Maddie & me on our only Mother's Day together
What’ll I do
When you are far away
And I am blue
What’ll I do?
What’ll I do?
When I am wond’ring who
Is kissing you
What’ll I do?
What’ll I do with just a photograph
To tell my troubles to?
When I’m alone
With only dreams of you
That won’t come true
What’ll I do?
What’ll I do with just a photograph
To tell my troubles to?
When I’m alone
With only dreams of you
That won’t come true
What’ll I do?
-Irving Berlin
Ana says:
Heather, this is sickeningly unfair. Strangely, my instinct is to wish you a happy Mother’s Day, even though of course it is impossible that it will be happy. Yet you deserve to be acknowledged on this day for being the beautiful, devoted mother that you are and always will be. I am holding you in my thoughts as I have been this whole past month, only perhaps a little closer today.
Zoila says:
Happy mother’s day!!!!!
You are in my prayers.
Kim says:
Heather,
you are so brave to keep writing for the whole world to read and see,
ive read almost every post and seen almost every flickr picture and i just want to know more about maddie and her luminous spirit
you are a strong loving woman who will always be maddies momma, there is nothing i can possibly say but your always in my thoughts
Noelle says:
My heart aches for you. You are in my prayers.
Noelle’s last blog post..anniversary by the numbers
Rebecca says:
You are still Maddie’s mother. I know days like this hurt more than most. I am with you in spirit,
Sarah says:
Heather,
You will ALWAYS be Maddie’s Mother. Happy Mother’s Day to you. (((Hugs)))
Sassy says:
I’m thinking of you and your little girl today.
Sassy’s last blog post..Going Purple For Maddie
MemeGRL says:
Thinking of you so much today. My mother used to sing that song when she missed her mother. Thanks for bringing me the memory of her voice today. I hope you find comfort somehow today.
MemeGRL’s last blog post..FFOF 75
Debbie in Memphis says:
All my love, Heather, today and everyday. Happy Mother’s Day. I wish it could be happy. I hope there will be some happiness today. Keeping you, Mike and your family in my prayers.
Bec says:
All my love.
Bec’s last blog post..She doesn’t love me
In Due Time says:
I wanted to wish you a happy mother’s day today, too. I’m not even sure if that’s the right thing to say to you, but I want you to know we’re thinking about you and Mike. If you feel alone today, know we’re here for you. We love you. Maddie loves you, too. Hang in there.
In Due Time’s last blog post..A Year Ago
Kelly says:
So very sorry… Words just aren’t enough
Kelly’s last blog post..Mmmmmmmmmmm… Cardboard!
Brittanie says:
There is no way a few simple words could bring the comfort I so desire to give you, but know that you are loved. Loved and cared for beyond all measure by a ‘stranger’ ‘friend’ in Arkansas. Today I grieve for you and thank you and celebrate you and hold you close in my heart. I would trade everything I have to give you this day to celebrate with Maddie in your arms. I know there’s not much happy about it, but Happy Mother’s Day all the same…you are and always will be a mama…you’ve just been thrust into a side of it…some horrible club…that shouldn’t exist. You should not have to bear such pain…such wounds.
Maddie is surely looking down from heaven, grinning that infectious smile, shining so brightly it’s hard to look for too long and being so incredibly proud of her Mama.
I don’t even really know you and you don’t really know me, but I know that along with everything else I feel for you…I stand in humble awe of you.
All my love.
*hugs tight*
MelissaG says:
I have no good words but I will keep you in my prayers. That is a beautiful picture. I wish you love.
amanda says:
Oh Heather, holidays like this suck for so many people, for so many different reasons. It’s all kinds of bullshit. I hope you and Mike have a few cocktails, toast your beautiful daughter, and push through this day. I will be thinking of you both today.
xo from CT,
Amanda
amanda’s last blog post..pulling your hair back in a ponytail is not the same thing as taking a shower
Elaine says:
Oh hell, it’s Mother’s Day. Take care of yourself and of Mike. You are and will always be Maddy’s mother.
Blessed says:
I was thinking about you this morning and praying for you too.
Blessed’s last blog post..In The Front Flower Bed…
Scary Mommy says:
Oh, Heather… So not fair. Take care of yourself today. Try to celebrate the amazing mother you were to Maddie and continue to be even though she’s not here. You will always carry her with you and you will always be her mommy.
Scary Mommy’s last blog post..Sore Loser
Candice says:
It really isn’t fair. I’ll be thinking of you today. I hope you and Mike are able to think fondly of your little angel and help each other through another day. Hug and love to you, Mike, and little Maddie.
Candice’s last blog post..Little Four Eyes
Petra says:
Dear Heather,
my son died right before birth so i don’t know wether to love or hate mother’s day. I became a mother for i have given birth to him normally, held him and kissed him. By now he’d say “mommy” to me. And it still hurts so much that it killes me…
In Germany, we have the expression “Sternenmama” for women like us, which means “Mom of a star”. And i like that. Even if our kids can’t be with us in person, they will always be in our heart (and inked on our skin). We will always have that connection, we will always feel the pain…
I hope the sun is shining for you today.
Best wishes,
Petra
Heather says:
Heather,
I still think of you, Mike & Maddie every day. She should be with you today and everyday.
Celebrate today knowing you are a wonderful mother.
Kristen says:
You’re a fantastic mother. I’m so sorry you only got the one official Mother’s Day together.
april in NJ says:
Heather… I’m so sorry that this day won’t be the “happy” one that’s promised. But like others said… you’re still maddies’ mother. Take time today to take care of yourself and your heart. Life sucks and I’m so sorry that she’s not with you.
Sarah says:
You are a mother to the a little girl that has inspired thousands if not millions of people. You and your little girl are changing the world. Be very proud! Have a wonderful Mother’s Day!
Sarah’s last blog post..Empty
Candice says:
I’m so sorry Maddie isn’t here on Earth with you, but as others said you’re still her mom and you can still celebrate what an amazing little girl she was. I hope you and Mike can lean on each other and get through another day. Hugs and love to you both, and of course to Maddie.
Kimmie says:
thinking about you and Maddie today
Candice says:
I’m so sorry Maddie isn’t here on Earth with you,. As others said you’re still her mom and you can still celebrate what an amazing little girl she was. I hope you and Mike can lean on each other and get through another day. Hugs and love to you both, and of course to Maddie.
Candice’s last blog post..Little Four Eyes
Melissa in TN says:
I woke up thinking about you and Gorillabuns on this Mother’s Day. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I’ve read through a lot of your archives; she was so fun, so sweet and so precious. I so wish I could say something to make you feel better. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you find peace.
Ginger says:
Hugs to you, dear lady. You deserve happiness, Heather, you really, really do,
Ginger’s last blog post..Eight, and the daily tilapia
Susan D. says:
I have been reading for some time now and have wanted to comment so many times. I admire your strength and am thinking of you today and every day. Maddie is an inspiration and you are an amazing Mother.
Susan D.’s last blog post..Recycle bin
Kellie says:
Thinking of you even more today.
