The Los Angeles Marathon was yesterday. This year, the organizers created a new course, “The Stadium to the Sea.” It started at my old stomping grounds of Dodger Stadium, then wound through the greater LA area hitting lots of landmarks and ended at the beach in Santa Monica. The new route went just a couple blocks from my house, so Mike, Annabel, and I went up to cheer on the runners at Mile 22.
I could never run a marathon. Now before you’re like, “yes you can Heather, you can do anything if you put your mind to it! You can be president and walk on the moon and ride a horse when you have your period!” let me just say – I don’t WANT to run a marathon. The desire just isn’t there, and that has to be at least 50% of running a marathon, right?
I see myself in this dog.
The energy at Mile 22 was really amazing and fun. The runners all knew they only had one more tiny hill before it was all downhill to the beach. The crowd was really into it, with a DJ playing music and the spectators wearing costumes and holding signs.
I realized when I was watching the runners that I am in my own marathon, but it’s mental. In two weeks it will be a year since Madeline died. I have counted every hour, every day, every week, every month. It’s really hard to think about how much time has passed since I last held and kissed her, heard her laugh, watched her smile…but it’s harder to think about how much more time there could be without her.
I imagine the marathon runners don’t think at mile one, “holy crap, I have 25.2 more miles to go! This is impossible!” I think if they did, they’d never be able to finish. That’s how I have to approach every day or I can’t get out of bed. It’s so easy for me to fall into the trap of thinking about the rest of my life without her. So I have to focus on things day by day. I have to remember that other moms and families have survived this marathon. Even my heroes.
It’s a marathon that’s all uphill, with no finish line in sight. I wish with all my being I was just a spectator.
@kristeneileen says:
I wish it, too. Better yet, I wish I could run it for you. Just please never forget that you have one hell of a crowd/support team lining your route… more signs than you can read, more food and drink than you could ever need, more love than you thought was possible. There’s no way around that it sucks that you & Mike are in this – but you aren’t in it alone, and we will never let you be. Silent or screaming you on to victory, we’re here. xxoo
J in eire says:
So well said kristen, beautiful words showing Heather we are all here to hold her up when that road gets too tough on her own.
cj says:
wow, both of you ladies said it more beautifully than i ever could. so much love and support here for you, Heather.
MS says:
Perfectly said Kristen. Heather and Mike, we are all here cheering you on through the most difficult marathon anyone could face. And while your marathon has no measurable distance or end in sight, we are committed to being on the sidelines as long as you need us. Love to you all.
Elizabeth says:
Beautifully said. We’re always here for
you and Mike. Lots of love from KY!
Sue says:
WOW, Kristen,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it can’t be said any better than that!!!!!!!!
Marti from Michigan says:
Wow Kristen – just like everyone else has said, you’ve said it all and very well!
Yesterday (03/21) we got word at our church that one of our beloved missionaries in Liberia died suddenly. He has a wife and 2 teenage kids. I know that he is in Heaven with Maddie and that he will watch out for Maddie and care for her there. He was just that kind of person.
Karen says:
Well said Kristen. Heather, know that we’re always here for you. Much love and many thoughts and prayers.
.-= Karen´s last blog ..Mondays with Maylyn. =-.
eliza says:
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW agree! We’re all here water in hand.
Amanda M. says:
Sometimes we all just need to take things one day, one hour, one minute at a time. Some of us more than others. You more than anyone should ever have to. Good luck with your marathon; you have many people cheering you on too, never forget that!
These pictures are lovely. I share your lack of desire to ever run a marathon.
Ray says:
And just like all those running the marathon of sport and of life, “You are a FIGHTER and a SURVIVOR!”
Sarah in Oz says:
Words fail me, so will just send love and a virtual bottle of Gatorade xo
Janeen says:
How aptly put! Bottle of gatorade and runners goo. (how wierd is that stuff?) But i wish with all my heart that you were just a spectator, too- that really no one had to endure what you have over the past 350 days. Even in runners training, they cycle between run and walk to build endurance- I know somedays you have your “hold the line” able to run, and some days are a very difficult crawl. We’ll be your fellow “athletes” for sure.
