Yesterday was slightly better.
I changed my plans for the day, and tried to focus on the good things.
I took lots of naps and got in lots of snuggles with my baby and my dog.
We had tickets to see Paul McCartney at the Hollywood Bowl. I didn’t really want to go…I just wanted to stay huddled on my safe couch under blankets with my snuggle buddies.
But, going to the concert was important to Mike. Plus, he promised there would be some of my favorite thing.
My parents and cousin came over to watch Annabel, and Mike and I had a proper date that even included dinner before the concert.
We tried to talk about adult things, but we mostly talked about our daughters. And then the show started.
It was great. It was McCartney concert number two for me, and the dozenth for Mike (Über Fan). We had a good time. And there were fireworks!
I didn’t sing along to the songs (except for when Sir Paul himself demanded it) so Mike didn’t get mad at me. Mike takes his concerts Very Seriously.
The boy next to me didn’t get the memo that people who sing along are the bane of Mike’s existence. It might make Mike crazy when I sing along, but at least I sing well. Unlike, say, the boy next to me.
As we walked back to our car after the concert, we talked about how we sing Beatles songs to both of our girls. Mike said that he hoped in a few years he’d be carrying a tired Annabel to the car after a concert like this one. And then we were both silent, because we are afraid to hope for those moments. Afraid to discuss a future that we know can change in the blink of an eye.
When we got home, I snuggled back up with my Annabel. The hurt in my past has made me afraid of my future, but I can cuddle with my present and drift into sleep.
VDog says:
Beautiful, honey
Mike is so cute with The Serious!
Kate @ UpsideBackwards says:
Ohmigosh, you two are so cute snuggled up asleep together! So glad you got to enjoy a great night out together. The future is scary, but take it one day at a time and good – even brilliant! – days will come along and you will relish living them together. Love and hugs to you.
.-= Kate @ UpsideBackwards´s last blog ..I wonder what he’d write? =-.
Lynn from For Love or Funny says:
It’s perfectly understandable that given your past, you fear for your future. But I love that you were able to focus on the present. I constantly have to remind myself that the present is all we really have.
.-= Lynn from For Love or Funny´s last blog ..Grandparents are a kid’s best friend =-.
Cilla says:
Hi..I’ve been reading your blog from Singapore. I loved reading about Madeline and the stuff you and her were up to. I especially liked your post about Maddie getting her Mastercard. That big huge “vampire grin” in the last photo of that post is just precious! I’m very sorry for your loss. I just want to say Annabel is beautiful and I hope that in time, the past will not cause you to fear the future but will be something that holds beautiful memories of a beautiful life spent with a beautiful little girl. God bless you all.
the new girl says:
I know I rarely comment but I’m reading. These posts kill me with their raw honesty of what it’s like to be grieving your sweet one while appreciating a new life all at the same time.
Even though it’s not nearly the same (I lost my mom, not my child), it’s like your grief reaches out and into my heart. It touches my grief and sets it alight.
Thinking of you as that dark day approaches and hoping that telling your story and reaching into others’ hearts has eased your grief even some tiny, tiny portion.
.-= the new girl´s last blog ..Things/Folks You Probably Love But I Don’t =-.
amanda says:
My husband is also Very Serious about his concerts (in his case it’s U2). He just stands there, all solemn-like, like we’re in church.
I’m glad you went.
xo from CT,
Amanda
.-= amanda´s last blog ..sleep is for the weak. =-.
Tam says:
The absence of a tiny being, in ones world, is awful. I wish a peace filled, love filled, bright future for your entire family. I cannot begin to imagine, how hard this anniversary will be for you all. Your Love will guide you through, as I hope It will us, when it is our turn, next year. x
.-= Tam´s last blog ..I will not say sorry, =-.
Jenn says:
That is very understandable Heather. I’m glad you went to the concert though. Mike tweeted me and he just sound so thrilled you guys were going. I tweeted you a message to tell you to have fun. I hoped you got it but I also know you, being the amazing person you are, you probably gest a ton of texts, twetts e- mails phone calls. etc. Any ways, I do hope you had fun and for even just for a second, was able to have no worries.
