I always wanted a daughter. When I was pregnant, I was unapologetic about this. Sure, I suppose I would have loved a boy, but I WANTED a girl. When I found out it was Madeline in my belly, I couldn’t hide my glee. Some people are afraid of girls and all the drama that can eventually surround them. I wasn’t.
My pregnancy and her birth and first few months were hard, as you all know. I prayed every day that the three strongest women I knew would watch over Maddie and give her the strength to pull through. These women, my Great Grandmother Mary, my Nana Nancy, and my grandmother Mary Alice, were the most AMAZING women you could know, and I was blessed to be related to them. I can only think that when Maddie passed they were waiting for Madeline in heaven, and are now teaching her all the things I never could.
Madeline wasn’t a normal child. She had a life that was filled with more struggle and pain than ANYONE should have to endure. But yet, you would never know it just by looking at her. She WASN’T sickly or weak. She was so incredibly strong. She was SO happy. I used to joke that someone needed to tell her about all the war and famine in the world because it wasn’t normal to be so happy. It was impossible to be upset around her. I was laid off in October, and while it stung, it was an easy thing to get over with Maddie around. I am so grateful I got to spend so much more time with her.
We did everything together. Grocery store, shopping, errands, the park. I called her my pocket side kick, because she was so little and portable. She was my partner in crime and my best buddy. She was almost embarrassingly beautiful. Everywhere we went, people would compliment her beauty – her eyes, her smile, her golden halo of curly hair. Every time someone told her she was beautiful, I would whisper in her ear, “you are more than just your looks. You are smart, you are kind, you are happy. Remember that.” I didn’t want her to get a big head. Her brains truly matched her beauty, and I’m not just saying that. It’s been independently verified by numerous developmental specialists.
All that being said, she DID like to look good. I could hold up two shirts in front of her, and she’d pick the prettiest, cheeriest outfit every time. One of my secret cheesy joys was dressing like her – and be certain, I was dressing like HER, not the other way around. She had more shoes than many adult women – seriously – and if she came across an errant shoe on the floor, she’d try to put it on her foot. She loved having her hair brushed, and had figured out how to comb her own mop of curls. I’d already braced myself for the shopping and pampering bills that were to come.
Perhaps one of my favorite things about Maddie was her sense of humor. She was becoming quite the accomplished mimic, but her sense of comic timing was already impeccable. She could make me laugh with just a glance or a movement of her shoulder. Her laugh was infectious and melodic, and the expressions she had were priceless. If it was quiet for too long, I could count on her to break the silence with a “hiiiii!” or a “woooooow” or by her favorite move, putting her fingers between her lips while making noise.
She loved everyone. She would go to anyone that wanted to hold her – and EVERYONE wanted to hold her – she even broke in some of the guys out here. Just last week, she learned how to say UP! She just loved to be held, kissed, hugged, loved. She love to GIVE kisses, hugs, and cuddles. She was so loving. A month or so ago we were on an errand to Target. With Maddie in my cart, we cruised that store in record time. As we walked by the toy section, I was overwhelmed with the desire to buy her a toy. I walked down an aisle and found a small Abby Cadabby doll (from Sesame Street). I held the doll up to Maddie and said, “Do you want this, baby?” She looked at the doll, looked at me, looked at the doll…and then the biggest smile broke out across her face. She looked at me again as if to say, “REALLY?” I said, “Take her, babe!” And she grabbed the Abby doll with both hands and started kissing it. She kissed that Abby doll every day.
She loved her dog Rigby especially. While Rigby would sometimes eye Maddie with mild suspicion (unless Maddie was eating – then Rigby was ALL ABOUT her), I was constantly amazed by her tolerance of Maddie’s “love.” Maddie had a hard time realizing that fur tugs, eye pokes, and tail pulls weren’t welcome signs of affection. But yet, Rigby never snapped at her. The last night Maddie was home, Rigby snuggled up right next to her in bed and Maddie ate it up. I am so happy Maddie had that moment with the puppy she adored.
I have a lot of things I’m sad I’ll never teach her, milestones I’ll never see her hit. The first day of kindergarten, high school, college at USC, of course. She was GOING to be a Delta Gamma like me and her Auntie Monica, and all of her other aunties in spirit. I’d say I’m sad she never went on her first date but she had so many boyfriends already. She’ll never hold a baby brother or sister, lose a tooth, be cheerleading captain and the star of the softball team. But I am lucky. I don’t have many regrets from when she was with me. I wish we’d taken her to Disneyland instead of crummy California Adventure. I wish I hadn’t kept her away from Elmo for so long, that crazy red puppet. I wish I’d taken her to the MAC makeup counter and said, “I want THAT lip color in a longwear lip glass.” But that? Is all I regret. I am so lucky.
I’ve always felt like I was a better talker than writer. When someone tells me I am a good writer I always think, “Mike is the writer, I am the talker.” But I’m having a hard time talking. I’m having a hard time writing. I’m having a hard time being. My blog started as a way to keep my family and friends informed about my pregnancy and Maddie’s NICU stay. After that, I wrote so Maddie would have a record of her life. So that someday, when she went through the awkward and unjust parts of growing up, I could say to her, “Honey, you are so tough, this is nothing compared to what you’ve already faced.” And now… Well… WE have a record of her life. If she ever has a sibling, we will be able to say “THIS is your sister.”
Through Madeline, I saw the world, and the world saw HER. She made me who I am and has given me experiences I never even dreamed of. I’ve always known my daughter is special, I knew she’d be famous and make an impact on the world. You don’t survive a hellish introduction into life for nothing, you know. And I never, EVER imagined that her passing would be how she made her mark. But I realize…her passing ISN’T how she made her mark. It was her LIFE. Her life is what touched all of you, and made you love the little girl with the big blue eyes and the gigantic grin. It is her LIFE that I hope you will all remember when you leave here today, and it is her LIFE that we should celebrate and never, ever forget.
My sun eyed girl. Little Maddie Moo. You were all we ever needed. It is an honor to be your mommy. You brought out the best in me, and made me a Mom. I am so, so lucky to have had you in my arms and in my life. I love you with all of my being.
You will always be the daughter I always wanted.
The Tribute to Our Madeline from Mike and Heather on Vimeo.
You can read Mike’s tribute to Madeline here.
sierra says:
i’m in tears.
but the best, oh the very best kind.
absolutely beautiful. thank you mike & heather, for sharing your sweet maddie girl with the rest of us. she will live on forever ever in our hearts.
sam {temptingmama} says:
I love you.
That video. When I saw it last night I was sobbing. It’s no better today.
Sweet sweet dear Madeline. Rest in peace baby girl.
Neil says:
Thank you for sharing this post, this blog, and Maddie with all of us.
Neil’s last blog post..Condolences
Backpacking Dad says:
Love.
Backpacking Dad’s last blog post..Because I’m a good dad…
kristin/kwr221 says:
Oh, I’m so sorry.
She was a beautiful girl and sounds like a delight!
kristin/kwr221’s last blog post..Mars Landscape?
Loralee says:
I wish so much I could be there today with everyone. Please know I am there is spirit.
I already started this with tears and then the pocket sidekick sentence brought full on crying and now I’m sobbing so hard I cannot see the screen.
She is beautiful. You are beautiful. THIS is beautiful (You are NOT just a talker, friend.)
Her life was a beautiful thing and I am so damn glad you have this record of it.
More love and hugs than I can ever send you.
xoxoxoxo
Loralee’s last blog post..Choosing not to breastfeed.
Jen Berger says:
I’m in tears. Thank you for allowing us all in to your lives and being able to be there for you in your time of need. I will always remember your Maddie.
Jen Berger’s last blog post..The Many Faces of Leah
In Due Time says:
You and your family are still in my prayers. Thank you for sharing this with us.
In Due Time’s last blog post..Emptiness
Jessica (at It's my life...) says:
It’s hard to type through my tears, but I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for sharing this time with us and for letting us in like this at this terribly difficult time.
Your daughter was, is, special and I feel blessed to have “known” her through your blog.
She holds a special place in my heart.
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Auds at Barking Mad says:
It heartens me to know that my Joshua has a beautiful new friend up there with him, Maddie.
All our love.
The Barking Mad family in Maine
kristin/kwr221 says:
What is that song on the video? I love it.
kristin/kwr221’s last blog post..Mars Landscape?
Michelle and Maverick says:
Exquisite… God Speed little girl.
I know you are overhwelmed with support and until now I had no words. My son Maverick and I were at the Griffith Park playdate back in early March and I remember Maddie so vividly…she was radiant. I was more over with the Single Mommy bunch, but I remember seeing her smile and thinking to myself that she was beautiful and so happy. She was captivating to watch….I can still see her on the blanket having so much fun.
I’m so sorry is so inadequate…but she WAS special and I noticed it….
Warm hugs to you and Mike….
Michelle and Maverick
Michelle and Maverick’s last blog post..The Bunny has Landed…
JustShireen says:
Beautiful
xoxo
mandy says:
so very beautiful, heather. you are most definitely a writer. my hope from the very beginning of your posts was that you would create a book about maddie. it would be a best seller. much love to you, mike and your families.
knoxvillepixie says:
Heather, this post is absolutely beautiful. I cannot fathom the loss you and your husband are experiencing at this time and I don’t really even know what to say. I have never met you, or any member of your family, but have kept you all in my thoughts since I heard the news. I wish you and your family the strength to get through what I can only imagine is the most difficult time of your life. Thank you for your candor and willingness to share your family and your precious Madeline with the world. She, and you will not be forgotten
Miss Grace says:
Sending so much love to you. Your daughter is beautiful. She had a beautiful life. We will remember her life.
Miss Grace’s last blog post..Remembering Maddie
Midwest Mommy says:
Heather the video is beautiful. You and Mike have been in my prayers all day. She will always, always have a special place in my heart and will never be forgotten.
Midwest Mommy’s last blog post..3 years, two kids, same shirt.
Keonte' says:
Beautifully written.
Heather and Mike, you are truly committed to Maddie. May she watch over the both of you during this time. God has blessed you with an Angel…forever.
Continue to show your strength, and inspire the rest of us how to be better people.
Thanks for sharing your world.
Keonte’’s last blog post..Madeline Alice Spohr
Amazing Greis says:
Absolutely BEAUTIFUL! Maddie, you will be missed by the WORLD!
Amazing Greis’s last blog post..Today an ANGEL was laid to rest…
Suebob says:
Big strong hugs. I feel honored to have gotten to witness this journey. I wish I could wrap your heart up in love for the time ahead.
Sarah @ BecomingSarah.com says:
I am so deeply and profoundly sorry for your loss. My heart has shattered a million times over reading this and I wish I could erase this pain. There are no words, so here is a *hug* instead, a hug a million times over a hug. Your family are in my thoughts and prayers and hopes.
I never knew you before this, never stumbled across your website or fell in love with your flickr photostream, but I have been unbelievably touched to read about your beautiful baby girl throughout the blogosphere. If it helps at all, I’m a total stranger and I will never, never forget Maddie.
Sarah @ BecomingSarah.com’s last blog post..27 Weeks: Still.
daysgoby says:
That was beautiful. She made me smile.
daysgoby’s last blog post..gimme the jellybeans and nobody gets hurt
Angie says:
I regret that I never commented on your blog before, because I’ve read you for more than a year. So simply, thank you for sharing…your message, your love, your Maddie. My daughter & I specifically wore purple, just for Maddie Moo. We’ll be here for you, praying for you and Mike.
Molly says:
Thank you for sharing her with us, for letting us get to know her. She will never be forgotten.
Molly’s last blog post..Maddie
Ashlie- Mommycosm says:
A fellow blogger, LouCeel, shared the definition of Ndinombethe recently. It is an African Proverb meaning, “As I go, I am wearing you.”
Although we have never met and I merely lurked on your blog, I feel true spirit of Ndinombethe. You and your sweet daughter are now a part of MY story and I will carry you with me as I go – remembering her sweet and beautiful smile, your grace and strength and the amazing power of the virtual arms surrounding you during this heartbreaking time in your lives.
All the best to you.
jodifur says:
you are astoundingly brave. There is no way out of this pain but through. I hope you get through.
jodifur’s last blog post..Sadness
Crystal Thomas says:
I am so sorry to hear about Maddie. The world certainly seems less bright without her in it. I will keep you and Mike gently in my thoughts and prayers over the coming weeks and months. Your tribute to your daughter is beautiful.
Kirsten says:
I can barely type because the tears are streaming down my face. She is so beautiful.
Kirsten’s last blog post..Every Little Bit Helps
hopefulmother says:
Blessings and PEACE to you and your family. You and Maddie have touched many many hearts in the world.
hopefulmother’s last blog post..New Post- Apr. 10
Michelle says:
You are truly blessed to have known such a beautiful daughter. And your right, Heather. She is more than just physical beauty. You can see the inner beauty just shining through those eyes and that smile.
Am praying for you both.
Karen (miscmum) says:
Am thinking of you and Mike today. I have no words, and even if I did they wouldn’t be enough. Sending you love and hugs xxx
Karen (miscmum)’s last blog post..Indestructible McDonalds Balloon
kristabella says:
This was a beautiful post for a sweet, beautiful girl. You are right, we love her so much because of her life.
Thank you for sharing her with us.
Love you!
kristabella’s last blog post..Sadness
Bailey says:
What a beautiful post. I admire your strength to write with such grace and humor in such a horribly difficult time!
Lianne says:
You and your family have been in my heart and my prayers. You don’t know me, and I don’t know you, but you are being carried in the hearts and hands of thousands of strangers.
Thank you for letting us share a little bit of your burden.
Lianne’s last blog post..Miscellaneous Whatnots
Nic says:
Beautiful tribute.
Beautiful daughter.
Beautiful life.
Thank you for sharing her.
The Queen says:
I want you both to know,, you are in my heart … the first thing in my thoughts… and I just …………..I don’t know…………….I just wanted you to know that..
Kim says:
My heart breaks for you and Mike. Though I know there are no words, I hope the supportive arms of the internet community will lift you up a little. Just know that there are tons of people here thinking of you guys.
Kim’s last blog post..The power of the internet
Amy Stone says:
What a beautiful tribute to Maddie….she is everything she was and is because of you and Mike. You surrounded her with love and joy. Your words are beautiful and you are such an inspiration to me Heather. I will love Maddie and keep her in my heart forever. I have been reading and commenting on your blog for one year, and Maddie changed my life, she changed my heart. Thank you for her.
Amy in Oregon
Write From Karen says:
There are no words …
Thank you for sharing this with us.
Write From Karen’s last blog post..Remembering Maddie
theresa says:
Thank you so much for sharing your story and your daughter with all of us. She will always be in my heart.
Mrs. Messiness says:
Your words are a true example of grace.
Mrs. Messiness’s last blog post..no words.
Ana says:
A beautiful tribute. You did right by her.
Chantel says:
Heather and Mike,
I only have regrets that I never met Maddie Moo in person. Her smile is infectious, her big blue eyes making everything right in the world. It isn’t fair and I can’t understand why and how….they are taken away from us. It’s higher than us and maybe it’s not for us to understand.
Maddie loved you both. You made her life happy and full of joy. I know she is now looking down on you and will forever be your guardian angel!
What a beautiful tribute! I will always remember Maddie and keep her in my heart forever.
Chantel
Fairly Odd Mother says:
I’m in tears typing—this is lovely. Your family is in my heart and thoughts. I have a feeling that Maddie was such a happy child because she was thrilled to have such amazing, loving, awesome parents.
Fairly Odd Mother’s last blog post..What This Bunny Made
Amy in OHio says:
Thankyou for sharing this with all of us Heather. It made me laugh and cry. I’m thinking of you and Mike and Maddie and I wish wise words would come.
Amy in OHio’s last blog post..For Maddie
catnip says:
Thank you so much for sharing Maddie’s life and love with us. We are better for having known her. Much love to you Heather.
catnip’s last blog post..37
cindy w says:
This was so beautiful, I think you did your girl proud. Lots of love, prayers, and hopes for peace and comfort.
Lala says:
so so so so very beautiful, your girl and your tribute. I cannot imagine the loss and I’m so very sorry.
Darla Wentz says:
That was absolutely breathtaking. I am so terribly sorry for your loss.
But Why Mommy says:
That was so beautiful, thank you for sharing. My heart is with you and Mike.