.-= Janeen´s last blog ..Snowmageddon, Snownami, Snowcopalypse =-.
Kate @ UpsideBackwards says:
I don’t ever want to run a marathon, either. I can barely run for a bus. I especially don’t want to run one like yours, and I wish no-one had to. But I will walk beside you and offer support, and I know that many others will too. And I know you carry Maddie with you in your heart and she is cheering you on, as are we all. Just one step at a time, some days the uphill will surely be less steep. Love and hugs to you.
.-= Kate @ UpsideBackwards´s last blog ..For I was hungry… =-.
CarrieB says:
I think you have to face April 7th full on, like standing in the path of a bulldozer. There’s no flinching or avoiding it. Telling yourself “It will be ok” just adds to the pressure you are already under. So tell yourself it will be terrible, and hard. Give yourself permission to cry all day if that’s what it takes to get through it. And when you wake up on April 8th, at the very least you will be able to say “I’ve survived this far”.
That’s my advice, for what it’s worth. Will be thinking of you, and willing you on. xx
.-= CarrieB´s last blog ..Full circle =-.
Mary says:
It’s always just one foot in front of another. And as Kristen said, you’ve got a HUGE cheering section offering you support.
Ella says:
I wish I were a spectator too Heather. My thoughts will be with you on Maddie’s One Year Angel Day. My Isabella’s (and my husband Luke’s too) was the 22nd of November last year. I’m not going to tell you it will be easy. This may sound like really emotionless advice but…I got through it and I’m confident you will too.
Much love.
.-= Ella´s last blog ..One step at a time =-.
amanda says:
I wish you were too.
xo from CT,
Amanda
.-= amanda´s last blog ..croup is poop. =-.
Sue says:
Beautiful, beautiful, Heather,,,,,,,
We will all be hugging you tightly, in our hearts, on April 7th. You never, ever, have to explain, to any of us, why you can’t do a particular thing……. like physically run a marathon. I, too, wish with every breath in my body, that you were just a spectator in this, seemingly endless, race that you are running every single moment, of every single day. I hope. that as the one year anniversary mark passes; that you can feel that you’ve met a very hard goal, and you’ve made it through.
Love to all of you, honey…………………..
Kim says:
XOXO
.-= Kim´s last blog ..Dear Gregory …. =-.
Kelly says:
That is going to be the hardest day. Thank goodness you have Annie, and Mike, and everyone else in your corner. There is a huge virtual cheering section out here, ready to cheer you on, or lend a shoulder.
.-= Kelly´s last blog ..The Shopping Trip… =-.
charlane says:
We are your supporters, we are lining your streets and pulling for you every step you take. ON a much lighter note, “Ride a horse when you have your period”? Was that seriously on your list of impossible feats and amazing things that you could one day do?
.-= charlane´s last blog ..A few Cake Updates =-.
Sarah P says:
You know, today, I’m pissed for you.
Marathoners sign up for the race. You didn’t sign up for this. You didn’t do anything. The unfairness is staggering.
Every morning now, I get up, grab a cup of coffee and read your blog before I start my day.
I don’t know how you do it every day, but – damn – you’re a strong mom, even when you’re not feeling strong.
How would you like us all to honor Maddie on that day?
Katie says:
THAT’S A VERY GOOD QUESTION!! Please tell us!!
@kristeneileen says:
I hope Heather answers, but I have a suggestion. Last year, based actually on a post Heather wrote just shy of a year ago (http://thespohrsaremultiplying.com/2009/03/nicu-eff-ay-que/), my friend and I celebrated Maddie by creating NICU care packages and dropping them off, along with a big meal for the staff, without announcing ourselves or anything, and it was a smashing success. Now, you can support Friends of Maddie directly (www.friendsofmaddie.org) and purchase these family care bags from them with a donation. I myself plan to be planting purple flowers and spreading some love around at what are now the 2 NICUs in my town. It’s a great way to pay it forward, share Maddie’s amazing legacy in some small way with others and support what is sure to grow into one of the finest non-profit orgs we’ve ever seen.