Kellie’s last blog post..I’m Still Here…Are You?
charlane says:
I have no words for you today. You were my fist though this morning, and will be in my prayers tongiht.
charlane’s last blog post..
Meg says:
Thinking of you today.
Peace.
Midwest Mommy says:
I went to bed thinking of you and woke up thinking of you.
I have no words but only prayers.
Midwest Mommy’s last blog post..Me
catherine lucas says:
This must be such a crappy day for you… no other words possible…
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Vicky says:
You are Maddie’s mother through eternity. Death cannot change that. I hope you have a blessed Mother’s day though she’s not with you in body, she is so with you in spirit.
Susan says:
I am so sorry – i have been following you for a few weeks now and i look for your posts everyday – today i would like to wish you peace on this mother’s day – knowing she will always be with you, “everyday”. Someone in New ENgland you have touched
gretchen says:
Sending you all the love in the world today.
Tricia (irishsamom) says:
Nothing will change the fact that you were one awesome, wonderful mother. But, nothing will take away the pain of losing that which you held most dear. It’s so unfair, I want to scream and shout for you. I hope that you have the strength to get through today. If it helps at all, you are in our thoughts and prayers and I wish I could do something for you. Hang in there.
Tricia
Tricia (irishsamom)’s last blog post..Hope for Spring
Krissa says:
I’m sorry Maddie isn’t there in your arms for this Mother’s Day. I hope you find moments of peace and comfort today as you remember her with all a mother’s love.
Maternal Mirth says:
You have been and ALWAYS WILL BE Maddie’s Mommy. Yesterday, today and tomorrow.
There’s so much I have wanted to say reading your blog these past few weeks and I just can’t find the words (which is a rare occurance for me). Bottom line: I deeply admire your strength and your grace. And no words can tell you just how my heart goes out to you and Mike… just love.
I am forever changed knowing Maddie, Mike and yourself.
Maternal Mirth’s last blog post..Fear of Monsters? Long Gone. Good Cause? Right Here.
Kim says:
Oh, this is so unfair! My heart breaks for you every day. I’m sorry you have to deal with this day so soon. She’s with you, not the way any of us want, most of all you, but she will always be with you!
My thoughts will be with you today, on this really crappy day. I hope that when the saddness washes in lots of love will follow to bring you comfort.
XOXO
Karen says:
There is a sad corner of my heart reserved for you and Maddie today. You are the bravest mother I know. I’m sure today will be tough. I’m sorry it’s not what it should be. Today is for mothers… happy or sad, today is a day to hold high the most miraculous role in the world. You created greatness Heather, you are the mother of a very special and bright light. Be proud.
Karen’s last blog post..Motherhood
Kris says:
You are very much in my thoughts today. Soo soo much love and big, tight squeezes for you today and every day.
Kt says:
My first instinct was to say Happy Mother’s Day as well – you are a fantastic mother and showed that in every way with Maddie. But somehow I am sure today is much worse because the one person you want to celebrate with is Maddie. I continue to pray for you and your family.
Kt’s last blog post..I am a Planner
ErinR says:
I was thinking of you today too. I can’t even imagine what this is like for you. Praying for you today. I’m so sorry your beautiful Maddie isn’t here to share Mother’s Day with you. It just stinks.
Julia says:
Dear Heather:
My mom died when I was 17, which was 15 years ago. For the past 15 years, the weeks and days leading up to mothers day were the most miserable days of the year. I have sworn off many of products because of their over the top mothers day adds.
This year, however, I didn’t even notice.
I woke up this morning, and didn’t feel like I was going to puke. My heart didn’t hurt. My stomach didn’t hurt. I’m ok today, and I really can’t believe it!
Basically, what I’m trying to convey is that even though our situations are not the same, grief is grief . I never though I would be ok. I never thought my heart would stop hurting, but it actually may have gotten a little better. I hope is does for you as well, and I hope it doesn’t take 15 years.
Julia
Connie says:
((((HUGS))))
Connie
Connie says:
Another mother of an angel thinking of you today.
rjrmommy says:
Thinking of you today and praying for peace for you and your family.
kristen says:
i couldn’t help but notice how fitting it is that you are wearing purple in this beautiful photo…you already knew then that it was maddie’s favorite color!
as so many have said before, you are always maddie’s mother and that is something that can never be taken from you. you believed and protected and loved her from the beginning against many odds. your support and love gave her everything she needed to be the happy, smart, kind person she was for her too-short life. i hope today you can find even an ounce of comfort in knowing that your daughter continues to light up the lives of so many people through your stories and pictures. if that isn’t a testament to the fact that you ARE an amazing, graceful, loving mother, than i don’t know what is. we can all learn from you.
i’m so so so sorry she’s not here with you today and every day…thinking of you and sending you love.
Kristen
Celi says:
You will always be Maddie’s mama. Happy Mother’s Day!
jayne says:
i say happy mother’s day because you will always be her momma, and she will always be your lil’ one. celebrate both of you today. i’m certain she is in the clouds scribbling a picture for you. the love in maddie’s eyes for you resonates.
know you are loved and cared for by oodles of mommas who have never met you.
i take my glasses off today, as a salute to you and ms. maddie.
jayne’s last blog post..cleaning lady
Ali says:
Heather I wish with all my heart that you were having you second Mother’s Day with your little lady. It’s just not fair. Im so happy that you have all your beautiful pictures, and this blog to chronicle your too short time with her.
Happy Mother’s Day hunny.
You are loved.
Ali’s last blog post..Wondering about Mothers
Amy says:
Happy Mothers Day (((hugs)))
Maddie is very lucky to have you as her mama.
Beautiful Photo. Still keeping your family in my thoughts.
Amy’s last blog post..mmm….marshmallows!
Christy says:
You are a beautiful example of what a mother is.
Christy’s last blog post..Show Us Where You Live Friday
Becky says:
You are gorgeous, amazing and I love you. Happy Mother’s Day.
Bon says:
because it is Mother’s Day and you are a mama.
Bon’s last blog post..but tell it slant
jen says:
happy mother’s day darling …
may the photographs that you have remind you of how amazing a mother you are.
love … to you … especially on a day like today.
jen’s last blog post..constructive feedback friday – i {heart} faces …
Shelley says:
I’ve deleted everything I’ve typed twice. This is not fair!! You deserve to have MANY Mother’s Days with Maddie. You are and always will be her mommy. I hope each “first” without her gets a little easier but I know in my heart that it won’t and it makes my heart ache. This just SUCKS!
(((Hugs)))
cindy w says:
I know this day has got to be torturously awful for you, I can’t even imagine. But you are and always will be a mom – and from what I hear, you have a pretty kick-ass mom yourself. So I hope you can find some sense of peace & happiness today. Sending lots of Internet love to you & Mike.
cindy w’s last blog post..Potty Training 101
Zoe, Conversation Pieces says:
Oh my gosh… I just came across your blog. Maddie is so so so beautiful in all your pictures and your posts about her are so amazing – my heart really goes out to you and your other half. I’m sending you both the biggest virtual hug I can xxx
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Rebecca (Ramblings by Reba) says:
I know today isn’t happy.