Just keep doing what you are doing to get through “this” Sweetheart b/c you’re doing it….little by little, step by step, snuggle by snuggle you are doing it!
For whatever it’s worth… I want you to know Heather, I am so proud of you and I want to remind you…. with every small step…I am here. With every single tear….I am here and on the days you feel like you’re drowning I will throw out a rope for you to grab onto and it will be my hands that will lift you out of those cold, unrelentless, massive waves b/c that’s what friends are for and b/c, I miss her very much too.
Only just a text. twitt. e-mail, facebook. phone call or even a plane ride away…..and even though I am going through my own fears, hurts and struggles, I will still be here for you and Mike. So as you make your way through your own journey, Please, never ever forget that.
Sorry this is so long…..
With love, support & friendship,
Jenn
Melissa says:
I love when they sleep with a little curled up fist beside their faces. I’m glad you decided to go to the concert, and look forward to hearing how Annabel liked her first one in a few years. And I hope she sings along because, sorry Mike, you just can’t NOT sing along at a concert!
.-= Melissa´s last blog ..A sandwich whose deliciousness trumps the thought of chewing on chipmunk face =-.
mary says:
You will get there!
Katrina says:
The photo of you and Annie napping together is adorable!
.-= Katrina´s last blog ..Happy Birthday, Baby =-.
Jen the Catalyst says:
Not only adorable- but beautiful, soft, gentle, warm, and the embodiment of a mother with her daughter (and probably dreaming of the other).
.-= Jen the Catalyst´s last blog ..Prose, Anyone? =-.
Alexandra :) says:
Heather, I can’t begin to imagine how hard this whole thing is for you. All I can say is that I’m very happy that you have Annie to snuggle up with for the next few days.
Hugs,
Alexandra
Catherine Lucas says:
You got it babe… “The hurt in my past has made me afraid of my future, but I can cuddle with my present and drift into sleep”…
You can cuddle with your present and drift into sleep…
Sadly enough we have no control over hurts in the past and fear for futures… Try to live with your present as much as you can. Try to learn to not be afraid of the future… We have no way of predicting or anticipating a future, you and I and all the people who live with loss know that life is not to be taken for granted…
Try to cuddle your “happy” present whenever you can… even in the hardest moments it’s the only thing to go for…
.-= Catherine Lucas´s last blog ..Lambing time 2010 =-.
Kelly says:
Loving & praying for you even more this month..
.-= Kelly´s last blog ..Everything together =-.
Sue says:
What an absolutely beautiful picture of you & Annabel.
charlane says:
Annie looks a lot like you in this picture, I usually see only how much she looks like Mike, but not in this shot, here she is your twin.
.-= charlane´s last blog ..A few Cake Updates =-.
Tamela says:
I’m glad to hear you went and had a good time. I can’t imagine how hard it must be to hope for the future some days, but my wish for you is that it gets less hard.
On a lighter note, my boys just got their first Paul McCartney concert this past summer at the ripe old ages of 3 and 5. It was an amazing memory we’ll always cherish, and they still talk about it everyday, especially when they have pretend play and they become Paul and George Needless to say, Annabel will LOVE it.
Mary Ann says:
Heather you are so amazing. I don’t know how you managed to get through the past year and a difficult pregnancy dealing with all the pain you went through after losing Maddie. You are an inspiration to me and so many others, who realize that whatever we are going through in our daily lives, things could always be worst. Some days you just need to curl and cry. I’ve had those days after losing people I loved, of course nothing like losing a child, but deep down the feelings are the same. I wish I could crawl through my computer and give you a hug and take away some of the pain. I hope today brings you lots of happiness. Maddie would want that for all of you.
Assertagirl Amy says:
Mike would hate going to a concert with me. I like the singing.
And Beatles songs make the best lullabyes!