Laura says:
SUCH an amazing post of Heather’s from last year, and such a great idea, Kristen! I love the idea of honoring Maddie in this way- maybe this is something we can all commit to doing, every year on her birthday, or her angel day, or both. So many of us loyal readers live far from Heather, but almost all of us are near a hospital and a NICU, and/or we can all donate a little something to the MoD or FoM. I think it is a lovely idea to give something back in honor of a beautiful little girl who means so much to so many.
Heather, like everyone else has said, there are SO MANY people pulling for you- as you run this marathon that has no finish line. You will ALWAYS have your friends, your husband, your family, and even us crazy stalkers of your blog to vent to and lean on. We will always be pulling for you, and working to keep your amazing Maddie’s memory alive.
I continue to be simply in awe of your grace and strength. Your Madeline Alice must be so proud of her Mommy.
Sarah says:
I hope Heather answers that question too- it’s a good one. I will be wearing purple for Maddie. Mostly, Heather, although I’ve never met you, I’d like to know what, if anything, I can do to help ease your pain. I know it will be a tough day, and in fact I am tearing up for YOU just thinking about it. What can we do, not only to honor Maddie, but to help YOU? Serious question. I know you have said that when people say, “let me know what I can do,” that isn’t always good enough, because the grieving individual doesn’t really know what to say. But in this case, I’m not sure what to offer. I am sure that as strange as this is, I feel like you are my “friend” even though we’ve never met. I would like to do something to make my friend feel better.
Sarah P says:
Yes. Yes. What can we do to support you?
.-= Sarah P´s last blog ..Your Friday Lenten Prayer Service, or How I Ruined the Curve for Everyone =-.
Mary @ Holy Mackerel says:
You are definitely running a marathon.
And I couldn’t ride a horse during my period either.
Kimh449 says:
I wish it, too! Stay strong!
Erica says:
Dear sweet Heather,
I wish from the very bottom of my heart that you did not have to participate in this marathon and that you were just a spectator. Every day I wish that your precious girl was where she should be – in your arms and with her amazing Mum, Dad, sister and family. I think of you all every, single day and I wonder how you all are every, single day. As others above have already written, please remember that you are surrounded by so many supporters all over the world. Your supporters are cheering you on, holding your hand and surrounding you with all their love and support. Your supporters are near and far, so many have the honour of knowing you in person but there are many, many more, all around the world, just like myself, who have the honour of knowing of you and knowing of your precious Maddie. This is such an honour for me, Heather, to know of the World Famous Maddie and of her amazing Mum. You are an amazing lady just like your Mum and Grandma. You possess their strengh and courage and they are holding your hand as you walk this journey – just as we all are, your supporters.
Thinking of you today as every day.
Lots of love
Erica in Luxembourg
Linda Campbell says:
I wish that too for you and Mike!!!
Jodie Brooks says:
We’ll cheer you on every second, minute, hour, day, week, month………you get the point! You’re running the marathon of life that no one should ever have to endure!! I think about your family everyday. Please know we are all here to get you through whatever you need. <<<>>>
Deborah says:
You can do it. You have your family, friends, and everyone here who loves you to cheer you on and to prop you up when you think you can’t go on for one more step.
(((hugs)))
.-= Deborah´s last blog ..Bleeding Heart =-.
Katie says:
Well put Heather, well put. I think you hit the nail on the head with this one. It’s going to be a struggle and you know it, and what’s worse – you can’t train for what you are going through. But you are doing great, even if you don’t think so at times. And we are rooting for you all the way!!!
karen says:
I can’t believe it’s been nearly a year, too long has passed to quick.
I could never run a marathon either but I’m sure one of the things that keep the runners running is the support of the crowd.
You and Mike (and your family) have a big, world wide crowd willing you on. Every step we are there encouraging you and telling you that you can go on, telling you that you can make it. You will gain some supporters and lose some supporters along the way but we will always be there.