But you ARE Maddie’s mother. Happy Mother’s Day.
Rebecca (Ramblings by Reba)’s last blog post..My swimsuit: what was the dog trying to tell me?
Nichol says:
Its so unfair Heather. God Bless you and Mike! Your Maddie’s Mommy, always will be. Maddie was so lucky to have a mom like you!
Nichol’s last blog post..Quotable Sunday
Patty says:
Heather, I have been thinking of you (daily), but more so this week. I wont pretend that I understand your pain, I can only imagine. As hard as it is to “celebrate” today, I know that is what Maddie would want. I think she is there with you right now with her arms wrapped around you, maybe she is even saying momma for the first time in your ear. Her flame still burns brightly and will continue to do so. I feel such heartache for you, I know that “time will heal your pain”, but I also know that it will never go away. Wrap yourself of the love of so many people today and always. I wish you a blessed Mother’s Day.
Maria says:
I thought of you first thing this morning. I know it isn’t a happy day, but you’re a mother, and today you deserved to be honored.
Maria’s last blog post..Girl Talk Thursday – lingerie, now with more dorkiness
Jackie says:
I like Amanda’s recommendation…drink through it.
I won’t say “happy” mother’s day. Instead, how about, you’re one of the best mommies I’ve ever known.
My heart overflows with love for you and Maddie Moo today.
Domestic Extraordinaire says:
Heather-I hate that you don’t have your Maddie with you on this Mother’s Day. My heart just breaks for you. (((((hugs))))) to you both. I know that it won’t erase your pain, but I want you to know that you guys will always be in my heart-now & forever.
xoxo, Heather @ DE
Domestic Extraordinaire’s last blog post..The Walk & a giveaway
NoL says:
Thinking of you & Mike today.
Jennifer says:
Thinking of you and Maddie a lot on this Mother’s Day.
Jennifer’s last blog post..Creepy Doll Pics
Stefanie says:
Love you!
Stefanie’s last blog post..Faces
Jamie says:
You’re still a mama. Now and forever. Thinking of you.
Jamie’s last blog post..Link Love Friday….and random stuff.
tara says:
my heart aches for you and my thoughts will be with you all day. you were and ARE an amazing mama to an incredible daughter. sending you all my love and hugs today.
won says:
I’ve been thinking of you today.
Sometimes, for me, the anticpation of the day is worse than the day itself. It doesn’t suck any more or less today that Olivia is not here than it did yesteday, or pehaps that it will tomorrow.
But Mr Hallmark sure paints a rosy picture that I just can’t wrap my mind around.
And our daughter’s should be here in our arms today!
They deserved a chance to live before they had to die and it is just not fair. It is just not right.
I hope the day is gentle with you Heather. Do whatever you need to do to get through it.
won’s last blog post..Reciprocity
Melissa says:
Like so many others, I’ve been thinking of you, Mike and Maddie all weekend. You are an amazing Mother and Maddie is so lucky to be your daughter. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, feelings and emotions as they remind some of us other Moms to consider each day exactly as what it is – a beautiful blessing not to be taken for granted.
Sending you strength and love.
Melissa’s last blog post..We went. We walked. It rained.
Jeni says:
You were on my mind first thing this morning. I can only imagine how hard today will be. You are an amazing mommy and Maddie would want you to do something special for yourself today. You’re always in my thoughts.
Amy says:
I woke up this morning and you were the first person I thought of. I heard my girls and my husband downstairs and I just couldn’t help but cry. Oh how I wish you could be hearing the same things today. Even though it is horribly painful that Maddie is not here today – you are still a mother and deserve to be celebrated. I will think as many happy and spirit lifting thoughts as I can for you today. I wish she was here to pull at your glasses and give you big wet kisses. Be kind to yourself today…. take it moment by moment. Much love to you and Mike (and sweet Maddie too)
Sarah says:
Even though I don’t know you, I’ll be thinking about you today. *hugs*
Katherine says:
Wishing you a peaceful Mother’s Day where happy memories crowd out the sad ones. I’m so sorry Maddie isn’t in your arms today.
Tami says:
Its true you are Maddies mom and you were a great Mother. My heart aches that you have to go threw this day with out her. Its not fair and I am so sorry! My thought and prayers are with you.
April says:
You will ALWAYS be Maddie’s mommy – and you will always be a mother on Mother’s Day. Use this day to celebrate Maddie, and to celebrate your’s and Mike’s own mothers.
I’m a bit choked up myself, as this is the first mother’s day since my mom got sick. I often find myself trying to pick out memories of each special day. I got to thinking that it was very possible for a short time that LAST Mother’s Day may have been her last, and I wouldn’t have even remembered it. Use this opportunities to remember small occasions, nothing too special, just memories that you’ll always have to hold. That you can look back and smile about when times get tough.
Nicole says:
You are still a mother, and always will be. I’m so sorry that your heart hurts so much today. You’re in my prayers.
Danes says:
No Happy Mother’s Day just “I love you Mama.” You’re an amazing mother.
Samantha says:
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers each and every day but moe so on this bittersweet day. Try to relax and enjoy the memories.
kelley says:
You are still a great mother to sweet little Maddie! You keep her going down here, while she is having the time of her life in Heaven! Look how many people know and love your little Maddie, and I don’t even know you and your family. But you are one of the first people I thought of this morning, I knew today would be hard for you. After we lost our son this was one of the days every year that totally sucked! But keep remembering you are, and always will be, a fantastic mother! I used to write my son a letter and send it on a balloon to him on days like this, I totally believe God tells him what it says!!!!
Kelley
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kimbearly says:
hugs…….i am praying for your family and every other family who has to endure the day.
Jennifer says:
What Ana said.
Jennifer’s last blog post..Amateur Night
Angie clark says:
Heather, you and Mike are very much in my heart today. I’m so, so sorry for your loss…you will always be Maddie’s parents, and she was so lucky to have you.
Manic Mommy says:
I woke up and thought of you this morning.
Manic Mommy’s last blog post..THe SWiTCH WiSH
Amanda/Baby A says:
You are a strong, inspirational, and beautiful person, woman, and mother. I must thank your own mother for that. (Thank you!)
And Maddie was strong, inspirational, and beautiful person, girl, and daughter. I must thank you for that. (Thank you, Heather!)
Wishing you a peaceful Mother’s Day.
Alexandra says:
My heart breaks and aches for you that you only had one mother’s day. I will try very hard to not feel guilty today. I pray for you. You will ALWAYS be Maddies’ mother. ALWAYS. WIth hugs, tears, kisses, and wishes for you, today…Maddie will always love you, Heather.
Amanda says:
Heather –
This weekend was our weekend at church to provide flowers. I couldn’t think of any better color than purple – lots and lots of purple flowers.
Hugs and tears today for you –
Katie in WI says:
Thinking of you and your sweet daughter on Mother’s Day.
Daile says:
I lost my mom on this day a few years ago. She was an AMAZING woman. I am sure she watched my tears as I read your blogs. It gives me peace to think she was looking for Maddie’s arrival in heaven and is holding her close until you meet again. I hope this brings you even just a tiny bit of peace.