.-= Assertagirl Amy´s last blog ..Nate’s bedtime routine. =-.
Ms. Moon says:
Music can and does heal. I have had healings laid upon me by music more than once. Profound healings. I am glad you went to this concert. I am not such a big Paul fan (sorry Mike) but anyone who was a Beatle is, to me, some sort of magical saint in this world. Those boys…
Well.
Perhaps a small bit of fear was washed from you last night. I hope so. And was replaced by the music you will sing to your baby.
Your beautiful baby.
.-= Ms. Moon´s last blog ..Lunacy =-.
Java says:
No one know what the future holds…its scary for all of us. I try not to think about it either. Just enjoy today and smile everytime you get the opportunity to wake up each morning.
.-= Java´s last blog ..Males all around me… =-.
Deborah says:
Love you all.
(((hugs))))
.-= Deborah´s last blog ..Bleeding Heart =-.
Julie says:
Heather,
Thank you, thank you, thank you for your blog and your words. You touch and help so many people. You find a way to put words to my own feelings and I thank you for that. This post, these words, “The hurt in my past has made me afraid of my future, but I can cuddle with my present and drift into sleep.” so beautiful and so true. And today while I am crying so hard for my past and wishing so much I had a time machine…. I needed your words to help me get through the day. And I will try to focus on and cuddle with my present too. Thank you!
Julie.
Jodie Brooks says:
I’m so glad you went to the concert! That picture of Mike makes me laugh!! I’ve never had the pleasure of meeting that type of fan. We have DMB friends and it irritates them if you DON’T sing along! Go figure!!
Thinking of your family always!!! <<<<<>>>>
Delenn says:
We both sing Beatles songs to our children also. They are so timeless.
Living in the moment seems to be all anyone can do. Glad you are.
.-= Delenn´s last blog ..Perfect Moment Monday =-.
Lisa says:
Sounds like you and Mike had a nice time. I’m glad you got to spend some alone time together.
Snuggle that little baby and take baby steps into thinking about her future. I hope one day it won’t hurt so much or be so scary to think of the things you will do with her.
Carrying you, Mike, Annie and Maddie around in my heart this week and always.
Love and hugs.
.-= Lisa´s last blog ..Just Call Me Mrs. Clean =-.
jen says:
That’s a beautiful picture of you and Annie.
Sounds like you had a great time with Mike last night! Did you happen to mention to singing boy that he was annoying your husband?
(((Hugs))) from here!
.-= jen´s last blog ..get up =-.
Jaynah says:
Frequent reader but first time commenter. I lost my dad the first week in April as well and I like to think that maybe he has taken Maddie under his wing as his honorary granddaughter since he didn’t get the chance to meet his. I pray for you guys daily and am so thankful for your ability to use this blog to connect with grieving people everywhere. Annie is precious and I know she will keep you guys going in the coming weeks. *Hugs*
.-= Jaynah´s last blog ..Time for Photos =-.
Nikki says:
One day, one moment, one snuggle at a time – focus on those moments. You can’t change the past nor can you predict the future, but you can certainly cuddle with the present.
Thinking of your family and sending out an extra special wish for you.
XOXO from GA,
Nikki
mel says:
I love that pic of Annie. Looks like her coloring is changing a bit. More like her mama.
Mike it too funny in that pic. I’m glad you guys had a nice time out together.
J+1 says:
Good for you for getting out– I am a believer that music in all forms helps, and heals. Not to mention one-on-one time with your husband.
Take care.
monica says:
sending you a great big bear hug. This may sound so cliche’ but a good saying to remember is don’t borrow worries from tomorrow. As a nurse, I constantly worry about my kids’ health. Sometimes it’s a bad thing knowing too much.
Lovin the pic of you and Annie sleeping. There is nothing like cuddling up and taking a nap with your bubby.
MommaLionessMichele says:
So happy that you went out and you and Mike enjoyed your night. The picture of you and Annie is just gorgeous, and Serious Fan Mike is not to be messed with! I am so sorry you have reason to fear the future. Your Maddie is thought of by me everyday here in NY, as is the rest of your family. Take care.
