Can I just say that not having a job rocks? I LOVE my life right now. I think that part of the reason I was so unhappy those last few months in New York was because I was SO burned out. Not like I’m some poor, poor thing who needs a vacation, but it is clear to me now that the best thing I have done for myself in a long time is take some time off. I really enjoy getting up early in the morning, checking the job sites, and not having any pressure on me. I have enough money saved up to live on for a bit, so I feel like I have the time to get “un-burned out” and really figure out what I want to do with myself (as if that’s some easy task). So far, the only thing I’ve been able to figure out is what I don’t want.

I’ve been on three job interviews so far. They all came about through former coworkers who passed on my resume. They were the types of jobs that I wouldn’t have normally applied for…so of course, two of them were offered to me. One was offered to me an hour after I returned home from the interview, and the other was offered to me about 8 minutes into the interview. I already turned down the first one, and I am going to turn down the second one at the end of the week. I know that these jobs are NOT for me. I would be miserable at them, and if I’m going to be miserable at a job I might as well temp, right? That would offer me more flexibility and allow me to still figure out what I want. I keep telling myself these things…yet, I still feel bad. I feel like I’m looking a gift horse in the mouth here, that the interviews and job offers are not going to come as easily in the future and I should have taken one of these jobs. I just have to keep reminding myself that I left an unhappy job situation so that I could find something great and amazing and perfect. Or, at the very least, so I could find something on the PATH to something great and amazing and perfect. So, I am going to turn down the latest job offer and I am going to force myself to not feel bad about it.

Besides interviews and job searching, I have been keeping VERY busy. I have been seeing my friends like crazy. Two weekends ago I went up to wine country with Brianne and the other lovely ladies in her wedding. We had a blast going to all the wineries and hanging out. This past weekend Mike and I had a party for the Super Bowl. In the week between, I went down to Hermosa and up to my hometown and I met up with a couple of my New York friends who have also recently moved out here. The last week and a half has really reminded me how lucky I am. I am SO HAPPY to be surrounded by people who really know me and have missed hanging out with me, not to mention being close to my family again. Of course, there are a few key people I miss back in NYC (Jordana, Leigh, Walshy), but I know they are happy for my happiness. And jealous of the fact that I get to sit in my pajamas all day if I want to while I job search!

Tomorrow, Mike has told me that he has an early Valentine surprise for me. We have an appointment tomorrow somewhere at 2! I am excited, I can’t wait to find out what he has in store.