Wishing you peace and strength.
.-= Allyson´s last blog .. =-.
Maddie and your entire family inspire me to love and live to the fullest everyday. I never knew I could truly love a child I had never met. But I do. Her big blue eyes, halo of blond curls, and beaming smile are forever ingrained in my heart. I think of you all everyday, and especially today.
.-= Jenni Williams´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday: For Maddie =-.
heather & MIke, my heart aches for you. Thinking of you today and wishing you comfort.
I too have been following your family’s journey and pray for peace for all of you.
Maddie really did touch many and we all love differently and hug our children tighter because of what you share with us. Reading the comments today I realized I am wearing purple and it has to be a sign she is around watching over you all.
Love to you all..
Thinking of all of you today as I am always and sending lots of hugs.
(((HUGS))) from Florida
OOHHH Sweetie….don’t you see what an amazing Mama you are? Look at all the pictures, video’s and documents you have recorded for your girls? Because of you, we all not only know Maddie but we have all fallen in love with her, you, Mike and Annie too and Heather……we all care so deeply about all of you!
You are a great mom and Mike is a great dad. You both are a great friend too. You lend me support and show me kindness and you remind me, you are here for me even when some of my other friends are not. How do I thank you for that?
Keep being the beautitiful person you are and always will be.
Take Care,
Your Friend,
Jenn
Much love to you all.
Thank you for sharing this gorgeous letter that I wish you never had to write.
xo-z
.-= Zakary´s last blog ..Merry Easter =-.
My thoughts are with you and your family today & everyday. Extra Big Hugs to you all.
love and hugs to your whole family – especially to Maddie.
I think of you every day, but especially thinking of you on this day…thank you so much for sharing and for all you do for babies.
.-= Gail´s last blog ..Colds and Babies =-.
Beautiful letter from a wonderful mom. Much love and hugs!!
It is strange looking at the picture on this post. Maybe it is because she looks so much like the moosh but in my minds eye, Maddie is older to me now. I’ve been following your blog since she passed but still, I imagine a bigger little girl playing with her sister and laughing joyfully.
Our prayers are with you and your family!
.-= angela´s last blog ..The Earn or Burn Challenge has begun! =-.
I’m losing the battle of fighting back the tears. I miss Maddie so much, I hate that your family-any family-has to endure the pain of living with only a memory. You all have shown such courage and strength, sharing your ups and downs, and now raising litle Annie. I don’t know that I would have been able to do it. I Love Your family more than I can express, and that must sound odd coming from a stranger, but reading your blog, learning about you, Maddie, Mike, Annie and Rigby makes me feel like we’re good friends. I know that April 7 will always be tough, but I hope as time goes on that the memories of happiness and Maddie’s one of a kind laugh fill the day. I know that somewhere she is missing you all so very much. Take it as easy as you can today and smile knowing that Maddie is smiling, too. Lots of love and hugs,
Kristen in NC
Extra hugs to my boys today, courtesy of Maddie. My heart hearts for you but I hope you know how much love is out here surrounding you.
I can’t imagine the pain that you and Mike go through everyday. I wish this was just some horrible dream.
Wishing you strength today and everyday.
Words cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. I first heard of you through other bloggers. Somehow I ended up here a while back and have been following diligently. I can’t imagine what you are feeling. Loosing someone so precious you never get over. I hope in time you can find a way to move forward with Annabel. You are so fortunate to have her, she is truly a blessing.
hugs. to this day … my girls talk about the day we wore purple to remember her.
she (and you guys) have sent such a strong message throughout the world … and such an important one.
thinking of you …
.-= jen´s last blog ..i wish i had a nice little title for this post. =-.
Your grace is continually astounding.
Thinking of you all, and your sweet, sweet Maddy, today and every day.
Hoping you find peace.
I’m wearing my purple today and thinking of you all.
Just wanted you to know that I’m saying a prayer for you today. I read your blog every day and can’t imagine what you must be going through, but a girl from Oklahoma is praying for you and your family!!
Not a day goes by that I dont think of Maddie.
Thinking of you all today… and everyday.
* love and hugs *
Sending love. As always.
.-= Christine´s last blog ..Spring has sprung. Unfortunately. =-.
As I was logging in to type this, my oldest woke up and clambered into my lap. He’s almost 5, and is all arms, legs and crazy hair this a.m. I had to quickly wipe away my tears so he wouldn’t ask why I was sad – it is too early to have that kind of discussion, although we’ve had it before and he knows who Maddie is.
I just wanted to echo what so many have said – that we are all thinking of you and surrounding you with love and support, today (and every day).
Hugs to you all!
Jessica in SoCal
Hugs and love on this challenging day. A great tribute to a wonderful little girl.
Thinking of Maddie today..
Thinking of all of you today. HUGS.
My heart is breaking and my eyes are filled with tears!:( I miss you to Maddie. I miss watching you get excited with Joy .. I miss those big blue eyes and that smile that lights up my screen. My prayers are with all of you.. Hugs,
What a beautiful letter to your sweet little girl. Thinking of you today.
.-= Melissa´s last blog ..Lola’s Easter Diet =-.
Dear Heather,
I don’t know you other than through your writings and I have never left a comment before. But I felt prompted to tell you that I am one of the people who has been affected by Madeline. I think about her every single day. I hug my children more because of her. I pull up her picture on your website and tell my children about her. I’m one of those people you wrote about today.
And I am holding you close in my heart today and every day…
My heart breaks for you as much today as it did a year ago.
Like you said to Maddie, her life has touched and changed the lives of so many others and she will never be forgotten.
Thank you for sharing her with us. Big hugs to you and your family today.
.-= Jennifer´s last blog ..Signs, signs, everywhere signs… =-.
Oh Maddie, you have touched so many lives, sweet girl…you are so missed in this world and always will be….
Thinking of you today and everyday.
I started reading your blog one year ago because I saw some postings on facebook and wondered what they were about. I have been addicted ever since. I have read the archives and looked at all the pictures and have been so touched by you, Maddie, Annie, Mike, and Rigby. I think about you every day and give my husband daily updates. I have never commented before now but I just wanted you to know that you have impacted my life in a very positive way–changing the way I look at the world and my family. Thank you so much for that.
I am so so so sorry you have to go through this. You are such a strong woman and an amazing mom, and your love for your daughters will carry you through.
Alisha from Philadelphia
I’m 28, not married, don’t have kids (well I have the 4-legged kind). For the 1.5 years I’ve been reading your blog I feel so incredibly blessed to have had an opportunity to get to know Maddie even if it was through the cyberworld. I’ve told my friends and family about her. I’ve become more aware of premature births and have donated through Maddie’s charity. I am and forever will be touched by Maddie, you, Mike, and Annie. Thank YOU for letting us into your lives. Thank you for sharing the joy and the heartache. Thank you for letting us grieve with you.
Sending you love and hugs today.
Sending our hugs, love and prayers your way. Thank you for sharing your girls with us, we are all truely blessed to “know” them and you!
.-= Ashley´s last blog ..Hi ho, hi ho, it’s off to work he goes =-.
That was a beautiful letter I, along with many others, wish you didn’t have to write today.
Thinking of your entire family today.
I woke up this morning thinking about you, Mike and Maddie. Sending hugs today.
.-= Kelly´s last blog ..Tears and A Loss =-.
beautifully written.
hang in there.
Remembering Maddie today and everyday. And yes. A ZILLION.
(((HUGS)))
Thinking of you, Mike, Maddie and Annie today, and every day.
I’m sure that Maddie is smiling and laughing, reading your letter.
We all love you, Maddie!
Heather and Mike,
As I drove to work this morning I thought of you and your sweet maddie. Today is a difficult day but I want you to know that people all over the world are keeping you in their thoughts.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us…
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Josey
I went to bed thinking about you last night, and I woke up thinking about you this morning.
I wish I could have met Maddie, she seems like one of the most magical, special little girls.
We haven’t forgotten your special girl.
.-= Law School Wife´s last blog ..Wait. Have you seen this? =-.
She has changed me. For life. For always. Sending love to you and Mike and Annie and mostly, to Maddie. <3
.-= Jamie´s last blog ..Shirring! You Should! =-.
I have been thinking about what I could possibly say or do for you on April 7 that would matter, that might help.
But all I can say is that somehow, though I never met Maddie, might never meet you and Mike and Annie, I am overflowing with compassion and love for the 4 of you, not just today, but always.
Always.
Sending you, Mike, Maddie and Annie tons of love and hugs today.
.-= Issa´s last blog ..Monday five =-.
Oh how I wish you didn’t know this pain. I can feel the love you have for Maddie in this post, and in everything you do. Maddie and Annie are so lucky to have you as their Mom.
I love you sweet friend.
.-= Kim´s last blog ..Random Bits =-.
Heather, you are such a wonderful mom. Maddie and Annie are lucky to have both of you as parents.
I rarely comment, but I can’t stop thinking about you and Maddie today. My heart breaks for your family and I am so sorry you lost your precious daughter.
Thank you for sharing your story, and for reaching out to help other babies in Maddie’s name. You are an incredible person. Thanks to you, Maddie will never be forgotten, and other babies will have a better chance at life.
Love and hugs.
Heather, I have been reading your blog for the past year and love, love, love it… I am thinking about you & Mike today, and hope that you are comforted by the memories of your beautiful, vivacious, lovely Maddie, and that Annie’s love will bring you comfort and peace. Warm and loving thoughts from a stranger across the miles.
Always praying for your family.
Coming into work today, I remembered a year ago when I signed on and saw the terrible message letting us know what had happened…then my computer crashed. I almost threw it across the room in a panic to get back on, in denial of what I saw, but through my tears, it was real. I hadn’t known you guys long but you and Maddie have a way of making people fall in love with you and feel like you have been friends forever. I am so grateful to have met you, to have met Maddie, honored to know people like you and Mike. I admire you guys, your strength, your courage, your compassion. I wish so badly that I could shelter you from the pain, esp. today. I wish that this never happened because it flat out sucks. I miss Maddie, I love her and her new lil sis very much. I know I speak for hundreds, no thousands of people when I say that we will never forget those eyes, that smile, that bubbly personality, the lovely Maddie. Bella and I send all of our love, strength and comfort to you, mike, annie and your families. I know your bases are covered but if you need ANYTHING, an ear, a shoulder, a giant slurpee, I’m here. Love you guys very much. xoxoxoxoxoxo, Tricia
Oh, poor sweet Heather.
This was beautiful, and I know you had to do it. To let Maddie know what’s going on now….
We love you. We love Maddie,
.-= Alexandra´s last blog ..Hasten, Children, The Hour is Nigh =-.