You will make it. You might not have chosen to run this marathon but we all know you have the courage and strength to complete it, whenever that might be.
And then on the days when it’s too much, we’ll push you along….
Lamb says:
I admire people who choose to run marathons…but I also think they’re a tad bit nuts! March for Maddie appeals to me partly because of the word “March”. Ah, no running necessary, right?
I wish you could just be a spectator too.
.-= Lamb´s last blog ..5 Random Things That You Will (Hopefully!) Enjoy Reading =-.
Jenn says:
I write to you with tears streaming down my face b/c you’re right Heather, like many of us, you are running an endless, exhausting and painful marathon. I too wish your profound pain would be lifted and your hurt would be gone as you run across the finish line only to have Maddie run and jump up into your arms on the other side. OOHH how I wish that could happen!!
As I read your blog today, I realize it’s been almost a year since I stumbled upon your blog. I slowly but surely fell in love with a family whose love is inmeasurable, hurt is unfathomable , strength is inspiring, and whose mission to help raise money so no other family would ever have to endure such a marathon themselves is humbling,
I sit here, early in the morning in a neighbouring country, tears continuing to drip upon my keyboard, and with deep sorrow, I realize just how much I miss her too.
dawn says:
My dad died March 29th. My beloved grandpa, April 3rd. Madeline, April 7th. I’m in this breathless spring marathon with you.
I am going to the spa on Saturday – starting last year I decided the last Saturday of March was for taking care of me.
Kristin says:
We’re here for you, Heather. We’ll get you through – pushing you up those seemingly impossible hills and coasting with you downhill on your good days, running right by your side. You’re a phenomenal woman – stay strong. Sending lots of love and hugs your way!
defendUSA says:
There are all sorts of reasons why people must endure marathons even if not by choice. In the end, the only thing that counts is to get through mile by mile, no matter how hard and long it may seem.
Those of us left behind must carry on and enjoy the run as best we can. Sometimes it sucks completely. But if we take time for reflection then we know there is good in every step. Sometimes we have to open our eyes wider to see it.
Trisha Vargas says:
We will all run with you Heather and hold you up when it gets to rough. That’s what we are all here for.
I wish you could stand on the side lines with a sign and not have to endure this!
(((HUGS))) from Florida
Amber McN says:
Heather,
We’re all on the sidelines supporting you. Thousands of strangers and friends willing to back you up and carry you if need be.
Jenny says:
I just read the other post linked here, He Rests Under a Shady Tree. You touched my heart today, Heather.
I wish you success on this awful marathon, and I wish that no one ever had to run it.
.-= Jenny´s last blog ..Telemarketer Versus Grizzly Adams =-.
suzanne says:
I reread your post about Tommy, and it was just as heartbreaking as the first time that I read it. I wish you strength for your marathon. Your grandmother and Madeline are holding your hands, and we are offering you all the support that we can muster.
Lisa says:
I wish you weren’t running this marathon. It makes me so mad at the world to think about what you have to go through day after day.
Remember that you have one heck of a huge crowd of supporters lining your path. We are shouting words of encouragement, handing you what you need to make it to the next mile, hold up more signs than you can see or count and loving and supporting you every step of the way.
Love and hugs.
.-= Lisa´s last blog ..St. Louis is Marching For Maddie =-.
Karen says:
Beautiful words, Heather, and I’m so sorry you’re in that race. I really think you said it best… one step at a time, not the whole race. One foot in front of the other.
.-= Karen´s last blog ..Thank you, Ms. Anthropy =-.
HomeValley says:
I think that’s a great way to look at it – just one day, one moment at a time. To try to think about the expansive future has to be so overwhelming.
Have you ever read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle? It’s all about staying present in the moment… It’s really helped me out lately. Each time I start hyperventilating about what the future may hold, I remember to bring myself back to the present moment. It’s working like a chamr so far.