K-Line says:
I have no words for such a loving, gorgeous recollection of your little girl…
K-Line’s last blog post..To The Unfortunate Woman At Bungalow the Other Day…
Bec says:
All my love Heather
Bec’s last blog post..For Maddie
Florencia says:
You are amazing. Maddie’s was amazing. I loved her! Whenever I needed a little pick-me up I would mosey on over to your blog to read about her and see her pictures. When you went to the Ellen Show I tweeted you that you should have Maddie there with you. I just knew she’d steal the show, literally! I won’t lie. I was looking forward to one day meeting you girls in person and have Maddie and my daughter Lucia become the best of friends. And thanks to your blog I’ll be able to show her that even in just 17 months Maddie lived such a happy, full life. I’m sending you all my love.
Florencia’s last blog post..Goodbye Maddie! You’ll be forever in our hearts!
Rhonda Johnston says:
Heather and Mike,
What a beautiful and amazing tribute for your precious little Maddie. Heather I will continue to pray for you and your family, and should you need hugs, laughs or any support from your Conejo Valley family we will be here, now, a month from now, and years from now. I will be there on April 25 the March for your Maddie.
Rhonda
Marilyn says:
Beautiful. Just beautiful. Just like that little angel up there. Her beautiful smile will be missed. Thank you for sharing her with us.
Rosa says:
Although I don’t know you, my heart is breaking for you and Mike. Know that through your words and photos, Maddie’s bright, infectious smile and spirit have touched people across the country. It is clear how happy and loved she was and will always be.
OHmommy says:
SO beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss and have been thinking about you guys every single day.
Caffeinatrix says:
What a beautiful, beautiful tribute to your little angel, Maddie Moo. We will all miss her. Much love and peace to you and Mike and your families.
Caffeinatrix’s last blog post..Unfathomable
Mommy In Pink says:
That was beautiful…absolutely beautiful. May she rest in peace. .such a gorgeous little angel in heaven!
Mommy In Pink’s last blog post..Fab Beauty Find: Nectar of the Gods
ilinap says:
Much love to you and Mike. You are indeed a lovely writer. You and Mike both.
ilinap’s last blog post..YOU are my cooking inspiration (I live for your wh…
andrea says:
Absolutely brilliant.
So profoundly sorry for your loss. Much, much love to all of you.
Karen says:
A beautiful tribute to a beautiful little girl…
nic @MyBottle'sUp! says:
i’m at a loss of words… thank you for sharing your most intimate, precious, priceless moments of your beautiful family with the world. we are all pulling for your strength and courage. you all are so loved.
nic @MyBottle’sUp!’s last blog post..with beauty and wonder
foradifferentkindofgirl (fadkog) says:
What an amazing and beautiful daughter. I imagine there’s a brighter star in the heavens tonight, thanks to Maddie’s smile and shining eyes. Prayers to you, Mike and your families.
Anna says:
There are tears streaming down my face I can barely see to write a comment, and I never truly knew you. What a beautiful tribute. Maddie touched so many lives and she was truly a precious little girl. XOXOXOXO from Poland.
Anna’s last blog post..Purple for Maddie
maggie, dammit says:
Lord, that was achingly exquisite. Well done, my friend. Well done.
Twenty Four At Heart says:
A beautiful tribute to a beautiful little girl!
Twenty Four At Heart’s last blog post..All I Wanted Was A Cuter Cooter
Lucretia says:
Thank you for sharing again. Your Maddie? Has touched all of our lives and all of our hearts. She won’t ever be forgotten.
Prayers are with you, Mike & Maddie still.
Jamie says:
She is absolutely beautiful. I loved seeing so many of the pictures that you’ve posted on the blog in the tribute. And you’re so right — what a wonderful asset all of your post about Maddie will be — what a great way to remember your little girl.
I’ve been thinking about you all day. *hugs*
Jamie’s last blog post..For Maddie
Maggie's Mind says:
There really are no words I can say. Your tribute is beautiful, and my heart breaks for you. I love that you have so few regrets about the love you shared in such a way too short time.
Maggie’s Mind’s last blog post..Maddie
Shannon says:
Beautiful! She will be missed. God bless you.
Sareh says:
I’m writing with blurred vision…I’m aching for you and Mike. Maddie is beautiful and I will continue to think of you and her.
Much love,
-S
Sareh’s last blog post..A Little Inspiration
Siobhan says:
Just beautiful. What an amazing little girl she was, with such a resilient, happy spirit. I regret not knowing about her until last week. My deepest condolences to you and your family.
Angeline says:
There are no words to console you or your husband, there are no words I can tell you to make you feel better! I am so soooo sooo sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I read Matt Logelin blog and his post in dedication of your sweet daughter. I feel as if I know you. I have cried with so much pain and emotion reading your latest entry and watching the video. I wish I could help you, do anything to help, I have already donated to the March Of Dimes foundation, but I want to do more…..I don’t know what else to tell you, there are no words. Stay strong for your husband, stay strong for your family, God works in mysterious ways we can not comprehend or even grasp at the fact of why??? I pray for you and your family and although I do not know you nor live on the same coast I am hurting with you. Please e-mail me if there is anything ANYTHING at all I can do. May you find the strength, may God help you and your family heal.
Angie
Angeline’s last blog post..Summer Job Ideas Take 1
Claire says:
Heather my heart breaks for you and Mike. What a treasure Madeline was. You gave her the best life she could have ever hoped for. She had a short life but she had a full life and she has you and Mike to thank for that. God bless you and your family.
Krystle | Snarky Kisses says:
There are no words… in tears. God Bless you and Mike.
Krystle | Snarky Kisses’s last blog post..Madeline Alice Spohr
Amy says:
That is an amazing tribute to a little girl that was no doubt incredible. Sending you so many blessings, peace and love. I wish there were words to make it all better. Take good care.
Amy’s last blog post..Grateful.
Tara @ Feels like home says:
I can’t imagine.
I can’t imagine what you have endured as Maddie’s health was precarious as an infant. I can’t imagine what you endured as she was in and out of the hospital. And now, as I listen to my 2 year old cooing at her dad as he rocks her to sleep, I can’t imagine the pain of losing your child. I’m so sorry for your pain.
The video you put together is wonderful. It’s beautiful and it captures Maddie’s spirit beautifully.
I wish you peace and solace in the days, weeks, and months ahead. Please know that we’re all praying for you, Mike, and sweet Maddie. May God bless and comfort you.
Tara @ Feels like home’s last blog post..Baked Pineapple
Anna says:
So beautiful.
DesignHER Momma says:
Heather –
She was a true angel sent down from heaven, no doubt about it. You will never know the magnitude of Maddie’s reach here on earth. She has touch so many people it’s truly unfathomable.
This post – has me at a loss for words. All that comes to mind is that Maddie had the most amazing set of parents.
Love you.
Emily
DesignHER Momma’s last blog post..Purple for the day
Christy M. says:
Heather, I’m so, so sorry your beautiful little girl is gone. She was an amazingly beautiful and special to so many. You’ve been in my thoughts all day, and I wish there was more I could do. Please know that I’ll never, ever forget Maddie.
So much love,
Christy
Beth says:
Thank you for sharing. I can not stop crying. Just a loss for words. What a tribute. May God bless you and your entire family. You are in my thoughts and prayers…
Beth’s last blog post..What a wonderful Easter!
Kay says:
Your strength and grace through this is a testament to the beautiful girl that is your daughter. Though the grief is overwhelming, your ability to focus on her life, and what a blessing she was to you and Mike is amazing.
You’ll still be in my thoughts and prayers.
Kay’s last blog post..I want to be adopted…
Ineia says:
I am so touched by your amazing love and devotion to your little angel. As a mother I cannot even begin to imagine the pain and anguish you must be going thru. I just pray that God will ease your pain and keep Maddie safe in His arm until the day you’re reunited.
Love, Ineia
Veronica says:
no parent should have to suffer this much, to watch a child struggle in the NICU, to watch them face day after day of more pain and strife than most adults will see in a lifetime. We lived the NICU nightmare for 3 months, with a 25 weeker. I understand that pain, but I cannot fathom the pain you’re feeling now, the loss, the disbelief, when your child faces so much and survives– you just come to expect them coming home from the hospital like every other time–I’m so so sorry for your heartbreak. She’s beautiful, Thank you for sharing her with all of us.
tonya cinnamon says:
sitting here bawling my eyes out at this beautiful tribute of maddie…. wishing I could have been able to be there to honor maddie…
you and mike are in my heart and thoughts…
love to you all…
never will forget you maddie….
Trish says:
Just found you through Twitter, through this tragedy. I am so very sorry for your loss. Prayers are with you, for strength through this difficult time. It’s clear that Maddie was a bright, shining star. She will shine forever. She will never fade. She will never be forgotten.
suze says:
My heart is breaking for you both. A beautiful tribute to a precious, gorgeous girl.
suze’s last blog post..he grabs me by the hand, and drags me to the shore…
jen says:
it always has been and always will be … her smile and her LIFE that people are astounded by. i thank you beyond all knowing for sharing her with us …
(everytime her face appears on my computer screen, my girly-girls run over and smile and say … oh maddie! her smile is just so beautiful.)
really … i just wanted you to know that i’ve been thinking of you all day … love to you and your family.
jen’s last blog post..wearing purple … thinking purple … and rtt …
Michelle says:
You ARE blessed. You will always be Maddie’s Mommy and Daddy.
Jessica says:
Maddie was such a beautiful little girl. I know you and your husband consider yourself lucky to have had her for the time you did but I think you should also know that she was lucky to have you 2 as well. Clearly she was adored, loved and cherished… just as all babies should be. Even though she was here for a short time, you and your husband (and your families) obviously gave her the most wonderful life possible. Thank you for opening up your world and sharing her with us. Honestly, this world is a little better knowing her story and clearly her life was something to be celebrated and remembered. We are praying for you both and your families.
Jessica’s last blog post..Doctor Visit Update
Anna Marie Hinnant says:
Heather, you and Mike are amazing people. Thank you for sharing Maddie, for sharing your lives, for sharing this most difficult time. I will always miss Maddie.
Anna Marie Hinnant’s last blog post..For Maddie
Fairly Odd Mother says:
I’m in tears typing—this is lovely. Your family is in my heart and thoughts. I have a feeling that Maddie was such a happy child because she was thrilled to have such amazing, loving, awesome parents.
TN Tonya says:
I learned of you via Matt Logelin’s site just days ago, and I’ve not stopped thinking of you since. Although no words are adequate, please know that you will remain in my prayers.
Pocklock says:
I have no words, only tears which have been endless this last week. Madeline will always be loved and remembered for her life. You will always be her amazing mother. My heart goes out to you all, always.
Pocklock’s last blog post..Madeline Alice Spohr
Maria says:
Heather, I’m so grateful I know you. You and your beautiful family have touched my life forever and ever and ever.
Maria’s last blog post..there are no words
Jenny (bloggess) says:
I cried, then laughed, then cried again. My heart is with you today, and tomorrow and always.
Jenny (bloggess)’s last blog post..Eve Ensler doesn’t want to hear about your vagina
amanda says:
As the mom to a daughter close in age to Maddie, my heart cracks into a million pieces for you and your husband. Thank you so, so much for sharing this beautiful tribute to your gorgeous little girl. All three of you have been in my heart all week.
With love from CT,
Amanda
amanda’s last blog post..bonus Easter pic
Jennifer says:
OMG Heather–that was so beautiful!! Thank you for sharing that with us. She was such a special little girl!!
Jennifer’s last blog post..For Maddie
anna says:
Thank you for sharing, what a beautiful post. How lucky you both could have Maddie, how unfair that she is gone too soon. You are both in my thoughts.
anna’s last blog post..No time for flickr mom, this will have to do.
cristina says:
the fact that you can articulate, so clearly and lovingly, through your grief flat out amazes me. maddie was so lucky to have the two of you for parents.
elismsue says:
Heather, your arms may feel empty, and your house may seem silent…just close your eyes and let Maddie take you to the place you need to be, even for a second. She remains by your side. You will see signs of her, I know you will. These signs may be unnoticeable at first, but you will recognize them soon. Messages from heaven…heaven sent just for you and Mike.
Love, hugs and prayers,
Sue
Dana says:
I only got to know you and your Maddie recently after reading about her on Matt Logelin’s blog. I spent the weekend reading all about her precious little life. I loved your outlook and your sense of humor as you handled everything life dealt you and Maddie.
Your tribute was beautiful. What a lucky litle girl to have such an amazing family! And what a lucky family to have been blessed with such a special child.
I will be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.
God bless you all – most especially Madeline.
Dana’s last blog post..ketchup – it goes with everything?
Johnna says:
That was so beautiful. It made me cry. My first baby died at 3 days old. that was 7 years ago. Every year, on his birthday, I think I’ll be able to write about it, but I never can. It hurts too much. I’ve since had three other boys. The grief still grips me, but I’m glad I haven’t forgotten. I can’t believe you are able to be so expressive so soon, and I think it will help you. I’m truly so sorry for your loss.
Johnna’s last blog post..nothing to say
Meagan Francis says:
What a darling. My 3 & 5 year old boys asked me to play the video over and over. “I just love that baby,” said my five-year-old.
Meagan Francis’s last blog post..picture love
Christine says:
Oh Heather, thank you to you and Mike for sharing Maddie with us. Wishing you guys peace.
You guys are strong and wonderful. Maddie was as lucky to have you both as you were to have her.
Christine’s last blog post..….
Jenn in NS says:
What truly beautiful tributes to a precious little girl. My sincerest condolences to you both and your families. I have been following for some time now and like many others was profoundly affected by Maddie’s passing. You have all been in my thoughts all week. Your strength and grace have been an inspiration to me.
Amanda says:
That was a wonderful tribute. Thank you for sharing it with me.
I am so, so sorry. Maddie was a special, beautiful baby. I will miss her.
Nat W. says:
I don’t know ya’ll, but ya’ll are in my prayers. A beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl.
Heather says:
I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.
Heather’s last blog post..Pasta with Mushroom sauce
WeaselMomma says:
Thank you for sharing your little Madeline with us. What a beautiful, wonderful, love filled little girl. I am so sorry for your loss. The world will be a lesser place without her and we will all miss that infectious smile.
WeaselMomma’s last blog post..Make Me Laugh
Mom24@4evermom says:
Thank you so much for sharing her with us. My heart is just breaking for you and Mike. Your Maddie was so precious, and I know you know that. You gave her a wonderful 17 months.
Astaryth says:
I have no words…. My heart is breaking for you and your husband. She was (and is) a beautiful child and I am sure she is a beautiful Angel.
Jen says:
The world is a better place for having had Maddie in it. Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter with us.
Jen’s last blog post..This is only a test… Beeeeeeeeeeep
nikerun2008 says:
Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m sorry for your loss.
Allison says:
Your tribute was beautiful. And you’re right…those babies make us over into the moms we hope to be.
Allison’s last blog post..LPS Monday – Late as Usual!
Karen MEG says:
This tribute was so beautiful, I admire your strength and courage through this devastating time. But your words, and the lovely images of Maddie that have been captured here on your blog and around the internet community have shown all of us what a special little person she was. She did make a tremendous impact, and she will continue to make one.
My heart just aches for you and your husband. Thank you for sharing with us.
HeatherPride says:
I know my tears do not compare to yours, but I want you to know that I am crying with you. I’m so sorry for your loss, and ours.
HeatherPride’s last blog post..Of Famous Babies and Underwater Squirrels
Flicka says:
My husband I watched your tribute video and cried together. I know it’s been said a million times, a million ways but we add our voices to the chorus of people who are so incredibly sorry for your loss. Madeline was a shining star. You and Mike are in our thoughts and prayers both now and in the days to come.
xoxo
Flicka and Sarge
Flicka’s last blog post..In Memoriam
Lisa says:
That was a beautiful tribute Heather. Thank you for sharing your daughter with us and for sharing your beautiful tribute as well. She was lucky to have you as a mommy. You remain in my thoughts.
Lisa’s last blog post..Remember Maddie Today
Sarah says:
What an amazing, beautiful daughter you have. I want you to know that while I never met Madeline, she has touched my life. I wish I would have had the privilege to have met her. She made a huge difference in this world and she has impacted my life.
You are all in my prayers.
Heather says:
Oh Heather and Mike. I don’t know you, nor will I ever likely meet you- I’ve simply lurked on your blog from time to time. But tonight, like every other night this past week, I’m heartbroken for your family. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful Madeline with us. Her smile, her beautiful eyes, her amazing spirit- we were all blessed to know about her. I wish you much love and peace- I’m so so sorry for your loss.