Yes, Heather, you’re right. There are probably millions of people out there who are thinking of you today, me being just one person who has never commented before but who has been moved to tears by your love for Maddie. Thinking of you xxx
Wearing purple today for Maddie in Ontario Canada – I smiled when I got to work this morning – at least 5 other co-workers were wearing purple as well. I know (well at least I assume) they don’t know about Maddie and the significance of wearing it today but I liked that it turned out that way
Thinking of you guys today.
Thinking of you all today and everyday! xo
Just beautiful.
I’m wearing a shade of purple today, in honor of your girl.
she has and will continue to inspire millions. she will never be forgotten heather. love and strength to you and your family on this challenging day.
Awww heather, that is the best picture I have seen of the two of you. So cute and funny and happy. I so wish you still could play with her and be silly. And you are a wonderful mommy!!!! Wearing purple to the gym today and thinking of you all. Hugs!! Samantha
Oh, what to say…just tears.
I am stopping.
Right here.
Right now.
This moment is for Maddie.
Thinking of you today and always. I wish I had some words to ease your pain. Lots of love from KY
http://apaprikao.wordpress.com/2010/04/07/madelinealicespohr/
.-= Anjie´s last blog ..Maverick Monday =-.
Just sending love and hugs to you today. There are no words.
The first anniversary of this kind is always the hardest. It must have been a day that you were dreading. And the worst part is that the grief will not disappear when the day is over.
No words. God bless you. We remember Maddie every day.
.-= Jamie M´s last blog ..Success =-.
Wearing purple and thinking of Maddie today. <3 hugs <3
Thinking of little Maddie today, and often. I never met her, and I doubt I will ever meet your family but I feel so lucky to kind of “know” you all from your blog. I have definitely been affected by your maddie and she makes me a better mom too. HUGS! (PS. Wearing purple and dressing my daughter in purple today!)
Heather,
You do not know me. I first heard about your terrible loss from Matt Logelin’s blog. I have followed you and your family’s story for the last year. I did not know Maddie, but mourn for you and all that love her and knew her today. There are not words that can ever be said to help ease your pain. I hope that you are able to find some comfort knowing the people, who don’t even know you pray for you every day.
Warmly,
Erin Dedrick, Tempe Arizona
I knew this day was coming. You talked about it and I knew. But I didn’t know I’d be taken straight back with you to all the moments I was lucky enough to share with you guys. I’m so grateful that I held Maddie and got to kiss her little cheeks. I am indebted to you that I got to see her smile and play and mow down cake on her first birthday. And, really, although I will never get over it, I’m happy that I was at her memorial service. I have been stressed over this day all week and now that it’s here, it’s as bad as I thought it would be.
You don’t have to be strong for any of us because we are here so that you can be weak. We all love you and we all love Maddie and that, will never change.
Today and every April 7th, TO MADDIE!
xxoo
.-= Stefanie´s last blog ..Don’t Get Drunk Friday’s: Jennifer’s Story =-.
Thinking of you today and remembering your beautiful Maddie, and sending you and your whole family wishes for peace and comfort.
.-= annacyclopedia´s last blog ..the return of annacyclopedia, angry dork =-.
There just are no words. Sending much love you and your family’s way.
.-= Pattie´s last blog ..Photoblogging: Positive =-.
Every day I think of all of you. I come here to catch up on how my friends are doing. I knew today would be the most difficult of days for you. My heart is with you always.
Even though Harrison and Maddie never met, every day when he watches Sesame Street and we see Abby Cadabby come on I turn to him and say “There’s your friend Maddie’s favorite character Abby Cadabby!” Her spirit lives on.
Love,
Karri
Sending some extra love your way today. I think that Maddie would be so excited about the number of people she has touched, and she would be so proud of your bravery and honesty and grace this past year. Thank you for sharing Maddie and Annie with us – you are my hero!!!
No one could have said it better.
(((Hugs))) from here, today and always.
.-= jen´s last blog ..leavin’ on a jet plane coach bus =-.
I also am wearing purple in honor of Maddie today. Thinking of you and sending hugs of support from MI.
Thank you very much for sharing your sweet little Maddeline with us. She was so beautiful and wonderful. I’ll be thinking of you and your family, and of course, little Maddie today.
Thank you very much for sharing your sweet little Madeline with us. She was so beautiful and wonderful. I’ll be thinking of you and your family, and of course, little Maddie today.
Heather,
All of my love, thoughts and prayers are for your family today. I will think of all of you with lots of love and hugs all day today.
Melissa
Thinking about you guys today!
Unlurking for the first time to say, what a support you and your husband are, and forever will be for families who are going through similar tragedies. Maddie will always be remembered, her time on earth was short, but her influence was not. I mean, I didn’t even know what cause the March of Dimes supported before I began reading your site, and now it has become a goal of mine to volunteer at my local hospital with sick kids. A life, no matter how long or short, is a life. My condolences to you and your family on this very tough day.
We miss you, Maddie.
.-= Nanette´s last blog ..365 days later =-.
Love to your family, love to your Maddie, your words touch so many, know that I do hold my daughter more closely some days just because …
Love to you and Mike, Annabel & Rigby. I thought about Maddie before I went to bed last night and I woke up thinking about her this morning.
Thank you for giving the world the beautiful, sweet Madeline. Her life has definitely impacted millions of people in numerous ways: the babies who will benefit from the MoD money raised, the parents getting Friends of Maddie NICU packs, the legacy of love that will be passed down by parents who hug their children more and cherish every day with them (impacting generations of people!), the bloggers who’ve read and shared her story, the people on Capital Hill who heard your/her story and the people who will be affected by them knowing that story (millions right there!), all the people who heard about her on the news, not to mention all of your family and friends who know her…I could go on and on. Her life has made a difference! I treasure that I have been able to know her through your blog…she will always have a special place in my heart. Much love and hugs to you, Mike and Annie today and always.
I’m thinking and praying for you all today, just as I have each day for the past year. I cannot imagine what you are going through- it’s not fair, it’s not right, it shouldn’t be this way.
I had the most beautiful dream the other night. I dreamed that I was at the park, pushing my two kids on the swings. We looked over, and there was Maddie, on a swing, with a pretty yellow dress on. She was so happy- you could see it not only in her beautiful smile, but also in those gorgeous eyes of hers……. I remember telling my kids what an amazing little girl she was…. that she IS.
Your family has touched so many lives. You make me want to be a better mom and for this, I thank you.
I wish you peace and comfort on this journey you are on. Know that you and your family are in the hearts and prayers of so many people out there.
Today is a horribly sad day but I hope that you take a moment to go outside, look up at the blue sky and feel the warm sunshine on your face and know that your baby girl lives on in our hearts forever.
Take good care. We’re thinking of you
-Stephanie J.
I always read but never comment…thinking of your family today.
xx
She is loved by millions. I’m one of them. All my thoughts are with you today.
.-= anymommy´s last blog ..How to spot a mother of four =-.
It has been amazing to watch your grief process transform, twist, and turn over the past year. It has provided hope to many, understanding to many, compassion to many. Maddie’s still very much alive in all of your stories & in all of our hearts, and your growth as a mother, and as someone who is grieving – it has just truly been an honor to witness your resilience, strength, and everlasting love for your daughters. It reinforces my own faith in the human spirit & the power of the bond between parents and their children. Thank you for that.
<3 Thinking of your family & always sorry for your loss.
.-= kalen´s last blog ..Resistance is Futile =-.
What a beautiful post for your beautiful daughter. I hope Annabell brings you some measure of comfort on what is sure to be a very difficult anniversary.
Oh Heather. I think about Maddie so often. And I’ve been dreading this day, not sure I could read what you would write. Your writings on Maddie break my heart in both wonderful and horrible ways. I do, indeed, hug my daughter more often because of Maddie, and I’ll be thinking of you all day today.
Love you.
.-= Undomestic Diva´s last blog ..For a flower always in bloom… =-.
I stumbled upon your blog on this exact date last year and it has forever changed me. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you and your lovely family. I have never suffered anything like this, but I hurt for you as if to ease some of your pain. Heather you are an inspiration and a light in my life. I read your blog daily as if I am chatting with a close friend. Although I am only a junior in college your love and devotion to your sweet girls makes me want to be a mother, the best mother that I can be someday. I want you to know that your darling Maddie will always be loved and not a day will go by when you and your family is not in my heart.
Thinking of you today. Amazing how a year can seem like an instant and an eternity at the same time.
Love to you all.
This is so SO beautiful. I wish you had your little girl with you today to hold and to hug, but maybe she’s up in heaven looking down on you now, holding hands with my sweet son and all of the babies gone too soon. She is so beautiful.
.-= Heather´s last blog ..Poser =-.
I along with many others all over the world am thinking of you and your family and sending as much love as people can over the internet. I also am wearing purple in memory of your beautiful daughter. Not a day goes buy that I do not think of Maddie and your family. Hugs
Thinking of you, Heather and Mike and Annie.
Have my lavender candle burning for Maddie and for you since I woke up this morning.
Your story has left an imprint on my heart and Maddie has left her sweet sweet impression on this world in so many ways, a ripple affect that continues to expand.
Love to you, Susan
I have been reading your blog for about a year now but have never left any comments. Some friends posted Maddie’s video online and I was drawn to it. I can’t say I know what you’re going through. I have never lost a child. I’m not even a mom at all. But I am a wife, dog-owner, sister, daughter, friend, a human being and a lover of real human stories (not to mention great writing). And because of all of that, I can appreciate what you share with everyone and can from time to time, relate to your feelings and stories.
I just wanted to let you know that even though we have never met or had a conversation and I am not a parent, I have gained a lot from following your blog and “getting to know” you guys. I think about life and love just a little differently because of your family. I was recently in a cemetery and there was a grave for a little one who passed away in 1978 at about a year old. There was a doll on the grave. I later learned that the family still visits every 6 months or so to bring a new toy. I might not have understood this, I might not have lingered there for a moment, if I had never read your blog. I thought about you guys when I saw it. And not only about the pain and loss but about Maddie’s big, bright smile too… imagining what the smile of the child I was standing before may have looked like. And I’m sure I’ll think of you all when I have my own children. And even if for some reason I stop reading your blog, I won’t ever forget your family.
So, I just want to thank you for sharing. And I want to let you know that even though some of us may not be able to directly relate to your story and your emotions, it is such a wonderful gift you’re giving to allow people a glimpse into something that isn’t often spoken about. Understanding each other and what different paths we all travel in this world… it’s an amazing thing and takes away a bit of the loneliness in life.
Thanks again, for sharing your joy and your sorrow. It helps us all appreciate, understand, relate to others, and put words to our own joys and sorrows.
Thinking of you both and Maddie today.