.-= MommaLionessMichele´s last blog ..3 years ago – Week One =-.
amber says:
Thinking of you guys today. Love and hugs.
Melissa says:
My heart aches for you, thank you for your honesty in the good times and bad.
Enjoy the snuggles, you two look adorable cuddled up together!
.-= Melissa´s last blog ..Cruisin’ =-.
Mary P (Barnmaven) says:
You guys are having a hard time right now, I’m very glad you got the chance to go out and enjoy some adult time together. That last part made me tear up for you. You have already lived through every parent’s worst fear and it makes me horribly sad and also kind of angry at the universe for the impact it has had on your ability to hope and dream for the future.
On a more positive note…Annies cheeks in that pictures? Absolutely eat-worthy!
.-= Mary P (Barnmaven)´s last blog ..Screamfree mornings =-.
Molly says:
I’m glad you guys got a night out. And I can’t wait till you introduce Annabel to a proper concert (it WILL happen)!
I couldn’t tell at first if the picture at the top was Annie or Maddie–they really do look alike!
Natalie @ Hope Springs Eternal says:
Jealous jealous jealous that you got to see Paul McCartney. The Beatles are my #1 Favorite Band Ever. I’d totally sing along at a concert, but I’m like you – I can sing too.
I sing Nellie Beatles songs all the time.
.-= Natalie @ Hope Springs Eternal´s last blog ..When Mommy Met Daddy: Part One =-.
Mary @ Holy Mackerel says:
Lovely post. And I’m jealous. Paul McCartney??!!! Wow.
I can totally relate to the feelings you’re having. Although our son Dain survived his cancer, I still worry that it will return and take him. I don’t think that worry will ever go away, and sometimes it overwhelms me still.
I also sing the Beatles to both kids, and they now love them as well!!
Chrisie says:
It shouldn’t be this way. =(
(((HUGS)))
Marnie :) says:
Hugs to you. Keep cuddling your present, she is a cutie.
MichelleRenee says:
Your writing always makes me appreciate my today. Makes me stop and REALLY look at them, snuggle with the present is my plan for the afternoon.
.-= MichelleRenee´s last blog ..What on EARTH could they be talking bout? =-.
Patti McKenna says:
And you still carry that fear of hope with you into their teens, knowing that anything can change in the blink of an eye. Actually, it’s true for everyone, but it’s parents like us who have lost a child who live with the constant reminder. By the way, that photo of you and Annie sleeping is the first one where I can honestly say like mother, like daughter. Look at the brows, the nose, the upper lip – she looks just like her mommy now!
.-= Patti McKenna´s last blog ..2 Teens, 1 Lost Car & a Demo Crew =-.
Catherine says:
“Cuddling with your present” is a cozy way of saying what the Buddhists call Mindfulness. It’s a great lesson for all of us to appreciate what we have at any given moment. And your Annie sure is a beautiful present. Thinking of you during this especially difficult week. Thank you for sharing Maddie’s big big spirit with all of us – she glows so bright!
Danielle says:
You are an amazing woman! That is all I have to say!
.-= Danielle´s last blog .. =-.
Ashley says:
Good thing we weren’t sitting next to ya’ll! The last concert I went to I’m pretty sure my mom and I were singing along louder than the performer herself. Good thing we think we’re awesome (I have no idea what the rest of the people around us thought).
Glad you had a good snuggle when you got home!
.-= Ashley´s last blog ..Together =-.
Jenn says:
That picture of you and Annabel is just precious. She looks like the happiest little baby in the world, which I’m sure she is Who wouldn’t be with you as their mama.
I don’t have the right words to comfort you and take away the pain..not sure those words even exist. Please just know that I am thinking of you and giving you big virtual hugs!
And Maddie is always in my thoughts and won’t ever be forgotten.
Hugs, Jenn
.-= Jenn´s last blog ..Away =-.
