In the smallest hour of Saturday morning, I got the call I’d been dreading. Jackie!’s fight with brain cancer was over.
Her beautiful light has been extinguished. Her amazing green eyes and infectious laugh are gone.
I still don’t have the words…just tears and deep, excruciating sorrow.
Lissa says:
*hugs*
from all of us, to all of you
We remember Jackie! We remember Maddie. We remember you all.
Jay - The Dude of the House says:
My deepest sympathy on your loss…
Kim says:
There are no other words except, I am so very sorry. Her shining light may be extinguished from this earth, but it lives on in the hearts and memories of those who loved her.
Please take care of yourself…..
**hugs**
Kate @ UpsideBackwards says:
Oh Heather, I’m so sorry. Much love to you, and all who knew and loved her.
k says:
My condolences to everyone who loved Jackie! What a beautiful person she seems from the photos you have shared Heather. I am so sorry you have lost your dear friend.
Sherene says:
Im sorry, sending u virtual hugs:(
Krissa says:
Oh, Heather. My heart hurts for you and for all those who loved Jackie. I know she will be dearly missed. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
Krissa says:
I wasn’t going to draw attention to this, but I can’t get it off my mind…I shouldn’t have written “loved”. You still love her and always will. And I know you know what people mean when we use the past tense….but I also know from experience that that hurts. And I wish I hadn’t written it that way. Your love for her will live in your heart forever.
Heidi says:
(((Hugs))) I am so sorry.
Funnelcloud Rachel says:
Oh, God, I’m so sorry Heather. I’ve been following Jackie’s! fight since you first started posting about her and from time to time would wonder how she was doing. Just through your words and pictures she seemed like one of the most vivacious people I’d ever read about and someone who truly lived life to the fullest. I will attempt to honor her memory by trying to live as she did. xoxo
Mijke says:
*HUG*
Jenn says:
OOHH Sweetie,
I also got the news early on Sat. morning. At first I cried for Jackie and then I cried for you! I hope you’ve been getting my texts, and my facebook message. I admit I struggled with what to say to you as I know how profound your friendship with Jackie was. When I look at the countless numbers of photos I automatically look for both you and Jackie. It’s so easy to see how much history you both have and the love you share! I can say this….I am so sorry Jackie’s journey has ended this way. I’m sorry your hurting so profoundly and I can’t do or say anything to make it better. I am glad you did have the opportunately to spend some time with Jackie before she left but I know it wasn’t enough….it will never be enough time. The one thing I am learning the most about Jackie is the amount of lives she touched – including mine. I will tell you this Heather…..just like with your beautiful Maddie, I WILL NEVER FORGET Jackie!!! Thank you for introducing her to us all. I will ALWAYS be thankful for that. I haven’t texted you today b/c I didn’t want to bother you but PLEASE Heather know this…..my thoughts, prayers and tears are with you. I will be here for you day and night and if you ever feel like you are alone….please, PLEASE, PLEASE know you are NOT and you never will be!!!
With Love, Friendship & Support,
Your Friend,
Jenn xoxo
krista says:
So sorry to hear that Jackie! has passed away. I know that you will miss her tonnes.
Elaine says:
Heather, Mike, and Annie,
I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Jackie’s family and friends. I only hope that Jackie is now at peace and is holding hands with Maddie in heaven.
Lisa says:
I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts & condolences to you, her family and all the lives she touched.
Stacie Fields says:
I am so sorry. My best friend died in a car accident in 2005 and it sucks so bad. I still think of her every day and miss her every day x
Lilian says:
We’re here ….
Cathy K. says:
So very sorry for your loss.
Stephanie Ansley says:
Oh, Heather (and Mike and Annie and the bajillion other people who loved Jackie!…), I cannot begin to comprehend the emptiness or the sorrow or the unfairness of it all. I can’t understand why any of this has happened or why it keeps happening to such wonderful people, except for the fact that this is just life and the crappiest part of it. As much as life is joy and adventure and wonder, it is pain, loss, and sorrow.
What I can promise, however, is that the light of Jackie! will NEVER fade…. there is no way in hell anything could even touch the flame she lit, let alone diminish or extinguish it. Jackie! set ablaze a fire that will be everlasting in the hearts and memories of countless people; for that reason she will ALWAYS be here.
I love you all so much; my heart is so heavy with sadness for you.
Elle says:
I’m so very sorry for the loss of such a beautiful person like Jackie. My heart goes out to you, Heather.
Sarah says:
Crying for you, crying for Jackie, crying for all of her loved ones. Her shining light may be gone from where you can see it, but I’m sure she shines down on you, and always will.
Lisa niemann says:
I am so sorry….so very sorry. It is too much. I wish there was a way I could give you the piece of my heart I would if you and I were already friends.. I’ve been waiting patiently for a time when your life might pause.because you and Annie seem so much like a perfect fit for playdates with our beautiful little boy, Skyler who’s a similar age. I didn’t want to approach you when life seemed so overwhelming for you. My husband and I also live in SoCal….and right now I want nothing more than to be on call. To babysit. To bring food. Hug. Listen. And tell you, yes…this is truly as unfair as life gets… To Jackie!, her family, and to your family that’s been through so much already. So I know I’m a stranger… But if you want an ear or anything else for that matter… Email me and I’ll pass you my number.