Much love
x
prayers & love for you, Mike, Annie, and Maddie
Love you.
.-= ally (adil320)´s last blog ..Madeline =-.
Dearest Heather, my heart breaks for you and Mike. Everyday that I am allowed into a small slice of your grief and happiness I feel honored. I pray that one day the peace that surpasses all understanding will find you.
Mitzi
I know this had to be so hard to write. It was hard to read. My heart aches so much for you guys. Especially today. Sending you love.
xoxo
.-= avasmommy´s last blog ..365 =-.
My hugs and love you you all on this most difficult of all days. I’d like to say that things will get easier with time, but there are some wounds that are far too deep to truly heal. And for that, you have people who love you and to help you hold it all together.
.-= Nancy´s last blog ..The Best Purple Giraffe Ever =-.
My thoughts are with you and your family today, Heather. I will wear purple today in honor of Maddie and pray that on this day, one year later, you can find the happiness and good memories of Maddie in the midst of the tears.
That is truly beautiful.
Your beatiful, beautiful Maddie….love surrounds you even more today.
wearing purple today, thinking of you and sending love.
.-= bemytomato´s last blog ..chick-a-rita. =-.
As happens so often when I read about your sweet girl, I am in tears. I hate that this happened to you, and to her. I think about you and Maddie often…and yes, she has inspired so many people to not take things for granted. I just wish that inspiration hadn’t come at so great a cost. Thinking of you.
crap i miss that kid.
.-= moosh in indy.´s last blog ..maddie day. =-.
I’ve been thinking of you all often today. And praying hard for you.
I am thinking of all of you today and sending you wishes for peace and comfort.
Thinking of you, Mike, Annie…and especially your beautiful Maddie today. Your family is always in my prayers.
I never told you this. But I think today is the day. You don’t know me. But Maddie means a lot to me. The day that Maddie died, just so happened to be the day I found your blog. I wasn’t drawn to it because of the blog posts unfolding that day. Something made me click on a link and boom – Maddie was suddenly in my life. I was 8 months pregnant with L, and I cried with you. I prayed for you. I listened to “Falling Slowly” and thought of Maddie and the struggle you were about to go through. Up until L was born, Maddie was with me. A little girl I had never met was my angel.
2 weeks after she was gone, I was having a hard time sleeping. I looked over, and there, twinkling like a star was a purple sparkle. A playful purple sparkle, playing in the shadows of my room. This makes me sound crazy, and I wish I could explain it, but I think it was Maddie. Maybe not the whole of her (as she was with you) but a piece of her, visiting everyone who was thinking of her that night.
Maddie will always be in my heart, and you all with always be in my prayers.
.-= Megan´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday =-.
Just beautiful. And inspiring. And yes, your Madeline has made me, and countless others, better parents. What an incredible legacy. Thinking of Maddie, and your whole family, in Toronto today.
.-= Mia´s last blog ..The Things You Say =-.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Always…but especially today.
.-= mrs chaos´s last blog ..I Should Just Apologize Now For the Mention of Puke =-.
i wish i had some words, any words, to express how much my heart aches for you. you are amazing, heather. so brave and inspiring. i am sending you and mike the biggest of hugs today and blowing kisses up to maddie. xoxo
I am thinking about you and your family on this day. In honor of Maddie, I will kiss and hug my kids more today and forever. God bless.
Thank you for sharing. Sending good, tearful thoughts to you.
.-= Nicole´s last blog ..Making pita no PITA =-.
My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to guys.
Thinking of you all. I have a feeling that Maddie is watching over you every minute. My heart and thoughts go out to you today and every day.
.-= Lisa´s last blog ..Global Warming is Real =-.
Amazing words Heather, they made me cry and cling to all that being a mother is, my heart hurts. We will be thinking about Maddie today, as we do almost everyday. I may have looked silly, but Carter and I stood in the driveway this morning waving to the sky to say “hi” to all the angels, especially Angel Madeline. Carter blew them a kiss. It made me smile. Sending you love and courage today.
I only know you all through your blog but I have been following since last year and I think of you all every day. It seems creepy but I assure you its not. I’m so sorry you have to go through this. I’m so angry your beautiful Maddie is not where she should be and you are right-you have made me hug my children more, not get so mad when there is a mess and remember each and every day that life is so fragile and so freaking unfair. I hurt for you today, I cannot pretend to know your pain – I can only imagine it is a billion times more painful than the loss I feel for a beautiful little girl that you have been so generous to share with us and for that I thank you and I wish I wasn’t across the U.S. because I would give you a big hug.
Thinking of you and your family today.
Baie liefde en drukkies xx
translated“lots of love and hugs”
I read daily, but don’t comment often, because I never feel I have adequate words. Today is no exception. I just want to say my heart aches along with yours. Maddie, you are beautiful and truly missed. Heather, Mike, and Annie, hugs and love from northwest Indiana.
I cried last night before bed thinking about today and what you would be going through. I know there’s nothing any of us can say to make this day easier but I hope you feel some peace knowing that there are so many of us who love and care for you and your family. Most of us didn’t know Madeline but we loved her. You are right that we think of her often and definitely hug our babies tighter.
Thank you for sharing Maddie with us from the beginning and continuing to share with us now. She will be with us always.
Thinking of you and sending hugs from Illinois.
~Tiffany
.-= Tiffany´s last blog ..My lil flower girl =-.
I love you guys so much. Maddie is incredibly lucky to have you as her mom. xoxo
.-= Meghan (AMomTwoBoys)´s last blog ..Seasons Of Love =-.
I’m one of the millions of people who are thinking about you. I wish I could take every ounce of pain away from you. I’m so very sorry that you have to go through this. Madeline was so very lucky to have you both as her parents. Lots of love, hugs, kisses, and warm thoughts to you and your family today. You are loved.
Thank you for this post, in all its wisdom, pain, and love. Love to all of you from the Hernandez family in Chandler, Arizona. You have affected all our lives for the better.
Praying for you and Mike today. I can not imagine your pain but wanted to tell you I am praying for you. Your letter was beautiful and I am sure Maddie is smiling down on you today giving you strength.
Cathy
What a beautiful post. I’m so very sorry that you had to have a reason to write it. Your sorrow has made me appreciate my kids more this past year. Many thoughts and prayers go to you and your family today and all April 7ths to come. Much love, Jenn
I can’t find the words.
I can’t find my keyboard through all the tears.
I could tell you that I am so sorry, a gazillion times and it would never completely display and convey my sorrow for you.
Just please know that my heart breaks for you everyday, this day especially.
Your daughter was amazing! She captured my heart and it stays just that way, captured. She will forever be in my thoughts.
Much love to you and Mike on this very difficult day.
.-= Jenn´s last blog ..Great Expectations for Jake =-.
All my love and prayers to you and your beautiful family.
.-= samantha jo campen´s last blog ..Considering a polygraph =-.
Sending all my love to you, Mike and Annie today…
*Hugs*
.-= BakerGirl´s last blog ..More Decor Love =-.
Just another one of the millions here. Thank you Maddie, my boys have a better mom too, because of you.
I’m wearing purple today for Maddie. The other day I saw an Abby Cadabby shirt and thought of her, and wished she could be in your arms. Sending so much love for your family.
You really know how to touch that part of the heart that creates tears…
(((hugs)))
All love to Maddie’s amazing family.
.-= Kelly´s last blog ..One Year Gone =-.
I’m thinking of you all today and loving and missing your beautiful Maddie. Thank you for sharing her with all of us.
Dear Heather, Mike, Annabel and Rigby,
Please find comfort in knowing that your beautiful girl has touched the lives of so many. I think of you all so often and wish your lives were not filled with this pain and loss. Maddie will remain alive so long as you share her spirit together and with all of us who care so deeply for you (even though we’ve never met!)
On this day, I am thinking of you all and remembering that beautiful smile!
~Liz
There aren’t words to ease your suffering.
All I can say to you is that I weep with you, hold the memory of your daughter close, and remind myself daily that we have no control over the time we have in order to make each moment count.
Thank you, Maddie, for teaching me to hold my children closer to me. I will give each of them an extra kiss today, and a high five from you!
Huge puffs of love being sent your way…
Thinking of you on this day…
I just want you to know that I am thinking of you, your family, and your Madeline today.
Lovely tribute on a terrible anniversary. Thank you for making this about love and hope .
I too found your blog from Matt Logelin’s website, and have been following it for more than a year…. maybe 1.5 years?
I have never met you, and don’t think I ever commented on your blog, but my heart goes out to you. I too am a mom to a Madeline (Maddie). She is 2.5 years old, and probably my WORST nightmare is to lose her someday. It is the worst thing in the world. I even told my husband that losing Maddie would be worst than losing him, even though I love them the same amount. She is apart of me. She came from me, and my job in life is to protect her and raise her the best that I can.
My heart goes out to you today and I wish I could help you feel better today, but there really isn’t anything to say, except that everyone is remembering her today and thinking of you and your family!
I am hugging my girls harder and kissing them longer for you, Mike, Maddie, and Annabel.
.-= Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing]´s last blog ..Commitment & Remembering #maddie #hope4anissa =-.
Much love to all of you today, and always. I wish I could take some of the heartache away
.-= Mariah´s last blog ..Fantasy Land =-.
There are no words. Just I’m sorry.
.-= Melody´s last blog ..I’ll let that visual marinate for a bit =-.
Heather,
I bawled like a baby reading this because I write a letter like this once a year to my best friend, my grandma who passed away 3 years ago. I can not imagine the emptiness and pain you feel every day, but you and your family are so blessed for having Maddie with you for the time that you did. Many hugs to you! Stay just as strong as you can for your new daughter!
Love,
Ashley
It’s true, Maddie is in so many hearts. I see her through out the day in so many beautiful places, a reminder of how special she was. Sending you much love and healing today, thinking of you, Mike, and Annie.
Thinking of you all from across the oceans.
Sweet little Madeline, you are in my heart…
I have no words to tell you that will take away your pain. I just want you to know that I feel your pain, on some level, because I am mom and I know there is nothing more horrific than losing a child. Your beloved little girl will forever live in all our hearts because she has absolutely touched us all. Her picture, her beautiful face, big eyes and curls will always be around, in our hearts. In our memory. And I do believe you’ll be reunited with her again, and some day, she will play with her sister, her mommy, and her daddy together in paradise. I believe this with all my heart because that is what would keep me going every day. You are such a strong woman. The best mom. And you have the best daughters. I’m so so so so so sorry for your loss. Everyday.
.-= Loukia´s last blog ..TOP TEN things blogging has taught me =-.
Thinking of you on this sad day.
It’s true, Maddie has affected many, many people. I know I have cried many tears over her for you guys.