Kristen says:
Thank you for letting us know and love her too.
kd says:
great tribute to a wonderful sweet girl. wonderful parents, forever, but the pain and loss must be heavy to carry right now. know her life will be cherished by many, many people, and thank you for continuing to share your sweet baby with us.
hugs and drinks,
kd
Melanie says:
So, so sorry. My heart hurts for you.
Jenni says:
There are not enough words in the world to tell you how much my heart hurts for your loss. I dont personally know your family, but the world seems emptier without her in it. You are incredible parents, thank you for sharing her life with us.
Jenni’s last blog post..Gone Purple for Maddie.
Amber says:
I can barely breathe through the tears streaming down my face. The tribute video I had to watch over and over again and I still can’t grasp what you and your husband are going through. You are in my prayers.
Amber’s last blog post..
pillarr1 says:
That was a beautiful tribute to Maddie. I will always remember Maddie. I loved reading your blog about Maddie and all of the things that she did. Everything you shared with us, I thought “wow, those sound like fun things she and Maddie are doing.” So Rachel and I copied some things that you guys did. My favorite was how you described Maddie dancing to the Ellen Show intro. So we started watching Ellen. Now Rachel loves it and dances to the music just like Maddie did. I could go on and on. What I am trying to say is that Maddie touched our lives and we are better people for having Maddie in our lives – even if we never met her. Thank you so much Maddie. We will always love you.
MBKimmy says:
what a lovely video and a wonderful post! I love it! I am in tears! crying so hard and praying on my knees that you continue to remember her and all the good she did for you and your husband. Also all the good she is now doing for those of us out there reading. I will be praying for all of you and I know that she is in heaven the grandmas and the aunt loving her holding her and making sure she feels no hurt!
MBKimmy’s last blog post..In honor of Madeline
Marie-José says:
I came across your blog and read your story just before your beautiful little girl passed away. I just can’t imagine how you can survive this, and I know that no word is good enough to console such a pain.
I live in Montréal, and my daughter is 6. Everyday, I tell myself how lucky I am, but in the middle of real life, sometimes I forget. Maddie reminded me I should be enjoying my time with her, instead of worrying about things that don’t really matter.
Thanks for your strenght, thanks for sharing with us. I wish – no, I know, you will find sens to this, and that Madeline will help you get where peace is possibe and love always lives.
MJ
Annie says:
That was perfect, just like your baby.
Colleen says:
Such a wonderful tribute to your beautiful amazing daughter. My heart is broken into a million little pieces. I am so so sorry for your loss. Words just cannot express the sorrow.
Colleen’s last blog post..I want want want a Kindle 2…
Jen says:
A beautiful tribute for a very special little girl. Like other have said, Maddie has touched my life and I wish I had had the privilege to meet her in person. I loved to log onto your blog and read about her latest adventures and funny stories. She’s been taken much too soon but her LIFE has touched so many. You and Mike are in my thoughts and prayers.
Suzanne says:
I read your beautiful tribute and watched the amazing video through a fog of tears. I desperately want to find the perfect, right words to comfort and hold you and Mike. But I know there is no such incantation. Instead, I’m just going to be guided and inspired by your and Mike’s grace and by Maddie’s incredible spirit to do some good for sick children by volunteering my time and money.
Thank you for sharing her with us. She was magic.
Sasha says:
I am so touched by Maddie’s life and thank you for sharing so much of it. She really is a gorgeous child, both inside and out. I don’t know you, but I feel like I do and although I can’t begin to know what you are going through, I have been thinking about you and your family for days. I think thousands of people across the US have.
Her life was short, but she reached so many people and touched so many lives. I am encouraged to be a better parent because of you and your amazing strength.
Thank you for sharing her with us and I can’t even begin to find the words to tell you how sorry I am and how much I wish you did not have to go through this. I am sending everything I have towards your healing and continued strength.
Sasha’s last blog post..Sister, Sister
Sue @ My Party of 6 says:
You three are beautiful, all the way through. Thank you for sharing Maddie with the world. Heaven is a lucky place.
Sue @ My Party of 6’s last blog post..Post departum
Holly says:
What a beautiful tribute Heather. Thank you for letting us all feel a part of Maddie’s life, your life and love. Each one of us smiles a little brighter and laughs a little more for having known her. Love and prayers for you and Mike.
Holly’s last blog post..Remembering Maddie
Kylee says:
Words escape me. I am truly so sorry for your loss. Maddie will hold a special place in my heart. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
Elaine says:
Absolutely heart-wrenching. Your little girl has touched SO many lives in SO many ways. I pray for some peace for you and Maddie’s Daddy. And I pray for your sweet angel as well…
Nadine says:
It’s amazing how much you, Mike and Maddie have changed the way people view the world in the past week. It’s unspeakable that it came from such a loss, but perhaps there is small comfort in knowing that sharing her with us all gave her such a great legacy. May you all find peace and the strength to move forward.
Nadine’s last blog post..Rhymes with Joke
Dianne says:
My heart breaks for you. I found your link through Matt and Maddy’s blog and am stunned by the loss of your beautiful, captivating, precious little girl. Just as Matt’s loss of Liz has taught me to appreciate my husband more, your family has taught me to appreciate my children more. Thank you.
Krissy says:
Oh my. I am speechless and so very in love with your daughter. Not because of her death, but because of her soul. She has a very sweet soul that spoke the loudest of words through those precious eyes.
I am in so in love and yet so sad. So.So.Sad.
Although I could never feel the love and loss that you do for her, I can say that you are not grieving alone.
Fly High Sweet.Sweet.Maddie. You are so very missed. Everyone missed you the minute you flew to Heaven. I know you are busy playing with Jesus and all sorts of other fun things with your Grandma’s however, could you sneak in a few special angel kisses for your mommy and daddy???? Sweet Dreams Cutie.
Krissy’s last blog post..Ode to my daughter…..
Kelsey says:
Dear Heather and Mike,
I recently came across your site and I’ve enjoyed reading your blog. Heather, your writing is incredible.
I am so, so sorry that Maddie’s time on earth was so short. I am certain that she has and will continue to touch many people’s lives.
Your post to Maddie is absolutely beautiful.
I don’t know you and I didn’t know Maddie, but seeing her gorgeous smile and hearing her adorable laughs are more than enough to bring me to tears. Such a lovely little girl – thank you for sharing her with us!
As I get ready to graduate high school in a few weeks and enter college, please know that I do so with Maddie in mind and heart. I would like to be able to share my diploma with your beautiful daughter.
I wish I knew exactly what to say to you, but words escape me. If anything, thank you for making me realize how important it is to value each day. Thank you for sharing Maddie’s laughs with us. Her sweet smile brought a smile to my face.
Best wishes to your family as you go through this trying period. Many many hugs and prayers are directed towards you.
Taryn says:
Thank you for sharing your amazing Maddie with us. I’ve only ever been a lurker, but your story and your girl have always touched me. She was so captivating – my two year old daughter saw her photo for the first time today and immediately wanted to know “who dat?” My heart breaks for you both and I’m so very sorry for your loss.
Gigi says:
Like most others, I have not met you, your husband or your beautiful Maddie but through the outpouring of love that surrounds your family in blogland, it was hard not to feel so terribly saddened by your loss. There are no words. Beautiful tribute to an incredibly beautiful daughter, inside and out! My heart breaks for you…
pgoodness says:
You’re right – her life is absolutely what touched us – that smile! Those eyes! There are no words to erase the pain of your loss, but I do want to say THANK YOU for sharing her with us. I am a better person having known of your daughter- her strength, her humor…I checked your blog daily to get my Maddie fix. And now, everything purple will remind me of her.
This is an absolutely beautiful tribute to her and your love for her.
pgoodness’s last blog post..In Honor of Maddie
Endochick says:
My heart is breaking into two reading about Maddie. As a mother, I can’t even begin to image (nor do I want to imagine) the loss of my child. I hope you and Mike can find some peace knowing Maddie is truly in a better place now. I’m praying for the both of you during this difficult time.
Endochick’s last blog post..Neuropathy, My Dear Watson?
Abbey P says:
Writing words to you seems so silly – you don’t know me, I’ve never posted before, but your family has touched me in a way that I can not tell you. I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful baby girl. Please know that her life meant something to people that you may never ever meet. The tears I have shed over her felt just like my own child’s tears. My heart is broken over this and I am so terribly sorry. May GOD keep you warm in these trying times.
Jen says:
I have followed your blog for a while now. We have a mutual friend. My daughter is only few months older than yours. I love my daughter, but fell in love with yours as well. Her LIFE did touch me. I dont know if i could have handled things the way she did with grace and a smile. You and your hubbys tributes were wonderfully done. The video was great. I can only imangine how hard this was all to do. How hard this is to comprehend. I know she is in heaven in the arms of people who love her.
I pray for you and mike that you will have rest and peace.
Take care.
Ray says:
“As we walked by the toy section, I was overwhelmed with the desire to buy her a toy. I walked down an aisle and found a small Abby Cadabby doll (from Sesame Street). I held the doll up to Maddie and said, “Do you want this, baby?” She looked at the doll, looked at me, looked at the doll…and then the biggest smile broke out across her face. She looked at me again as if to say, “REALLY?” I said, “Take her, babe!” And she grabbed the Abby doll with both hands and started kissing it. She kissed that Abby doll every day.”
^^This part for some reason made me tear up a little bit. From what I just read Maddie was an incredible child. I am sorry she is no longer with you, but glad that she had the best life possible. Why? Because you were her mother and you loved her and therefore you gave her the best life possible; in her short time on this earth.
From that you have the best of her in your heart and soul always. She will always live on in you. Always. This site (like you wrote) is a testament to that. And a beautiful one. I just found your site but I look forward to reading old entries about Maddie.
You will continue to be in my prayers.
Take, care.
P.S. BEAUTIFUL tribute to Maddie.
Luci says:
I’m deeply touched by your words, and truly sorry for your loss. There are no words. May you find some solace and peace in this time of profound grief. In my prayers.
Luci
macy says:
I’m deeply sorry for your loss. I was in shock for a few days after reading about
Maddie’s passing. Now I feel sadness that the world lost such a special little girl. If at a later time you feel like sharing, what happened w/maddie? An infection? I guess I just can’t understand how something like this happened. Beautiful tribute.
I’ll keep your family in my prayers.
Ashley @ mrs007.com says:
nothing I type in this little box can help but I just wanted to be one more person to tell you both that I am praying for you. Your Maddie seemed to light up the world. Hold on to each other!
kris says:
like others…I only have known of Maddie in the last few days. I’m at a loss of words and have shed many tears…not sure how you both are getting through this loss. But you obviously have amazing strength and the spirit of a beautiful and magical little girl that will forever live in your hearts. So impressed with your bravery and willingness to share your pain and the love for your daughter. Wore purple for Maddie today. Know she lives on…
Kari says:
I learned about you and your family yesterday, via Amalah, and spent a good part of last night reading.
I don’t know what to say and suspect there really is no words that can give you any peace and comfort. I do want you to know that I have been silently suffering through a pretty profound depression, and for months, and for some reason, Maddie seems to have begun to lift me out of it. Her story and the love of her family and friends and the stark realization that life is taken for granted.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that to you, her parents, and to her. I watched every second of that video, never having seen a picture of her before. She was, and remains, an angel.
Karen says:
Thank you for sharing your sweet little angel with us! Your family is in my prayers and Maddie is forever in my heart. She has helped me in more ways than I can even explain at this time. Just know your daughter has made an impact on this world in ways you can’t even imagine. I know she has blessed my soul & I look forward to meeting her face to face in Heaven.
God Bless,
Karen
tara says:
this is such a beautiful tribute to your incredible daughter. i am so so so very sorry for your loss. my heart has shattered a million times over the past week. i watched your video with tears streaming down my cheeks.
i am in awe of the strength and beauty of your family. you were amazing parents to an amazing daughter, and i am so sorry for your loss. i am a stranger, and i will never forget madeline. you and mike are in my thoughts every day.
Jayme Q. says:
I cried the whole time I was watching that video. What a beautiful, incredible tribute to your sweet angel baby. I can only imagine the pain that you’re going through, and I am thinking of you every time I look into the face of my own 15-month old. Thank you for sharing your story with us, for allowing us to know Maddie and to grieve along with you. Know that we are all, all the thousands of us, we are all hoping the best for you and forever remembering Maddie.
Adventures In Babywearing says:
I hung on to your every word, Heather. This post is just perfect, like sweet Maddie’s spirit. I can’t get rid of the lump in my throat. This is so unfair. I am so sorry. You and Mike and Maddie have touched more hearts than you will probably ever know. Amazing. And bittersweet.
Steph
JOy says:
You, Mike and your beautiful angel Madeline have changed my life forever. I will always be grateful to your family for the amazing model of love, bravery and courage that you have been ever since you found out that you were pregnant. I only saw Maddie a few times, but her spirit was truly larger than life. Thank you for sharing her with me and with the world. I will continue to pray for you and your family. (Also, your speech is a perfect tribute to your perfect little girl.)
Sabrina in Philly says:
What you and your husband wrote for Madeline was beautiful….Lots of tears for you both~ The video was amazing! My heart hurts for you, as a mother of 3…. No words…just…..(((((BIG HUGS))))))
Sabrina in Philly’s last blog post..It’s not fair…
Jennifer says:
I am so sorry for your loss.
I wish I would have met Maddie, but through you I have. And she was a beautiful wonderful child.
My heart is breaking for you.
Jennifer’s last blog post..The first of many firsts..
Cindy says:
I am sorry that I have never commented on your blog before…but I have been a long-time reader. My heart is broken for your loss, and I am keeping you in my prayers.
Rest in peace, sweet Maddie…you will never be forgotten.
Cindy’s last blog post..In my thoughts and prayers
MereCat says:
I want to say something. But I don’t know what to say. Tears are streaming down my face. i have never known a braver mother. Blesses, prayers, and all the love in the world.
Alexandra says:
What an amazingly, not of this earth, beauty this little girl has. What an honor you had, being chosen as her parents. She is so beautiful, it almost makes you burst out with laughter. What a face. With much love, comes much pain. And you had it all. You can tell the obvious pleasure you all took in each other. There was so much joy, more joy in the time you had with each other than many ever experience in a lifetime. That little girl had a lifetime of love in her short time with you. You did it right, and she was shortchanged nothing while living on this planet. You will be with her again, and what a sweet reunion that will be. My heart breaks for you, and I’m sure you are saying in your prayers, “hurry, Lord, hurry…”
ExtraordinaryMommy - Danielle says:
Heather – you are an extraordinary mother. Clearly Maddie adopted the very best of you – she shared your kind spirit, your laughter and zest for life and your strength of character.
What a beautiful tribute to your daughter, both in words and video – I’m certain she is bragging about you to all of the angels surrounding her.
I can’t get rid of the lump in my throat, the tightness in my chest, or the tears on my cheek – so I know I can’t begin to imagine your pain and loss.
Please know I am thinking of you and hoping the love surrounding you in the form of family, friends and strangers like me will give you at least one moment of peace – one moment free of pain – in the coming months.
Know you are loved. Know Mike is loved. Know Maddie is remembered and loved. Know I will continue to think of your family.
ExtraordinaryMommy – Danielle’s last blog post..Madeline’s Service Begins
Shash says:
Maddie Moo is an inspiration to us all. Thank you for sharing her with us. We are so blessed for it.
I love you so much Heather and Mike.
Shash’s last blog post..Goodbye, Little One
Jennifer says:
Beautiful!
Your words… your love… Maddie… Maddie’s spirit.
Thank you for sharing your special girl with us
Jennifer’s last blog post..The countdown to the ketogenic diet is on… & product recommendation
yvette says:
I happened upon your blog today, of all days. I have read enough to realize what amazing people you are, and what a miracle Madeline was. My heart breaks for you and as I watched your tribute video, I realized that God does not make mistakes, and Madeline has and will continue to touch many lives through her short one. She was absolutely beautiful and both yours and your husband’s tributes force us all to relish the time we have with our families, and love our children to pieces. My heartfelt condolences to you both.
Andrea @ Mommy Snacks.net says:
What a beautiful tribute to your precious girl! You know, she was so happy and joyful because of her family – you and Mike made her be the sweet precious girl that she is! And, her loved ones surrounding her. She was such a lucky girl to have you as parents – and you were so lucky to get the gift of time with her while she walked here.