Beth says:
I have been thinking about you almost every day. You have been such an inspiration to all of us and Maddie was so lucky to have you as her mom. Thank you for being able to share with us it has touched so many. I look forward to when we meet again.
Beth
Trish says:
You are her mother. And you will always be her mother. I’m sorry the two of you are apart, and I wish she were physically here with you today and always.
I hope that somehow, you have some happy (or at least special) moments today. Happy Mothers’ Day. Thinking of you and your beautiful angel. xo
Trish’s last blog post..It’s all fun and games until the dinosaur tackles you and rips out your throat
robin says:
Dear Sweet Heather –
You are a very strong, amazing woman. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. We are sending all of our love to you today. I wish I could be there to give you a big, long hug.
Love you
Kira says:
So very, very unfair.
You are loved, and thought of daily.
Casey says:
You are a great mom to a beautiful, amazing baby girl. Hoping today is tolerable and goes by quickly for you. What else can I say?
Casey’s last blog post..For Maddie
Katrina says:
Every year I look forward to Mother’s Day but this year I just kept counting down the days, secretly wishing the world could just skip Mother’s Day this year. I am thinking of you on this day, and I just don’t want you to be any more sad than you already are, if that makes any sense. This day seems to just throw salt on the wounds of those mothers who have lost children. I don’t know…maybe I’m just being pesimistic.
On the other hand — and there is always another way of looking at things — this is a day of recognition. We recognize those mothers who have have given 110% of themselves to their children, who stayed up night after night with their sick children, who laughed, loved, worried about their children, who fed, diapered, sang and danced with their children, who lost sleep because of their children, who proudly took countless pictures and videos of their children; who took temperatures and nursed them back to health; who took them to park days and play dates; We recognize a mother’s love on this day, and her devotion, and her determination to make the world a better place for her children. And that, Heather, is what you are all about. You may have only had Maddie with you here on earth for a short 17 months but in those months you did all the above and much, much more. Even after Maddie has left you, you still are making the world a better and safer place in her behalf by all your support with the March of Dimes. You are the definition of a mother, and on this day you deserve to be celebrated and recognized. On this day you deserve some peace in your heart. I wish that for you. I wish that there are moments and minutes in this day where your heart does not ache, but instead is filled with peace. I don’t know if that’s possible, but that is my Mother’s Day wish for you.
Katrina’s last blog post..Madeline Spohr
Candice says:
I never really feel like I know what to say to you. You and Maddie blessed each other in a special way that can never be changed or forgotten. You will always be her mother, and she will always be your beautiful daughter. I hope you find peace in this world now that it has changed so much. Cherish the time you had with Maddie, as I am sure she does with her time with you. I am sorry you had to go through what no parent should ever have to even contemplate. Please be strong, thank you for sharing your lives with us. I pray for your family every night. Again Heather, dont ever forget what an incredible mom you are and how your love and warmth and dedication gave your daughter the best life she could have had, and how her beauty and determination and smiles made your life wonderful. you will never lose that. I know my words may seem empty. As I said, I never know what to say to you. I am blessed to have my daughter with me. I know that. And I struggle to tell you that I want you to carry on and be strong while I feel guilty because I have never been in your situation.
You and Mike are wonderful parents. Again I am sorry
Lynn says:
I too have lost a child, be kind to yourself today…my heart hurts for you
Carrie says:
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Your angel will always be close by.
Dixie says:
I think Mother’s Day is a good day to remember all the wonderful things about being a mother and I know you have many wonderful things to remember. I hope those happy thoughts make the day the best it can possibly be.
Brenda says:
I was thinking of you a few days back, wondering if it would be appropiate to send you a Happy Mothers Days greeting, NOT KNOWING IF IT WOULD MAKE YOU FEEL MORE MISERABLE OR HAPPY, I hope is “HAPPY”
Thinking of you…..
mama2addie says:
I am thinking of you today, as I do every day. You are a truly amazing and inspiring Mama. Maddie was so incredibly lucky to call you her own.
Happy Mother’s Day, Heather!
mama2addie’s last blog post..Saturday Morning Waffles
Ella says:
Dear Heather,
I just stumbled across your blog today. So I started reading about Maddie. I looked at her pictures and short movies and even tho I didn’t know her I got a glimpse of the wonderful person she must have been.
You had 17 months with her. That is not enough. But these months can’t be taken away from you. All the memories, all the love- it will stay.
I pray for you, that the hole in your heart will be filled only with sweet memories of your little girl someday and that the pain will make space for some peace.
I’m really so sorry for your loss.
Adventures In Babywearing says:
I was talking about you last night to my husband. I was sad that today you would have to celebrate your first Mother’s Day without Maddie. It’s just so unfair. Heather, I know that we just briefly met in Nashville and are friends online, but you truly have made me think differently about so much. Have given me a whole new perspective. Again, I hate that you are in this position of teaching us all a big lesson. I know you didn’t ask for it. I wish you a peaceful and warm day. May you feel Maddie’s arms around you and her breath against your neck.
Steph
Elizabeth says:
I’m thinking of you with tears running down my face.
Elizabeth’s last blog post..Water Balloon Fight
Danielle says:
Thinking of you today Heather.
You will always be Maddie’s Mommy. You will always deserve this day. Crying because she can’t tell you that.
I hope you feel her spirit strong today and know that she is with you.
Amy says:
Thinking of you today. You are a wonderful role model for mothers everywhere. Wishing you strength and comfort to help get you through today. Maddie couldn’t have wished for a better mother.
AMomTwoBoys says:
Thinking of you constantly today, and always.
Maddie was a lucky girl to have such an awesome Mom, and you are lucky you get to be her mother.
I’m lucky to know you both.
Much love always. xoxo
AMomTwoBoys’s last blog post..iPhone FAIL
Carol Stuart says:
I love that you are wearing purple. Happy Mother’s Day.
Tara says:
Happy mother’s day to you. As lucky as you and Mike were to have Maddie as your baby girl, she was so lucky to have you as a mother. I wish things were different for you. I’m thinking about you today and always.
Cinthia says:
I am so sorry Maddie can’t be here to celebrate this day with you, but as others have said, you will always be her mother. (((hugs)))
Issa says:
Heather, my thoughts are with you today.
Issa’s last blog post..Mother’s Day and a few random announcements
Katie says:
It must feel impossible right now for you to celebrate that you are strong enough, loving enough, special enough…to be Maddie’s mom when she can’t be right here with you. I hope that someday Mother’s Day can mean something different to you. I can’t stop thinking about you today, praying for peace for you and Mike. At least this shitty day is almost over and this Mother’s Day will be a thing of the past.
Lots of hugs.
Lisa says:
It just isn’t fair. I’ve been thinking about you today. You will always be Maddie’s mom. Happy Mother’s Day (((hugs)))
Lisa’s last blog post..She’s 18 Months Old Today!!
Funsize says:
I have no words to say, other than this day sucks and reminds us of our loss. I’m sorry. I am thinking of you and Mike and Maddie today.
