Shrunk

May 21, 2009

Mike and I have been in therapy for a few weeks now. It’s not something I really wanted to do. I’ve always resisted therapy. First, it’s because I grew up in LA, where everyone has a friggin shrink, and I just hate being like everyone else. Second because I think I’m very impatient and therapy [...]

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Update

May 19, 2009

Hi Everyone, A great many people expressed worry and concern for me since reading Heather’s post, “Pieces,” so I decided to write a quick explanation of what happened to me. Last Thursday I went back to work for the first time since Maddie passed. In the back of my mind I feared it was too [...]

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From Mike

May 19, 2009

Hi Everyone, A great many people expressed worry and concern for me since reading Heather’s post, “Pieces,” so I decided to write a quick explanation of what happened to me. Last Thursday I went back to work for the first time since Maddie passed. In the back of my mind I feared it was too [...]

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Pieces

May 17, 2009

Sometimes it all is just too much to bear. Mike went back to work on Thursday. It was hard for him to get out of bed. It was hard for him to drive to work. And then it took him two hours to get out of the car and walk into the building. He came [...]

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Ghosts

May 14, 2009

I really just expect her to be in the next room. I watch videos of her, and she is so full of life and personality that it just isn’t possible that she isn’t here anymore. She MUST just be in the next room with Mike, right? Earlier today, I went into the bathroom. Before I [...]

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Five Weeks

May 13, 2009

Her room is cleaner now than it was before. Maddie and I shared a closet, and I was in the middle of cleaning it out when she got sick. My clothes and her clothes were in piles on one side of the room. The other side was full of her toys. The day before she [...]

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