AudNoL says:
I am so sorry for your loss & for the world’s loss. Through your words we know what joy & light she brought to all who knew her.
kayla n. says:
I am so so so sorry for your loss Heather and family. Sending a little extra good vibes your way today and keeping you in my thoughts.
Alison C says:
Thinking of all Jackie’s friends and family
Veronika says:
Heather, I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend. Please know that you and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers during this awful time. Please share our condolences with her family too. I’m so sorry.
Liz says:
I’m so sorry that Jackie is gone. I know you will miss her and love her forever.
edenland says:
What a stunning woman. There’s just no sense to be made.
I don’t even have words to tell you how sorry I am, and my heart goes out to Jackie’s family. And yours.
Love, SO MUCH LOVE to you Heather XXXXXXXX
Mandy says:
I’m so sorry.
Sue says:
I am so, so, very sorry, Heather……………………………….
Becca_Masters says:
Much love xxx
Stephanie says:
So so painfully unfair.
Go gently you guys..
x
Jillian says:
I am so very sorry and sad that your sweet Jackie! has left. I truly thought she would beat the odds or something.
Crystal says:
I am so, so sorry for your loss. Sending lots of (((hugs))) and prayers to you and to her family.
Donna P says:
So sorry, Heather. My heart goes out to you.
Megan says:
I am sorry. I know that Jackie’s loss is devastating for you. Sending you and all who knew and loved her thoughts and prayers.
Catherine says:
I’m so very sorry.
Jess says:
I’m so very sorry. I’m sending you all my love and support.
Annie says:
I’m so sorry for the loss of your beautiful friend.
Kate says:
I am so sorry for you, all of Jackie’s friends, and her family. Wishing you all peace and love.
Tracy says:
Heaven has gained such a beautiful, beautiful angel. My sympathies are with you and all of her friends and family. May God give you peace.
Leslie K says:
I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful friend.
Marci says:
I am so very sorry Heather. *hugs*
TonyaM says:
Love and prayers and hugs…..
Mary Ann says:
My best friend fainted at my father’s funeral. What ensued over the following weeks were a battery of tests by an array of doctors. When they told her she needed to see an oncologist I nearly collapsed. I couldn’t handle the thought of losing her after just losing my father, or anythime for that matter. I can remember that feeling of complete numbness. I was so sad to hear the news of Jackie’s passing. I thought about you all weekend and wanted to pick up the phone and call even though we have never met. Jackie seems like a wonderful soul, and I am so sorry that she lost her battle. I am so sorry that you lost your frined. I hope the good memories you have of your times together will overtake the bad ones of watching her slip away. Oh Heather I wish there was something I could do to make this all better. It’s not fair. Sending you and Jackie’s family hugs. I know she made an impact on my life and I will always remember her.
Jennifer King says:
So, so sorry for your loss.
cindy w says:
I’m so, so sorry. Been thinking about you all weekend.
chantelle says:
Much love to you and to all who loved Jackie.
Susannah says:
Heather, I am so, so sorry.
Melli says:
So sorry for your loss, Mike’s loss & her family’s. She was just beautiful (& had the perfect eyebrows). You guys are all in my thoughts.
Brooke says:
Big hugs to all of you. I’m so sorry for the loss of sweet, strong Jackie! I’m keeping you all in my thoughts.
TamaraL says:
I am so very sorry for your loss. She sure was a beautiful lady…
Megan says:
I’m so sorry. Jackie sounded like a beautiful person, inside and out. Thank you for sharing her with us. Again, I’m crying for someone I never met.
Melissa says:
Oh Heather, I am so very sorry for the loss of Jackie. What a beautiful woman, so clearly loved by so many. Thinking of you.
Kristen says:
I am so sorry for your loss. I sure hope Jackie and Maddie are having a love-filled giggly reunion in Heaven. I hope going through all of the amazing pictures you take helps bring some solace during the your sadness.
Brooke says:
“If ever there is a tomorrow when we’re not together there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart, I’ll always be with you.” ~Winnie the Pooh
Samantha F in St. Paul says:
I am so sorry for your loss. (((HUGS))) to you.
Mary says:
((hugs))
Colleen says:
I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing her with us and letting us see what a special person she is.
Barbi Emel says:
Thinking of you & your family xoxo
Judy says:
Thinking of you…..
Andrea says:
I have followed Jackie’s long fight here on your blog and this morning I send hugs and condolences from Chicago. I’m so sorry to hear this sad news.
Emily says:
Sending lots of LOVE, thoughts, and prayers from Cleveland, Ohio!!
Krista says:
So very sorry for your loss.
Lanie says:
I wish I had words to make this easier but I know that there are none so I am sending hugs and hope. Thank you for sharing Jackie! with us. Take care. xo
Suze says:
I’m so very sorry to hear about your beautiful friend Jackie! It takes a very strong person to live the way she did, when she faced ridiculous odds of the beast named Cancer.
I have to admit that I was afraid to read your blog today. I read it everyday, its part of my routine. For me, I remember waiting for the awful, and I remember the early morning phone call that could only mean one thing.