Bridget says:
Heather, Mike, Maddie & little Annabel-
I just wanted to say THANK YOU!!!. I read your blog daily. My son was born in August 07 and by reading about your journey of losing your precious Maddy makes me appreciate my son in a way I don’t believe I would have if it wasn’t for you!! Please know I do think of Maddy every single day when I look at Brandon. So once more Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!!!!!!
rachel cortest says:
Heather,
You are an amazing writer. What a great analogy about grieving. I will tell my TCF group about it. Those first two years are hell and there is no way to sugarcoat it and all you can do is keep getting out of bed.
On the other hand, you totally cracked me up, which is hard to do considering that Spring Break is over and I have to teach this morning. I especially loved the riding a horse with your period statement. TOO FUNNY.
Keep on keeping on….
rachel cortest says:
I just read your post about your grandma. Just beautiful and so poignant. Tomas’ grave (our Tommy) is near many other teenagers’ graves and I have to talk to all of them. It is all surreal. I am glad that i have a car that I can ride in and do my private grieving and ranting, but I am not sure how safe it is.
the Mom says:
I run marathons, and you are right. Runners can’t think of the distance, we just listen to the rhythm of our feet hitting the ground.
.-= the Mom´s last blog ..And Then God Laughed =-.
Bridget says:
I apologize Heather…I didn’t mean to mispell little Maddie’s name. I have a niece that is a MATY also. So many different spellings.
JenC says:
I so wish you’d never entered this marathon. All I can say is that you do have a lot of onlookers cheering you on and offering whatever support we can.
Jess says:
My brother’s 32nd birthday was on March 12. He has been gone from my parents lives for 32 years. Mom said it gets easier, not to hurt that much. But she also said you never ever forget. So don’t feel like you might forget, or years down the line it won’t be the same.
I knew about Jerry when I was in my teens. I bring him flowers when I go visit my grandma’s grave. (She was my best friend.) I bring her purple roses (purple a favorite color of ours) and I bring him yellow. I do sometimes wonder what it would’ve been like to have an older brother. To really be a middle child. I wonder how life would be different.
But what I never wonder about is the love my parents have given me, and continue to give me. 4 years after Jerry was born, they had me. 4 years after me, they had my brother Tony. Our little family has weathered a lot of storms but the love we all have for each other, stays strong.
Also I could never run a marathon either, never saw what was the big deal about running. I’d walk it, not run, lol.
red pen mama says:
This. Thank you for summing it up.
I’ve no desire to run a real marathon either. Parenthood is its own marathon; grief is its own. Heck, marriage is too! I’ll take my walks, instead, and save my stamina for the others.
.-= red pen mama´s last blog ..Forewarned =-.
Jen says:
I hope you know that you don’t run this race alone. There are so many of us holding up signs and cheering you on, here for you every step of the way.
.-= Jen´s last blog ..Yes you CAN have organized closets. =-.
Dana says:
So beautiful. I admire runners so much, because it’s something that, while I know I could do it if I really tried, they HAVE tried and ARE doing it, and I’m sitting on my butt not doing it.
I love the signs the spectators hold up! How fun.
.-= Dana´s last blog ..Life With This Guy =-.
Tara says:
On April 7th, and every other day, there will be so many of us there with you and encouraging you to keep going. I wish you never had to know how hard this marathon is but I hope you take a tiny bit of comfort in knowing just how much you inspire us all on this grueling run. You’re making Maddie proud.
Lindsay from Florida says:
I hate that you’re on this marathon. Hate it with everything I have.
Chrisie says:
Thinking of you and Maddie.
((((HUGS))))
meg...ct says:
Sending peace and love…
jen says:
All I have is….
(((Hugs))) from here.
.-= jen´s last blog ..process =-.
Sarah @ BecomingSarah.com says:
Sending love, hugs, and lots of encouragement.
J says:
These are wonderful pictures, as always.
Hang in there. As several commenters have said, you have lots of people with you on the journey. Nothing can make it better or easier for you and Mike, I know. But thank goodness it’s there, nonetheless.