Marti from Michigan says:
I agree with Danielle above, you ARE an amazing woman!! I’m glad you went to the concert too, I love Paul McCartney, though George Harrison was my favorite Beatle.
I’m seeing a lot of Maddie in Annie, which is good. God and Maddie planned Annie for you two, and I’m so glad they did! Mike, you are the absolute BEST husband in all the world, and Heather you are SO lucky and blessed to have him.
I’m praying for a lot of things right now, and for sure I’m praying for the Spohrs.
Today I wish you peace.
Kristin says:
I’m glad you had a good night and I hope the future brings no more heartbreak.
.-= Kristin´s last blog ..The Gnome in the Closet =-.
Jenny says:
Sometimes your words take my breath away. You have a gifted way of describing your heart. Though I don’t know you, my heart both aches and sings for you on a daily basis. Much love, Jenny
.-= Jenny´s last blog ..Choosing to love it =-.
Domestic Extraordinaire says:
(((hugs)))
I can’t wait for the day I read about Annie’s first concert.
xo
.-= Domestic Extraordinaire´s last blog ..A life connected =-.
Megan says:
I hate when the past makes happy present time hurt. I hate smiling then thinking of the past and start to cry. How do you make the fear of the past not screw up what will likely be a happy future? Do you think all us NICU families have PTSD?
.-= Megan´s last blog ..Welker rehabs with a hooker =-.
Alison says:
I am glad you got plenty of snuggles and a fun night out. One day at a time, or, as you so amazingly put it, cuddle with the present.
xoxo
.-= Alison´s last blog ..A List, Because I’m Lazy and on Spring Break =-.
Mary says:
Oh Heather! Your grief & your joy cut to the bone! I don’t think it at all strange that you fear hoping for the future w/Annie. Totally understandable!
Have you ever read any of Gwen Flowers’ poetry? There are 2 poems in particular I think of for you:
GRIEF
I had my own notion of grief.
I thought it was the sad time
That followed the death of someone you love.
And you had to push through it
To get to the other side.
But I’m learning there is no other side.
There is no pushing through.
But rather,
There is absorption.
Adjustment.
Acceptance.
And grief is not something you complete,
But rather, you endure.
Grief is not a task to finish
And move on,
But an element of yourself-
An alteration of your being.
A new way of seeing.
A new definition of self.
And then there is the one that represents your friends & family:
WALK WITH ME
Come, walk with me, my friend,
I’ll hold your hand.
This journey is not one to understand.
There is no sorting out
Chaff from the wheat.
We have to take the bitter with the sweet.
Come, walk with me,
Along the trail of tears.
We’ll share our heartbreak, and our hopes and fears.
This trail is not designed
To walk alone.
But we will make discoveries of our own.
Come, walk with me, my friend,
We’ll share the load
Up every hill and down the rugged road.
No map to show the route
Or tell how far.
No compass points the way, or guiding star.
Come, walk with me,
And I will walk with you.
Perhaps we two will find a better view.
Perhaps the trail,
Though thorny on the feet,
Wll widen for two sorrowed hearts to meet.
Come, walk with me
Through brambled vine and thorn.
Step over stones that leave hearts ripped and torn.
The walk is never easy,
That is true.
But you will walk with me, and I with you.
Walking with you (albeit through cyber-space),
Mary
.-= Mary´s last blog ..Wearing Pink =-.
Laurie says:
I wish I could take your pain away.
Lori says:
I don’t think my comment got posted earlier, sorry if this is a repeat.
I’m a stranger (friend) in a small town in SE Ohio. I have never met you or your husband or either of your children. But your daughter Maddie is forever in my memory. So know that however much time goes by that people worldwide will remember a bright eyed adorable little girl named Maddie.
amy says:
Gorgeous pic of you and your baby.
Nanette says:
Loooove that pic of you and Annie!
So glad you got out to the show. And I’m a big singer at concerts, but only if I can’t be heard by the people around me. (Can’t really sing at concerts like Ray LaMontagne because it gets quiet enough to hear a pin drop.)