I look at those pictures and videos and I can’t help by cry – tears of joy because of her beautiful eyes. Um, Hello – no fair a little girl gets eyelashes like that – maybe another Mac request would be to make some false eyelashes like those! I doubt they would look as good though
TerryG says:
What an amazing and beautiful tribute to your daughter! I think Maddie IS a Delta Gamma. She is a shining example of how one person can touch so many people and help to inspire us all to be better parents, friends, sisters, and volunteers. Her story will help The March of Dimes reach their goals and give hope to many families. Her story will remind me to “do good” every day. I know I would be proud to call her my sister.
Love,
TerryG
a DG from NJ
Andrea @ Mommy Snacks.net says:
And, I wasn’t finished yet…
Thank you for sharing her story with the world! Thank you for being a strong mother and father during this unfathomable time in your lives. Thank you for sharing your heart and your precious Maddie with us! She is now truly an angel!
Blessings, Prayers, Hugs, Kisses and Love!
Elaina Avalos says:
Heather,
I don’t know you but my heart aches for your loss. Maddie is a beautiful girl and I’ve been so incredibly touched by the pictures and videos of your smiling girl! I’m so sorry for your loss. You’ve both been in my thoughts and prayers. I don’t have words of comfort. The only thing I can tell you is that I’ve cried for you and prayed for peace and comfort for you and Mike.
Best,
Elaina
Elaina Avalos’s last blog post..Blogger saved me…
jennyonthespot says:
Praying for you. Your family. My heart aches so deeply… mother to mother. I really don’t know what to say… My friend lost her Maddie just over a year ago… You, my friend Cindy – both incredible women. Bless you during this time, may you find comfort and peace you never imagined could be at a time like this. Hugs and tears… Jenny
jennyonthespot’s last blog post..My Incredible Boy
Laurie says:
Thank you for sharing your family’s story. I know that Maddie will continue to touch so many lives, and that you and Mike will continue to help other children like her. My heart breaks for you, and I will always remember Maddie’s story. The post and photos were beautiful. What wonderful memories you will always have.
Laurie’s last blog post..For Madeline Spohr
Kelly says:
What an amazing and beautiful woman you are. How strong you are. I know you don’t FEEL strong right now, but the strength it took to put into words, so soon after her passing, your feelings about her is nothing short of amazing. honestly. You and your husband will be in my heartfelt prayers. I am so, so touched by your story and your beautiful, magical little baby girl.
And I do not doubt for one second that your grandmothers and other family members welcomed her with smiles as big as her own. A celebration up there is a very sad time down here. sad. what a meager word.
But as you start to feel stronger you WILL feel her with you. And someday you WILL go to the MAC counter and get that lipglass and you’ll smile because you’ll know she’s with you…always. And I bet your puppy will know she’s around too. =)
Many prayers and love for you…
a total stranger in CA,
Kelly
trinity says:
May your love of family and friends guide you thru the suffering and pain you are in. I pray for you. No words are adequate enough to express my sadness and sympathy I feel for your family.
There is a blog written by another mom that may help you:
http://themcclenahans.blogspot.com/
This family lost their baby girl in February.
Jenna says:
Heather-
Thank you for letting us know you, Mike, and precious little Maddie. Maddie touched sooo many of us through her incredible strength and beauty. As a Mother, I can only imagine the emotions right now. Know that we are all thinking of you and Maddie was your Earth Angel. She is now watching over all of you from up above.
Hugs and Kisses from Iowa.
Jenna’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday-Maddie, Such A Beautiful Angel
Monica says:
I am so so sorry.
Cindy Woodmansee says:
I am a total stranger to you. I saw your story from Matt’s blog. Your letter to your daughter was amazing. I can’t begin to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I lost our tiny foster baby one month ago after a “routine” open heart surgery. She died in my arms. I just want you to know that I am praying for your family. There is an amazing lady in Australia who will write Maddie’s name in the sand as a tribute to her. The website is http://www.namesinthesandblogspot.com. She also has lost a child and has honored over 3500 children. When you feel up to it, take a look. Again, I am so very sorry for your loss and I will continue to pray for your broken heart. With much love, Cindy Woodmansee
mommypie says:
Like so many, you, Mike and your beautiful Maddie have been in my thoughts all week. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful soul with all of us. My heart breaks for you.
Caren says:
Mike and Heather
Your daughter was stunning. I don’t “know” you, but Matt, and Amy and Lotus and Moosh and Mama Kat sent me here. Maddie must have been so special. My prayers are with you.
Caren
Jenny says:
Wow – what a beautiful tribute and video! It truly is a celebration of life!! The photos and video you have of Maddie are going to be a treasure forever. Thank you for sharing her life and legacy. I wish you peace.
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Queen of the CLick says:
I can’t imagine how hard your life has been especially during the past few weeks. I am praying for you and your family.
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Darryle says:
I am heartbroken for you and hope you find some comfort in how Maddie’s life and your love have found a place–forever– in so many hearts.
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Sherri Smith says:
The twitter world is really making Maddy a star! I am sooo incredibly sorry for your loss! She is such a beautiful girl, and you wrote soo beautifully about her… I just want you to know that you and your husband will be in my prayers! I pray for the Lord’s strength upon your family in this time of need… I also pray for his comfort to surround you!
Best Wishes & God Bless!
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Andrea Tannouri says:
My heart goes out to you as another mom with a toddler daughter. God Bless you and your family. Maddie looks like such a beautiful, vivacious and wonderful child and you have immortalized her for us so that we can all enjoy her. Madeline is in a better place and will always be with you.
After all the comments and buzz fade, be sure to continue to seek support in family and friends; the years ahead will be hard but rely on each other and your faith to see you through.
Much Love to you both, Andrea @HolisticMamma on Twitter
Watch this Video when things get quiet and you have a moment, it may help with grief… Its Abraham-Hicks and I love them…
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Mr Lady says:
Comment 185, but you know what? I know you’ll read it.
I have never been as proud as another person in my whole life, as humbled by someone in 34 years, as I was by the two of you today. It was an honor to be there with the two of you, and I want you to know the impact your family has made on so many. I love you.
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Johanna says:
I am not a regular reader but was directed here from another blog and was very moved by your story. I am so sorry to hear of your daughter Maddie’s death far far too early but I am sure you will value the time you had with her. My twin boys were stillborn (1/11/07 – just before Maddie) and my daughter is now 7 weeks and she is so alive and so precious! I hope you will draw strength from the memories and your loved ones.
Johanna’s last blog post..Wholemeal Chocolate Cake
jsts16 says:
I can’t even imagine how to express the grief I feel for you, your husband, and all of those who loved your precious daughter. I do not know you, but I hope the words of a stranger may help regardless.
Forgive me for taking the liberty of saying this but I have faith that your wonderful, charming, sweet, and innocent maddie is in a better place. God is sweet and merciful and kind… just like you and Maddie. Sometimes if it weren’t for our loses I don’t suppose we can ever know just how important someone is to us.
Maddie is watching after you, and for that you are incredibly blessed. I truly, truly believe that, and with that knowledge I hope that you may find some sense of solace.
Maddie touched the lives of those she never even knew existed. It is truly humbling to have witnessed a immeasurably small part of her life through this blog.
-May God bless you.
Michelle W says:
The many expressions of Madeline are forever etched in my mind, her smile and her eyes are so unforgettable and my heart will truly never forget her. I could go on and on about that beautiful tribute you put together to celebrate her life but no words could do it, or her justice. Your writing is beautiful, honest and so very human, and you truly shared Madeline with the world, no doubt it’s a better world because of it. My heart has been aching ever since I heard of your precious Madeline and while my heart aches my brain simply can’t comprehend. I am so glad you were able to be Madeline’s Mommy and Mike her Daddy, I am so sorry it was so brief.
kelly says:
I can barely see the screen as I type through the tears. The video on Maddie’s video allows me to see her beautiful spirit! I don’t know Maddie personally, but am a better person for knowing her through you and your husband.
kelly’s last blog post..Remembering Maddie
becky says:
I am so sorry for your loss.
Sarah says:
She wasn’t a star, she was a supernova! What a bright light this sweet little girl shined in her magnificent, albeit short, life. Thank you for having the courage to share her with the world, even in your most difficult hour. May your love for eachother carry you through, supported by the knowledge that the love of countless strangers is with you also.
Amelie says:
What a beautiful tribute to your daughter.
I’m so very sorry that you had to lose her.
Amelie’s last blog post..almost ready
Wendy says:
Thank you for bringing Maddie into my life, here in central Pennsylvania.
I wish you warm memories always of her bright smile that has touched so many lives and comfort in that as well as the scores of people who have simply been touched by your story.
I will never be the same.
Love, strength and peace.
Wendy’s last blog post..We weren’t even talking about food.
Coloradolady says:
I am so very sorry for your loss. I am just heartbroken for you and your family. What a precious Angel Maddie was and is….forever.
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Amy says:
Thank you for sharing this with us. You are so gracious to share so much of your lovely daughter with all of us and I am forever grateful for having gotten the opportunity to get to “know her.” It truly is an amazing tribute. I am so sorry you had to lose your daughter…no one should have to feel that kind of pain. You and Mike will be in my thoughts.
Catherine Lucas says:
no words…. gutwrenching. The little one is gone and life sucks so bad at times…
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Eileen says:
Heather & Mike,
I don’t know you, but have been reading about you since I found you through Matt’s blog (after he was on the Oprah show this week). Your story has touched me beyond words … your beautiful, strong, happy, spirited little girl and her incredible smile has melted my heart. A powerful tribute to an amazing life … thank you for sharing. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Chrissy says:
Your words were beautiful. The video was amazing. While I was watching it, all I could think was “sunshine”. She was like a little ray of sunshine!!!! You are so lucky to have been her mother. And she was so lucky and blessed to have been YOUR daughter. God bless you and your husband through these difficult times!!
michellew_ says:
There is not much I can say that hasn’t been said already. I just want you to know, as I sit here sobbing, that you have given so many people a percious gift this week. Through your UNBELIEVABLE strength, courage and grace in the face of a loss so devastating that I well up with tears at the mere mention of your name, you have made THOUSANDS of parents hug their children a little tighter. You have made them look at their children and really SEE them for the miraculous gifts that they are. You have made them look at themselves and remember what kind of parents they wanted to be, back before things got difficult or they got busy, or complacent. By remembering Maddie, we are all able to be better parents and see the eternally good in our own precious babies.
Your family, your loss, has made us all stronger. MADDIE has made us all stronger. We are all better people for having known her and known of her, even if it was for an all to brief time.
With extreme gratitude,
Michelle from Mommy Confessions
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Christine says:
Heather, you and Mike are wonderful and strong and brave. Maddie was as lucky to have you both as you were her.
Thinking of you.
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Christy says:
Oh, Heather. I am just in awe of you. Your strength, your insight, and your love. I think all of us who have followed Maddie’s beautiful life will always carry a piece of her around with us. My heart aches for you and Mike…I wish you blessings, love, and Light–always.
SusieO says:
This was just so beautiful… thank you Heather and Mike – so much – for sharing Maddie with us. Heather, you are such a great mom… the exactly right mom for Maddie. She has made me a better mom and I’m so grateful for that. Maddie shines brightly for evermore.
And to Maddie – that crazy lady talking to the sky?? that’s me… giving you a little HOLLA BACK! Shea and I will celebrate you whenever we hear ‘Single Ladies’ uh oh uh oh uhohuhoh
Bless you always!
SusieO’s last blog post..The Heavens are Very Lucky, Indeed
Tami says:
What a beautiful tribute to your daughter. My thoughts and prayers will continue with you and Mike as you get through this difficuilt times.
Maddie will be missed!
Danielle says:
I suppose you always knew she was an angel. Now we all know, too. So sorry for your tremendous loss. What beautiful tributes you and Mike made to your sweet, sweet girl. Virtual hugs from many miles away.
Danielle’s last blog post..I thought I had a BABY
Maria Delgado says:
Thank you so much for writting this.
I don’t know what words could ever express what it means.
Just: Thank you.
kim says:
I only knew Maddie through your blog, and I thank you for that. Over the last week, I’ve seen her face everywhere….on gerber jars, when I close my eyes….even in the faces of my 10 month old twin boys.
Your beautiful dedication to your sweet Maddie has inspired me to slow down, keep a better record of my little ones’ milestones, take better pictures, take more video…to have more fun….be a better mommy.
Thank-you for letting me get to know your adorable girl. I keep you all in my thoughts and prayers every day.
Angie says:
I borrowed this video for Wordless Wednesday today because I hadn’t paid tribute to your beautiful daughter. I cried watching this and reading Mike’s post. God bless you both!
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Melinda says:
I have no words.
hugs and kisses to you and your family
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Athena says:
Thank you so much for sharing your baby girl with all of us! You are such a strong woman. Thank you !!!
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Athena says:
Thank you so much for sharing your baby girl with all of us! You are such a strong woman. Thank you !!!
Jodi says:
What a beautiful tribute to your beautiful daughter.
Love and hugs from far away…
May you find comfort in the sun, it’s Maddie’s love. May you find comfort in the wind, it is her breath…the storms are her anger…the rain, her tears…She is all around you. She will always be with you.
Nicole says:
Thanks you for sharing Maddie with us. I hope you can find strength in this storm. Such a beautiful, darling, precious little girl.
Laura says:
I am so sorry.
Reading your tribute, and watching the video, it became clear to me that you three were able to create a lifetime of love in her short months on this earth. And she knew it.
Shannon Jones says:
Heather and Mike – What truly AMAZING parents you are. I cannot begin to imagine the pain your are feeling. My twins boys were born at 28 weeks and also spent 10 long weeks in the NICU. I happened upon your story from the NBC Today show website. Yesterday I read your entire blog and everytime there was a picture of your beautiful Maddie my heart skipped a beat. I will always remember that face. Take care and THANK YOU for sharing such a special story with the world.
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misfithausfrau says:
I wish the two of you peace and love. Thank you for sharing Maddie and your lives with all of us.
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kristi says:
Love. Prayers and love.
kristi’s last blog post..Things I love
Tim Young says:
Beautiful, just beautiful….
Jeanette says:
What a lucky little girl to have known such love.
She has made more of an impact than you will ever know.
Jen says:
Beautifully written post. I found your story from Mckmama’s twitter…..my deepest condolences to you and your family.
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amy vw says:
I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful Madeline. She was such a lucky little girl to have been surrounded by so much love.
I wish you both much peace during this difficult time.
Monica says:
What an angel! She is beautiful, I just wanted to eat her up! You and your family are my prayers. Thanks for sharing your little doll with us.
Pat Adams says:
Mike and Heather…My heart hurts and my mind screams for answers. Sorry does not cover the depth of my feelings for your loss. When BHJ said a almost a year ago, “Mom, you HAVE to read about the Spohr’s”, I immediately went to both your sites and become immersed in your lives. You feel like family to me. The ache I feel is the same ache I felt in January when my brother lost his only child and when I lost my mom four years ago. I do not handle loss well. I do know time helps but the ache seems to never go away. I have no words, I only want to hold you in my arms and make the hurt go away. Your daughter was such a little fighter…and those eyes…they spoke volumns. She was and will remain in your hearts the most beautiful and precious gift. Through this blog-world that my son opened my eyes to, I too, share how amazing her life was and how wonderful her parents are. Stay strong….my love to both of you.
Mana Snyder says:
You have touched my heartwith your beautiful stories on Maddie and motherhood. She will never be forgoten, even by those of us who hardly knew her. My heart breaks for you and Mike, and I will include you in my daily thoughts and prayers.
You and Mike are so brave, please don’t be afraid to share what’s on your mind.
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Lisa says:
My heart aches to think of the magnitude of your loss. I am so very sorry, it is just so unfair.
Molly says:
What a lovely tribute to Maddie. I am so very sorry for your loss, and I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that friends and strangers all over the world are thinking of you and praying for peace and grace for you and your husband.
Molly’s last blog post..Fear of Falling
Vicky says:
What a beautiful little girl. I can tell she was so much loved and will be terribly missed. I am so sorry that her life on this earth was so short. May God hold you and your husband and family in the palm of his hand.
bessie.viola says:
This is absolutely beautiful, just like your sweet baby girl. I’ve been following your family for the last few months… she is an absolute joy. I say IS because there is no use for past tense with a girl so vibrant and joyous. She has touched my life in more ways than I can express. You and Mike and your extended families are in my prayers… know that there are many, many strangers grieving right along with you.