I wish we could talk your pain away.
Sorry, TAKE your pain away, not talk. Sheesh.
I don’t even know what to say except you will always be beautiful to all of us Maddie.
Sending much love your way.
This makes me so sad because April 7th is my husband’s birthday and I will always remember Maddie.
Thank you for such a sweet post. You are very right when you say that she has made many parents hug their kids tighter, cherish the moment, etc. because I am one of those parents.
I don’t know your religious views, but I prayed for you last night and this morning. I hope that you are able to honor Maddie’s memory today. I can’t imagine how difficult this day must be for you.
.-= Rachel´s last blog ..The rest of the trip =-.
Heather, I’ve never met you but I can tell you are an amazing woman with a wonderful family and I am thinking of you today. Maddie was a beautiful, wonderful little girl and I will always remember her because of what you have shared on this blog. Thank you.
Sending lots of thoughts to you and your family today.
I hope you all find the strength, love, and peace to get through the day.
.-= Karen´s last blog ..Easter Egg hunt at the Zoo =-.
What a beautiful letter. I know Maddie heard every word of it. She is somewhere close to you. Heaven isn’t as far away as we think. Our loved ones are close. I just know it.
.-= Katrina´s last blog ..Our Easter Celebration =-.
Oh, forgot to mention …yesterday I bought a really neat camera bag online that looks like a purse and I had a whole bunch of colors to choose from. I saw the purple one and just knew I had to have that one. I instantly thought of your Maddie, of course. (afterall, blue is MY favorite color, so it would have made more sense for me to buy the blue one) But I bought the purple one. See? Do you see how she lives on in our thoughts and in our daily actions? I know it’s not good enough, not nearly, when she should be here with you. But please just know that your girl lives on in our hearts and minds. I hope this gives you a little bit of comfort on this day, to know so many of us continue to be reminded of Maddie in our everyday lives.
.-= Katrina´s last blog ..Our Easter Celebration =-.
Thinking of you today
I wish there were words that could express how much my heart aches for you. It is just not fair that your darling girl is not here with you.
I am so grateful that you had 17 months with that little angel, but it was SO not long enough. Never enough.
I also wish there was something that we could all do to ease your pain and to carry you through this day. The only thing I can think of is to remember your amazing daughter, to cherish every moment with our children, and to do all we can to help the MoD and FoM. I wish there were more to do. I wish there were some way to bring her back to you. It is just not right. Babies belong with their mamas.
Love and hugs and prayers for you all, today and EVERY day.
I forgot to add- Happy Angel Day, Beautiful Maddie Moo!! You have forever changed me, and so many others. You will NEVER be forgotten. Not in a million years!
Oh Heather… I have no words.
Sending lots of thoughts and love your way.
Thinking of you all today and praying for your peace.
Even though I am SO very sorry that she’s not here with you on earth, I know she makes a beautiful angel…
.-= Elaine´s last blog ..Weighty Issues =-.
Oh Heather,
My heart hurts for you and Mike. Even for little Rigby. I’m so sorry you lost Maddie. She is an incredible little girl, and I continue to share the memory of her with others, each and every day.
You and your family are truly an inspiration.
xoxo
.-= Sara @TomTheGirl´s last blog ..The Famous Madeline: A Tribute =-.
I’m so sorry you lost your sweet baby girl. I cried at your description of her last hospital visit. She was lucky to have you and Mike and your love for her- you made her short life a happy one.
Thinking of you today. Much love to you all.
.-= Sarah´s last blog ..At Sixteen Months =-.
Heather you are with out a doubt the most amazing mother I have ever encountered! Thinking of you all on this day!
Thinking of you today especially.
Love and prayers for your entire family on this day.
Me and my girls will become ‘Friends of Maddie’ today as well… thank you for sharing her with us – - you will never know how many people Maddie has touched but surely it’s more than you ever imagined.
Thinking of you today and always….wearing purple for Maddie today.
Thinking of you, Mike and Annabel today. I’m so sorry for your loss. Maddie touched my life and so many others.
You are the mom that Maddie, and now Annabel deserves, and so much more.
Much love,
Erin in Texas
.-= Erin´s last blog ..Why Facebook is awesome. =-.
That was beautiful, Heather. Thinking about you and Mike today, and always.
Because of your Madeline, the favors at my upcoming baby shower will be in support of the March of Dimes. Her perfect little face (and charity) adorns my website, and she reminds me to be grateful for every single day.
Hugs.
Beautiful post. I am in tears. I have no words to express my sorrow and grief for you and your family. Please know that, even though we’ve never met, I think of Maddie often and am sending my love, thoughts, and prayers for you today.
Thinking of the Spohrs today with tears in my eyes ~
There’s purple everywhere I look today. Like the earth itself is remembering your Maddie.
Thoughts and prayers for you and your family today.
Gah, I can’t find any words.
I am a stranger but so thankful for you and your Madeline (and Mike and Annie too). I think often of you, always wishing you well.
The purple hyacinths in my garden suddenly bloomed a few days ago, bigger and brighter than I can ever remember them being. I follow your blog and send good thoughts your way often. All my love to you and your family.
Sending love and peace your way.
What a wonderful letter to Maddie. You’re very right — she has certainly become friends with us in this house, in addition to the countless other lives she’s affected. Sending hugs and strength and love your way.
.-= Two Makes Four´s last blog ..Because It’s Been A While =-.
we love you.
Thinking of you all today and yes ever since I started reading your blog, I hug my daughter a little closer and try to be patient as well as thankful for what I have xxx
I think about you guys every single day, but you have especially been on my mind today. Thank you for sharing Maddie with all of us. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!
.-= Heather´s last blog .. =-.
I hope the kind words and love shared here dulls the pain a little. Maddie is loved, and will continued to be loved forever. Continuing to send loving thoughts to your entire family.
All of my thoughts to all of you this day of all days.
You are all loved!
Sending you love today.
Remembering Maddie’s beautiful spirit, smile, expressions, heart, and family.
Love from Minnesota.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful, beautiful Maddie with us all. Thinking of you, dear Spohr Family, on this day. Maddie’s smile on my computer screen has brightened many a gloomy northeast Ohio day!
I am not sure what to say but I wanted you to know that you all are in my thoughts. We all wore purple today to honor Maddie.
My Family are thinking about you all today. Although we have never met.
.-= Desiree´s last blog ..Black & White Wednesday =-.
Remembering Maddie today, tomorrow and always!
Remembering Maddie today and always… My little one and I are wearing purple today in her memory. Love to you, Mike, Rigby, and the rest of your family as you grieve this day…
Thinking of you today as you remember and celebrate Maddie’s too-short life.
.-= Elizabeth´s last blog ..I can see without glasses! =-.
I want to reiterate what you said about Maddie’s impact on so many thousands (if not millions) of us out in the world. Her beautiful smile, and the way that you and Mike have made her live on through your stories and memories have made such an impact on my life as a mother. I really believe that you have made me appreciate my role so much more, have reminded me to kiss and cuddle and love up my little guy as much and as often as I can (even if he does reject it or push it away from time to time)!
Maddies DOES live on. Her spirit and her love is present in you, in Mike, in Annie, and in all of us who share in the stories of your life.
Thank you for helping to shape my perception of being a mother. Thanks you for sharing.
I feel your pain today and all days, I cry tears for all of you, but I wear purple with pride and love in my heart, and will be walking in San Diego’s March for Babies later this month in her memory.
God bless you all.
My heart is broken for you. Broken in half. My Mady will be 1 on the 24th. I will think of your Mady everyday. #blogfia
xxxoo supah
I wish there were words strong enough to hold you up today. I hope seeing how many people love you and your sweet Maddie help you in some way. Thinking of you today and always and sending lots and lots of love!
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..For Maddie =-.
My husband knows who Maddie is. My two year old daughter sees her photos and she smiles. Because of Maddie I do hold my daughter closer, longer, more often.
You are a strong woman, a strong mama, even if you don’t feel like you are.
Much love to you and your family, Heather.
.-= Heather ´s last blog ..I Spy Something Green =-.
So much love…what a legacy for Maddie. This is why prize-winning books and critically acclaimed movies are often about grief and loss. We learn how to be the bravest, the strongest, the kindest, the most loving we can be when tragedy strikes. Thank you for sharing your journey. It can only help the rest of us be the best parents possible too.
I read your blog almost daily, but I don’t think I’ve ever posted a comment. Just wanted to let you know that you are being prayed for today. I can’t imagine how difficult this past year has been. God bless you all!
.-= Katie´s last blog ..Another miscarriage… =-.
I am so sorry. Those are the only words I can think of yet they just don’t feel like enough.
.-= Robin´s last blog ..Keep on Going =-.
Thinking of you and your family today. I’m so sorry.
I just happened upon your blog for the first time. I may not have known about Maddie before today, but she has a piece of my heart now.
I don’t believe I’ve ever posted before, but I read daily.
Maddie, as well as You, Mike, Annie, and Rigby are all very much in my thoughts today.
Thinking of you today, thinking of Madeline today, aching for your family that this is even a truth you have to face.
Thinking of you today and of course your beautiful Maddie….
Sending all of you love today, on this most difficult anniversary. Know that Madeline is thought of often especially by this stranger.
.-= Jamie´s last blog ..Walking a Fine Line =-.
Thinking of you and Mike today. I remain so sorry for your loss. Your Madeline is beautiful in her photographs and you are a wonderful Mommy. Thank you for sharing such a touching and honest post with us, your readers. I’ll never forget Madeline. Sending love to you and your family.
Sweet Maddie….always thought of….always loved….never forgotten.
.-= Java´s last blog ..Happy Birthday Venti!! =-.
Love, kissies, and wishies all coming from my heart!
So much love being sent your way. I have been thinking of you guys a lot more than usual lately, waiting for this day, knowing how hard it would be for you, wishing there were something I (or anyone) could do to make it different. You and your family are always in my thoughts, and in my heart. We may never ever meet in person, have any type of relationship at all, but you will always be in my heart. Big big HUGS, and lots of love!
*tears*
(((HUGS))) to you and much love also!
Also, that is an adorable picture!
.-= punkinmama´s last blog ..happy easter =-.
Hi
Anything anyone can ever say to you will be so inadequate….it’s hard to find any words to do you guys justice.
You have done incredible work here, documenting the life of your growing family. We all appreciate it and look forward to your stories and memories shared.
My heart – well it simply breaks for you. As a mother I can simply not imagine – I can not stress this enough…I can not ever in my life as I know it imagine for one single second what you and Mike and the rest of your family have been through, and are still going through, and will continue to go through. Only fools can romanticise that the death of a child becomes easier with time.