Good thing Mike isn’t going to the Glee concert with us. Heh.
.-= Nanette´s last blog ..And you thought all I posted were pics… =-.
Rebecca says:
In that first photo, you look a whole lot like Lorelei Gilmore …from The Gilmore Girls.
Annabelle looks precious.
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..Head Lice………I bet you’re itching right now?! =-.
Amber says:
I’m glad you enjoyed your night out although I know they are different when you are missing someone you hold so close to your heart.
I’ve been following your blog closely because we have a little something in common in that we have both lost a child. Mine at birth and yours much later. They both sting at the most random times.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
Krissa says:
You and Annie look so pretty. … Ok, so I was expecting to see a picture of or post about pie when I clicked on the “favorite thing” link – and yes, I wondered how there was going to be pie at the concert. I remember that post, though. … It looks like the concert was pretty fun and I’m glad you got to go. I’m not always good at coming up with words for the more emotional things I want to say, so I’ll just say that I’m thinking of you guys, reading your words and wish so much that Maddie was still with you. Sending (((hugs))) and good thoughts.
Mama Fuss says:
I LOVE that picture of you and Annie sleeping. Beautiful. She is growing so fast!
Thinking of you as the date creeps closer. And remembering Maddie…
.-= Mama Fuss´s last blog ..10 on Tuesday (but I think it’s Wednesday) =-.
mythoughtsonthat says:
Faith….Hope….Love….Peace.
.-= mythoughtsonthat´s last blog ..Fifty =-.
Dayna says:
it’s okay to hope. sometimes that’s all we’ve got.
Alisha says:
Hi Heather,
I love reading your blog and love what you have to say. You have helped me through the most difficult time of my life. My younger brother passed away a month ago and I am still in a state of shock. Not really moving forward and scared to death of what the future will or will not bring. You give me hope though that you can keep living while still remembering those we love that are gone. I know I will never heal from this and that I will think of my brother everyday. Thank you for sharing your life and showing me that we can go forward no matter how difficult it is. Thank you.
Alisha
Hollee says:
Heather — I read your blog every day and I wish I could do something, anything, to help you through the pain. I know I can’t, though, so I will just let you know that we are reading and sending you positive energy to make it through.
.-= Hollee´s last blog ..Breaking Our Mold: What I Learned Working With My Husband =-.
Kim ~ CraftyMamaof4 says:
oh Heather that last line is so powerful it made me cry and I haven’t stopped yet.
XOXOXOX
~Kim
.-= Kim ~ CraftyMamaof4´s last blog ..Your Shape Chat with Laurel House =-.
Issa says:
Mike would hate me at a concert. Sad. Ha.
.-= Issa´s last blog ..An apology and a thank you =-.
Jenny says:
I love the first picture of you and your girl. It makes me sleepy.
.-= Jenny´s last blog ..A Side of Adversity =-.
Noelle says:
“The hurt in my past has made me afraid of my future, but I can cuddle with my present and drift into sleep.”
I guess that is what they mean by being in the moment…really, truly appreciating what’s in front of you right now, knowing it can all change in the blink of an eye.
Thinking of you always…
Ray says:
I LOVE that photo of you and Annie. MY GOD Heather your daughter is BEAUTIFUL (and so are you and Maddie)!!! You and Mike make such precious baby girls. Photos like that make me want to have children one day when most of the time, I don’t want any.
I am glad you got to get out of the house and enjoy a concert. You need outings like that from time to time.
Take care…always in my prayers.
Kymmi says:
I’ve been thinking about this post all day. I think this is one of the most moving posts I’ve read from you, and that says a lot. You are so honest, brutally so sometimes, and in sharing your broken heart and dreams you broaden my world. I will never understand how you feel – but I do relate to your feelings. I will never forget you sharing the depths of your despair, and not to think that you wouldn’t trade places with someone else – even someone you loved – for one minute just to get Maddie back. So hard to read, but so so true.