Much love & hopes for peace.
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Valerie says:
Oh she is just so wonderful. Thank you for sharing her with us.
Valerie’s last blog post..5 months
Heather, Queen of Shake Shake says:
To call this beautiful won’t do it justice. I wish there were words to describe the love you have for Maddie and how she has touched our lives.
You and yours continue to amaze me. Much love to you.
Staci says:
I am so sorry for the loss of such an incredible little girl. Blessings to your family as you celebrate her LIFE. May God grant you peace.
Carolyn Bahm says:
Well, now that I’ve cried off my eye makeup, I’m going to reapply it and head to work. And remember joyful little Maddie. I’m so sorry for your loss, and so glad she was a part of your life (and ours). Hugs.
Mary says:
Heather and Mike, I’m so sorry you have to go through this. Thank you for sharing her life and your memories of her.
Lauren V says:
So much love to you and all of yours, and especially Maddie, for everything you’ve shared.
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Jennifer Joyner says:
Please know that there are many people out there who are thinking of you and praying for you….and who are awe-inspired by your beautiful, courageous daughter Maddie.
Kelly says:
This is a beautiful tribute to your daughter. I am so sorry for your loss.
Kelly’s last blog post..I don’t want to take a bath
Ambrea says:
May STRENGTH and PEACE be with you both as you face the days ahead. Thank you for sharing Maddie’s contagious smile with us.
Diane says:
Sending love and thoughts your way. Take care of yourself. I cannot imagine what you are going through.
serenity says:
What a beautiful tribute.
Much love to you all. I am so sorry for your loss.
xxx
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Kara says:
Thank you for sharing this. Just beautiful.
Melissa says:
You don’t know me and I live thousands of miles away, but please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Your daughter has a smile that melts my heart. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through….know that there are people out there who care.
DC Sports Chick says:
As a fellow DG, I’m so sorry. Sending comforting thoughts to you and your family.
ITB,
Liz
La Petite Chic says:
She is loved by all of us. I am so sorry for your loss.
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Marcia says:
I knew you could do it, Heather! That was an amazingly beautiful tribute to an amazingly beautiful girl. MUCH love to you….
Erin says:
Thank you for sharing such beauty with us. The world is better for having known Maddie.
Somewhat Ordinary says:
Thank you for sharing this tribute. Thank you for letting us into Maddie’s life. Her life and your family’s strength has given me strength.
carrie says:
Heather– I don’t even know you but I can’t stop thinking about you, Mike, and your little Maddie. She was just the prettiest little girl, and her personality shines bright through your photos and videos. You are so brave and such an outstanding mother to your little girl. I hope you find some comfort in your sweet memories, but I know your heart must be broken into a million pieces. May you heal with time and keep constant your love for Maddie. Watched your video twice—brought to tears x2. Stay strong and know that people around the country have you and Mike in our thoughts and prayers. xoxo.
Bettina says:
You found the perfect words. I wish you peace…
Kimberly Cama says:
The way you responded to this devestation in words inspires me to be a better person. You do not allow your loss to darken your passage; you do not react in anger. Instead, somehow, in a time of despair, you have found a way to inspire your readers to look beyond the mind numbing pain of your loss. You show us there is meaning to be found in something almost unmentionable. I admire your ability to create positive change when many other people would shut down. You honor your daughter. You continue to be an amazing mother for Maddie. You are in my prayers, thoughts and dreams. Your daughter’s story has taken permanent residence in my heart.
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Marit says:
My heart goes out to your family. Madeline was such a beautiful little girl and your tribute to her was simply amazing. Stay strong, just as she was.
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Karen Singer says:
WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME
When Tomorrow starts without me,
And i’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today, while thinking of the many other things, We didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In Heaven far above,
And I had to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walked away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I always thought,
I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I finally realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things
I might miss come tomorrow
I thought of you and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heavens gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From his great golden throne,
He said “This is eternity,
And all I promised you”.
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew,
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day’s the same way
There’s no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn’t do.
But you have been forgiven
And now at last your’re free.
So wont you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think were far apart,
For everytime you think of me,
I’m right here, in your heart.
Unknown
Kate says:
Beautiful…your words, her video, the pictures, and HER life. She will never be forgotten.
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Colleen Crawford says:
I sat last night to find words to say to you, they never came. I have 2 children and know nothing of losing a baby. Although I have had serious challenges with both children, I have never come close to what you two have experienced. What I DO know is what it is like to have lost a sibling I never knew. I grew up in a home with CF siblings. Two of my brothers passed away as children before I was ever born. I will share with you that they have always remained my big brothers and are an imporatnt part of our family. They are never far from my thoughts and I cherish them. If you have more children, Maddie will be remembered and cherished by them as a big sister even though she didn’t meet them in person. She will still be a member of the family and remain dear not only to those that knew her, but also by those that are still to come.
Lindsey says:
Your tribute was amazing. Your daughter has touched the lives of so many with her brilliant eyes and contagious smile. Like so many others, I have never met you or your husband and did not have the honor of meeting Maddie, but she has entered my life. She has changed me, you have changed me. As the mother of a 7 month old, I can not look at her without seeing pieces of Maddie. The long eyelashes, the bright eyes, the smile that can melt hearts. I didn’t think it was possible to love my daughter any more, but it is and I will. All because of your sweet little girl and the love you have shown to her, to all of us. Thank you for sharing her with me, with the world. I have you and Mike in my thoughts and in my heart.
WM says:
That was absolutely amazing. I’ve been thinking about little Maddie every morning since I found out and it was always with this overwhelming sadness . After reading your incredibly eloquent words about your little angel I will now think of her wonderful spirit and the fact that the earth was graced with such a wonderful little girl who was fortunate enough to have two very doting parents that recognized her for the beautiful person that she was.
Much love,
S
WM’s last blog post..In memory of Maddie
Katherine says:
My heart and prayers go out to you and your family.
Beautiful Mess says:
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful daughter with everyone.
Laura says:
Thank you for sharing your daughter with the world – for the wonderful tribute video and for the tears that I am now shedding for a beautiful little girl on the other side of the country that I never had the fortune to meet or know before she had become an angel. And what an angel she was – on earth too. I can see from the pictures and footage that she brought joy to all those around her. My heart breaks for you and Mike and your family. There will always be a Maddie sized whole in your heart and life which I wish wasn’t there. I know the seconds, minutes, days and months will be torture for you without her. I wish you comfort in your wonderful memories, joy in your very few regrets and peace for your hearts as you work out how to journey forward without her.
The world just got a whole lot dimmer without a beautiful spark, and the heavens shine brighter.
Zak says:
I am so very sorry.
She is a beautiful little girl
Zak’s last blog post..Ch-Check Out My Melody
Megan {Velveteen Mind} says:
My heart is broken for you both. Watching your tribute, I felt it physically crack. I’m so so sorry.
I haven’t cried this hard in years. I don’t know what you’ve done, but you’ve found a place inside of me forever.
I love you, Heather. I wish I could be there but I’ll see you soon.
Megan {Velveteen Mind}’s last blog post..Remember Maddie.
Becca says:
blessings to you and your family during this time of separation…
Camels & Chocolate says:
I don’t even know you guys, and I only started reading over the last couple weeks, but I’ve cried alongside you through all of this. It takes a powerful person–you, Maddie–to evoke those emotions in other people. And I don’t know what you’re talking about, you are an EXCELLENT writer. I hope things turn around for you guys, because stuff like this should NOT happen to such good people.
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Jackie says:
Heath, Maddie is proud of how brave you are. After all, you and Mike taught her everything she ever learned. I love you infinity.
Deb@BirdOnAWire says:
Mike and Heather,
Prayers are with you as you traverse this difficult time. Knowing one more beautiful angel has joined my little ones is a comfort to me, and I know that you’ll find comfort in your faith and love for Maddie and each other. My words seem so hollow now, I know. But know that if you ever need anything, we’ll always be here for you.
When I told Rusty about Maddie he was as wholy struck as I was. He wanted me to tell you especially, his prayers are with you both.
May you both be blessed.
Deb@BirdOnAWire’s last blog post..Faith, Fortitude and Reality
ilena says:
As a mom, my heart aches for you. Sending you love and peace.
ilena’s last blog post..Happy Birthday My Little Guy
Patti B. says:
Heather, I am so sorry for your broken heart. I know you have so many beautiful memories with your daughter, thank you for sharing some of them with me. I pray for peace in your hearts for you and Mike. Thinking of you both and sending all my best vibes and hugs to you. Please take good care.
Britney says:
Thank you for allowing me to get to know your little girl. Thank you for sharing her with the world. She has touched many more lives than you will ever know.
I am a changed person, wife, daughter and especially mother because of Maddie.
Britney’s last blog post..Easter
Heather L says:
My heart aches and yet I smile for the lovely child you have shared with us. I lost my daughter Sarah. The pain and the chaos that erupted into my heart and life took time to heal. I turned to God and my husband through it all. Sarah will never be replaced and I rejoice in meeting her again in Heaven. She now has 5 more siblings to meet her there. I am sorry for you loss. Peace will return and joy will fill the void.
God bless
Heather Laurie
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Hennifer says:
Those are very, very poignant and beautiful words for your daughter. Thank you for sharing.
I am walking in the March for Babies in Salem, OR on the 25th. Please know Maddie will be on my mind. I’m so very sorry.
Jamie says:
Thinking about you today too. I know how hard it is, after a loss, when things “go back to normal”, but you feel abnormal and don’t know what to do with your self. You’re obviously not alone, but just wanted you to know that one more person was thinking about you and Mike today.
Jamie’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday
Tina says:
Heaven has gained another Angel…
Your daughter Maddie was a very beautiful and absolutly glowing child!!
my heart aches for you, in the days and years to come. There are so many things to be thankful for, even in the face of tradgedy. She seemed to leave a lasting impression, and I can tell you that, and I never even met her. God has BIG plans for her, you can be sure of that… All my prayers are for you, and your family to give you the strength that you will need…
Sarah says:
I want you to know that you and Mike and your entire family have been in our thoughts and prayers for the last week+. I am so very and deeply sorry for your loss. Maddie has such amazing presence. It was like her smile warmed us from all the way across the interweb. Tyler (my 9 mo. old) and I watched Maddie’s video. I cried, and Tyler smiled, pointed and shrieked with excitement when he saw Maddie’s gorgeous smile.
Your loss feels very personal to me, despite the fact that I have never met you or your family. I feel as though you, Mike, and Maddie are a part of my extended family. I hope that you can feel our love and support all the way from Indiana.
Thank you for sharing your Maddie with us.
Sarah’s last blog post..It’s Never To Early
Sarah R says:
I am so sorry for your loss. Maddie was so incredibly beautiful. My heart goes out to you, even though I don’t know you. I can’t imagine how incredibly hard this must be for you–you must be such strong people. My eyes rimmed over with tears as I looked at the pictures of your little angel.
May she live on in your hearts forever, and may the memories of her bring you comfort in this time of sorrow.
Sarah R’s last blog post..Have I ever showed you Andrew’s face he makes?
Becca says:
So beautiful. I have no words. Maddie is truly a precious little angel.
Becca’s last blog post..yay for a blog makeover! (and some other stuff)
Sarah says:
My 2-year old boy climbed up in my lap as I was reading and watching your tribute to Maddie. He pointed to the screen and said, “who dat?” “It’s Maddie” I answered. “I like dat Maddie girl”, he said, and when the pictures were over he cried, “More! More!” I think that’s exactly how everyone feels. I am so sorry that you lost your little Maddie Moo, and I don’t think you’ll ever be able to count the number of lives she’s touched.
Sarah’s last blog post..@$*&%# Murphy!!!!
Jaime says:
I learned about your daughter’s passing from Nannette’s blog. I am so sorry for you loss. I did not know you or your dear Maddie. But I am so saddened by her passing. My heart goes out to you and your family. I am sitting at work on the verge of tears. Maddie will forever live on. God bless you, Mike, your family and friends.
Meredith says:
Madeline had an UNBELIEVABLE smile. May the memory of her smile, the light in her eyes and her laughter get you through this difficult time.
Karen says:
Thank you for sharing Madeline with us through this blog. She had a beautiful smile and a wonderful way about her that you could see right from the video. My heart breaks for you and I pray that the memories you have of her help you to get through this difficult time. She has made a huge mark on the world. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
wn says:
That was simple spectacular….what a life she led! What smiles! Thank you for sharing that with us, Maddie has made an impact on me and many more.
Much love to the whole family.
wn’s last blog post..Updates on the Girl
jenni says:
to maddie, then.
jenni’s last blog post..Snippits – A Stimulating and Ultimately Unfortunate Conversation About my Mom
Brooke says:
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I can’t stop thinking of that beautiful girl’s eyes after seeing your blog……through them we see the face of an angel. My prayers are with you and your husband.
LILYCAT says:
I came upon your blog not long ago & just want to extend my condolences. I’m so terribly sorry to hear of Maddie’s passing. Your words are so poignant & beautiful I feel as if I know her. Thank you for sharing your lovely child with the world. You’ll see her again some day.
Coral says:
The love that everyone has for your family, and for Maddie in particular, is almost heartbreaking.
Im so sorry for your loss, but so happy for you that you got to have her, and be with her and experience her.
Jess says:
You don’t know me. I am a stranger who find my way here through Matt Logelin’s blog. To say how sorry I am for your loss is not enough. There aren’t words big enough to convey how deeply sorry I am to hear about your tragedy. Watching the tribute video you put together I couldn’t help but cry — out of joy — for what a beautiful life Maddie lived. How full her life was. How happy she was. How much she was loved. It is tragic that she was taken away so soon but how wonderful to know that she knew so much happiness while she was here. But I can’t imagine that makes it feel any better right now.
With this entry and your video, you have both broken my heart and filled it again with love. I am thinking of you and praying for you and here to read and listen to whatever you want to say. Thank you for letting us in to your world.
Heidy Martinez says:
All I can tell you is that I am soooo soooo sorry for your loss. Your little girl is precious.
Emily D says:
Heather,
Your tribute to your little Maddie Moo was amazing..so sweet and full of love. My daughter is one day younger than Maddie….my heart breaks for you and your family right now. I will keep you all in my prayers. I am confident that Maddie is in Heaven right now….and is your little angel…until you see her again.
I pray God gives you the strength and comfort you need.
Emily D
Emily D’s last blog post..Video Time
Kellie says:
What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful little girl. I am only sorry that you had to write it at all.
Kayla Valentine says:
Dear Heather and Mike,
Ive never met you and I probably never will, but I would just like to thank you for allowing me into your life, and to be a silent observer of Maddie’s wonderful world. I only recently began to read your blog, but I started at the begining and found myself staying up at night, unable to sleep until I finished “only a few more” blog entries. I fell in love with Maddie’s smile and those gorgeous eyes of hers. I come from a large family, and I can honestly say that I have never seen a more beautiful child. I rejoyced with her milestones and felt for her pain, and her death will forever resonate with me. No parent should ever have to bury a child, and I’m sure you’ll never “get over” it, but I hope that one day your pain will subside. Maddie’s life has affect so many people, and will continue to help so many people, and I pray that she is somewhere with people who love her, reveling in the happiness she deservs. again, thank you for letting us all be part of your life. You will both forever have all of the love and support of your extended internet family.
Mari in Sandy Eggo says:
I wish I had the words to express how I feel after watching the most beautiful tribute video /blog I have ever seen/read. Maddie’s beautiful smile and with the most amazing eyesI have ever seen, ever…. will haunt me for a very long time.
~M~
Amy says:
Beautiful.
Absolutely beautiful.
Just like your Maddie.
Thank you for sharing with us.
I never got to meet her but I will never ever forget her.
Angela says:
While I read what you wrote I was tempted to tape tissue underneath my eyes because I just couldn’t keep the tears away. Then I tried to watch your tribute, but just couldn’t… maybe I’ll find my way back at some point.
Bless your hearts for having the strength to share and remind us all of what is REALLY important. I am now leaving early to pick up my little guy.
God bless.
Angela’s last blog post..Tax season
Ashley says:
Heather and Mike,
There are no words that can express how sorry I am for your loss of beautiful Maddie. She was absolutely gorgeous and seemed to be such a happy little girl. I have a daughter that is just 5 days older than Maddie and I can not even imagine anything happening to her. Please know that Maddie has touched SOO many lives and will continue to touch lives through her story and pictures. She is now in a better place and is an angel that is watching over your family. God bless you guys.