You are an absolute inspiration. In writing this blog you teach thousands, if not millions of people, important lessons about ceasing the moment, taking time for that extra kiss, cuddle, moment of time to take with their family. You are creating a time capsule for Annie and your other future children. A huge wealth of information, stories and photos about their big sister. She will never be a mystery. It’s all here for them. It’s so special and thoughtful and sometimes it must be so hard for you.
I have thought about you and Mike today. I hope you are both as OK as you can be. Keep strong, keep supporting each other, keep those memories alive.
All my love,
Fiona x
no words just lots of love and hugs for you
Dear Heather,
I wish I would have known about Maddie when I would have read on Matt’s Blog about a playdate with both Maddie, I wish I wouldn’t have know about Maddie in such sad way. But I’m so glad since one year I found you and your family. You are such an inspiration for me and someday I hope I will be an amazing mom like you. Your both girls did pick you and we know why.
You know its a stupid comparaison, but last year on april 7th, we had to put my dog to sleep, he became sick by suprise. He was my best friend and he helped me get throughts my teenage years. The last blanket that my dog had was a purple one, Maddie Color. So today I wore my purple scarf for your little girl and my best friend.
Thinking of Maddie today, as I was yesterday, and I will tomorrow.
Praying for you today. Bless you.
Have been thinking about you all week leading up to today. Please know how true it is that your Madeline makes us all hug our kids tighter, relish the moments and appreciate the everyday. I mean this with all of my heart, I would not be nearly the mother I am today without having followed your story this past year. There are times like now that I literally feel physical pain for your loss, but I keep reading because I want to hear your story and I want to remind myself that everyday is such a gift. Thank you Heather and Mike for opening up to us and making us all better people. Your Madeline lives on in so many hearts. I cannot tell you how many times in the hard moments of the terrible twos I have reminded myself how lucky I am to have EVERY moment – you have given me that perspective and it is an amazing gift.
I’m remembering Maddie today and considering how much her life has impacted thousands of families. She was amazing and so are you. Thinking of you now and sending all my love.
.-= Caroline´s last blog ..One Year Later: Maddie and the March of Dimes =-.
I’ve been thinking of you all week and especially today. Sending tons of love your way. So wish you were celebrating the anniversary of Maddie’s trip home from the hospital instead. Thanks for sharing your journey with us this year. You are an amazing Mom to both Maddie and Annie, and you have taught us all so much.
Thinking of all of you today.
Sweet, sweet Madeline…heaven is surely more exciting with you running around. Say hello and happy birthday to my mom for me, her birthday was yesterday and since she was so young when she passed let her know that I still miss her, 17 years later, and that her first granddaughter, who is just a few days older than you, has been nothing but pure joy and love here on earth and I know in my heart she picked her out especially for us.
Take care sweet girl. Keep smiling that amazing smile.
Maddie, we took a walk today, sent you a balloon and blew you some bubbles to play with. We think of you often and pray for healing for your mommy and daddy.
You have touched so many lives and have changed ours forever.
many hugs and love from me and my family to you and your family.
.-= Kim ~ CraftyMamaof4´s last blog ..Quick Last Minute Easter Bunny Craft =-.
There are no words to show you how much people care and would love to take away your pain. I am amazed by your story and courage every single time I read your blog. Just know that Maddie has touched so many lives and is and will be remembered!
I will be thinking and praying for your family today… Word’s cannot expression the words, but know that we remember Maddie. Hugs from Oklahoma.
.-= Marla´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday =-.
I knew the tears would flow…you & Mike & Annie & your extended family have been in my thoughts & prayers constantly over the past week. I can only imagine how difficult this season is for you. Your letter is so touching & profound.
While I never had the pleasure of meeting Maddie in real life, I am one of the millions whose life has been touched & changed by that sweet little girl with the stellar smile and enchanting eyes.
Yesterday, we visited the tulip fields here in WA & the acres of purple tulips brought Maddie to mind. On the way home, as I sat next to my sleeping niece, I remembered a post you once wrote about capturing every little bit of Maddie on film…and so I took pictures of Teagan’s ears, eyes, cheeks, etc, all the while thinking of Maddie too.
Sending you & yours much love today, especially.
(((((hugs))))
~Mary
Hope it’s ok, but I posted in honor of Maddie today… http://musingsfromauntiem.blogspot.com/2010/04/sweet-madeline.html
.-= Mary´s last blog ..Easter Brings Eggs! =-.
You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m going to play Chutes and Ladders with my little boy (who is recovering from a tonsillectomy) right now…because of Maddie.
Dearest Heather & Mike: Sending you love and hugs today and always. I’m glad you mentioned in your letter just how much impact Maddie has had on others. I do hug my children tighter, longer and with more meaning than I ever did before and I know you do the same with Annie. You have two special little girls and they have two very special parents.
Heather,
Because of your words and your efforts, your beautiful little Maddie is, and will always remain, a brilliant force in this world. I never met Maddie, and yet I think about her every single day.
Your grace and courage in the aftermath of such profound tragedy are truly inspiring.
On behalf of the L.A. March for Babies Family Teams Committee, thank you for sharing your Maddie with us.
“If tears could build a road and memories guide the way, I would walk straight up to Heaven and bring you home again”
I will hig my loved ones closer tonight and have Maddie on my mind.
We love you sweet Maddie.
To say your posting today took my breath away is an understatement…..you could say that even moreso about yesterday. I wish so bad I could hug you, sob with you until you ran out of tears. We both know you never will though.
You, Mike, Annie, Maddie and Lil’ Miss Rigby are in my heart daily. I hope there is a purple sunset for you today and you see thru Annie’s eyes that your sweet Maddie is still there with you, just not in the one way that you deserve her to be. She will always be your special child…the one you held for the shortest time, but have loved the longest. I’m so glad you have Annie to sometimes force you to only survive….just think of the place she will have in this world. She will live for herself and for her beautiful sister…..
RIP THE APRIL PAGE RIGHT OUT…..APRIL SUCKS!
Much Love,
Angela
“Breathe.
Listen for my footfall in your heart.
I am not gone but merely walk within you.”
~Nicholas Evans
My heart aches for you and your family. I pray you and Mike will find the strength and peace to get through every day but especially every April 7th.
Thank you so much for sharing Maddie with me. I never knew her but I miss her.
This made me think of you and your sweet Maddie:
“I carry you with me into the world, into the smell of rain
& the words that dance between people
& for me, it will always be this way,
walking in the light,
remembering being alive together.”
Keep breathing. And remember the love, love, love.
.-= Ash´s last blog ..The Berkshires have turned me into even more of a hippie, as if that were possible. =-.
Thinking of you all today and praying for you. Maddie will always be remembered.
I have prayed and thought about you today. I knew when i woke up what this day was. She was lucky to have you guys as her mommy and daddy, just as much as you were lucky to have her. Annie is lucky as well to have all of you! I have never met you or your cute family but I am one of the people who has been touched by your sweet Madeline!
Huge hugs and prayers of strength and peace. I found you through another blog I read, and even though there are no words that can make this “feel better” or “go away”, I wanted to let you know that I’m thinking of and crying for you, your husband, Annie and of course Maddie.
You don’t know me, but I’m thinking of you, Mike, Annie, and especially Maddie today and sending love your way.
Your post is beautiful and couldn’t have been said better (your a wonderfulo writer). Today’s post has brought tears to my eyes, and I am thinking of you always.
(((hugs)))
Maddie has touched THOUSANDS and I don’t even know you guys.
Love,
Michele Wallace
Heather,
Regarding your comment that Maddie has so many friends around the world – I never met you or Mike, I never met Maddie or Annie, I don’t even have any children of my own – but I have to tell you that I think about Maddie a lot. Her spirit is **huge** and lights up lots of dark corners for so many of us. Oh, how I wish she were here with you and her dad and sister, and I can’t imagine your pain today, but I do want to thank you for sharing her with us as well as for sharing your feelings and your process, which teach us so much about compassion and love. I agree with Jannette’s comment just above mine – “I never knew her but I miss her.” Thinking of you.
Catherine
Not a lot I can say today. I have been thinking about you guys all week though. Thinking about all the ways you’ve represented her to the world since last year, all the families you’ve helped. I feel like she has to be so incredibly proud.
.-= To Kiss the Cook´s last blog ..Bourbon Belly: Longman and Eagle =-.
You are so brave to share your journey through grief with the world this way. Maddie’s charm radiates through your pictures and words and you are doing her a great service by continuing to write about her. Annie will one day treasure these blog entries as they will bring her big sister to life in a way you’d never imagine. Stay strong and keep loving.
What a lovely post. I’m thinking about you and Maddie today, and I gave my girls an extra hug for Maddie’s sake.
May God comfort you and your family on this difficult anniversary.
~ Emily
.-= Emily´s last blog ..pasta primavera =-.
Thinking of you and your family today…
Sending out prayers for comfort on this very difficult day…
Maddie- We miss you. We love you.
Heather,
I’m so sad for your loss, and I’m sure I will always think of Maddie.
Thanks for your strength,
Lissa Lander
My daughter and I are wearing purple for Maddie as much as we can this week. I also want you to know that Maddie’s NICU story gave my husband and I courage when our daughter was in the NICU. Thank you, Maddie, for helping us to be brave.
None of that can make up for what happened, but I still wanted you to know. I’m keeping the four of you in my thoughts.
Beautifully written, Heather. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today. Maddie will never be forgotten.
Meghan
Lots of love and hugs. We went outside and blew bubbles today….sending love up to Maddie one bubble at a time
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..My Little Joey-Joe =-.
Thinking of Maddie today, and every day
Never forget.
Faith….Hope….Love….Peace.
Thinking of Miss Maddie today and always!! What a beautiful post, Heather!! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family ALWAYS!!
I’ve been thinking about all of you today and my prayers are with you. You’re so right…every time I think of Maddie, I hug my own daughter (born a month after Maddie) a little tighter. What a special little girl Maddie is and will always be.
Thinking about your sweet Maddie, and thinking about you all.
I am so very, very, sorry.
You and your family were one of the first things I thought of this morning.. It is true what you wrote to Maddie – thousands (if not millions) of people have been affected by her in the most positive way.. I have told my friends, my husband, my family about Maddie.. My little sister’s name is Madeline – She’ll be 21 this year.. and nearly every time someone calls her ‘Maddie’ I think of your Maddie too.. She will never be forgotten – I know it doesn’t bring her back but I hope it brings you some comfort to know that thousands are living and loving with Maddie in their hearts.
You all have been in my thoughts and prayers this past year. That will not change. Maddie always brightened up my day (she still brings a smile to my face) every time I see her pictures.
.-= Becky Mochaface´s last blog ..Tuesday Trivia: Stamps =-.