I found this great post through a friend’s blog, and maybe this might be helpful for you.
http://landofbrokenhearts.blogspot.com/2009/05/another-mothers-day.html
xoxo Momma
Funsize’s last blog post..Reaching Out into Thin Air
Karin says:
Heather,
I know this must be a really tough day for you. Please know that you are my prayers today.
And you are will ALWAYS be Maddie’s mom.
Karin
Madonna Cramer says:
Families do not die, though they may be apart. You will see Maddie again. May you feel like her arms around you this Mother’s Day along with the arms of all those you and she have touched. May peace and comfort be with you in your journey for a new normal. You are not alone.
Heidi Lee says:
Heather-
You are in my thoughts and prayers today. My husband is deploying tomorrow and although my kids want to celebrate the day for me, it is tinged with sadness that just won’t go away. It is such a teeny tiny hint of what you must feel on this day. This day IS about you. You are an AMAZING mother. I know Maddie is watching you and blowing you some of her kisses today. Every moment I start to feel sorry for myself today, I am stopping to pray for extra comfort for you on this day.
Much Love-
Heidi
Mary @ Holy Mackerel says:
Thinking of you on this day. There are no words…
Ruth says:
Thinking of you today. Much love… xo
Christine says:
It is patently unfair. You will always be Maddie’s mamma, and she would want you to have a happy one. Happy Mother’s Day. Thinking of you everyday, but especially today.
Christine’s last blog post..The daytime of the night…
Hollie in Oregon says:
Heather,
We’ve never met but I want to wrap my arms around you and tell you that it will be ok and that the hurt does fade with time. I lost my mother 5 years ago and this day is always bittersweet. I have a little girl with bouncy curls and a big bright smile..she reminds me of your maddie..a lot. When I hold Addisyn( we call her Addi), I think of you and my heart just aches. I know there are not enough words in this world to make the hurt go away, and for that I’m so sorry. Just know that there are people all over that are thinking of you today. You are a wonderful mother to a beautiful angel.
Hollie in Oregon’s last blog post..This one is for you baby girl!
Karen says:
Thinking of you today. You are and always will be Maddie’s mom. My prayers are with you.
Jodee says:
Happy Mother’s Day. ((HUG)) LOVE..
Jodee’s last blog post..Happy Mother’s Day
Marti from Michigan says:
Heather, you DO deserve a Mother’s Day wish this day. My mom died 2 years ago and I still miss her, but that is not the same. My mom was at the end of a long, good life at age 84.
I am sure my mom, plus many others who post on here – moms, grandmothers, aunts, sisters, who have left this earth are all playing with Maddie in Heaven today. She is not alone.
“Dawn has broken on a beautiful day here at the ocean. I’ve come to refresh my weary spirit and to refuel my tired soul…..I’m so grateful for the peace and calm of the seashore, where time stands still and unrushed….where I can see and feel the beauty all around me. This is my first morning at the ocean and as I walk to the beach, feeling the rich warm sand beneath my feet, I decide to collect a few shells……It is low tide and I watch, mesmerized, as the ocean rises slowly, curls, and then spills its white-laced foam onto the shore. I walk by a broken scallop shell……and leave it to search for more perfect ones. But……..then I stop,…..go back,….and pick up the broken shell. I realize that this broken shell is me with my broken heart. This shell is people who are hurting…..people who have lost loved ones….people who are frightened or alone….people with unfulfilled dreams. This shell has had to fight so hard to keep from being totally crushed by the pounding surf…..just as I have had to.”
Excerpt from “My Beautiful Broken Shell” by Carol Hamblet Adams.
denise says:
Dear Heather,
Thinking of you. Wishing there was something I could do or say to make today and the days to come hurt less.
You have been so strong, but you deserve a break. I don’t know what the heck I mean when I say that but I just think you do.
I’ll keep praying for comfort and healing for you and for Mike.
Wish I could be as profound as the other commenters . . .
Suzie says:
You are a mama…today and always!! No one can ever take that from you…it is so, so unfair and I am heartbroken for you today…if I could give you one wish *sigh*…I am so humbled by you!! The picture of you and Pricess Maddie is priceless!! Just know that so many of us “stranger-friends” are praying for you all!! Be well, my friend!!
ali says:
i hope tomorrow comes soon for you, Heather. even though you *know* you will always be her mother….it probably doesn’t help to make this day suck any less. hugs to you, love.
ali’s last blog post..and for my next act: ali does oversized flannel
(another) karen says:
thinking of you once again – especially today….
karen
Amira says:
I recently stumbled upon your blog after reading your story. My heart breaks for you and your family and I will continue to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. (((Hugs)))
Anna says:
You both looked beautiful. I am thinking of you today, you will always be her Mommy and I’m sure she is blowing kisses down to you! ((HUGS))
Anna’s last blog post..Our week in photos!
Antonia says:
Hey Heather, me again. I know we’ll most likely never meet, but in spirit and in heart I’ll be there for you. I hope today you’re able to find a little comfort in your heart, I realize it is hard but I don’t realize how hard…I wish you the best today.
Antonia’s last blog post..Define 10 Years…
Ms. Changes Pants While Driving says:
hugs.
Ms. Changes Pants While Driving’s last blog post..sweet: ocean breathes salty
Michelle says:
Thinking of you today, Heather. I’m another person who will likely never meet you but who carries you and Maddie in her heart. Your blog has touched so many of us. Thank you for sharing your lovely and amazing daughter with us and thank you for continuing to write in such an honest and beautiful way.
Michelle’s last blog post..Random
Michele says:
Thinking of you and your sweet Angel Maddie today….
Janet says:
You’re in my thoughts today. I know it’s not an easy one for you but no matter what, you’ll always be Maddie’s mama and you deserve to be honored for bringing her into world and under such difficult circumstances.
Heather, I honor you on this day—please know that you are a truly extraordinary mother and that loved and cared about by so many.
Janet’s last blog post..A Delicate Dance
mc says:
You will always be a Mom, Maddie’s mom. She was a lucky little girl to have you for her Mother. You are in my prayers.
Glenda says:
Wishing you peace and comfort on this mother’s day! You will ALWAYS be Maddie’s mom. You are in my thoughts and prayers! XO
Kaza says:
I’ve only recently heard about your loss, and I am so, SO sorry. My heart breaks for you. I am certain that today is a very difficult day for you, and just know that many of us out there in the blogosphere/twitterverse are thinking of you.
Kaza’s last blog post..I Can Smell Summer…
Lora says:
Lots of prayers are coming your way. I am so sorry you have to go through this day.
Lora’s last blog post..Because, you know, I had nothing better to do.
Melissa says:
You are an awesome mother, and always will be…You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Beth says:
Hi Heather, I’ve been following “your story” for awhile and although I don’t know you I felt I had to write to you on Mother’s Day. I am so sorry for your loss and am sure today is such a hard day for you. My kids are napping and I’m spending the day reading your blog and crying. You have taken beautiful pictures and done such a beautiful job documenting everything. Best, Beth
Beth’s last blog post..I Saw Her Standing There
Beret says:
Thinking about you today…..
Debbie B says:
Can’t stop thinking about you and Maddie today. …..