Dawn says:
I now see where Madeline got her courage, strength and poise. What an incredible little girl who’s touched so many lives. Thank you for sharing her story. We are praying for you and Mike.
Mrs. Tami Sisemore says:
My prayers go out to you and your entire family! March of Dimes has been recommended to me as help for our baby boy with cerebral palsy we are adopting. I have heard wonderful things about them and I pray they are blessed by yall
God bless,
Tami
Praying Jeremiah home Quickly
http://www.tillGodbringsthemhome.blogspot.com
Tamara says:
Heather and Mike,
I don’t know you or your sweet sweet Madeline, yet somehow I have grown to love that little girl and your family more then I thought I could love total and complete strangers.
I know you both know that you are not alone and that there are thousands probably even millions of people out there right this very moment thinking of you and your little girl. You’ve blessed us all in a way you will never know.
Thank you for sharing such a special, sweet, beautiful little life with us. Maddie is stunning and will live on forever in all the thousand and thousands of hearts she has filled with love.
Karen says:
That was so beautiful. My heart has been with you and thinking about you constantly. Thank you for your wonderful words and that beautiful tribute.
Karen’s last blog post..So Grateful
Bridge says:
Heather and Mike,
I am so very very sorry for your loss. She is so very beautiful, and I so miss reading about her adventures with you both.
B
Bridge’s last blog post..Reunion
Debby says:
My hearts aches & the tears won’t stop falling. What a beautiful little girl you have.
Your a beautiful mother and you can see in the video how happy you made her life.
She was a lucky little girl.
Debby’s last blog post..Where is my TP?
TracyD says:
I found your site through Matt Logelin’s. I just want to say I was truely touched by Maddy. I have a son who is just two days younger than Maddy and my heart wrenched when I heard the news. I can see by your post that you are a very strong woman and where Maddy got her strength from. May peace be with you and Mike. Thanks for sharing Maddy with all of us.
Natalie says:
Before the tragic loss of your beautiful, smart daughter I hadn’t heard of you. But reading your tribute to her here I am in tears. I am so very sorry for your loss, you and your family will be in my prayers.
Natalie’s last blog post..Busy, busy, busy
Spacemom says:
That was beautiful. May her memory always be a blessing for you, Mike and the world.
Amanda says:
I am so, so, so sorry.
Thank you for sharing your memories of sweet Maddie with us.
I am so thankful that you have no regrets. That is beautiful.
Chrissy says:
What a beautiful tribute to your sweet Maddie. My heart goes out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing her with us!
Chrissy’s last blog post..04/10/2009
cindy says:
Found your story on SITS, very sorry, what a beautiful celebration video!
Dropping in from the SITS site to say hi!
Cindy
http://vegetarianmamma.blogspot.com
cindy’s last blog post..Chickpea Tagine
Bren says:
What a beautiful girl. I can’t imagine the loss you are feeling but know that there are people out here sending you and your family a giant hug!
Bren’s last blog post..Maggie likes to ramble too
common mom says:
I can’t imagine what you are feeling. And I have no idea how you do it . . . such wonderful words for a beautiful little girl. You are a strong woman.
Thoughts, prayers, and all the hugs in the world for you and your family.
common mom’s last blog post..3D Webkinz
Laura says:
I don’t know you, but my heart is wrenching at the loss, and yet so inspired by your amazing little girl and the precious time you had with her. What a light and a joy. Not all babies look like that. She has a sparkle and wisdom to her eyes well beyond her years. What wonderful, loving parents that you gave her the chance to come to this world and inspire so many.
Vera says:
She is beautiful, thank you so much for sharing her with us.
Vera’s last blog post..100 Totally Random Things I Bet You Didn’t Know
Amy says:
Heather and Mike,
I read about your story and just like everyone I got the tears and thoughts running through my head. I have a little girl that is the same age as Maddie. It just made me think of her and wonder what I would do. I hope that you two are holding on tight to one another and staying there for each other. I really do not want to say anything to hurt either one of you. Just know you are in my thoughts and I really say Thank you for sharing Maddie with me.
Laura says:
What a wonderful video you have made! You have many wonderful memories of your little angel. I think about your little baby daily!
Laura’s last blog post..Free Bentley Wildflower Seeds Sample
Colleen says:
What a truly beautiful little girl! My thoughts and prayers are with you through this trying time. I cannot even imagine what you are going through, but you have handled it with such grace!
Colleen’s last blog post..Ten on Tuesday
Karen says:
Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute to your precious daughter with the world. I think that Maddie has touched many more ‘stranger’ hearts in the last week than you know, and I know she will be in mine forever. Peace be with all of you.
Danielle says:
“Some people step into our lives and quickly go, others leave footprints on our souls and we are never quite the same.” -Flavia Flavin
Maddie left a footprint on so many of our hearts. Thank you for sharing her with the world.
Erin says:
I am heartbroken for you both. When I read about Maddie’s passing this morning, a wave of shock and sadness ripped through my body. I have been following Maddie’s progress for over a year now, and to find out…well, I am so sorry. My little girl is 22 months old and it tears my heart to think what you must be going through. Thank you for your brave words and for sharing Maddie with us. She is and has always been an angel. May you find peace and comfort.
ana says:
I don´t know you , but i just want to let you know my heart goes with you. I´ve been crying for hours looking at the beautiful pictures of your sweet and adorable maddie. She had a special light since she was born, and i am sure that light with continue iluminating your way through life.
You both are incredible parents who gave it all for your amazing maddie.
Nichol says:
Heather and Mike,
Absolutely beautiful.. Thank you for sharing her life story with us. I will remember your sweet Maddie for the rest of my life! I wll be marching for her on the 25th. She will always forever hold a huge place in everyone’s life. I’m so sorry for her passing Praying for you always!
Nichol’s last blog post..Shandle Toilet Seat Handle Giveaway
Tess says:
Im so sorry for your loss, I cried and cried as I know so many did! Thank you for sharing your life and story with me, it has opened my eye a bit and I will cherish my moments with my daughter that much more! Thank you!
Hope in CT says:
What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful baby girl. I am so sorry for your loss. May God bless you and your husband, and God bless Maddie. My heart goes out to you.
Kim Harbourt in FL says:
I had only recently stumbled across your blog and instantly fell in love with Maddie. I am pregnant now and I wasn’t shy about the fact that I wanted a daugther and I got what I asked for! Your tribute to Madeline was by far the most beautiful think I have ever read and makes me think just how lucky we are to ever love anyone!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Carrie Oliver says:
Hi, beautiful baby, lovely Maggie. May you have fun “in the water” and may those who had the good fortune to know you know that they are surrounded by peace and love from all, even complete strangers like me.
christieo says:
the most beautiful powerful post i have ever read. my heart is broken for you, and we mourn with you. thank you for sharing maddie with us. love and hugs to you.
christieo’s last blog post..Breaking News!
Sandra says:
Although I do not know you personally, my heart aches for you. Your tribute to Maddie is so beautiful and poised. Although I know it hurts to think of what you were not able to teach Maddie, look at what she has taught you, and the rest of the visitors to your blog! In her short life, she was able to bring so many people together, and was able to bring such joy to so many in such a short time! I hope you are able to find peace and purpose in your loss somewhere down the road. Thank you for sharing your sweet Maddie with us. She will live on in all who hear her story.
Zip n Tizzy says:
Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter and your lovely family with us all.
She’s a gift.
Headless Mom says:
Really beautiful Heather.
I am so, so sorry for your loss. (((big hugs))
Jennifer says:
This is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. You and Mike are so inspiring and amazingly strong. It is no doubt that Maddie inherited her beauty and spirit and strength from her parents.
In full disclosure, I only learned about Maddie recently but I quickly fell in love with her through your writings and pictures. What a blessing to be her Mommy. Thank you for sharing her with all of us.
How you put together such a beautiful video during such a trying time is beyond me but what a lovely, lovely tribute. I cried the whole time watching it and my
2-year old was riveted watching right next to me. She smiled and laughed throughout finding so much joy in watching your little Maddie Moo embrace life. She made me play it again and again.
My heart goes out to you and Mike in the deepest way during this incredibly difficult time, but know that Maddie has affected so many of us who never even knew her and her spirit will live on in the hearts of minds of all of us.
Jennifer’s last blog post..Vanity
Rachel Weaver says:
A few days ago was the first time I had ever heard of Maddie.
For the last two days I have read your blog from start to now, and I fell in love.
What a bright soul you have in a daughter.
I lost my son, Harrison, 11 weeks ago, he would have been 16 weeks old tomorrow. Unlike your story he was born full term and a completely healthy baby. And the one day he just did not wake up.
I just wanted you to know that even though I just found her, I will never forget your precious Maddie. I like to think they are in Heaven together playing.
Thank you for chronicling her life here.
Sincerely,
Rachel Weaver
modbev says:
What a beautifully written tribute to your daughter. She had a light within that shined through her. You shared her life with the world and we will hold her in our hearts.
Jamie M. says:
What a wonderful, heartfelt description of your amazing daughter. I cannot even come close to imagining your pain and heartbreak, but I am thinking of and praying for you and your family.
crookedeyebrow says:
My heart goes out to the both of you and I am so very sorry for your loss. Your tribute to her left me speechless and in tears. Your beautiful Maddie will forever be in all of our hearts. Much love to you and your family.
crookedeyebrow’s last blog post..I dusted off my camera…
memphislis says:
Oh God, Heather. I don’t even know where to begin; I am devastated, I am still in total shock. The vimeo montage is gorgeous; What a huge huge light in a tiny body. You are the mama of one amazing little person. The brightest lights seem to burn out the fastest, don’t they? I will never, ever forget Maddie. Never ever.
Tina says:
What a beautiful girl. Madeline was beatiful and I can tell she could light up the room. I am crying now just thinking of her and how difficult this must be for you
b*babbler says:
Maddie was sunshine and light, beauty and laughter and a little bit of fairy dust in one sparkling little girl.
Her life has touched so many, and we are so very lucky to have known her.
kristen says:
maddie is lucky to have a mommy and daddy who loved her so much during her too-short life. your blog is a reminder to all to cherish every minute, every day with the loved ones in our lives.
with great affection…and hopes for a better day tomorrow, and the day after that…
Carrie says:
Thank you. Thank you for sharing and thank you for being you.
Vanessa says:
Maddi had such an infectious smile
and she will aalways be remebered.
Heather, that was a great tribute and had me in tears.
Susan says:
I see purple everywhere and all the time. Your family is in my prayers. Thanks for sharing this blog and that beautiful girl with us. What a gift.
Susan’s last blog post..They Get THE STUPID From Their Father
Susan says:
Simply, beautifully put. I have been praying for you and will continue to do so.
Susan’s last blog post..There are no words
Viviana says:
Heather, how extremely generous of you to share such a personal video with us in a such difficult moment. I know there are hundreds and hundreds of comments here, but even if mine is just one more I really felt the need of thanking you for that. Maddie was precious, and so beautiful. I’m so so sorry for your lost and I wish you and Mike can find some comfort over time. All the best to you.
Kerry says:
Such beautiful tributes. Thank you for sharing your love for your daughter with us. You have all been in my thoughts today and will be for some time. Maddie was so lucky to have such loving, kind and gentle parents. I hope you find some peace in the coming years.
Audrey - Mom Generations says:
These are the most beautiful words any mom could say about her daughter. I want you to know that Maddie will never be forgotten… thank YOU for sharing her with us.
xoxo
Audrey McClelland
Mom Generations
Susan says:
There are no words. She was a mighty warrior and a true Gift to every single person who was honored to meet her in life and on this video. No words.
Hugs,
Susan
Mom to a 24 weeker
Miguelina says:
You and Mike gave Maddie a beautiful life. You inspire me.
Miguelina’s last blog post..Fragile
KRistin says:
It is clear to this total stranger that MAddie had more love (and was more loved) by her wonderful, loving parents that many people could hope for in a lifetime. You both ARE outstanding parents and I will carry the sparkle in Maddie’s eyes with me in the weeks and months to come. I’m dressing my daughter in purple tomorrow and will tell her it’s for Maddie.
Meghan says:
beautiful words, beautiful tribute and beautiful girl…
i couldn’t help but cry while reading and watching. i have a been a follower of your blog since early last year and have looked forward every day to getting maddie spohr updates. when i read about maddie’s passing last week i could barely function for the rest of the day.
there are no words left that haven’t been said, but i am so so sorry for your loss.
you and mike are unbelievable parents and what an awesome being you created. the world is truly a better place by having ms. madeline in it. she certainly brightened my mornings at work and i will truly miss her.
my thoughts and prayers are with your family during this difficult time.
take good care…
Jodi says:
I obviously haven’t been online in over a week, and I’m just shaken by your news. It literally takes my breath away. I am so sorry for you loss. I’m in tears. You are in my prayers.
You gave Maddie such a beautiful life. She was such an amazing beautiful little girl. Your pics of her would light up my day.
I can’t say enough how sorry I am for your loss. She was truly a blessing for all of us.
Jodi’s last blog post..Pay it Forward
Liz says:
Thank you for sharing Maddie with us. I’m a medical student and cannot afford to contribute more than a few dollars to March of Dimes. But one day when I am making more money I will do everything I can to contribute to the cause.
I have been showing Maddie’s tribute video to everyone I know…my boyfriend, my parents, my friends. I just found your blog a couple months ago and I wanted to share Maddie with them and show them what a fabulous little girl you and your husband have raised. I’m so sad and so angry that Maddie was taken so soon….but at the same time so happy that she was your daughter, because you deserve such a gorgeous and lively little nugget of a girl.
Keeping you in my thoughts. Please keep writing…I know this blog was meant to record Maddie’s life…and I am selfish in that I want to keep up with you guys and make sure everything turns out OK. You’re a beautiful writer…I’d love to hear more in the months to come but I understand if it’s too hard to keep writing publicly.
Michelle says:
I was very moved by both your and Mike’s strength to write and create such a beautiful tribute to your daughter. From the little I’ve read your blog (just in the last week since reading about you on Matt Logelin’s blog) I can tell that Maddie was so lucky to have such loving and devoted parents; as lucky as you feel to have her as a daughter. I know that no words from strangers or friends can heal the hurt you both feel, but know that many people you haven’t even met are out there thinking, praying, and thanking you for what you’ve done for so many. Your courage is astounding. May you continued to be blessed with the strength and courage you have shown to continue to do work in Maddie’s name. She will not be forgotten.
Dawn says:
What a beautiful happy girl she was.
My heartfelt and deepest condolences to you and your husband. I can’t even fathom your pain.
You will be in my prayers.
Trina says:
Mike and Heather,
Having been in your shoes I know there is nothing I can say that will make your pain go away. But I can tell you it does get easier with time and you will be able to remember all the good times without breaking into tears!
Maddie is a beautiful child and she touched so many people in her short life. I am so sorry for your loss, but in your hearts she will always be here with you.
Our prayers are with you at this difficult time and Maddie is in our thoughts!
Trina’s last blog post..Zariah
Lisa says:
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I hope the outpouring of concern and support helps you in your grief. She was obviously a very loved child and was very lucky to have you as parents. I don’t get the get big plan God has for us but I trust there is one and and someday we will get it.
Meg says:
This isn’t fair. I am so sorry. I wish there was a better way to express my sympathy.
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Meg says:
This isn’t fair. I am so sorry. I wish I had better words to express my sympathy.
Meg’s last blog post..DIY Outdoor Toys
Regina Hanna says:
I have so enjoyed readying about your Maddie Moo adventures. Your tribute video is so poignant, while it tears at my heart and lumps in my throat while I cry, it does make you grin. Well done Heather and Mike.
Regina Hanna’s last blog post..Montezuma’s Last Stand
Carrie Robertson says:
Mike and Heather,
I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your family’s story and your precious girl with all of us…
Praying for you and little Maddie,
Carrie
Mia says:
Dear Heather. Mike and family,
Of course there are no words at all, just love love love. What a wonderful soul you created and nurtured.
My son shares Maddie’s birthday, but is one year older. We will forever celebrate Maddie on that day now too.
Bless you all.
Love,
Mia
Mia says:
Dear Heather. Mike and family,
Of course there are no words at all, just love love love. What a wonderful soul you created and nurtured. Thank you for sharing her.
My son shares Maddie’s birthday, but is one year older. We will forever celebrate Maddie on that day now too.