I don’t know what else I can add, but I wanted you to know I have been thinking of you guys all week. Maddie..is such a special little lady. I think about her randomly, and it’s so funny, because..she’s someone I don’t know. I didn’t know her, and I’ve only seen her through your website, but I feel like she has such a powerful spirit that she permeates everything.
You guys are INCREDIBLY, indescribably strong. Keep on keeping on. You are remarkable.
.-= Stephanie´s last blog ..uh, thanks? =-.
I am just so very, very sorry. Life is not fair. Maddie is such a sweet little girl … I love reading about her on your blog.
Hugs to you, Mike, Annie (who is just as sweet as her big sister) and the crazy dog!
I’m very sorry for your loss…
Love, Anne
There are thousands of people in this world grieving with you and your family today.
We will never forget Madeline.
Love,
Mindy
I have seemed to repeat myself over this year but honestly it’s because it’s true.
So many people love you, Mike, Maddie, Annie, and Rigby. I’m infinitely sorry Maddie isn’t here. I miss her and I never met her in real life so I can’t imagine what it’s like for you, family, and IRL friends. Just know you have an amazing support group here, 1 year later and for years and years to come.
Sending love and hugs like always.
The fact that you wrote a letter to Maddie today makes you so brave and strong. She couldn’t have had a better mother. I will never understand the pain that you are going through. Just know that I made sure to wear a purple shirt today, in honor of your precious daughter. And that you and your family will be in my prayers today, as I try to include you in my prayers every night.
<3 <3 <3
I cannot even fathom your pain. I have been reading about Maddie here & on many other sites. Such a beautiful little girl. I’m so sorry for what you and your family have been through.
Annie is gorgeous. Maddie would have loved her
I am sitting in here tears thinking of Maddie today. Huge hugs to all of you today. Wishing I could take away some of your pain.
As mentioned more than 500 times before me,
you and your family are deeply loved and so many are thinking of you on this day and sending you love from afar. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. I wish there was something any of us could do to ease you and your family’s pain.
Many hugs.
Been thinking of you today and am sending lots of hugs from North Dakota.
To add…
Thank you for sharing your Maddie with the world. It makes it all a little more bright.
All of my love goes out to you, your husband and your family. xoxo
No words can express my love for you today. Wish no words were needed.
I’m thinking of you and Maddie, of Annabel and Mike and of everyone who had the pleasure to know and love her. I wish you all peace and love on this day and all days.
Jenn
Prayers for peace for you all today.
Thinking of you and all of your sweet family today, including all of the extended family who love Maddie so much.
Lots of love to all of you today (and every day). Thinking of you.
Dear Heather & Mike
You are both so loved. I tell my husband about your posts, Heather, and I show him the pictures and video of Maddie. We also named our daughter Madeline, and what you wrote to your Maddie is so true – I read your posts about precious Maddie and it makes me love, hug, kiss and tell my Maddie how much I love her even more than I might have without reading your blog.
My heart goes out to you and Mike. You are both so loved.
Thinking of you all today.
My heart outs out to you all! x
Always thinking of you, especially today.
She’s not forgotten. Just so loved.
Remembering your sweet little girl today…
I just wanted to share how much I appreciate you sharing what you’re going through. I just lost my first; she had mosaic trisomy six. We lost her in the womb. Though I only got to know her for about five months, I still love her. I can only imagine how hard it is to get to spend years with somebody and then lose them. I like reading your entries because I see that somebody else is going through what I went through, and that it is difficult for them, too. (Not that I want you to be going through it … you know what I mean.)
Keep on posting!
P.S. Email me ifyou’d like the password to my blog posts concerning Annie.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today.
Sending love and hugs your way. Thinking of you, Mike, Maddie, and Annie today more than most days.
Big Hugs to you on this hard day.
Thinking of you and praying for you. Everything you said about what your daughter has done is so, so true.
I wore purple today and thought of your family throughout the day. I hope all of our support strengthens you and Mike. When you are down, remember how many people love Maddie and cherish her sweet face. Thank you for sharing her with us.
Love to you guys forever
xoxoxox
I haven’t stopped by your blog for a long time now, but I wanted to today to tell you I am thinking of you. You, Mike and Maddie have always been on my prayer list and will continue to be (and now I will go add Annabel – congratulations!)
My heart breaks for you today…and everyday that I read your blog.
hugs….
.-= Melissa´s last blog ..The Happiest Place on Earth… =-.
No words will stop the pain. But please, please know Maddie will NEVER be forgotten. Take solace in the fact that she has inspired so many and is an angel watching over your family, especially little Annabel
I found your blog through a Facebook post last year from a friend on my list and have been reading ever since. What a beautiful girl!!! And what an inspiration you are. I do hug my boys tighter because of Maddie’s story. I wish I could help so much more, but just know (as you already do) there are so many of us thinking and praying for your family always, but today especially <3
“Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die.”
Today, I sent a flower out to sea for Madeline. I hope when she receives it, wherever she is, that it brings her a smile.
http://i809.photobucket.com/albums/zz11/BookLover8332/2q0m04h.jpg
::: sniffle :::
I thought of you first thing this morning… and first thing yesterday morning… and I’ve been thinking of you all day… and I’m thinking of you still.
The letter was absolutely beautiful.
.-= Rebecca (Ramblings by Reba)´s last blog ..“Happy Birthday” greetings from my nephew Francis =-.
I think about your Maddie often. I remember her. I hold my kids closer, because of her. I wrote about her today, and turned my blog purple. All trivial, minute… But I just wanted you to know I think of her- and of you all- often.
.-= Marie Green´s last blog ..For Maddie =-.
Thinking of beautiful, wonderful, sweet Madeline today, and of her amazing family who loves her so much. My thoughts and prayers are with you today.
Thinking of you ALL today, and honestly, every day. Wishing you peace on this difficult day.
xoxo
Bryn
Yes Maddie HAS made me a better Mom. I read all of your words and every time no matter what time of day I find my children and kiss them. I hug them a little longer than normal and then I think of you and hope you know how very loved your Maddie is. Her story, your story has touched so many.
I remember the post about when someone asked you if you had any children and you didn’t know what to say. I wanted so badly to tell you to say, “YES, I am the mother to the most beautiful, wonderful little girl!” And now you are the mother to two.
I wish you peace Heather.
.-= Shirley´s last blog ..If Only =-.
Maddie you have made us all better mamas. Purple is all I have worn all week hope you like it.
.-= habanerogal´s last blog ..A Quickie Quitting Update =-.
Just thinking of you and Maddie on her angel day. What beautiful daughters you have.
There aren’t enough words, babe.
Just know I love you.
xoxoxo
.-= Loralee´s last blog ..Do you allow your children to believe in the Easter Bunny? =-.
I just want to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers today. I’m not a blogger, and I’m not a mother, but your story has touched me deeply. I came across your blog by chance, and like many others was moved by Maddie’s story. I’m just one of the thousands of typically silent strangers that is out there thinking of you today.
Love to you all.
Always thinking of you!
.-= Susan´s last blog ..Go ahead and judge =-.
Your words are so, so simple; so, so beautiful, and so, so moving. And Maddie would be so, so proud of you as her mother.
I love you so much today. i thought about you all day and vowed to read your post the minute i arrived at home… which i just did. I have never before made it a point to share a sad milestone with someone. but i believe that this particular milestone is one that needs to be shared… maybe somehow the burden can be shared as well, so that you dont have to carry it all on your own.
i’m proud to be one of the many many mothers who’ve been touched by Maddie. I continue to tell so many people about her, and about you, Mike and Annabel. Maddie is so lucky to be a part of your family.
i hope that you feel all of the love and prayers that are being sent your way, even moreso than every other day.
Although I was not fortunate enough to have met your beautiful Madeline, I will never forget her.
Oh Heather…I am so incredibly sorry for your loss and am thinking of you on this day.
Madeline is a beautiful little girl and it has been my honor to get to know her through your blog.
.-= Nicole(Nicoolmama)´s last blog ..8 years ago…. =-.
Wow! Maddie and Annie are so lucky to have a Mom and an entire family who adore them. Maddie feels your love!
I picture her playing at the park with the Baby Ducks and everytime you think of her or you kiss her urn or you run your hand over her picture she feels it. She stops for a moment and soaks up the love . . . then laughs again at the ducks.
Oh, my, April that’s the most beautiful thought. Thanks for sharing! I have chills now, to go with my tears….
Sending love and prayers to you and your family. As everyone has already stated, I love and miss Maddie too, even though I never met her. I like to think she’s the brightest star in Heaven, shining down on us all.
Remembering Maddie xx
My love to you and your family. There are no other words.
.-= Nina´s last blog ..Poor Little Rich Girl =-.
Thinking of you, Mike, Annie, Rigby and the rest of your families. Sending you hugs XXX
Thinking of Maddie and my heart aches!
I’ve been reading your blog for a year. I’m so sorry for all you’ve been through. I lost 3 pregnancies and been through enough to know that I can’t imagine what you’ve endured. While I never had the honor of meeting her, I miss Maddie too. You ARE the best mommy in the world.
So very sorry for your loss. But so glad you got the chance to feel such love.
thinking of you and your beautiful madeline today. she is missed.
I’m another of Maddie’s million of friends thinking of her today and wishing you and your family the peace and happiness you so greatly deserve.
I found your blog just under a year ago and have been checking in every day ever since. Each time I think to myself `I wonder how Heather is doing today’. Well, today I don’t have to wonder unfortunately. On what must be an incredibly sad day, your post was beautiful. And yes, I do cherish my son just that little bit more and hug him just a bit tighter when I think of sweet Maddie. Thank you Maddie, Heather and Mike.
xxx
Oh Heather, you’ve brought tears to my eyes again. Big wet “crocodile” tears (what we call my son’s tears). I feel sorry that a virtual hug is all I can do here on my couch. I will be sure to donate to Maddie’s cause in her and in your honour. Now, to wipe my tears and hug my special girl — like you said, Maddie has done (and continues) to do a lot for so many of us, thanks, too, to you! ((HUGS))
.-= Haley-O (Cheaty)´s last blog ..Monday Sundries: Of Boots, Yoga, Yemen & Fustifation (and More) =-.
Heather,
I found your blog about a year and a half ago through Anissa and always enjoyed reading about Maddie, especially as a fellow preemie mom. I have read often, but I’ve never commented, at first because I just didn’t have anything witty to say, and then because my words just seemed so inadequate after Maddie passed. But I wanted you to know that there’s one more person who is thinking of Maddie (and you, Mike, and Annie) often, and especially today.
Love to you and yours today. Every day.