Now, I am ashamed that I was afraid, if anything, thru your blog, I have seen first hand what courage looks like, I know the look of strength, I’ve learned the look of love and the power of words.
I’ve learned that all from you.
I’m sorry you are hurting, I’m sorry you’ve lost a best friend. When you need strength look to your readers, we are here….we love you and your family, but most of all your words, the unspoken ones, the one’s people are afraid to say. Say them, we will understand and support you.
anotherheatherfromcanada says:
Heather, I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your best friend. Our deepest sympathies to you & the family. Tons of hugs & prayers for all of you
Tam. says:
Thinking of you and your family…
Suzanne says:
I am so, so sorry Heather. I was thinking about you all weekend. I will always remember Jackie and her strength and beauty thanks to your words.
Patti B. says:
My heart goes out to you on your enormous loss. I am sorry for your unimaginable pain. My thoughts are with you.
keri says:
I am so sorry for the loss of your gorgeous friend.
Lisa says:
Heather I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Holding you close in my heart and in my thoughts.
Ninabi says:
Holding you in my heart today, Heather. Jackie was a beautiful person inside and out, as you have shared with us on your blog.
So much sorrow. I am so very sorry.
alimartell says:
There are no words…just LOVE to you.
HUGS.
Kaye says:
I’m so sorry for your loss….
Jen says:
all my love Heather, absolutely all of it.
gift4gab says:
My most heartfelt condolences to all the friends and family of Jackie!
I am so profoundly sorry for your loss. Too much loss. Praying for brighter days ahead, though the clouds are blocking the sunshine at the moment. Jackie! WAS sunshine – you can just see it radiating out of all of the pictures. Remember that sunshine and how it brought so much light into your life. She will want you to see and feel that sunshine every moment of every day.
{{Hugs}}
Gina
Natalie says:
I am so sorry. I only know Jackie! through this blog but it’s so clear what a remarkable person she was and what a wonderful impact she made on everyone whose life she touched. I won’t forget her.
Dear Heather, I am so sorry.
Tonya Cinnamon says:
lots of hugs
Kim says:
I’m so very sorry, Heather. Sending lots of hugs, good thoughts and prayers to everyone feeling the loss of the amazing Jackie. Thank you for “introducing” us to your beautiful friend.
amanda says:
I am so profoundly sorry for your loss. xoxo sending love.
Lauren says:
I don’t know you, have never met Jackie! but I know the loss you feel and I am so, so sorry.
Jenn says:
I am so so sorry for Jackie’s! family and for you and your family. This is a terrible loss for the world. Big hugs for you and all of those that love her.
Stephanie says:
I’m so, so sorry. She was so lucky to have such a great friend in you, and vice versa. Thinking about you during this painful time.
Jill says:
I am so, so sorry. I don’t know you or Jackie!, but have read your blog for a long time and know the loss and devastation you must feel. Many, many thoughts and prayers for you, your family, and Jackie’s! family.
Joy says:
I am so terribly sorry for your loss.
Gail Okeson says:
I am so very very sorry – she was a beautiful young woman.
Terri says:
I am so sad to hear of her passing. What an amazing friendship you have, I can only imagine how painful it is to lose her. So so sorry. You are all in my thoughts.
Rebecca says:
I am so terribly sorry for your loss. You are in my family’s thoughts and prayers.
Nikki says:
So, so, so impossibly sad. I thought of you all weekend.
Keeping you lifted in my thoughts during this awful time. We’re here with a virtual ear when you do find the words and need to get them out.
Big hugs from GA.
J from Ireland says:
I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts & prayers are with you all.
Marjorie says:
So sad and sorry to hear of your BFF’s passing. When I lost a close family member last year a wise friend told me something that has stuck with me ever since. I hope it helps you as much as it has helped me.
“when someone you loves becomes a memory, that memory becomes a treasure.” Big hugs to you and your family and 0f course Jackie!’s.
Karen Chatters says:
Heather, Mike and Annie, I’m so so sorry about your loss. I know there are no words but know that you aren’t alone and that many of us are thinking of you all at this hard time.
Lisa F. says:
“I’m sorry”doesn’t even begin to describe it. All I can say is that I hope Jackie! and Maddie are together somewhere, watching over all of you.
HeidiLee says:
So sorry to hear – be comforted knowing that Jackie!! will never be forgotten…hugs to all.
Skye says:
I am so very sorry. I’m thinking of you and Jackie!’s family, and I will never, ever forget her.
sara says:
Heather, I am so sorry. I will keep you, Mike, and Annie…along with all of Jackie’s family and friends in my thoughts and prayers. Much love.
Julie says:
I am so sorry.
Zoë says:
I’m so sorry for your loss. Many hugs to you and everyone who had the joy of knowing and loving Jackie!
Virginia says:
I’m so terribly sorry. Sorry for your loss. For Jackie!’s family loss. For all of her friends. All of her family. Anyone who she ever had met. Cancer is a terrible terrible thing.
Sonya aka Glam-O-Mommy says:
My deepest sympathy, Heather. One thing I’ve thought throughout this is how lucky you and Jackie! are to have such an amazing friendship. Her beautiful light will live on in you and all who love her. I hope somewhere she and Maddie are holding hands and watching over you all. Hugs and prayers to you and your family and to Jackie’s family and friends.