Bless you all.
Love,
Mia
mom22little1s says:
I am so sorry for your unimaginable loss. I cannot stop thinking about you and your family.
Gwen Jackson says:
I don’t know you or your family or your sweet Madeline. When I heard about her passing, I came to your site and read all your blogs. I feel like I know her through your vivid stories and anecdotes. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through. I am so sorry. I can’t stop thinking about you and your family. I’ve said many prayers for you all.
Gwen Jackson’s last blog post..Good Fences Make Bad Writers
Ange in the WI says:
Sobbing….what a beautiful soul. You met a truly good person. Not many people can say that.
Jennifer Greenhagen says:
Mom of 3 under 7-just was reminded of what a privilege it is to be a MOM-thank you for your beautiful tribute to Madeline. She will always be in my thoughts and prayers-may be peace be with you sometime soon.
danielle says:
Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter with us, her light will continue to shine forever.
Lori says:
I wish there were words, my heart breaks, but such admiration for the two of you. Please know there is love and prayers sent your way.
Kitty says:
My heart breaks for both of you. I’m the mother of a five year old daughter, and my brain cannot quote comprehend the sheer magnitude of your loss. I watched your tribute to Maddie and it’s obvious that she shone very brightly.. She brings to mind one of my favorite quotes from The Little Prince.
“At night, when you look up at the sky,
since I shall be living on a star,
and since I shall be laughing on a star,
for you it will be as if all the stars are laughing.
You alone will have stars that can laugh!
And when you have got over your loss
(for we always do),
you’ll be happy to have known me.
You will always be my friend.
You will want to laugh with me. ”
A beautiful little star indeed.
Marianne @ Writer- Mommy says:
I can hardly type this; the tears won’t stop.
She was absolutely beautiful. So much spunk and fire and life.
I am so deeply sorry for your loss; may God wrap his arms around you and carry you through this sorrow.
You have given all of us a wake up call to go hug our kids tighter and hold them closer and to just shout I LOVE YOU to everyone that matters. Life is too wretchedly short.
Marianne @ Writer- Mommy’s last blog post..I Dreamed A Dream {A moment of beauty}
threeundertwo says:
You’ve given me a new sense of the importance of blogging. To capture every sweet moment that we can – we are the first generation to do this in this way.
Your story doesn’t end here. It goes on and on like ripples in a very big pond. Out to bloggers like me, who want to capture it all. Out to parents who are taking time to give more hugs and look at their little blessings with a renewed sense of awe.
I hope you can gather strength from all of us and somehow, continue to write. Write for yourself. Write for your husband. Your story isn’t over.
God bless.
threeundertwo’s last blog post..Wordful Wednesday: Hubs
Kathryn says:
My heart is breaking. I am so so sorry.
Angela at mommy bytes says:
She will always be beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss.
Angela at mommy bytes’s last blog post..Sadness and Renewal
Michelle -WhiteTrashMom says:
My sweet friend Heather—you are being so strong and I’ve heard you and Mike were amazing yesterday. I am so proud of you both. Maddie is so proud of you, I know. I’ve been there in spirit with you all. I’ve been writing and trying to let people know about the miracle of Maddie and her fabulous parents.
I am coming out there soon, sooner than planned, so I can see you and do something or do nothing or just shop for shoes. I have been praying for you, Mike and for Maddie.
Love you sweet pea. Will see you and talk to you soon. I wrote about Maddie on HuffPo, don’t know if you saw it, so many people are sending you and Mike love. (Hugs)
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/michelle-lamar/maddie-spohr-tragic-death_b_185769.html
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Cheryl says:
Thank you for sharing the beauty of Madeline’s life, and your beauty as parents, with so many of us. We mourn with you, grieve for you…and wish you peace and happy memories amidst the sorrow. What a darling blossom Maddie was in our world. Love and prayers to you both.
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Dawn @ My Home Sweet Home says:
I’m a new reader here. That was a beautiful tribute. What a blessing that you have those wonderful photos and videos; thank you for sharing. My heart aches for you both and you’re in my prayers.
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Meg says:
Beautiful tribute. I know my tears are nothing compared to yours and I wish I had the right words to say. I’m so sorry and your precious baby girl is in my prayers.
Meg’s last blog post..34 hours
momstheword says:
I am so sorry that you have to go through this pain. I wish I had the words to comfort you, but there really are no words.
What a precious little doll you were given the priviledge to bear and call your beloved daughter. Her pictures are so full of smiles and laughter.
Your family will be in my thoughts and my prayers in the days to come.
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Amy says:
No words. Just tears. And many, many prayers.
Amy’s last blog post..Exactly enough time
Sabrina says:
I don’t think there are words to express how much the world has lost without Maddie here. Thank you so much for sharing her life with the world – she is and will always be a true inspiration, as are you. You and your amazing, beautiful daughter inspire me to be a better person and a better mother and appreciate every second. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Kristen says:
Maddie is simply beautiful and has a captivating smile. I am so sorry for your loss and my heart aches for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kristen’s last blog post..Thousand Words Thursday: Easter Brunch
Amanda/Baby A says:
I don’t know if you’ll ever get to see this comment. But I wanted to tell you that when I told you that you were strong and you were wonderful before Alison and I left the reception, I really meant: You are SO INCREDIBLY and AMAZINGLY STRONG and an ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL woman and mother.
But that kind of emphasis probably would have gotten stares and glares. So I’ll ‘internet’ that feeling of EMPHASIS to you.
Your words were so beautiful. I will never, ever forget that day. A fitting tribute to such a precious girl.
Trish says:
The tribute is incredible. I cried, I laughed…I cried some more. I can’t believe she’s gone. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss.. and so happy that she blessed so many lives while she was here.
Trish’s last blog post..Quickie with linky to longy with piccys.
Julie says:
That was just amazing. Maddie was just as lucky to have you for her mother. Thank you for sharing. My heart aches for you and your family.
Amanda says:
Madeline is just absolutley gorgeous. Those big blue eyes and that huge smile just grabbed my heart. What a wonderful video you’ve made to honor her.
RIP Madeline
Barbara Jones says:
What a beautiful tribute to your little angel. My heart is with you and your family.
Julie Stiles Mills says:
Your family was in my prayers for the past few days and will be in the upcoming days. What a wonderful tribute. Sincerely moving. A smile like that comes from the soul and uplifts everyone around it.
I admire your strength and pray it continues. I’m praying for comfort and peace. Peace like a river doesn’t mean a calm, still pool. Peace like a river sometimes means a peace while riding rapids or falling with waterfalls. I pray God will give you this peace.
Julie Stiles Mills’s last blog post..you GO girl!
Karen says:
A truly beautiful tribute.
Bec Duncan says:
I wish for strength for you and you husband. Take care of each other.
Ellen says:
I have nothing to write that seems remotely appropriate, much less adequate. I can’t stop thinking about beautiful Madeline. Your tribute brought tears falling to my keyboard. Warmest thoughts and prayers for you, Heather, and Mike. And beautiful, beautiful Madeline, you are such a light in the world.
Ellen’s last blog post..If this doesn’t make you smile
Kathryn says:
that was a beautiful post
whoorl says:
So heartbreaking and beautiful, Heather. Thank you for allowing us to grieve with you. xoxo
whoorl’s last blog post..Happy Birthday, Papa
Nadia says:
Your tribute brought tears to my eyes… Madeline will definitely live ion in many people’s heart, including mine.
Snarky Mommy says:
I am so sorry for your loss. Your Maddie was a beautiful girl and I am a better person after reading all of your archives. You a wonderful mother and this was a beautiful tribute to your daughter.
Snarky Mommy’s last blog post..Floored
Lorraine says:
I’m so terribly sorry for the loss of your sweet girl. Your words are such a reflection of the love and happiness you had, and your memories of her are so immediate and beautiful. My heart breaks for you.
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mc says:
What a sweet sweet angel baby. I can’t imagine your pain. I am so sorry.
leslie says:
My heart goes out to your family. I just found your blog through a common friend and it just breaks my heart. I lost a son almost a year ago to a chromosomal birth defect and it was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. Your sweet Maddie is a beautiful little girl. I am walking in the MFB this weekend and will think about your sweet baby and mine while doing so.
Betsy says:
Not even having known her I can see how bright her light shown! What a precious spirit this earth has been graced with and Heaven gets to dance with!
Nicole Couto says:
My 8 year old daughter Taylor and I just watched your tribute to beautiful Maddie. What an incredibly special and beautiful little girl. My heart aches for your loss.
When the video was over, Taylor said, “God must have missed her already, Mom”. She is asking me to watch it again right now…she really is touching so many.
Nina says:
I am so, so profoundly sorry for your loss.
Thank you for sharing the life of this beautiful little girl. My heart breaks for you, because there for the grace of God go I.
You and your family will stay in my thoughts.
Nina’s last blog post..If Matei could write a diary
Carole Hicks says:
I’m pretty confident in saying this…I don’t think God ever made a more beautiful baby girl! My heart goes out to you.
Susannah says:
What a stunningly beautiful little girl (although she is more than her beauty!). Seriously–those eyes, those elfin smiles. I am so sorry, so incredibly sorry. Hugs and peace and strength…
Susannah’s last blog post..Bubbly Toes
Jeri says:
I can see how incredibly blessed you were to share your life with Maddie. As was she.
Today, my son and I were driving to an appointment and he asked me,”Did you cry as hard when Grandad died as you did when Amber (my daughter, he never met her) died?” No, there is nothing as hard in this life as to lose your child. Nothing. Having said that, I can say that time does heal, time does help. Life will never be the same. In the days, weeks, months and years, you will begin to live the “new normal”. Be patient with yourself.
For those who are close to this family please in two weeks, two months, two years and beyond, talk about Maddie. Please don’t think you are doing them a favor by avoiding the subject. The fear most parents have is that their child will be forgotten. Heather and Mike will need to continue to share about their beloved baby girl. Yeah, they will probably cry, may even sob. That’s okay, it’s part of the healing process. Heather, if you need someone that’s far away (Texas) to listen or read a vent about how freakin’ unfair life is, my email is: jerigrothues@yahoo.com
Becky says:
Thank you for allowing us to have the priviledge of knowing Maddie. Her smile is one of the most amazing things I’ve ever seen.
Missives From Suburbia says:
Thank you for sharing her with us. And thank you to Maddie and the two of you for reminding us all that life is to be lived, embraced and cherished.
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Marti B. says:
Mike and Heather,
I don’t know you at all. I kind of follow Flotsamblog. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing Maddie with the world, she IS a beautiful little girl.
I don’t know what to say to you except that I have been and will continue keeping you in my prayers. It’s hard but I believe God is still in control.
Sometimes marriages break up over things such as this, so please, stay together. Work on staying together.
I wish both of you the peace of the Lord that no one else understands.
feefifoto says:
Again, I’m so sad for your loss.
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karla | looking towards heaven says:
Beautiful.
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Heather says:
I am just so so sorry. She was such a ray of light. My heart hurts for you.
Heather’s last blog post..why/because
metalia says:
I am so, so sorry Heather.
This was beautiful.
xoxo
metalia’s last blog post..For Maddie and Thalon
novelle360 says:
What a perfect tribute. Lovely.
Lori Nusbaum says:
I am amazed at Maddie’s beautiful eyes, and while watching your tribute was even more amazed at how much life she experienced in her short time here. I have visited before, I have not commented, and I dont know when the last time was that I stopped by, but truly, from the depths of my heart and soul, I am so sorry for your loss. Maddie has made an impression on many hearts, and there forever she shall remain!
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Billie says:
She was a stunning beauty and the tribute you have made for her is stunning as well. My heart breaks for your family.
Billie
Billie’s last blog post..Hoppy Easter 2009
Kris says:
Hi, Bless you and your little angel Maddie! Her beautiful shining eyes say it all! I cried through your entire blog and then my husband came and read over my shoulder and he too started crying. We are very involved with March of Dimes because I went into labor at 30 weeks with first baby and 27 weeks with my second baby. We also have had some struggles along the way. I am so sorry for your loss of your baby girl. I hope that people will see her beautiful spirit and realize how important it is to contribute to the March of Dimes to help these special children and their families……
Erib says:
Mike and Heather,
I am so sorry for your loss. I don’t know you, and I have only learned about your Maddie from a chat board after her passing. She was a beautiful little girl and she was lucky to have you both for parents. Your tribute to her is beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss.
Jack's Mom says:
I hardly have words to say through my tears, but can write that Maddie was very lucky to have you and Mike as parents and vice versa. What a beautiful little girl and smile I’ll always remember. You and Mike will be in our prayers and I’m so sorry.
Sher says:
Just add the wings….
She’s beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss.
Sarah says:
Thank you for sharing your true story with us. I happened upon your blog through Matt’s site. I currently have tears flowing down my face. I have a 20 month old boy (who is currently napping as I write this) but as soon as he gets up, he will get that extra special hug from me because I am his mommy and I can do that.
I can just picture your daughter laughing and smiling and being happy. I will be praying for your family. Thank you again.
Brie says:
Beautiful. I have to go hug my Madeline now.
Christine says:
I don’t know how you are managing to even breathe at this point. She is so loved. We miss her. We hurt for you. We wish you nothing but peace and healing.
es says:
I had to stop watching the video because I am crying too much. I am so sorry for your loss.
Malou's Mama says:
What an amazing tribute to your sweet daughter. I am so very sorry for your loss. I know it is the worst pain you can ever go through.
I am struck by the “wise old soul” that seems to come across so clearly in Madeline’s expressions, her smiles, her eyes. I know you wanted her to live a full lifetime, but something a priest said at my daughter’s funeral was that a life is lived fully if that life has created love. Your daughter clearly has also created only love in this world. And even though her life was too short, it was full. Even a stranger can see that. I also came to think that Madeline clearly demonstrates what we call here in Denmark “livsglæde” – which is loosely translated as happiness of life.
Some people just have an energy of this type of happiness that can shine through any picture, and in your case, through any computer, and go across the world, and affect everyone who comes in contact with it. You can see that, how much Madeline has touched the world, just by the responses you get on this blog.
Good luck in this new road you have to travel. I wish you and your husband the strength to remember Madeline in your wonderful memories, and the peace to allow yourself all the time you need to grieve in your own way.
Malou’s Mama’s last blog post..Memories & Ideas
Tricia says:
Almost as beautiful to read as it was to hear you say it. you are so incredibly strong my dear friend and I am just amazed by that strength…seriously. I think about you guys so often and am constantly sending you love, peace, comfort, hugs and of course, the strength to get through this in one piece. I hope you and mike and your fam can feel it. here if you need ANYTHING.
love always,
tricia
NIkki says:
I am so very sorry. I had never heard of Maddie before her passing, and I am just a stranger, but I wanted to send my condolences, and love, and prayers, and anything that I could possibly send because I am just astounded by Maddie, and I never even had the pleasure of knowing her. Everything I’ve learned about her through your blog, twitter, etc… just amazes me. And my heart just aches for both you and your husband. You and your family are in my thoughts, and may Maddie always be remembered.
NIkki’s last blog post..I try to smile more every day
Amy says:
She was such a beautiful little girl. She reminds me of my own little Maddie. The middle of the video with the “where’s Maddie” was simply heartbreaking. We do that with our daughter. I’m so so sorry for your loss.
Stephanie says:
I came across your site and read all about Maddie. What a sweet little girl. My heart is breaking reading this. I’m so sorry for your loss. She was such a beautiful girl (which you already know). I lost my little boy who was 2 to cancer in 2000 and know the pain you’re going through. You will never forget your Maddie and your memories of her will help you through the tough times. You and your family are in my prayers. Don’t worry, you’ll never forget anything about her. Time just makes it easier to deal with.
Jessica says:
Your beautiful little girl has taken my breath away. Tonight, for Maddie, I will read my 3 year old daughter, “just one more book”, I’ll tuck my 11 year old in like he was 3 and I’ll tell my nine year old one more time how great he did at his baseball game tonight. Thank you beautiful Maddie for reminding me how lucky we are to have our beautiful children in our lives. Your little star just shined so bright. Even just from pictures I can tell how truly special you are…
Melissa says:
I’m soo sorry for your loss…may God heal your pain!! Maddie was a gorgeous little girl and your loss will hopefully help many other babies!!
Gypsy at Heart says:
What a beautiful tribute to your little girl. I am sorry for your loss, but I am so glad you had her for even a little while. What a treasure for you.