Mary in AZ says:
You’ve been on my heart so often lately, and especially today. I am praying for you and Mike both today.
Emily says:
Blessed Mother’s Day to you, Heather. You will always be Maddie’s Mama.
Cindy says:
Thinking of you and Mike on this difficult day. Thank you for sharing your precious little Maddie with all of us.
Kate says:
I came across your blog recently but your story has lodged into my heart and choked me with grief. I am so sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage recently but I can never equate it to the grief you are currently facing. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Kate’s last blog post..Mother’s Day
Amanda says:
Heather, I thought about you the second my eyes opened this morning. I have said little prayers for you and Mike all day. Seeing the comments that have already been left shows that I was not alone. You sure are loved by your “interweb friends”. No matter what, Heather, you are ALWAYS Maddies Mother. ((Hugs))
Amanda’s last blog post..Early Mother’s Day – My first gift from Allie
Kim says:
Thinking of you on this Mother’s Day, and hoping you are getting all of the support you need to get through it! You are also in my thoughts, and prayers!
Summer says:
Thinking of you and sending hugs your way.
Summer’s last blog post..Chocolate and Pebbles
Debby says:
I think about you, Mike and Maddie all the time.
I’ve only know about you for a short time but you
will always be in my prayers.
Debby’s last blog post..
Betsy says:
You continue to be in my thoughts and on my heart and especially today! Yet again, I fail at delivering any sentiment that could carve for you the slightest depth of sadness I have for you. Simply put, there are no right words!
Just know that someone in St. Louis continues to pray for you!
Betsy’s last blog post..My comprehension is defective!
Amazing Greis says:
Thinking of you today! You were, and still ARE an amazing mother. Maddie is there with you today as she will be for the many Mother’s Day’s to come. Sending lots of love & BIG hugs your way.
XOXO
Amazing Greis’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday – I think his tractor’s SEXY…
Heidi says:
(((Thinking of you this Mother’s Day.)))
Heidi’s last blog post..The Cracker ’09 Recap
memphislis says:
You have been on my mind all day long. I, like some of the other commentors on here, feel like wishing you a happy Mothers Day. You are still Maddie’s mom, after all, and still an example to all of us about what makes a good mama.
magpie says:
I’m sorry. I can’t imagine how hard it is.
Ronda says:
Thinking of you today and wishing you a peaceful day. I’m so sorry Maddie is not here with you. Prayers continuing for you and Mike.
Ronda’s last blog post..A Little Gardening
maggie, dammit says:
Love to you.
Pat says:
You remind me of my own girls so much, Heather..you are sweet and witty and adorable and I am so sad for you that this has happened. Maddy was a lucky girl. I am overwhelmed by how broken your heart is. I can’t imagine. I have six grand babies and … I can’t even begin to imagine. sigh.
Please accept yet another stranger sending you a gesture of genuine feelings of sadness and the hope that you and your husband will somehow find a way to begin healing.
Susan says:
I just saw your tweet and I wanted to just hug you. Thinking and praying for you!
pgoodness says:
you’ll always be her mama; i wish things were different for you. hugs from afar
pgoodness’s last blog post..day of the mama
mythoughtsonthat says:
Peace….Hope….Love….Faith.
mythoughtsonthat’s last blog post..Lucky
Therese says:
Happy Mother’s Day, you are still Maddie’s Mother, you are amazing!
Therese’s last blog post..Happy Mother’s Day
FireMom says:
You’ve been on my heart today (especially as I was just in the Pittsburgh March for Maddie yesterday). You’ll always be her Mother, her Mama, her Mommy.
Sending our best.
FireMom’s last blog post..The Mother I am Today
Joyce says:
You of all people, should be honored today. Someone mentioned “luminous” to describe your Maddie…I thought that was perfect. You are in my thoughts and prayers every single day.
marty says:
I said so many prayers for you today. Every night you and Mike are in our prayers, but especially you today, all day.
marty’s last blog post..Yard sale happiness
Lillian says:
especially remembering you, your husband and your little maddie today…
Lillian’s last blog post..mom
Redneck Mommy says:
I’ve been thinking of you and Mike all day long today.
Mother’s day is brutal. One of the hardest days of the year once a child is lost to the ethers of afterlife and memory.
I wish I had a magical formula to make this day easier. But this is my third mother’s day without Skjel and I’m still missing him and feeling a ripping pain without him.
I can only tell you that I love you and I wish you never knew this pain.
I can only wish you that you find peace sometime soon. I wish I could be there to take the two of you out and toast our kids and our forever motherhood.
The Bossy Yankee says:
Sending big hugs to you!
Hang in there heather! Maddie is smiling down on you!
Kristen says:
Hi Heather,
I’ve read for a long time – I’ve laughed and cried from what you have written in this blog. I thought of you today (and most days in the past month or so). I know there is nothing that any of us can say that will make it better, but please know that there are many of us that are thinking of you and Mike and I will continue to read for as long as you write. I hope it is a long time.
dolly in the pa says:
hello,
i’m just a stranger – stumbled on your website thru matt&maddy’s. i haven’t read thru all your posts, but enough. i am very sorry for your loss. i don’t have children of my own, cannot even start to imagine what you are going thru. i hope the kind words and support of your family, friends and strangers are some comfort (distraction) to you. opening your heart to the world to see is very courageous, you have strength that i know i would not have in me. i don’t have words for what i really want to say (i keep on typing and erasing) – my heart aches for you.
Jessica says:
Happy Mother’s Day Heather! You will always be the best mother Maddie could have ever had. I think about you all every day, but today not a moment passed that you were not in my thoughts.
My mothers’ day treat today was a pedicure. I had my toes painted purple, in honor of your Maddie.
Hugs to you and Mike.
Jessica’s last blog post..The Kite Chronicles
Jennifer James says:
My heart aches for your loss. I have no words. Hugs!
Jennifer James’s last blog post..Work at Home Series of Articles
Darryle says:
I have been thinking of you constantly as Mother’s Day drew closer. Sending hope and hugs for your heart to heal—your spirit seems almost stronger now that it’s sustained and joined by Maddie’s spirit. You are an inspiration to all.
Darryle’s last blog post..Take 2—on Mother’s Day
Susan says:
Hugs. Lots of ’em.
Susan’s last blog post..Happy Mother’s Day
Dana says:
Been thinking about you all day today…You are the best mother in the world and my heart aches for you today and always…
Dana’s last blog post..Tue, Apr 28, 2009
Jill Sarven says:
Heather you know i thought i would get on here and just say what everyone else is already saying because us MOMS””” think alike and best…YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MADDIES beautiful loving mother her spirit so lives on in you its so coming out …i think this is her way of showing you that she is okay in gods arms and making a great awesome guardian angel for you and your husband..Please keep going with your emotions and thoughts don’t let it eat you up easy for me and others to say but you seem like such a great couple and person so know you did all you could to give her the best little life she could have she so loved you …look at all those pics you have that precious child adored you and i am sure was just as sad you feel to leave you but she knows that you will be okay or she wouldn’t have let go right…
kellye says:
Chalk me up as another person who doesn’t know you, but knows that you were the best mother Maddie could ever have had. And it breaks my heart to think of what you’ve lost. (((hugs)))
Karalyn says:
You are in my thoughts and prayers today.