Nicole says:
I’m so so sorry for your loss, Heather. Please know that we’re all thinking of you.
XOXO
Susan says:
I’m so sorry.
Thank you for sharing Jackie! with us. She sounds like an amazing, beautiful person.
You’re all in my thoughts.
*hugs*
KateB says:
Love from St. Louis sent your way.
Sara says:
Heather, I am so, so sorry. Praying for you all.
Melissa says:
I’m so sorry.
Amy@Binkytowne says:
I’m so sorry Heather. What a beautiful spirit and friendship. Such a loss. My heart goes out to your family and Jackie’s family and everyone who loved her.
Bridget says:
I’m so sorry for your loss. Hold on to the memories and live the life she wants for you. Peace to you as you mourn the loss of your dear, special friend.
Domenica says:
I’m so very sorry for your loss.
Sending you lots of hugs, love and support right now.
RG says:
Blessings and love, blessings and love. She is so beautiful.
kristen says:
I am so so sorry.
Carlee says:
There are not enough words to express how deeply saddened I am to read of your loss. My thoughts are with you and all of Jackie’s loved ones. *hugs*
Jennifer says:
I am so very sorry, Heather.
Jolene says:
I am so sorry for your loss. Jackie was such an inspiration to us all. My sister’s husband, who has been battling brain cancer since 2007, just stopped treatment and that alone brings on so many tears and so much fear. Although it’s not the same type of love, I know what you’re going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and those who were lucky enough to love her.
Sunny says:
So tragic and hard to comprehend… sending prayers to Heaven for Jackie and to all those who miss her.
Lori McBride says:
I didn’t know her personally, but I feel the weight of her loss as well. That is because she lives in you, and you have allowed us to know her through you. Her light isn’t gone, she lives on in you. Praying for a peace that will overwhelm you as you navigate another difficult road. You have honored her just as you have honored Maddie in the way that you have allowed us to know the light that they had in this world in their all too short time here. ((((((((hugs)))))))
Karen says:
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to all of you who loved Jackie.
Kirsten says:
Oh God Heather…I feel just awful for you all…lots of thoughts and prayers being sent your way. I sincerely hope you find peace in all this somehow!
Michelle Pixie says:
My heart is broken for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss and hoping that one day you will have some peace. XOXOXO
leanne says:
Thinking of you… hugs.
dysfunctional mom says:
So very sorry for your loss.
Becky C says:
I’m so sorry…I wish I knew what to say to ease your pain. I doubt any such words exist. I truly believe she’s in Heaven, holding Maddie and reminding her all about how much her mommy and daddy (andso many others) miss her and telling her all about her baby sister, Annie! The only comforting thing about her passing is that she is no longer in pain and she’s now completely healed…I honestly believe that. You two were so blessed to have each other! Sending lots of love, hugs and prayers for your family and Jackie’s.?
Becky C says:
Dang it…that question mark is supposed to be a heart!:(
Kate says:
So so sorry to hear….You’re in my thoughts.
Maggie says:
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s always hard to find the right words at a time like this. A friend was killed a few weeks ago by a hit & run driver on PCH…like Jackie!, she had an incredible impact on the many, many lives she encountered throughout her own short life. We all took comfort knowing that her spirit will live on and on through those lives she touched.
At the time, this poem seemed so perfect for Erin–and now, from all you’ve written about Jackie! over the years, it seems fitting for her too…I know it won’t remove the pain, but I hope at some point, this helps you find peace knowing that she will always be with you, and more, Maddie has someone to look after her who loves her very much…
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.
Tami says:
Im so sorry for your loss Heather. My thoughts and prayers are with you and her family.
Kathy says:
I am so sorry! She sounds like an amazing person.
pdxhadey says:
Oh, Heather, my heart is breaking for you and everyone who loved Jackie! My deepst sympathies go out to all of you. I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Claire says:
I’m so very sorry for your loss Heather.
Sara says:
I am beyond sorry for you and for the world for losing Jackie too soon. Much love to you, your family, and Jackie’s family.
Allison says:
I’m so, so sorry for your loss.
Amber says:
Heather — I am so, so, so very sorry.
Brooke says:
While my heart hurts for you and the many people that loved Jackie!, I am thankful to hear that she is at peace.
Vicki says:
I’m so sorry ;(
Lisa says:
I knew this post would be coming, but it still hurt so much to read these words today. I am so sorry, Heather and Mike. I’m sorry for the loss of your beloved friend, and I feel for everyone who loves Jackie! and is feeling her loss. From reading your words about her and seeing her photos over the years, it’s clear she’s the kind of person anyone would be thrilled to know and love. Thank you for sharing a little bit of her with us; I hope you feel our love and care in return. (((hugs)))
farrar says:
prayer and hugs
Janette says:
I’m so sorry Heather. Jackie truly was a beautiful soul. My thoughts will be with all of you…
april says:
No words, just hugs and good thoughts to you. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Lucy says:
I’m so sorry for your loss….