It saddens me to hear that you and Mike live in fear of hope – something that keeps so many of us going. But I think I can understand that – however limited my view of your world is. I hope someday that will expand for you, but I imagine it will never be “normal” for you. It will never make sense.
I hope you find some small bit of comfort in the fact that the world was made a better place with Maddie in it – and it changed it forever, for the better. I will never forget her.
Peace to your family,
Kymmi
Katrina says:
I’ve been thinking about this post all day. My first child was brain injured in a car accident just 17 days after her 4th birthday. She came very close to dying, but she pulled through. The accident left her with permanent physical and mental disabilities. It changed the course of her whole life. It was a very real and painful loss for us – brain injuries can change a person completely. It has been 13 years now since her accident, and we still feel the pain of that loss to some degree, some days more than others. We have had more children as the years went on, and no matter how happy life is or how healthy our children are, my husband and I always hold our breath once a child reaches the age of 4 years 17 days. We are reminded, every single time, of what we went through, what happened to our first daughter at that exact hour of her life…and there’s a part of us that will never fully trust that exact age again. Once they are past that age, even if just the next day — we relax. I know how silly this sounds. It is completely illogical, I know. But somehow, it’s true that we feel this way. So I can understand, even if just a little bit, how you and Mike must feel with Annie. I know our situation doesn’t even compare, but there’s just something about a “date” in time, or an “age” in someone’s life that can be so significant and unforgettable, something that had such a painful impact that it changes our life. And there’s a part of us that will always fear it *might happen again. What is it that has been lost? trust? the trust in LIFE and the way it should flow, that is somehow replaced with doubt and skepticism? It’s like sleeping with one eye open, because you just don’t fully trust it anymore. (Ugh. I’m not as good as you when it comes to putting my thoughts down in a way that people can understand, so I hope I even make a little bit of sense with what I’m trying to say here) Anyway, just wanted to tell you that this post touched me today, like so many of your posts have this past year.
.-= Katrina´s last blog ..Happy Birthday, Baby =-.
Deidre says:
Oh my gosh, Mike would hate me at concert’s. I sing, dance and yell and I never sit down. I admit, I go crazy and I can’t stand the people that sit in silence. It revs me up even more.
.-= Deidre´s last blog ..End The Funeral With A Wedding =-.
Shannon Kieta says:
Dearest Heather…
No one can be sure of the future, but one thing is for sure, Annie is a healthy, happy baby. I am sure she will have a lot “Future” for her. Maddie was a different cause. I know we all wanted and hoped for the best. But Annie doesn’t have the problems Maddie had when she was born. Annie isn’t in that “Cautious” bracket. I am not saying not to be careful, just enjoy your daughter. I kow losing Maddie traumatized you, and you have every right to be. But I don’t forsee any of that repeating itself with Annie. Yes, I am a phsychic…LOL! Now, go snuggle w. your baby!
.-= Shannon Kieta´s last blog ..Please Stay Sober =-.
Laurie says:
Annabel is so precious. I love that pic of you and her sleeping. I miss those days with my newborn asleep on my chest.
Aimee Greeblemonkey says:
That first pic is just amazing.
Suze says:
I think you are an amazing women.
emily says:
my husband and i(we are friends of kyle), took our kids to see sir paul on the 30th. it was magical and i look forward to your post when you take little annie to see him…bring lot’s of blankies and a pair of earplugs though, because she might not appreciate those fireworks as much as you do!!!! : )
Dee says:
I came through from UBP10 and saw you last night on a video. Your babe was all cuddled up on your front but your name was not there… I saw that little cuddley thing and totally didn’t pay attention to anything else but her. Annabel! I’m so glad to finally met you both!
Annabel looks like one of our little babies too. So sweet. Everyone should remember to enjoy the present. We’ve not experienced the loss you have. We have experienced the possibility of it too often. Absolutely nothing wrong with waking up in the day and doing all that you can to experience that day with the precious little one in your arms.
Take care!
Al_Pal says:
Awww. So sweet and poignant.