Karalyn’s last blog post..Christopher
Molly says:
Happy Mother’s Day, Heather. You will always be Maddie’s mom.
Michelle says:
Heather,
I can’t imagine how hard today must be for you. Although I’m not sure how much comfort you can take in this, at least you got to have Maddie in your life for as long as you did.
Michelle’s last blog post..Mother’s Day
Sarah M. says:
You’re in my thoughts & prayers today, Heather. God bless you & your precious Maddie.
jessica says:
I just wanted to tell you that you are an inspiration to me. You have made me want to be a better mother to my son, even though I have always thought that I’ve been a pretty good mom. I want my son to know that I love him more than anyone else ever could… just like you’ve done with Maddie.
You deserve to be honored, even more than the rest of us. Not only did you put 110% of yourself into Maddie, you also continue to put that much into helping other babies and mothers. You are an amazing beautiful person. I believe that God knew what he was doing when he gave you to Maddie. No one would have been more perfect as her mother. No one.
I’m saying more prayers for you tonight.
Maggie says:
You and Mike are in my prayers, Heather. You, especially, on this particular day.
jackie says:
I’ve wanted to comment for some time now but could never find the words. I still don’t have the words but I wanted to let you know I think about you and your family and your little maddie daily. I thought about what a horrible “holiday” this could be for a mommy that has lost a child or even a child that has lost a mom. But I hope that the good memories can carry you thru and bring you some comfort. I’m amazed by your strength and courage and love. This makes you an amazing mother in my eyes. Big hugs.
DeAnna says:
Happy Mothers day Heather, no matter what you will always be a mother and you deserve to be celebrated today just as much as anyone else. I think about you daily and I know that I don’t even know you but my heart aches for you. You are an amazing women and I am so proud of you for the legacy you have left behind that is Maddie.
erin says:
happy mother’s day.
you’re still a mother.
erin’s last blog post..happy mother’s day!
Denise says:
What a beautiful picture Heather. You were in my thoughts all day today.
Denise’s last blog post..Ok, Maybe It’s Not About the Bathing Suit, It’s About ME…
Lindsay says:
Much love to you all.
Lindsay’s last blog post..“Rattled” hits shelves today…
Courtney says:
Heather,
I stumbled across your blog sometime ago and have fallen in love with both you and your sweet Maddie. My heart breaks for you, but in the midst of everything I hope you realize what a wonderful person you are and what sharing Madeline’s story means to so many.
I hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day. I will continue to pray for you!
Much love,
Courtney
Ninabi says:
What a beautiful photograph of you and your precious tiny girl. Tears welled up when I saw it. I think about you and Maddie every day, mindful of your strength and love in the face of the most terrible of losses.
Rachel says:
I haven’t posted before, but have followed every word and cried and laughed. I am amazed at your strength and your ability to keep going one step at a time to help other people. I thought about you today. Every day is Mother’s Day and she will always be your baby. Maddie and her mother are truly an inspiration to us all. Much love and many prayers to you and your family.
Rachel’s last blog post..Disney’s version of Jekyll & Hyde
Paige says:
Thinking of you and all other mothers without their sweet babies this day. Beautiful picture of you and your sweet girl. How unfair.
Paige’s last blog post..Done.
coloradolady says:
Heather, I thought about you today. I was sad thinking of how hard this was going to be today for you. My prayers are with you and your family. The word’s seem like not nearly enough….life is so unkind and I know it is hard to see a light at the end of the tunnel of darkness. Hugs to you today…know you have been in my thoughts.
coloradolady’s last blog post..Simple Sunday: Happy Mother’s Day!
Kelly says:
I woke up this morning and told my husband we needed to pray for you before the day started. I didn’t want to forget. The truth is, I didn’t forget all day long. I thought especially of you and of beautiful Maddie. I wish I could do more than pray, but I will keep doing that. I hope you feel Maddie’s love all around. I hope you feel Heaven shining on you. I hope you feel the sweetness of memories and the promise of hope. Love to you, Heather. You are the best mama Maddie could have had and made her days amazing.
Kelly’s last blog post..Scars & Mamas (not a country song)
Alison says:
I don’t even know what to say. This is the worst thing ever, just so unfair. I think about you and your family everyday. Bless you all and lots of hugs. I wish hugs could make everything better.
Elizabeth says:
Praying for you this mother’s day
Lo says:
Thought of you all day today. Sending you hugs.
Lo’s last blog post..
Losingmythighs says:
One day, Mother’s Day will be a happy holiday for you again, may you take peace in that. God Bless.
Losingmythighs’s last blog post..It’s an epic battle…
Playground for Parents says:
I blogged about you on Friday. I thought of you today. I hope you are able to push through Mother’s Day with the comfort of Mike, your family, close friends, and all these supportive comments from your readers. Thank you for giving us the gift of Maddie, your stories, your thoughts. You have enabled all of us to have a new appreciation for this day, and our children.
Nina
Playground for Parents’s last blog post..One Lucky Mama
Marisol says:
I have thought of you and Maddie all day. I’ve cried I’ve smiled (at photos) I thought how unfair. I too am a mother to a premature Baby(Julianna). Thank you for sharing it takes a lot of strength.
Sol
Dina says:
Like many other commenter above, I thought about you first thing this morning. I checked your blog this morning and was once again so moved. the words in the song really say it all…
I wore purple today for Mother’s Day. I am not usually a big wearer of purple, and I know that it does not really help you in any way (sorry for that – I wish that there was a way…), but I thought about Maddie a lot today.
You are an amazing mother, always know that!!!
Mr Lady says:
Happy mother’s day, sugar.
Mr Lady’s last blog post..For You
Sara says:
I have thought about you and Maddie many times today, and although I can’t quite fit my feelings into words I know that this is as much your mothers day as it is for any of us. Maddie is and always will be as big a part of you as she was even this time last year, even if you choose to have ten or no more children. *hugehugs*
Chrissy says:
You are and will always be Maddie’s mother. I know that you know that and I also know that no amount of words will make the pain any easier but know that you have a lot of people praying for you and wishing you well on this journey. Happy Mother’s Day.
Chrissy’s last blog post..05-07-09
Debbie B says:
Sweet Dreams Heather! Tomorrow will be a better day.
Lynn from For Love or Funny says:
Hi Heather – That song says it all. I imagine that Mother’s Day was especially difficult for you and your family. I’m so very sorry.
Sending a big virtual hug.
Lynn from For Love or Funny’s last blog post..‘Shroom a doom-doom
DesignHER Momma says:
Heather,
I thought and prayed for you often yesterday. I know without even being with you that yesterday was awful.
You look beautiful and happy in this picture. BEAUTIFUL and HAPPY is in your future. You will feel it again. Happy might feel different, but you will have it back in your life. I’m hoping it much sooner than later.
Big loves to you –
Emily
DesignHER Momma’s last blog post..If you ain’t Dutch – you ain’t much…
Nicole says:
You guys look adorable in that picture! Thinking of you alot yesterday, big hugs and prayers Heather.