.-= Heather, Queen of Shake Shake´s last blog ..Wine Strategy. I Gots It. =-.
I’ve ignored my reader all day because I didn’t want to read this. I just don’t want it to be true for you. I’m so sorry. No words. I feel stupid trying to even say anything. Sending love.
.-= Alicia @bethsix´s last blog ..I’m Pregnant! (Totally Kidding.) =-.
I’ve read this blog for a couple years now and have shed my fair share of tears. I have dreaded this day for you and simply wish I could be there to hug you (even if we are complete strangers). I thank you and Maddie for reminding me that every day with my children is a blessing and I cherish every moment with them. *LOVES*
I have been reading your blog for over a year..over from another one. Like others have said, I cannot believe it is possible to know and miss someone you never met, but yet I do. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.
Love to you, Mike, Annie, Rigby, and your whole family today, and every day.
And, of course, love to precious Madeline, sweet, smart, joyous, beautiful Maddie, always. She is so missed and loved.
xoxoxoxo
.-= Alison´s last blog ..Missing Maddie =-.
I just want to delete my comment. I hate it when people say they’ll hug their kids a little harder because of what you went (are going) through. I only said it in reference to your post. But I hate it. The cost has been too great for you. I’m sorry, Heather, those were the wrong words — a sorry attempt to find the right words. I’m angry and sad for you today. I just hope tomorrow will be a bit brighter, and that Maddie visits you in your dreams tonight and brings you peace and joy that you deserve.
Hugs….
.-= Haley-O (Cheaty)´s last blog ..Monday Sundries: Of Boots, Yoga, Yemen & Fustifation (and More) =-.
(((HUGS))))
It is a beautiful letter for your Maddie <3
We love you guys!!!
oxoxox
.-= sabrina in Philly´s last blog ..First flip flops =-.
I said a prayer for you today
And know God must have heard.
I felt the answer in my heart
Although He spoke no word!
I didn’t ask for wealth or fame
(I knew you wouldn’t mind).
I asked him to send treasures
Of a far more lasting kind!
I asked that He be near you
At the start of each new day;
To grant you health and blessings
And friends to share your way!
I asked for happiness for you
In all things great and small.
But it was for His loving care
I prayed the most of all!
– by Frank Zamboni
.-= Heather@Triple Blessing´s last blog ..Easter Weekend!! aka…a really long post with lots of pictures =-.
I am thinking and praying for you today, as we do everytday.
.-= sarah @caiafacraziness´s last blog ..Pack Your Bags =-.
Many hugs to you on this day and always. Maddie will always be special.
.-= kimberly/tippytoes´s last blog ..Easter With Extra Sugar =-.
I wonder what adventures Maddie had during her first year in heaven.
Love to you, Mike, Annie, and Rigby. You are never far from my thoughts.
I gave my boys some extra hugs today for your sweet Maddie. Love to you all.
Thinking of you and Mike and your family today and remembering your beautiful daughter.
How can we feel so much love for a little girl we never met? You have done such a wonderful job letting us all get to know Maddie. Because of that, she lives on. What a sweet, beautiful little girl! I wish she were still here with you. And for that I am so sorry. Hugs, thought, and prayers go out to your family today!!
.-= Candice´s last blog ..Toddler Birthday Party =-.
It has been said a million times before and I will reiterate how much we think of your whole family! You have touched us and Maddie is adored worldwide! Yes, it is pretty neat, but so unfortunate that you all had to become ‘well known’. I’m sure you would give everything to go back….Thinking of you today and always…Much love! Kevin, Suzie, Lexie, Keegan, and Ella…from across the miles
Thank you for sharing Maddie with all of us. I am a better mother because of her. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Mike and your families today and always.
Maddie has touched our family too. Keeping your family in our heart today, sending love and wearing purple.
.-= Sue @ Laundry for Six´s last blog ..Team WhyMommy’s Virtual Science Fair =-.
Missing and remembering your sweet little girl. Thank you for sharing your world with us.
Lots of Love to you and your family!
Thinking of you all today, sending love and warm thoughts. When I see the responses you get from this kind of post, I am so, so grateful for the internet and the communities of love that we can create here. Lots of love…
.-= Katie!´s last blog ..Keepsake =-.
Thinking of you and your beautiful Maddy today and everyday.
Your words are touching and heartbreaking, and I’m so sorry you ever had reason to write them at all. Please know that thousands of people…as you say, maybe millions…think of you and Maddie and Mike and Annabel each and every day. I wish you peace, and I hope that nothing but pure joy touches you and your family in all the years to come.
Love and hugs to you all today.
My thoughts are with you all, today & everyday. Maddie IS lucky to have you as a mom–and I don’t doubt that she helped Annie find you, and that they played together in heaven/the spirit world.
I was at @QueenofSpain’s blog recently, and a commenter left a beautiful story, about how his granddaughter told her family that she had played with her aunt in heaven before she came to be with them. Always wonderful to see stories like that!
http://queenofspainblog.com/2010/03/22/possibles/
Much love!
Dear Maddie, I never even met you and I still miss you. I hope that you’ll shine down on your family with happy memories.
.-= Jenny´s last blog ..Rambling Woman =-.
Thinking of and praying for your beautiful family today. Thank you for sharing so much with us.
I thought of you all and Maddie this morning. I wore purple for her. Love and hugs to you
Thinking of all of you. Your little Maddie has touched so many lives, she will never be forgotten.
You and your Maddie have had a huge impact on more lives than you know. You have made me a better mother – more appreciative of every minute I have with my daughter. You have also made me a better doctor to my patients. I am a pediatric specialist at a children’s hospital. Although I have always strived to be compassionate and respectful of my patient and familiess, I now see a Maddie in every patient, and you in every parent. I think it has made me a better caregiver. Thank you for this, and for so generously sharing yourself and your beautiful family.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. What a beautiful letter to Maddie. As impossible as I’m sure it is.. I hope you , mike, grandmom, & bampa fine some peace on this very difficult day.
Prayers go out to you and your family on a difficult day!
Maddie Math-
Ok so I’m assuming you have about a thousand more hits than comments. (??). If so, that’s about 1630 views today. Probably most of those folks have a child, or two, or four….in their life whether it’s their child or niece or whatever. So each of those people, we’ll say 1300 (just guessing how many actually have kids ??), today showered about three extra hugs and six extra kisses per little one (just gauging this on my numbers) just today thinking of Maddie. So that’s almost eight thousand (7,800) extra hugs (1300 times 3 extra hugs for average of two kids) and 15,600 extra kisses (6 extra kisses for average of two kids, 1300 times 6 = 7800 x 2 =15,600). So today alone, Maddie inspired somewhere in the neighborhood 8,000 extra hugs and 15,600 extra kisses just today. I have a feeling that is a gross understimate. But if you think about it, it’s pretty dadgum cool. And that’s just one day. I kissed and hugged my three about 5 times as much this week and was grateful for each minute. I also thought of you and Mike so much. I hope you know how much love there is out here for you.
Think of you and your family all the time. We miss you, Maddie!
Your little girl has left little tiny footprints on so many hearts…bless you for sharing her with us! May you find comfort and joy in your memories.
XOXOXO
Count me among the thousands of people who consider themselves better for having “known” Maddie and my own beautiful little girl as one of those who often gets extra hugs, kisses and patience “for Maddie’s sake.”
You are an amazing family. I hope with all my heart that today was more peaceful for you than anticipated.
Thought of you a lot today….i am so happy you have shared so much with us. I think about you and Mike and Maddie often….i hope today, through all the sadness you were able to remember how special and beautiful and amazing she really was. XOXO
Love you maddie moo. Today and always remembering you with a smile on my face. Heather and Mike love always to you and your family. Heather and Maddie because of you I’m a better mother.
You are so right about Maddie making us all hug our babies longer and tighter. WHAT a WONDERFUL GIFT she has given to so many babies.
We all love Maddie in this house. Parker loves watching videos of her and says “more more” when they end. It always makes me tear up when he says that. I think you and Mike are saying the same thing.
Love to you from all of us.
.-= sandi´s last blog ..missing my comedy relief =-.
Sitting here in tears rocking my 2 week old daughter. Maddie is so beautiful and has so much power…more of a voice than any adult. She is so loved and so is your family.
.-= Sarah´s last blog ..Double Posts =-.
Thinking of all of you today and everyday. I can’t fathom the pain of your loss and my heart aches for you. Maddie has definitely touched my life and I cherish every moment that I have with my girls. I planted beautiful purple flowers in my garden today in honor of Maddie. She is loved and missed by so many people and we will never forget her!
I”m glad that somehow I got to met Maddie. Her light shines in so many homes and we all are with you today and everyday.
Love
Liliana
Thinking of you today… I know Maddie is smiling down on her family, sending love & warmth. She must be so proud of you all.
.-= Amie´s last blog ..Alive & Walkin’… =-.
Thinking of you tons today! Thank you for sharing your sweet Maddie and Annie with the world.
We love you Maddie. Always will. My thoughts and prayers are with you Spohr Family. You are so loved.
Thinking of you two, thinking of her.
Much love,
L
It’s amazing that this pint-sized little girl has had such an influence on countless people around the WORLD!
I am so sad that beautiful Maddie isn’t here in your arms. You deserve to have her, HERE, and it just isn’t fair.
I am another one of those people who, through getting to know precious Madeline through this blog, has been made into a better mother. I know that tomorrow isn’t a guarantee with any of my little ones, and that I need to cherish every moment with them. Still, I wish that it hadn’t taken Maddie’s passing for me to learn this. It is so unbelievably unfair, and that will never change.
Every time I see an Abby Cadabby doll, I think of Maddie, every time I hear “Single Ladies” I think of Maddie… even when I see hand print smudges on my windows (with four kids, they’re everywhere!) I think of your World Famous Madeline.
Hang in there! Huge Hugs to you, Mike, Annabel, and Rigby
We went to Busch Gardens today, and I wore purple for Maddie. Then when we went into the new Sesame Street Safari, the first thing I saw was Abby Cadabby’s Treasure Hunt. I wish Maddie could have been there.
xoxoxoxo Thinking of you all day.
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I think of Maddie often though I didn’t know about her until after she was gone. Just wanted to let you know.
Sending love your way!
I think about Maddie every day. She was everything good and wonderful and dear and sweet.
Please know that because of her and because of you, I try and be kinder to people. Because when people are in public, I have no idea of the sorrows they might be carrying hidden in their hearts.
Thinking of you all today and remembering all that Maddie is and will forever be.
.-= Burgh Baby´s last blog ..Remembering =-.
Oh jesus, Heather. I just love you to bits. That’s all.
.-= Mr Lady´s last blog ..I Am Only A Poor, Humble Cockroach. =-.
