We had a kind of stretched-out Mother’s Day this weekend, thanks to schedules and availability. It was still awesome, though – one of my favorites.

On Mother’s Day morning, my kids and Mike woke me up with gifts and breakfast in bed. Mike put together a delicious salmon omelette (“I cracked the eggs!” Annie said), along with fruit, toast, and coffee. I loved it, but my favorite part was opening presents with my babes.

Mother's Day 2014

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Mother's Day 2014
Dictated by Annie, drawn by Mike

It’s ridiculous how much I love gifts made by my kids. Although, I also like candy, which I received plenty of!

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Annie was happy to help me eat it.

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Those are Annabel Originals hanging on the wall behind me. And, her mouth is full of candy.

I also really wanted frozen yogurt, so we all went to our favorite local place where I got my OWN BOWL OF YOGURT THAT I DIDN’T HAVE TO SHARE. It was pretty amazing. I really wanted one nice picture of me with my kiddos, which…kind of happened. James is very wiggly.

Mother's Day 2014

We celebrated Mother’s Day with the majority of my family on Saturday. Kyle was in NYC for a wedding, on his way to Cannes for the film festival (his life, it is so rough). The rest of us went to Kyle’s boyfriend Sebastian’s Senior Show. Sebastian has been working HARD to get through art school and he’s finally done! I adore him and am so proud of what he accomplished.

the grad!

After the show, we went out to celebrate Mother’s Day. It was nice to have a meal that none of us had to cook or clean up, although it was loud and not exactly restful to deal with two kids at a restaurant! I’m not complaining, though.

I’m always so conflicted on Mother’s Day because I feel Maddie’s absence even more than usual. My first Mother’s Day with her was so great. I’d wanted to be a mom but had never spent much time picturing the smaller moments, so all of those first milestones with her were just so unexpectedly wonderful.

I was determined to get a picture with her smiling.
Exactly six years ago…but it feels like yesterday.

The joy I feel with Annie and James isn’t diminished by tug of grief I feel for Madeline, although the guilt…it’s always there. These days are hard for those of us who grieve, although I am always so thankful for what I have.

Happy Mother’s Day to all of the mothers, and those who love them.