Erica says:
Dearest Heather, I am so, so very sorry and so very sad that you have lost your beautiful friend, I’ve been so moved reading your posts about Jackie! What an amazing and inspirational lady and what a special friend to you. My heart breaks for you, Heather. I am honoured to have known about her through your posts and am thinking about you, Mike, your family and her family. Please look after yourself Heather, sending you a big hug from afar xxxxx
Tamela says:
Heather, I am so sorry. My heart just breaks for you and your loss.
Glenda says:
So sorry!!! Thanks for sharing Jackie! With all of us. Her beautiful eyes, smile… her courage and bravery are an inspiration. You will carry her in your heart for a lifetime!!!
Peace, strength and comfort to you, Mike, her family and friends!!!
XO
statia says:
I’m so sorry that you’ve had to deal with this much loss and pain in such a few short years. Friendships like hers are once in a lifetime, and while I’m not religious, I believe that on another plane, she’s with Maddie. Maybe Maddie needed her, because she knows you’ve got other business. Doesn’t make it hurt any less, nor does it make it trite. But I really believe that people are called to leave earth for something bigger. I hope that Jackie! It’s just such a hard concept to grasp that someone is no longer with us.
sherry lanem says:
I’m so sorry Heather… Jackie’s family and yours are in my thoughts. I hope she is up there hugging and loving on Miss Maddie. Xoxoxoxo
Tammy C says:
I’m so sorry to hear this Heather. My condolences to you and the other girlfriends and all of Jackies family.
Carrie says:
Praying for you and for Jackie’s! family.
Angela says:
I am sorry for your loss.
Through your blog, you’ve done your very best to help Jackie’s light shine farther, so that more people know of this wonderful woman and the joy within her.
Kristin (MamaKK922) says:
I am so very sorry for your loss. Jackie! and Maddie will never be forgotten. They will remain in everyone’s hearts. Thank you for sharing Jackie! with all of us, she touched my life and heart, and I will never forget that. You and Jackie!’s family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Erin says:
So, so sorry Heather. I’ve been thinking of Jackie! all weekend, hoping for a miracle. Thinking of you today.
Nicole says:
I am so sorry, Heather. ~hugs~ I am keeping you and Jackie!’s family in my thoughts.
Lindsay says:
Oh Heather, good grief. Her battle is over .. Sigh my deepest, most sincere condolences my dear xo
Jackie says:
So, so sorry for your loss.
Michelle says:
I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending my thoughts and prayers to you and her family.
melissa says:
I am so sorry, My heart truly hurts for you. Hugs
Katrina @ They All Call Me Mom says:
So sad to hear this
Such a loss for those who knew and loved her. I’m sorry.
JustAMom says:
So very, very sorry for your loss, and for her family. How blessed she was to have so much love in her life. How blessed she was to have a bestie like you.
Elizabeth says:
I am so sorry for your loss. Much love to you and to Jackie’s family.
Halyn says:
I’m so sorry…I’ve been dreading this post every time I come to your blog, and now that it’s here…I just feel so awful for you.
Fucking cancer. It’s 2012. Why is this still a thing?
Take care of yourself, Heather.
1coolmom says:
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. There are no words I can say to make you feel better except that I will keep you, Mike, Annie and Jackie’s family and other friends in my prayers. All I can think of is what it must have been like when Jackie got to see Maddie again in Heaven…..
Maura says:
I am so, so sorry for you and all those whose lives she enriched. Such a sad, sad loss of a beautiful soul.
lisa gleeson says:
I am very sorry.
Lisa
Meghan says:
I’m so sorry Heather. Thinking of you and her family and friends.
Wendy says:
There just aren’t words. *HUGS*
April says:
I’m so very sorry. I’m praying for you and for everyone else who will miss Jackie.
Leah says:
I am so very sorry. Praying for your family and hers.
BethRd says:
She sounds like such an amazing person and I’m so sorry you had to lose her. I will be thinking of you.
Betty M says:
I am so sorry. It is 6 years and 2 weeks since my sister’s jus and died from this terrible cancer. I am so sorry that yet another set of family and friends have to beat such a loss.
Jennifer R. says:
Heather,
My deepest condolances on the loss of your dear friend. I hope you find peace and comfort in the days ahead. Know that you are not alone.
LaurieSL says:
I’m so so sorry. I didn’t know Jackie, but her light and amazing smile will live on in my mind because you shared her life with us. Prayers of comfort to you, your family, and Jackie’s family. She will be missed by your online followers.
Magda says:
I’m so sorry heather , I wish this there was something I could say or do take away the pain. Thinking of you always ! Please send my love to the Oswolds .
MECR says:
I am so very sorry for your loss. Many thoughts and prayers to you, your family and to Jackie’s.
Lesa says:
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Rachel W. says:
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
Sarah says:
Heather, Mike and Annie —
Lurker here, just wanted to say your posts about your wonderful friend Jackie inspired me to follow her fight on her Caring Bridge website a year ago. Her life and light jumped off both your page and her blog, and I know it’s only a little glimpse of what she brought to the world in her time here.
It seems Jackie and Maddie had a wonderful bond from the first time Jackie held her. Perhaps they didn’t know it then, but maybe somewhere in their hearts they sensed they would be very special to one another and would end up together watching over you.
