Comments on: Thirty

By: Al_Pal

Al_Pal — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 23:00:36 +0000

*sniff*
I also believe that Maddie understands. May the year bring much healing for you.

By: Miss E

Miss E — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 01:18:32 +0000

I still think of you and Maddie everday and send prayers of love and peace.

Happy belated birthday.
.-= Miss E´s last blog ..Happy Birthday, Miss E! =-.

By: Leightongirl

Leightongirl — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 17:18:20 +0000

From one Cancer Mom to another, happy belated birthday. I had a similar experience this year on my birthday, since I couldn’t help but think about last year, when my son was still alive. I wish you peace, and want you to know you are not alone.
.-= Leightongirl´s last blog ..It must be summer =-.

By: maria delgado

maria delgado — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 22:54:42 +0000

I am praying for you.

By: Lynette

Lynette — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 14:22:43 +0000

I really hope that this year is filled with healing and love so that next year at midnight when you say “It’s my birthday” you’re filled with happiness and excitement, and that your memories of your sweet baby don’t cause you pain; just joy of the time you had together.
.-= Lynette´s last blog ..It’s a small, small world =-.

By: qcmama

qcmama — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 12:12:50 +0000

I read your blog everyday and don’t comment often for a couple of reasons. 1. I have no clue what to say because I know nothing I say can make this better. 2. because I figure you have enough to read from everyone else. and 3. I feel guilty. guilty for having my children, guilty for having healthy pregnancies. Guilty that it was you and not me.
I read your blog today and started crying again. You share your birthday with my Madilynn. While I was celebrating my baby’s 1st birthday you were grieving on your 1st birthday without yours. And once again I feel guilty.
I won’t say ‘Happy Birthday’ cause I know how sad you are feeling. I will just tell you that you and Mike and Maddie are in my thoughts and my prayers every single day. Take care of yourselves. Lean on each other. and I will send you a great big midwest (((HUG))) I know it can’t be as good as the real thing but on these days you are feeling ‘hermitish’ it is the best I can do. That and a flight to LA is kinda expensive. Keep writing, keep venting,I will be here to listen
.-= qcmama´s last blog .. =-.

By: Tina

Tina — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 04:55:06 +0000

I wish I could give you a hug.

I wish your pain was gone and your baby wasn’t.

Please God be with you.

By: Kim

Kim — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 03:06:50 +0000

I have lied to people before telling them that I have either 3 children (lie) or that I have a 6, 5, 3, and 10 month old (lie). I always feel so guilty when I say that I have 3 children and leave Emma out. I know that she understands that sometimes it is easier for me to lie than to go into everything with a complete stranger. I am sure Madeline feels the same way.
Be gentle with yourself Mama. This is a very rough road you have been thrown on. Lean on those of us who have been there and have been stumbling along this road for a while.
Much love…

By: dysfunctional mom

dysfunctional mom — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 04:33:58 +0000

It’s ok if you dont want to open yourself up to strangers. And if the way to avoid that is to just simply answer no…I think that’s ok.
.-= dysfunctional mom´s last blog ..Weekend Wrap-Up 6.29.09 =-.

By: Cindy

Cindy — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 02:49:40 +0000

Bless your heart.
.-= Cindy´s last blog ..Strange =-.