.-= J´s last blog ..Worries =-.
mp says:
I had not read the entry about your grandmother’s story. Beautiful and sad, but also inspiring. There’s something about being strong for others–it makes you strong for yourself. What a good thing you have Annabel to be strong for.
mythoughtsonthat says:
Keep on, one day at a time- you have no choice.
You will make it.
Faith….Hope….Love….Peace.
.-= mythoughtsonthat´s last blog ..Fifty =-.
Manda says:
“I realized when I was watching the runners that I am in my own marathon, but it’s mental. In two weeks it will be a year since Madeline died. I have counted every hour, every day, every week, every month. It’s really hard to think about how much time has passed since I last held and kissed her, heard her laugh, watched her smile…but it’s harder to think about how much more time there could be without her.”
Tears are flowing….. I lost my brother at age 18, eleven years ago. You put my thoughts into words, so beautiful Heather.
Glenda says:
Heather… one step at a time…baby steps… you have to be strong for Annabel. Faith.. Believe… Love… Peace and Joy….Sending you hugs XXX
Lora says:
You pieced your thoughts together with beautiful words. You are a gifted writer. I am teary eyed for you and Mike, and your sweet, sweet Maddie. Nearly a year later, and I’m still feeling so many feelings for your family.
.-= Lora´s last blog ..Sigh =-.
Alison says:
I echo what someone else said above. Marathon runners run their races willingly. No one asks for the kind of race you and Mike and your whole family has to run.
I wish it wasn’t this way, but all I can do is stand along the course to lend support as you guys navigate life without sweet Madeline.
xoxo
PS: I love watching marathons too, but me? Oh no, I would NEVER run one. I have not even an inkling of desire to run that far.
.-= Alison´s last blog ..A List, Because I’m Lazy and on Spring Break =-.
MBkimmy says:
I wish you were not running this race either. I pray for you daily. I pray for you, Maddie, Mike and Annie every evening with my kids. Tatum is 2.5 and she knows who Maddie is through the pictures on your blog – Bowden is only 1.5 but when I say your names in his prayers he say “uh huh” and smiles. You have so many supporters and so many “unknown” friends – you will win this race and I promise we will try our best to keep supporting you!
.-= MBkimmy´s last blog ..Camping =-.
Amy Collen says:
Aw sweetie, life is a marathon yes but it isn’t all uphill. There are nice smooth stretches and downward slopes (where you can take a breather). Many of us are running in that marathon right there with you. I have been running it for almost 4 years now. I miss my dear Noah so much sometimes. It is so hard when they are not here with you and you can’t watch them grow up. The best that I can do (and this is just my goal) is to live the life that he would have wanted me to have. To conquer my fears (yes, I was TERRIFIED of D-land’s Tower of Terror and Maliboomer but I went on it! The next step is to get on an airplane again), be kind to people, and make the most of each day. Big hugs to you sweetie…Maddie is SO lucky to have a wonderful mom and dad like you two! Just as much as the both of you are lucky to have that wonderful little girl (and of course who could forget your amazing Annabel)!
Krissa says:
I erased what I wrote and am just sending virtual (((hugs))) and love your way.
Krissa says:
Actually, there is one part I don’t want to leave out. Those are great photos! I wish I would have gone out to support the NY Marathon when I lived in the city. I can feel the energy through your photos. But my favorite is definitely the dog. Thanks for sharing those.
preTzel says:
Heather – If only there were time machines. :o(
I was thinking of Maddie this weekend and of the blog post you wrote about her love of Matt Lauer. Everytime I see a picture of him or hear his voice I think of Maddie. I laugh when I go back and look at her face in that picture where you said you caught her. What a great post to re – read when I miss your Maddie.