May the love of your family and friends surround you today. May the love of little Annie give you hope. And may the love of Maddie comfort you always.
I don’t understand it, Heather. I can’t imagine the pain, the grief, the sorrow, the dread…
I’m praying for you tonight and hope that you feel surrounded with our love.
One Year ago she left us, but look at everything she left us with!
Jen (Mama to Quads)
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Thinking of your beautiful Maddie today…. and thankful for each day God gives us with our precious children.
I love you Maddie and I never even knew who you were. Thanks for filling my life with gratitude Maddie. See you in heaven sometime little one…………………………..
I can see why your blog won for best blog. It was the best and most moving I have ever read. You are a gifted writer. You have a knack for putting your feelings into words and they are not just your feelings, but the feelings of any mother with a sick child or a mother who has lost her child. So much of what you said, I have also felt during my daughter’s battle with a CHD, Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, and you probably said it better than I could. I will think of you and your family often. I am truly sorry for the loss of your beautiful little girl. I am very happy that you have added another beautiful little girl to your family. Perhaps her first word will be Maddie. Please take care.
I wondered how you would acknowledge this day, what words you would write, and nothing I could’ve imagined comes close to being as beautiful as this letter to Maddie. There are no words that are adequate or that can ever lessen the pain of your loss, but I hope the knowledge of all the hearts that have been touched, all the children that have been hugged a little more, all the people who are better for “knowing” your family and your story will bring you some comfort. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of your family and Maddie… I have read every one of the 300+ posts before mine and I am moved by all the words of love, support, and acknowledgement that have been shared, and the sheer magnitude of lives that have been and will be touched and changed because of your love for Maddie, her spirit, and your words.
It’s so hard to believe a year has already gone by, my how times flies. I so hope that you are filled with only sweet memories today of one precious little girl!
.-= Amys blah, blah, blogging´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday =-.
Thinking of you all today. Wishing you peace and that tomorrow will be a better day.
My prayers are with you and your family tonight. I’m sorry you have had to go through this loss.
I have been reading your blog for a year today. I have never posted because I wasn’t sure what to say. I am sorry that beautiful Maddie was taken from this world so young. First thing I did this morning when I got to work was read your post. I have been thinking of you and Maddie all day. Maddie & Annabel are both beautiful girls and they are lucky to have you & Mike as parents. Hugs & prayers for you and your family.
I think of you, Mike and Maddie often, and today more so than ever. Every time I wrote today’s date at work (and I write today’s date a lot!), my thoughts wandered to you and hoped that you would make it through this very difficult day as best as you can.
Wishing you peace, my thoughts are with you.
I think of Maddie daily. A little girl I never met, but one who has changed my life Immeasurably . I hope and wish for you a just a little bit of peace in this coming year.
We are one of those families who were touched forever when we heard Maddie’s story. Your unconditional and proud love for her also affects us and always will. What an extraordinary little girl, what a wonderful mother and father. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us, every part of it. We are so sad for you today, but hoping all those good memories stay with you always, and believing that they will.
Thinking of you, Mike and the rest of your beautiful family today and always. (((HUGS)))
Thinking of all of you today.
Just another voice echoing the fact that the world is a better place for the time Madeline spent in it.
(((Tears)))
For Maddie
&
All of you
who miss her
So sad for the loss of this precious girl.
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We all thought about Maddie today. She is missed by alot of people who never even met her, Heather. I am so so sorry for the pain that you and your family are going through. It is unimaginable. Just know that alot of people out there care about you and will be cheering you on for as long as you want us to.
I am sending my prayers and love your way. Maddie was such a beautiful little girl! You were so blessed to have her if even for a short time.
(((HUGS)))
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I like to think Maddie is up in heaven, smiling and spilling her love over her favorites: mommy, daddy, Rigby, and little Annabel.
We miss you sweet Maddie.
.-= Teri´s last blog ..wordless wednesday: my family =-.
Just another mama out here who has had you on my mind and in my heart all day….
My heart has ached for you.
You are so strong.
.-= Lee ´s last blog ..My New Venture – A Labor of Love and then Some =-.
I know it is late and you may not get this today but I wanted you to know I Started reading your blog just over a year ago and my heart aches for you today, you are so strong but I know even the strongest could use some support just know you and Maddie are both in my hearts and even though you don’t know me I would hold your hand today and cry with you if I could
thinking of you today, as always, but especially today. heartbreaking…
.-= Carolyn´s last blog ..Addie Walks & Easter Flops =-.
I found your story today from Aunt Becky’s blog.
My heart broke reading about your loss. There are no words to describe how sorry I truly am.
Thinking and praying for you, Mike, Annabel and Rigby, and your families. You are all in my heart and in my thoughts.
I dressed my daughter this morning in head to toe purple before even reading your story. I thought it was very fitting.
I wore purple today and I thought of you every time I wrote the day on something.
Lots of love for you both and your beautiful girls.
.-= Haley´s last blog ..Getting My Fill =-.
I never met your beautiful Maddie, but I think about her everyday, and miss her often. Your family will always be in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong.
Wow.. I just had to scroll for about 5 minutes on my iPod so I could comment! 600+ people have commented on this entry – a small percentage, I’m sure, of those who probably thought of Maddie today.
I don’t know you in “real life” but like the others here I am a long time reader.
A million thoughts & hugs go out to you, Mike, Annie and especially beautiful, precious Madeline.
God bless you, Heather. I’m so sorry.
I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too. I think of you all in silence, I often speak your names. All I have are memories and pictures in a frame. Your memories are a keepsake, with which I’ll never part. God has you all in His keeping, I have you all in my heart.
I’m one of the millions
We planted purple flower bulbs last year. They’ve just bloomed. I will remember and think of you always sweet Maddie.
Your stories of Maddie really have changed my life. She was here for such a short time, but she made a difference to the way I live.
Sending you strength and warm hugs and peace.
Since Maddie and my Julian are so close in age, I think about Maddie all the time. Julian does get a lot of extra hugs because of Maddie.
Thinking of you all, and grateful that you have shared your Maddie with all of us.
.-= J.´s last blog ..Busy Busy Busy =-.
I read your blog every morning but couldnt bring myself to read it yesterday. I thought about you and your family all day. Maddie touched so many peoples lives, its amazing. Thank you for sharing her with us and know we are all here to support you whether we know you personally or not.
oxox hugs to you oxo
I thought of Maddie all day yesterday. Tears reading this. Sending you more wishes for peace and lots of hugs.
I’m so sorry. My heart aches for you.
Hugs and tears in PA today… many many tears.
Hugs. I wore purple and thought of you a lot yesterday.
My heart breaks for you, Mike, Annie, Rigby and the rest of your family. I’m just so sorry. I thought about your family a lot yesterday. My daughter and Madeline are literally days apart age wise. I gave her a ton of extra kisses and huges yesterday thinking of your Madeline. Hugs to you all.
I’m so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful letter you wrote to her. I do not know your sweet angels story but will go back and read it. You are right. I will go home and hug my son a little tighter and give him even more kisses.
God Bless you and your family.
Oh Heather and Mike,
Thank God you have Annie. I told you a million times that Maddie sent her to you. Now you see why. God bless you both.. and Rigby too, who I am sure still see’s Maddie Moo.
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So much love in your writtings. So many beautiful memories and so many tears. I wish I could hug you. I wish I could fix what is broken. Only time and God and Mike and Annabell can do that. (with the help of us thousands, I hope)
Thinking of you today and everyday..
I came upon your blog today and sat at work and cried most of the day. You and Mike are amazing in so many ways. You are such a beautiful family, who will be in my prayers! What a beautiful child Maddie was, I can see the light in her smile. Annabell is a doll, she is absolutly beautiful!
Big hugs to all of you
My heart hurts. I’m so sorry you lost your beautiful angel last year. I cry and I’ve only read her story and looked at her pictures, I can’t even fathom your grief.
I love you both. XO
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thought of all 4 of you today
As usual, I thought of Maddie and your family today. I am a better mom because of her, everyday.
(((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
You have been on my mind so much over these past few days. I am So SO terribly sorry for the past 365 days. If only we had the power to change the past.
.-= Laura´s last blog ..Easter =-.
Heather, I’ve been reading your blog this last year (I think I discovered it through Matt Logelin’s blog) and I’ve never commented before today. I want you to know that many times I’ve cried for you and mourned Madeline with you though we’ve never met. And many times I have run upstairs to look at my sleeping 19-month-old daughter or run to give her a hug if she was awake…you are absolutely right. That is one of the many gifts you and Maddie have given the world. I only wish that Maddie were still here with you. It’s incredibly unfair that she has gone away. This entry had me crying so hard, but it was so beautiful. I don’t know what else to say other than I’m keeping all of you in my prayers.
Hope the tears I’m shedding right now carry even a moment of your grief for you. Thinking of you and beautiful Maddie always.
You, Mike and your family inspire me so much and in so many ways. I think of you often x
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You are right- I live across the Atlantic, in Israel, and I am shedding tears for your daughter. She was so lovely. It is so beautiful and true that she continues to be a living part of your family. Reading these posts has reminded me what life is really about, when all the small stuff is cleared away- that love.
I read this several days ago and the words still escape me to express the depth of my sadness for all of you. It all sounds so trite when I try so I will keep it simple. My heart goes out to you all, I love your family and will always carry a special place in my heart for Maddie. She is so radiant it takes my breath away.
It’s taken me many days to write this. I want you to know that I am sorry you had to write this post. I’m sorry you had to feel those feelings. I’m sorry she isn’t here for you to snuggle with… but most of all I am sorry that she doesn’t get to experience what an amazing mother you are. Thank you for sharing your story… you have made me a better mother.
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Vida’s 2nd birthday was on April 5th. I am a better mom because of you.
.-= Vaness´s last blog ..What Matters Most: Part I =-.
Come back, little one. Come meet your lovely sister.
Heather, I don’t know how you go forward. Sending you strength, admiration for your courage, and love.
Loves to you Heather and Mike…and Annie. My prayers are for you each day. xoxo
I was unable to read this on the 7th, but you were in my thoughts all day. I shed a few tears for Maddie and for You, Mike and your family.
I just wanted to let you know that your precious Angel Maddie had profoundly touched my life! I think about her often. She was such a beautiful baby girl! You and your husband are both so amazing, I cannot imagine what you have been through and I thank you for touching my life in the ways you have! Maddie will never be forgotten and this will be a wonderful tribute for Annie to see when she is older and learn about her amazing big sister and the impact that her life made on millions of people!
Vida’s 2nd birthday was on April 5th. I am a better mom because of you.
.-= Vaness´s last blog ..What Matters Most: Part I =-.
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