Music Is What Feelings Sound Like

September 18, 2009

We have a lot of short clips of Maddie (although not enough. Never enough), but there is one that stands out to me as one of my absolute favorites. Mike and I love music, and we were so thrilled when our Madeline not only showed an appreciation for music, but an aptitude for it as [...]

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Days Like These

September 17, 2009

Heather isn’t feeling so well tonight – neither physically nor mentally – so I told her I would write for her. Expecting a child after what happened to Maddie has been a positive thing as it has given us a future to move toward when we no longer could imagine one. But, as much as [...]

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Not So Simple

September 16, 2009

I knew I was probably jinxing things last week when I wrote about feeling good. The last few days have been especially brutal in the nausea department. I’ve been waking with massive nausea and if I can’t stay ahead of it with my Zofran, the nausea rarely gets better. At my appointment today with Dr. [...]

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Shared Toys

September 15, 2009

From my very first ultrasound with Madeline we knew there were problems. Being somewhat superstitious, I was afraid to buy anything for the baby. That didn’t stop me from going to the baby stores, though. I spent many lunch hours browsing racks of baby clothes – never touching anything – until I came upon the [...]

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Different

September 14, 2009

When I was ten or so my cousin died in a scuba diving accident in Australia. I remember going to my aunt’s house and seeing a cardboard package sitting on the counter that the mailman had just delivered from the Australian government. It held my cousin’s remains. As I looked at it I couldn’t imagine what it must have been like for my [...]

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Green Eyed

September 14, 2009

I remember after Maddie was born, I had to go shopping to get clothes that fit and supplies to help me pump and store my breast milk. At the maternity store I saw two women giggling excitedly over belly panel jeans and tiny onesies. At the baby supplies store there were women with freshly born [...]

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