My thoughts and prayers and with your family, and hers.
Suzanne L. says:
Words cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. My deepest sympaty.
Jenifer says:
I’m so sorry Heather, Mike and Annie.
Big hugs !!!
A says:
May her soul rest in peace.
Katherine says:
I am so, so sorry.
Liz says:
I am so, so sorry.
xoxo
Michelle H says:
I’m so so sorry Heather. It’s so much for one person to endure.
Kat says:
So sorry Heather…
Melissa says:
I am so very sorry. Hugs and love to you all.
Meg says:
I’m so very, very sorry to read this news — love and light to all of you.
marcia says:
I am so very sorry Heather…I can not even begin to fathom what you must be going through. I only hope that the love & prayers you are receiving from everyone who knows you, both in “real life” and via your blog, will bring you some sort of comfort. I haven’t met you, but think of you every day and send prayers for peace your way. Much love….
Jenna says:
I’m so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and of Jackie! today.
Catherine says:
Jackie and Mike- I have been thinking of you both all weekend. I got the notification from Caring Bridge that she had passed away early Saturday morning. My heart hurt for you and her family. It doesn’t get any easier losing someone (as you know) but over time the pain is manageable. I am thinking of you all and wishing you peace and happiness. Lots of love to you both.
Jill says:
Eternal rest grant unto Jackie!, O Lord, and may perpetual light shine upon her. May she rest in peace.
Jenn says:
Her light will never be extinguished. It lives on the memory of every single person she knew.
I know in my heart that Maddie was there to greet Jackie and I pray that you can get through the next days and weeks by remembering your best times with Jackie!.
Amy says:
I am so sorry.
Audra says:
I’ve been thinking about you, Jackie and her family all weekend. I know you had to get that call yourself, but I wish someone else could have taken the fear and pain of that moment for you. In an essay he wrote about tending to the vicitms of Hurricane Katrina, Abraham Verghese concluded his piece with “sometimes the willingness to be wounded is all we have to give.”. Know that there are people everywhere, even those you haven’t met IRL who wish we could step up and be “wounded “for you and shoulder some of the tremendous hurt that has been put on your shoulders.
Jana (@jana0926) says:
Sending love to you, your family and Jackie!’s family. xoxo
Amanda says:
I am so deeply sorry for the weight on your heart.
Hugs.
annettek says:
I am so terribly sorry. I wish I had other, better words. xo
Ivy says:
I’m so sorry for your loss.
Ashley S says:
I know I’m sorry isn’t enough, but I really truly am Heather. So very sorry.
Miriam says:
I’ll say it, “life isn’t fair and it sucks”
Wishing you and Jackies! family peace and comfort during this time of sorrow.
bethany actually says:
Heather, I’m so very sorry for your loss. You, and Jackie’s other friends and family, have my deepest sympathies. I’ll say a prayer for all of you today.
J+1 says:
I am so sorry for your loss. May her memory be a blessing to you and all who loved her.
Nellie says:
Jackie! is and will always be the essence of all that is beautiful and everything we could only hope to aspire to in this life.
Thank you for sharing with us your beloved and infinite friendship with Jackie through your words and pictures.
I’m sorry never seems to be enough or mean enough but I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this most difficult time in yours and her family’s life!
Josey says:
I’ve been thinking about you, your family, and Jackie’s family since reading her Caringbridge site on Saturday. We are so sorry for your loss, sending you strength, peace, and love. We will hold you up through this pain.
Amanda says:
So very sorry for your loss. Hold onto your love and the wonderful memories. Thinking about you guys.
anymommy says:
I’m so sorry. I truly adored her light and love through your words.
Rita says:
Sending you hugs and lots of love. Hang in there.
Kelly says:
So sorry. I am thinking of you and Jackie!’s family.
Laura says:
I am so, so, sorry. Yours and Jackie!’s family are in my thoughts and prayers. She was so beautiful and her warmth shone through in the posts you and Mike have written, and especially in her pictures.
Warm thoughts from Georgia,
Laura
ldoo says:
I am so sorry, Heather. It’s very clear how much you love your dear friend, a love only true best friends can know. Thinking of you.
tara says:
i am so so so sorry. i don’t have words… but sending hugs and love.
Amelia says:
All my love to you and those who love her.
Cathy says:
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your cherished friend.
xoxo
Lindsay says:
“I’m sorry” just isn’t enough. But I am. So deeply sorry. I ache for you and all those who love Jackie! so much. Given the circumstances, I’m grateful she’s at peace, but so sad and angry that she ever had to fight such a painful battle in the first place. I’ll echo what her dad said on Caringbridge (because he couldn’t have said it any more beautifully): Jackie! did NOT lose the war with cancer because she never let it beat her spirit. I never even met Jackie!, and I am inspired by her zest for life, her infectious smile, her obvious joy and energy and optimism through the very worst that could be thrown at her. Thank you for sharing her with all of us. I am better for having known her. Now, I send prayers and strength to all those she left behind. Again Heather, so incredibly sorry.
Cristy Simpson says:
What a beautiful photo of Jackie. So full of happiness, despite the crap hand of cards she’d been dealt. Sounds like she leaves quite a legacy of memories, friends, and inspiration. I am so sorry for you, your family, and Jackie’s family.