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Seashell in NC says:
Dear Maddie’s parents. I did not know of you until Matt posted that you had lost your beautiful daughter. I read and looked at pictures on your flickr well into the night that night. Yesterday I saw you posted what I assume was her eulogy and the video. I was in bed with my laptop. I cried silently as I read your amazing tribute to an even more amazing daughter. Then I got to the video and had to roll on my side so my husband would not see how hard I was crying. Reading and then watching, I feel as if I have lost someone too. I supposed I have because Maddie was so special, she belonged to the world. A gift of beauty to behold, like a delicate flower on a roadside vine, there for anyone to cherish.
I wonder, if you have thought of doing memorial bracelets, purple of course. I would love to have such a thing.
God Bless,
Seashell in NC
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Miranda Clephane says:
Thank you for sharing your beautiful little girl with the world. I am so sorry for your loss.
God Bless you and your family,
Miranda in Indianapolis
Melessa says:
I will admit that I have been reluctant to read this. I am currently pregnant, super-sensitive, and mourning a loss in my own family. Common sense told me to stay away from anything that would upset me more. But today, I felt brave enough to read your beautiful tribute to your precious daughter and I am very glad that I did.
ITB, Melessa
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Leigh Ann says:
My heart breaks for you.
I know absolutely nothing, NOTHING helps. But I want you to know that I am hugging my children tighter because of Maddie.
There are no words. The world is so much poorer for losing your sweet girl.
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Meaghan Thibert says:
I’m not sure if anyone has mentioned this or not, it may just be something I have noticed alone. But there is something all knowing in the face of a baby born prematurely. My daughter Hayden was born a month and a half early, and this was something I picked up right away. I know that all babies are beautiful, but there is something special about a preemie… They don’t have that typical newborn look. They look a lot older, a lot wiser in the face. Their features are different, more grown up. I have been very lucky that Hayden made it through her troubles and is as healthy as ever, if not just a little smaller then other babies her age. But as she grows and starts to fill out, and lose that preemie look, I’ll always remember the comfort it gave me. When I left the hospital and had to leave her in the NICU, I think one of the greatest things I had when I wasn’t with her were pictures of her. She looked so strong and a lot more held together then I did. I don’t think that spirit ever leaves them, the spirit of being a fighter. Maybe Maddie felt that she could better fight for her family some place else. Knowing what she has over come; I for one would feel blessed to have an angel on my side that knows how to pull through like that.
molly says:
I wish all of us – all 400+ that commented and thousands and thousands more who read this – could each take a fraction of your pain and carry it for you, divide it up.
What you’ve done is so much greater. You’ve shared your beautiful words, beautiful pictures, beautiful daughter with us. You have every reason to be heartbroken, but you haven’t dispersed any pain – just love. Thank you so much.
Thank you for Madeline.
Michelle C. says:
Dear Heather:
I first found out about your blog and story when my husband showed me the article in the LA times. Then when I went on your Blog I was struck by all the similiarities we share… toddler girl named Madeline with curly hair and big blue eyes, born near each other in time ( my Maddie was born 10/07) and in location ( we live in West LA) and husband’s named Mike. But one thing we don’t have in common is strength. I simply don’t think I could do what you do and have done. You AMAZE me by your ability to have perservered through the difficult pregnancy, and then the grace and courage you have shown in this most difficult of times. I am sure you are drawing that strength and courage from your Maddie, but it can’t be easy and I just wanted to tell you that I think you are a SUPER mom and amazingly strong and brave and while it is clear that you were so blessed to be Maddie’s mom, she was also so blessed to have a mother so obviously loving, and strong as you. My prayers and thoughts are with your family.
Brittany says:
Your daughter is absolutely beautiful! I have NEVER seen a baby girl with a more infectious smile than Maddies. Her eyes were the window to her soul. She had such a spirit about her that I can’t even put into words, and thats evident just from seeing the video. I can only imgaine how captivating she was in person.
May you find peace in the coming days. Maddie’s legacy will live on.
Candice says:
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful little spirit. I am thinking of your family and praying for you all daily. Much love.
Candice’s last blog post..Simply Divine Date Night
Jodi says:
I work on Pampers (I love babies!) and was directed to your tribute to Maddie from Matt Logelin’s blog. Maddie’s an angel. Her smile priceless. Thanks for sharing with us. I laughed and cried all at the same time when I watched the video. I know the right thing to say is “I’m sorry for your loss”, but honestly after watching the video all I can think is how blessed you’ve been. I’m sure that doesn’t make it any easier but I think it’s true. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Sincerely, Jodi
Smalltowngirl says:
Thank you for sharing your precious daughter- what a beautiful smile…an amazing girl- so full of life. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Kristen says:
You made a wonderful tribute to your beautiful Maddie. I know no words can heal your pain but I just wanted to say that I am thinking of you, your husband and your family in this time of grief.
Well wishes and thoughtful hugs from a reader in Massachusetts.
Kristen says:
I am in tears after watching the tribute – what a beautiful, happy little girl and so obviously loved. I am so deeply sorry for your loss and you will be in my thoughts and prayers in the days and months to come. I hope that the beautiful memories of your angel bring you some peace. You gave her the best life a little girl could ask for.
Leah says:
I do not know you, and I hope I am not intruding. That was one of the most beautiful tributes I have ever read. You have astounding strength. Your daughter was incredibly lucky. Thank you for sharing this. Your love is beautiful.
Margie says:
Thank you for sharing your beautiful, sweet, precious Maddie with us. Her short time was so clearly spent loving and being loved whole heartedly. God Bless-
Stephanie Elliot says:
Thinking of you.
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Alisha says:
You and your husband seem like amazing people that were blessed to have possibly one of the sweetest babys ever. I am very sorry for your loss.
punkinmama says:
Oh my. No words. Except… thank you… for inspiring me to be the absolute best mom I can be. Now. Today. No wasted moments.
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Susan (5 Minutes for Mom) says:
I just watched Maddie’s tribute video again and again I can’t hold back the tears.
You are so right, Maddie’s life has touched us all. When I watched the video again today, I kept thinking how you could see how much Maddie loved life and how much fun you all were having.
I too often let myself get caught up in the busyness of life but I am going to try to keep thinking of Maddie and her smile and try to enjoy my life and my girls more — try to enjoy every minute.
Thank you sooooooo much for sharing Maddie’s amazing life with us. She is such a blessing.
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Shangrila says:
I held strong until the close-ups of her eyelashes and toes before letting the tears fall. Your video tribute shows that you gave her a wonderful life, thank you so much for sharing your lives with us. Today I will kiss my children and think of your beautiful Maddie. My heart, along with so many others, goes out to you and your husband.
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sara says:
It is so clear from the photos/video how much joy Madeline brought to your lives, and it was also clear how much she was and IS loved. I am sure she felt that love every day she was with you. I am terribly, terribly sorry to learn of her death.
I do want you to know that watching your sweet girl smile and laugh was a privilege so thank you for sharing this. I wish you and your husband and all of Maddie’s family and friends solace.
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Amy says:
I am so very sorry. My heart aches for you and I cry when I think of your beautiful daughter. I pray that you find peace and comfort in these times.
Paige says:
This video brought tears to my eyes. She is beautiful. I am so sorry.
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Amy says:
praying for you… sorry for your loss of your beautiful daughter…
Amy’s last blog post..Sisters
Melanie says:
What a beautiful tribute to your smart, funny, gorgeous, smiling, amazing daughter. The love you all share is obvious. I’m so truly sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you both.
Thank you for sharing your daughter and allowing the world to see the bright spot that she etched for eternity.
Sharla says:
What a HAPPY little girl! It must be an incredible blessing and priviledge to be her mommy and daddy. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Gwen Jackson says:
Me and my daughter have watched this beautiful video a couple of times now. It is an honor to see those amazing photos and videos of Maddie’s wonderful, but too short, life. Like others have said above, Maddie really seemed to enjoy her time here with you. I’m so sorry for what you have lost. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Julia says:
I just wanted to say that that was a most lovely tribute to your daughter. I obviously never met her, but she sounds so special. I am glad to see you picked up your camera again.
EmilyInCocktailLand says:
Thank you for sharing your child’s life…there is so much to learn from her. My prayers will be for ya’ll, I hope you find and hold onto peace.
Ryan says:
Really really sweet. You can tell that she KNEW she was loved.
Kim says:
This is absolutely heartbreaking. I know I don’t know you or your family but I will pray for you to get through this as best you can. What a beautiful little girl…what a shame. My heart hurts for you and your family.
kim f. says:
this is beautiful. and heartbreaking at the same time. i’m sitting here in germany crying for your family. this tribute makes me wish i had known her. sending hugs from a stranger. xoxo
Miss Tachae says:
I dont remember the last time I cried so hard.
That was the most beautiful thing Ive seen in a long time,
I wish lots of healing love on your hearts.
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Audrey says:
My heart is still breaking for you and your husband. This post was a beautiful, heart-wrenching tribute to your lovely Maddie.
With love.
Audrey
Amy says:
Your little girl was beautiful. My heart breaks for you and your family.
Karen says:
I came across your blog because of your tragic loss, but I wish I has found it sooner. There is so much beauty and love in your posts about Maddie.
I cannot start to imagine your grief, and I don’t know what to say. I hope you find peace and healing.
Karen @ If I Could Escape says:
Beautiful. She is truly beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss.
Lisa Marie says:
Thank you for sharing through this unimaginably difficult time. Madeline was an inspiration in her too-short life and will continue to be an inspiration. Her beautiful smile is just contagious and I’ve really never seen a little girl so happy. Much love to you and may the world wrap you in a gigantic hug.
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Lorrian says:
I searched you out to let you know that you have touched my heart. I don’t know that I’d ever seen such an expressive face and don’t think I ever will now.
I am so very sorry for the grief you and your family are feeling. Thank you for sharing your darling daughter’s story.
Cari says:
I clicked on the link on coolmompicks this morning and found myself reading your blog and watching your video tribute to Maddie (what a truly beautiful little girl) with tears falling onto my keyboard. I don’t know you, but as a mother my heart absolutely aches for you. Sending you and your family healing thoughts and prayers from south dakota.
Janne says:
Beautiful! Absolutely beautiful. I feel blessed and thankful that you have shared Maddie’s life with all of us.
You will continue in my prayers.
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joan hall says:
3 1/2 yrs ago our son and only chid died from Melanoma after one year of fighting to survive. I stand miles away from you but by your side.
Jody Aitken says:
I just happened to stumble upon your website and have been so moved by your ability to put raw feelings into beautiful words. I have been a Neonatal ICU nurse for 27 years so I love all the pictures of her beautiful little preemie head. I am so sorry her lungs couldn’t make it just one more time—she tried so hard. Treasure your memories and great pictures and videos. I will keep your family in my prayers.
Jody Aitken RN
Methodist Germantown Hosp
Germantown, TN
Rebecca says:
My heart is breaking for you. Your baby girl was precious and beautiful. I was crying uncontrollably while reading this post. How you feel about your baby girl is exactly how I feel about my baby girl and I cannot imagine losing her so soon. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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Katrina says:
I’ve read this post a few times and watched Maddie’s tribute at least 10 times. Your words are so touching, and the video is absolutely priceless — brings tears to my eyes every time I watch it.
Thank you for sharing your Maddie with us.
Melissa says:
So very, very sorry. That tribute is magnificent. Hope you are having a good day today; I think of you and Mike and Maddie so often. You are in my prayers.
Melissa’s last blog post..Ballin’, but Greasy.
Shelly says:
i just wanted to let you know that i discovered your blog through mattlogelin.com. you’re little girl is absolutely beautiful and i hope that it gives you comfort to know she’s still touching lives here on earth while she’s in heaven. you and your family are an inspiration and i hope that your days are getting easier to bear.
Karen says:
Had to work out my story for when my fiance came home from Sears to find me crying.
So much wisdom in her eyes. So much pure joy and love she was just made of you would never know she had to work so hard for every breath and every step- what a very beautiful person.
I am so terribly sorry you have had to physically let go of someone you love more than your body loves oxygen and that she did not get to continue her life here.
She shines on.
Godspirit, Maddie.
Pegeen Eggleston says:
Dear Friends,
Your tribute to Maddie is beautiful and brought me back to our own Elizabeth not so long ago….
She, too, had many medical problems and was doing well. One night, she fell ill with the flu and in a matter of hours, was gone from us.
If you ever need to talk to a couple who has ben where you are now- if only to affirm that you will be able to “get to the other side” of the pain of losing her, e-mail me and I’ll send you our phone numbers so you can call any time- night or day.
We don’t know you, but we love you in a very special way; the same way that we were loved by those who had experienced losing a child before we lost Elizabeth came into our lives to say “we’re here if and whenever you need…”
God bless you both and know that we are thinking of you and praying for you.
Elizabeth’s parents, Pegeen and Mark
peta says:
my heart breaks for you. what a amazing, wonderful little girl she is.
thank you for sharing her life with the world, I know she must hold a special place in so many’s hearts.
Emily says:
This is the most inspiring and touching thing I’ve ever read. I love the tribute video. She looks like a little pixie and is absolutely gorgeous. I wish you all of the best and your family is in my thoughts.
Julie says:
Maddie is beautiful – inside and out. I have been to your site many times before – I found it originally when Matt Loeglin posted about little Maddie – but this is the first time I watched the video. I was moved to tears – so many emotions.
Praying for you and MIke as your hearts continue to heal…
Beverly says:
I am at a loss to find the words to say to you both. Maddie was a beautiful little girl and loved so much. Your pictures and videos show that. I work in an NICU and wanted you to know how your tribute to Maddie has touched me. I will remember you and hope for comfort in your loss.
.-= Beverly´s last blog ..July 6, 1968 =-.
Karla says:
I just came across your blog today and have spent hours reading all the posts and looking at the pictures. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss of Madeline. She is the most amazing girl I have ever seen. What a light!
Ironygirl says:
Not sure if you’ll read this since it’s on an older post, but I found your blog today and had to tell you how sorry I am for what you have gone through. I truly hope this next pregnancy goes better for you.
The thought that keeps coming to mind as I read about your little girl is that you didn’t have a baby, you had an angel instead. I know I won’t forget her.
Candace Reid says:
Wow..just amazing. I am going to hug my baby and thank God he is with me.
.-= Candace Reid´s last blog ..Disney – Thinking Out Loud =-.
Jayle says:
Amazing story. Amazing grace and resilience. Thank you for sharing your precious daughter with us. Blessings in this new pregnancy.
Jennifer – mother to one angel above and two angels on earth.
.-= Jayle´s last blog ..The Daring Bakers – Marshmallows and Milanos =-.
Rebecca (Ramblings by Reba) says:
I’m just now looking at the video. Very, very nice.
The part where she had the t-shirt that said “I can’t read” and she was holding the book upside down cracked me up.
.-= Rebecca (Ramblings by Reba)´s last blog ..It was perfect, except for one small detail… =-.
Jennifer says:
I am sitting here in tears watching your beautiful tribute to your beautiful daughter. She was and is truly an angel. Thank you so much for sharing your life and hers with all of us. I look at my own preemie daughter and feel so guilty that I don’t take the time EVERY day to just sit and watch her live. Reading about Madeline has made me really see how it can all change so very quick. I will think of Madeline every time I want to check my email instead of spending time with my Isabella.
Hilda says:
What a beautiful angel.
puppydog22099 says:
i am 10 years old llooking at this through my moms computer i cant say much more than what has already been said but if mom ever has a baby girl i want her to have the same spirit as maddie 1`
puppydog22099 says:
continued, sorry accidently pushed enter any way i almost started crying ok the screen is starting good bye god be with u and may maddie watch over u like the angel she is
Hilary Hill says:
I just wanted to say that I am so sorry for your loss. She was truly a gorgeous baby and with so much personality. My faith in the Lord gives me a peace that little ones who pass away go straight to be with Him where there is no more pain and constant love. Jesus said let the little child come unto me, for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven. It comforts me to imagine Madeline on Jesus’ lap, making Him laugh the way she made her parents laugh.
Praying for you guys.
Tara says:
I came here from Alexa’s blog, and I just want to tell you how terribly sorry I am for your loss (and for the world’s loss, because Maddie was clearly a joyous and bright spirit.) I feel that I got to know her a little bit through your blog, and to know her, even second-hand and only through pictures, is to love her.
I wish you and your husband all the best for your future and the new baby.