Megan says:
I thought of you and prayed for you so many times yesterday.
Megan’s last blog post..Mom car.
Suzanne says:
I thought of you often yesterday and I am so terribly sorry you did not have your baby girl with you to hug and kiss. I wish I could say something to take a little of your pain away. You will always be Maddie’s wonderful, beautiful mother. I’m so sorry, Heather.
Michelle says:
Heather –
I thought of you so often yesterday and was praying the day would be gentle on your spirit and your soul. Again, I have no words that make the pain go away – just know, prayers are still being said for you, Mike, your darling Maddie and her grandparents…
Thinking of you in St. Louis,
Michelle
Angi says:
You are the poster mother for loving mothers. I’m wishing you peace.
Much love,
angi
Angi’s last blog post..Poor kid…makes me proud
Alexis says:
Hi Heather,
Like so many, we’ve never met (although I did know Mike in college), and I thought about you all day yesterday. Anyone with children knows that becoming someone’s mom changes you, forever, no matter what, and no matter for how long your child is here. You had 29 weeks and 17 months in which you created, cared for, and loved Maddie. She will always be your daughter, you’ll always be her mama, and though I doubt you felt like anything close to celebrating yesterday, know that many of us were celebrating the inspirational mother you are, and holding you and your love for your baby as close in our hearts as is possible.
Alexis
Monica says:
Have been following your blog for a few weeks. My heart aches for you like all the others. I think of you often and pray for you and Mike. Love the picture. Her face melts my heart whenever I look at it. One day at a time.
andrea says:
Happy mother’s day to you, maddie’s mommy!!! (always and forever)
rachel-asouthernfairytale says:
to you
rachel-asouthernfairytale’s last blog post..Easy and Delicious Homemade Blueberry Muffins
Lady Lemon says:
My heart hurts for you. I hope that you found something you could smile about, if only for a minute.
There aren’t enough words to express how sorry I am.
Lady Lemon’s last blog post..Journey to "God" – Part 3
Tricia says:
What a beautiful photo…
Kristabella says:
I know yesterday was hard for you. I pray that it gets easier for you and I hope that writing it out and expressing it here is helping, and will continue to help.
Hugs to you my friend! xoxoxo
Kristabella’s last blog post..Well That Was Fun
linzandkenzsmommy says:
Thought of you yesterday, thinking of you today…and every day! Wishing some of your pain will eventually subside, so much easier said than done.
God Bless you Heather.
Michelle
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Kristin @ Contented Me says:
I just found your blog. And I am so so sorry for you and your family. I’ll be praying for you.
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Carrie Montag says:
Praying for you…
Amy says:
Once a mother, ALWAYS a mother…..
You are an AMAZING, WONDERFUL mama….
Amy
Oregon
Cat says:
What a beautiful photograph.
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Colleen says:
I thought about you yesterday several times. My heart broke for you! When I saw this blog, it broke a little more. Thoughts and prayers are with you always!
Kathy K says:
Oh Heather. I have been following your blog for the last month, but I have not posted, because there is nothing I can say that hasn’t been said, and no matter what is said, none of it helps anyway. But I just wanted to add my words of support and love for you and Mike and Maddie.
As we were heading toward mother’s day I thought more and more about you. I wondered how you would handle it . I have prayed and cried for you even though I do not know you-or at least have never met you.
So please know that so many of us are thinking of you and are holding you and your memories of Maddie in our hearts.
Much love.
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Darah says:
I check on you and Maddie everyday…I think of you and Maddie everyday…I cry for you and Maddie everyday….she will never be forgotten by the world.
You have also reminded me to cherish my daughter more than I might have been before. Every person that you inspire to kiss their kids one more time, to hug them a little tighter or laugh a little more with them…you are making the world a better, happier, more loving place.
You reminded me to kiss my daughter’s knees the other day…what a beautiful world you are creating…
Venti Vixen says:
Happy Belated Mother’s Day, you are always in my thoughts.
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Candice says:
Heather,
We have never met, but you were my first thought when I woke up on Mother’s Day. Like so many others, I wish I had those magical words to make you feel better, but I know that there are no words that will bring you comfort right now. Just know that thousands of people are thinking of you and your family and you are in their prayers. I hope that brings you some amount of comfort. Happy Mother’s Day to a truly strong and devoted mother!
Kristen Andrews says:
Heather,
Thoughts and prayers are w/ you. Beautiful poem.
Kristen
Christy says:
You don’t know me, and I am fairly new to your blog, but you were in my thoughts on Mother’s Day. Like others have said, you will always be Maddie’s mother!
Kari (heartatpreschool) says:
Thinking about you, as are so many others…
MommyNamedApril says:
(((HUGS)))
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Danielle @ ExtraordinaryMommy says:
Heather~ I went to bed on Saturday night thinking about you. I woke up the same way. I thought about you a hundred times during the day. I silently wished you love and hugs and the knowledge that your sweet girl misses you as much as you miss her.
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knoxvillepixie says:
Heather, I didn’t write to you yesterday because I didn’t quite know what to say, I still don’t. But after looking through your comments, I think it is amazing how many people’s lives you & your daughter have touched. We grieve with you. We follow you along your journey. We support you. And although many of us are “strangers” to you and your family, we love you deeply, and we are all so incredibly grateful to you for sharing your life with us. Thank you for that. Your website is the first one I check in the morning. I find myself thinking of you and your family often, hoping you are well, hoping you are coping the best you can. You have changed so many lives for the better by sharing your story with us and we all will never forget you and Maddie. I now feel obligated to do something. I can’t sit by and feel sad for you from miles away. It is not enough. I can, however, make a difference in my own community. I can March for Maddie, I can fundraise, I can speak to whomever will listen about how important it is that no Mother ever experience the pain you are experiencing. This is how you and your daughter have forevr changed my life. And for that I am eternally grateful.
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jen says:
Happy (belated) Mothers Day Heather!
Thank you for raising that little darling that brings a smile to my face whenever i see her picture. Thank you for bringing so much attention to the March of Dimes.
I know you may not realize this right now, but you are so very strong. Thank you for sharing Maddie with us (blog readers!)
OXO Thank you! thinking of you today..
Jen
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Cora A. says:
Mother’s Day must have been really hard for you. Please know Maddie will never be gone or forgotten, just in a different place, sending angel kisses until… many years from now, you are together again. Thank you for sharing your life through the pain. Prayers.
Sonni says:
I am so sorry that your georgous little bubba isnt with you… What a beautiful little angel you have.
This was my 3rd Mothers day without my Son. His name is Sebastian. He would have been 3 y/o in June.
There just are no words to describe how a Mother, who’s child has died feels on this one particular day of the year. There are always those ‘other’ days which are so incredibly hard, such as their birthday, day of their death, your birthday, xmas, easter ect ect, but Mothers day brings with it a different sort of ache. My heart is with you babe. Take care and I am glad I stumbled upon your site and saw your beautiful Maddie.
Oh and the poem is just perfect, it really sums it up doesn’t it.
Sonni xox