Jessica Makuh says:
I’m sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and her family.
Sara says:
I am so very sorry for your loss. Condolences to Jackie’s family. Cancer is such a bitch.
Zelda says:
I’m so sorry for your loss.
KaraB says:
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s heartbreaking.
Karen says:
So sorry for this terrible, senseless loss. Much love.
Jeanie says:
I’m so very sorry for your pain. God bless Jackie!
Mikia says:
“I am standing upon the seashore.
A ship at my side spreads her white
sails to the morning breeze and starts
for the blue ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength.
I stand and watch her until at length
she hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sea and sky come
to mingle with each other.
Then, someone at my side says;
“There, she is gone!”
“Gone where?”
Gone from my sight. That is all.
She is just as large in mast and hull
and spar as she was when she left my side
and she is just as able to bear her
load of living freight to her destined port.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.
And just at the moment when someone
at my side says, “There, she is gone!”
There are other eyes watching her coming,
and other voices ready to take up the glad
shout;
“Here she comes!”
And that is dying.”
– Henry Van Dyke
Thinking of you all.
Auntie_M says:
That is beautiful. Thank you.
Jessica says:
So sorry to hear. I’m thinking of you, and all of Jackie’s friends and family.
Mommy Boots says:
Hugs and love to you. I am just so sorry. I’ve been thinking about you and Jackie! And her family and even though I’ve never met her, your words have made me feel how loved she was (and is) and how truly special she was. Sending you all lots of hugs.
Kayla says:
Oh god Heather. Jesus, I’m so sorry. So sorry…wish I had something more profound to add, but all I have to give are my tears and unending sympathy at this time of great loss.
Jackie may be gone, but her love and light will never, ever be.
Alison says:
I am so sorry to hear of your loss – your loss and the loss of so many. I’ve been thinking of you.
Maya says:
Heather, I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your beloved Jackie. I’ve only ever had the pleasure of getting to know her through your words, but I can tell that your bond is like the one I have with my friends, that of sisters rather than mere friends. Though her physical presence is gone and leaves a huge gap in your life, she will live on in the hearts of those who love her and your words and pictures. My heart sank when I saw the title of this post pop up in my reader. May her memory be for a blessing, as I already know it will be.
Ryan says:
I am so very sorry for everyone’s loss. I’m praying for you.
Daphne says:
I am so very sorry, Heather.
Jackie!’s beautiful soul has touched me, and so many other people who never knew her in person, and she will never be forgotten. She will live on in the hearts of her family, friends, and strangers.
My heart aches for you and I hope that you can feel all of the love headed your way.
Lainey says:
I really sorry to hear about your loss. My heart and best wishes go out to you and all who were close to Jackie xx
Bec @ Bad Mummy says:
I’m so, so sorry Heather
deanna says:
one of my dearest patients died this morning. id like to think that she and jackie! are having a fabulous time celebrating their awesomeness up in heaven. from all of the wonderful things youve said about jackie! i have a feeling theyre up there getting on swimmingly…
so sorry for your loss. thinking of you and your family during these difficult times.
Melissa says:
Many hugs to you. So sorry for the loss of your dear friend. In time, may the memories of your experiences together bring smiles and laughter. You are lucky to have had a “Jackie!” friend. We should all be so lucky. Those kind of friendships are not easy to come by. I’m sure she inspired many to be that kind of person, and in that way, she will always be here and continue to make a difference in people’s lives.
Celi says:
((hugs))
nicol says:
I’m thinking about you, Mike and everyone who loved your dear dear friend. i’m so damn sorry.
Molly says:
I am so, so sorry. Jackie will be missed and loved forever.
Kim says:
I am so very sorry.
Jackie says:
I am so so sorry for you loss.
Jen says:
Thank you for sharing Jackie! with us….what an incredible spirit she had that will now live on in her family & friends who loved her so very much! Love & prayers for all those who were lucky to know Jackie.
Robyn says:
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Robyn says:
Dearest Heather,
My heart aches hearing this news. The sparkle in Jackie will never truly leave this earth. Her spirit will live on through those whose live she had touched. From reading your blog since 2009, her beauty has always shown through, both inside and out. Jackie, you and your family, her family and friends are in my thoughts. Sending lots or love.
Thank you for sharing Jackie with us all. We can all take something from her pure zest for life and her unwavering love for those dear to her.
Monica says:
I am thinking of you guys as always. Sometimes life just isn’t fair. But know the Jackie! and Maddie are playing together tonight. Hugs to you all!
Carrie says:
I am so sorry for your loss. I hope all her family and friends can find some peace in this impossibly difficult time.
Auntie Mip says:
Remembering Jackie! Remembering Maddie! Remembering your beloved Auntie! I remember them all through your words and photos! I am deeply sorry for this HUGE loss!
Amanda says:
I am so very very sorry. I don’t know what else to say besides I am keeping Jackie!, her friends, and her family in my thoughts.
Stacey says:
I’m so sorry, Heather!
Mommy says:
Love and prayers being sent to all!