Tricia (irishsamom) says:
Oh Heather – I’s so sorry this race has no end for you and Mike and your family. All I can do is be a supporter, cheering your victories and sending you love and prayers on your uphill days. Yesterday, my little B, who totally loves Maddie, got a balloon from the grocery store. He hasn’t been with me to the grocery store in a while, so he hasn’t got his balloon lately. He used to keep the balloons for days until they burst or freaked me out late at night and I secretly popped them, but now, EVERY time he gets that balloon, he not only releases it for Maddie and some other angels we know, but writes their names on it and sends them a little message. I keep meaning to take a photo of his clumsy seven year old messages, but the tears in my eyes always make me forget. Next time I promise. Your little Maddie, as well as you and Mike have so many people who love her and you and we will continue to be here, even if you have never met us. You inspire me every day to be a better mother. I wish you peace these next few weeks. My heart feels for yours every day when I see Maddie’s beautiful face looking out at me from one of her millions of fan’s blogs.
Hugs and love mama. Sweet kisses to your Annabel too. xoxxoxox
.-= Tricia (irishsamom)´s last blog ..Singleness of Purpose =-.
pgoodness says:
Tricia said it better than I ever could, so DITTO to what she said.
My mom told me the other day that she doesn’t get blogging, how there can be friendships online, how it can be a community. I told her about Maddie. About You. About March of Dimes. She was silent for a few minutes and then it finally clicked. Just because our community is different than her generation’s, doesn’t make it less.
xo
.-= pgoodness´s last blog ..Shine On =-.
Cindy says:
Mile 22.–The correlation to ’22nd’ Annie’s Birthday didn’t go unnoticed- if I remember that date correctly. Hope you are able to fill your heart with love, it is a good way to dilute the heartache.
Cindy says:
Putting my thoughts into words is not easy but I’ll try Earlier I hit the submit button to soon.
“The Stadium to the Sea”(starting at your old stomping grounds) Reminded me of the song “Unchained Melody” the line ‘lonely rivers flow to the Sea’ and ‘time can do so much’
JustAMom says:
Good grief. It’s so unfair Heather. I am so sorry. I really don’t understand, and its not even me who is going through it. I too saw Dr no Vowels through my pregnancy. I remember reading stoires about unwanted pregnancies,and crazy parents, and being so angry. Here I was every couple of weeks, waiting hours to see a Dr who had the bedside manner of a doorknob, praying for good news. Thank God in the end I was blessed with a healthy (so far) child. I can only imagine you feel the same thing, times a million. You are truly amazing Heather. And that Annabel makes my ovaries go into overdrive every time you post a picture of her. Holy cuteness Batman.
Dawn says:
Heather,
You amaze me …you can make me laugh and cry all in ONE post.
“You can be president and walk on the moon and ride a horse when you have your period!” made me laugh out loud.
…and all I can say is I, too, just wish you were a spectator.
*HUGS*
.-= Dawn´s last blog ..How do you choose your bracket? =-.
Kayla says:
Every time you feel like you can’t take just one more step, let us all push you on, okay? It would be my honor.
Molly says:
Oh, I wish nobody had to go through this ever, especially you. Lots of your readers (like me) are just spectators, I suppose, but just know that we are here with you every step of the way. You don’t have to do it alone.
Maria Delgado says:
Love you Heather.
Angie says:
I have to admit I have never heard it put quite that way before but I have to wholeheartedly agree. The cheering of the spectators keeps you going but they can’t run it for you. Thanks for opening my eyes to a new way of remembering and sadness.
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Anon says:
Amazing to me how much you write about what happens after someone passes away, but that it seems like you truly LIVE everyday. You seem so alive. Difficult to express what I mean, but you are an inspiring bunch, both pre and post April 8th of 09. All the best Heather.
jane says:
Cute Dog ….. i love it!!!! Marathon will help us to relief our stress as we can see they
are having fun and the event was so amazing .Please continue inspires many people Thanks for sharing your excellent article to us more power to your site!
G-d
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chel.ritchel says:
Cute Dog ….. i love it!!!! Marathon will help us to relief our stress as we can see they
are having fun and the event was so amazing .Please continue inspires many people Thanks for sharing your excellent article to us more power to your site!
G-d
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Al_Pal says:
Marathons don’t interest me, either. I’m so sorry you have to be on the one you are in.
Riding a horse during one’s period. Hmm. The fourth day would be fine, the first or second, not so much. ;p
*HUGS*