Her light will never be extinguished. It will live on forever through her beloved family and friends.
xoxo
Staci says:
my hands sit on keys, but don’t know what to type. i see her face and all i can think is pain-free and smiling forever. love to you.
Ivette says:
Dear Heather- I’m so sorry for the loss of your great friend. It’s so hard to lose a friend, isn’t? A year ago, a friend of mine lost her 9 year battle with cancer, at the age of 23, and I still don’t know how to describe the loss. There are no words that can ever offer enough comfort, no words to describe the devastation, the loss. Cancer sucks. It sucks big time. I wish I could say the right words to make it all better, but I haven’t found them. All I can say is think of the good times, the good memories, the good laughs, which I’m sure you have many. By thinking of the good times, we honor the women who were taken to soon.
-Ivette
neeroc says:
I’m so, so very sorry to hear this news, I know only through your writing how wonderful she was and how much she meant to your family.
Annalien says:
I am so sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you and Jackie’s family. From your photos and accounts of her she was a beautiful person, both inside and out.
MJ says:
I am so sorry, Heather! Hugs and prayers going to all affected by the loss of Jackie, she is truly a beautiful spirit.
Auntie_M says:
Sending you much, much love.
Thank you for introducing Jackie! to us: she has inspired me in many ways, just as you do. While her brilliant eyes and glowing smile may now only live on pictures and memory, they and her indomitable spirit live on thru you and her loved ones.
My love, thoughts, and prayers remain with you, Mike, and Annie, as well as Jackie!’s family.
~Mary
Tina says:
I’m so sorry
Courtney says:
Oh Heather, I’m so sorry. My thoughts are with you during this very difficult time. Jackie! has touched so many people, not only through her own life, but also through your writings here.
Dawn says:
I’m so, so sorry for your loss, Heather.
Nicole says:
I am so sorry. I wish I had any words at all that made sense or that I thought would help. You’re all in my thoughts.
Sarah says:
I’m so sorry Heather. So very sorry. I know nothing can help ease this time, or else we would all be doing it. I guess all we can offer is hugs from far away, and we can say thank you for introducing us to such an amazing woman. She was a joy to read about. Both her, and your and Mike’s friendships with her.
Jill says:
Heather and Mike, I am so sorry. I lost one of my oldest, most wonderful friends on 7/20, and all I can say is that this sucks and I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you.
Susan A says:
My heart breaks over and over for you. I am so so so sorry. You, Jackie!’s family and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Kierstin says:
I have followed your blog for awhile but never have commented. This post has me compelled to write you. I have recently watched a movie called a Little Bit of Heaven with Kate Hudson in it. The plot is a woman diagnosed with colon cancer makes the most of her life that she has left on earth. The ending made me think of Jackie! In the movie the main character loses her battle with cancer but does not want a sad funeral, she wanted a New Orleans type party. So the funeral was full of music, dancing, laughter etc, and you see the main character across the lake dancing right along with the music and her friends. that is how I picture Jackie! dancing right alongside the rest of you while you celebrate the life she lived.
Please know that I am praying for all of you and I can tell what a special person Jackie! is by how you write about her. I am sorry for the loss of such a wonderful person…….
Cherie says:
Heather and Mike,
You have my sympathies. Brain cancer sucks! My father died of brain cancer the same day. Early in the morning on Saturday. He was much older than Jackie, but still too young to die.
Jacquie says:
I know your hurt, your pain, your loss.
I also know the love of a forever friend. Who has been there for always it seems. The person you think back on and go wow!! My Jennifer was that friend. We met in Gr 7 I think it was and 25 years later we were still friends. Gone from this life yes, but never truly gone. 1 year later I still miss her like crazy. I mourn my friend always but she is there. this I do know.
Mourn your Jackie. Remember her always. She is there in a different way now. Smiling down and living a new painfree being.
kandi Ann says:
My heart goes out to you and Jakies family. I will always remember her and I will celebrate her wonderful life each year as we do Maddie. Jackie passed on my birthday just as Maddie passed on my husbands birthday. We have such love for your family and feel connected by numbers iin some way. Praying for all who loved Jackie and Maddie that their light will always shine.
Jill says:
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. I pray that this is the last loss you and your wonderful family have to experience for a long time.
Karen says:
Oh, Heather, I am so sorry for your loss of your friend. I am so sorry.
Tara says:
I’m so sorry to hear this Heather. You’ve all been on my mind and in my prayers. I think your friend Jackie lived her life in a wonderful way and touched so many people. God bless her. It just plain sucks that her life was cut so short (is there any other way to say that? It does. It freaking SUCKS). Hurting with you. I cannot imagine losing my best friend in such a way. ((HUGS))
Expat Mom says:
I’m so sorry.
AmazingGreis says:
I know I only knew Jackie! for a very short time, but I’m so glad to have known her (my birthday twin). My love to you now and always!!!
Susan says:
Heather I am so sorry for your loss.
Lenora says:
I’m so sorry I just saw this news; life has been a jumble but I thought today, I should check in and see how the Spohr’s are doing. I’m so sorry to hear this news. She was a beautiful woman and it sounds like her personality was even more beautiful. I’m so sorry you have to face this but I hope the good memories help balance the bad if only a little bit. My thoughts are with your family and Jackie’s.